The End

They are so powerfully emotional that I have to get up and walk away. Breathe.

This world that we live in is so fucked up.

From how we treat each other to how we treat our environment. All of it. Human beings, we suck at everything. We corrupt everything we touch.

Our very survival, just like that of every other species, is predicated on sources of food, water and shelter. That’s it. All of which have an uncertain future regardless of what we do now and to be honest it just makes me really sad when people don’t see, or worse, make fun of my fears 😢

Our very survival, just like that of every other species, is predicated on sources of food, water and shelter. That’s it. All of which have an uncertain future regardless of what we do now and to be honest it just makes me really sad when people don’t see, or worse, make fun of my fears 😢

So I was invited to a clients Christmas dinner last night, and they are nice enough people don’t get me wrong, but they are such selfish idiots.

The director of the company actually said, in a jokey tone but with no hint of this not being his actual opinion, ‘according to top gear the weather in Britain will be more like the south of France over the next 50 years which is alright with me I’ll be long gone by the time that’s over it’s your problem. Well it will be your problem I drive a 6 litre!’

Now, how awful is that to say to someone. Someone who, according to that prediction, it will be their problem and he has no hesitation of telling them, TO THEIR FACE, that he is going to unashamedly continue to contribute to the cause of it.

Ignoring the fact he is citeing a douchey, idiotic car program (which I will admit have enjoyed in the past and has its place as entertainment) as his source of information, he is clearly ignorant of what the consequences of climate change actually are and that he is not safe from them. He doesn’t realise the ‘problem’ we are going to have to overcome is a lack of food, water and shelter. The consequence for not overcoming these by the way is death. This man has many grandchildren. Does he not see how they will suffer? For my own sanity I have to believe that he just doesn’t know and its not that he is a sociopath.

As the evening went on it was evident that no one at the table was even a little bit concerned that the future might be difficult. They talked about their next foreign holiday, football transfers, sales they need to make next year, buying plastic disposable cutlery so it doesn’t matter if their kids accidentally throw tea spoons away!

They moaned about how long it took their drinks to turn up and how small the lobster was. They commented on petrol prices as if the petrol stations were criminally over charging them.

I didn’t say anything. I couldn’t. I was being treated to a free meal at their expense. And there is no way to explain in only a few hours over dinner, to people who are so evidently uninterested, the conclusions I have come to after all my reading and thinking on the subject. How what they think and how they behave is so wrong.

So I sat in silence and patiently waited for the end of the evening. Staring out the window of the taxi I thought about how these people were in the majority and was again reminded how screwed we all are. With people like this at the helm, the ones with the money, the ones with the only real power in this capitalist cage we have built for ourselves, nothing is going to get done. We will all suffer the consequences of climate change. Good or evil. Rich or poor.

Sometimes I think it’s because people don’t think about the consequences

Sometimes I think it’s because people don’t care

Sometimes I think it’s because people are truly still ignorant about what is happening in the world

But what I think it must be, is it’s just too big an issue for most people to truly comprehend. Even I struggle to see the entire picture at once.

Iv been thinking about trying to map it out in a spider diagram or something. All the different ways the human race (and most every other living thing) is totally fucked.

Most people don’t want to think about it. I get it, it’s scary and people instinctively don’t follow that train of thought very far. They make light of it or bush the topic aside. It’s as if their subconscious is protecting them from the helpless I feel every time I’m reminded that we can’t have long left.

Every time I see rubbish on the streets, all the plastic in the super markets, the unsettlingly warm weather, the guilt when I fill my car. Every day I fight the constant oppression of knowing that realistically there is no way to change what’s going to happen. Every day I carry the weight of thinking about how I might try to navigate and survive the soon to be rapid onset of societal collapse.

Every time I see a young child or I hear someone has had a baby I’m hit with this horrible mixed emotion, you can’t not be happy for the parents but... there’s this shading of sadness that there is just no future for them. Not for any of us.

It can’t be scaremongering if it’s true right? If it’s going to end badly it will end badly regardless of how much you try to ignore it.

So is it not better to imbrace the truth? Prepare for what will happen rather than what we would like to happen?

The future is under no obligation to be better than the past.