i am the future canadian...

In 2009, I lost my paternal grandmother to lung cancer, and in October of 2014, my maternal grandmother died from an illness my mom, aunt, and uncles won’t discuss.  In March of this year, my aunt passed away from a chronic lung issue she’s had since childhood.  She was just a MONTH shy of her fiftieth birthday.  

Then, a few weeks ago, my mom was diagnosed with Stage IV renal cancer.  She had an emergency, and her doctors discovered that in addition to that, she also has stage IV lung cancer.  

I know this is going to sound selfish, but the four women who most shaped the man I am are either gone or about to be, and I’m not sure I can handle it.  I can’t post it on Facebook because Mom and I are friends, and I know it would upset her if I said anything there.  I can’t handle this, though.  This is just too much.  Can someone please tell what the hell Im supposed to do?  Who am I supposed ot turn to?  THese women gave me life, and it’s making me sick just thinking that they will soon be starting their next lives.

I’m sorry. I just needed to get this off my chest before I went crazy!