fasting my way to my ugw

Hi again, y'all. I'm back. It's been hell of a two months. Lost my job (too many people hired), had to borrow money from family to pay rent, started headdiving into a depressive episode.

But I'm back on track. No idea what I weigh cause the scale at home either shows error or a weight of 75 kg, which cannot be true. But I did fit in a blouse that fit me before I got fat because of my former medicine. Muscle loss in arms and shoulders? Actual fat loss? Who knows.

Currently doing a 36 hr fast - I'll see whether I actually complete it.

Resolutions for this year are:

* continue my fasting routine. Avoid refined sugar and sweeteners like the devil.

* get into lifting again. FUCK I miss being strong and feeling badass and challenging myself and not being a weakass broad who constantly has some weird aches in her body.

*maybe eventually get back into martial arts which I also miss terribly

* continue doing yoga.

*get into some sort of cardio activity that also improves feeling of rhythm and coordination. Dancing? Rope jumping?

* practice self-parenting and self-nurturing skills. This means doing my best to make myself feel better when I'm sad, angry, anxious or else, instead of making myself feel worse, but also involves making myself do things that are good for me in the long run and that are aligned with my future goals, but aren't exciting to do, or feel overwhelming.

*work further on my drawing skills.

You think you can do it but your chances are improbable

hello fellow weightloss hoes

as the title states, i will be gone from tumblr this week. my best friend has come to visit me from overseas and she is staying for a week. as y’all may or may not know, i’m a med student, which means i will be extremely busy between hanging out with her (and my bf who’s coming tomorrow) and trying to squeeze in as much studying as possible. which means i will be deleting the tumblr app and blocking the tumblr website for this week as i need 2 keep my productivity 2 a maximum, and god knows that one of my fav pastimes is scrolling thru this blue hellsite.

i’ve finished my weekly 36 hrs fast, and i intend to keep on intermittenly fasting (14-20 hrs) and maybe even throw in 1 24 hr fast as is my routine. talk to y’all later. stay hydrated, stay safe, and stay content. don’t forget to be moderate with y’alls weightloss efforts, enjoy the good stuff in y’alls lives and work hard towards y’alls non weightloss goals.

Today I out on my most hated pair of sweatpants because I was in a hurry to go to the store, and surprise surprise....they fit. They used to be so tight around my ass and hips that the crotch would be like way below my actual crotch.

A nice feeling because that means I'm not gaining, but also bittersweet, because they fit me the same way almost a year ago, before months of taking an antipsychotic, which never even was reasonable to prescribe to me in the first place, ducked up my weight and made me gain 10.fucking.kilograms even though I didn't really alter my diet or drop my exercise levels.

Ok, so I caved in and had a free dinner on the house since that's part of the employee package. I got 2 small pieces of breaded chicken (not greasy at all), a soup ladle full of some beef/veggie sauce and about 10 pieces of sushi. Broke my fast at 32 out of 72 hrs. NOT proud of myself.

But I'm thinking, maybe instead of working against it, just work with it? Like, free food (within reason and good manners obvs) as a part of employment is a huge privilege. I already know I won't be able to completely refuse it, so maybe I could have the dinner as the only meal I eat in a day? That way, I could fast for 24 hrs or slightly more between shifts. There's plenty of food to choose from, including a salad bar, so I can tiptoe around the high carb and highly refined foods. I could save money and maybe continue losing weight, until I get so accustomed to the food being there that I at one point will be able to say no thank you.

At any point, the job seems manageable and I would love to be employed past the trial period.

So, guys, I'm off to my first shift as a waitress at my new job in 15 minutes...I've never been a waitress before, so I'm feeling pretty nervous. I've watched a couple videos online, tried to memorize the menu, read some tips online and read thru my workplace's handbook for servers + practiced walking around with a tray with stuff on it. I feel I've prepared.

I'm on the 28th hour of my 72 hour fast so far. I have drunk some saltwater and coffee. Hopefully everything goes well. I'm skipping the free work dinner and just working thru it. Hopefully some low intensity walking for four hours will help my body optimise its ketosis a little faster.

Hey y'all, I'm so relieved...I'm finally starting work tomorrow, after waiting for a month or so. I'll be working as a waitress! I'm a little stoked, but also nervous; I've never waitressed before, and I'm anxious I will fuck up on day one.

However, that aside, a question for you anas who either currently work as a waitress or have done that in the past:

What was it like to be around food while fasting? Did it make fasting a lot harder? Is there something I should be especially aware of while fasting at my waiter job??

Fasted for 16 hrs

1 bowl of overnight chia/oats on fullfat milk, with half a cut up apple and 5-6 strawberries, walnuts, unsweetened cocoa powder, cottage cheese. No added sugar.

1 bowl of homemade chicken broth with chicken meat and cut up root veggies.

1 cup of coffee with fullfat milk.

Started my 72 hrs fast at 12 PM. Fasting until 12 PM Thursday.

Fasted for 20 hrs until 12:07 PM

1 pizza (fit on a plate)

6 strawberries and half of an apple in whipped cream, no added sugar, a couple walnuts

2 medium bowls of homemade chicken broth with veggies and chicken meat

1 cup of coffee with around 2-3 tablespoons cream

For the first time since...uh, many months, I think?

Tbh, it was a pizza lunch with my fellow study group mates, and everyone else ate a whole pizza, whether they were skinny or not. I'm not ecstatic about it, but it's not the end of my world. The pizzeria didn't offer slices, and I seriously have too many

issues in my life rn to be spending energy on being a party pooper by not eating anything at a social gathering.

What surprised me is that after I was done, I didn't crave any more junk food. In the past, eating junk food meant that I would be struggling with binge urges for hours or even days after. Like, I ate it, and then just went on with my life. It's funny because after having followed a fasting regimen coupled with a mix of paleo/low carb lifestyle with the occasional junk food or high carb food, I just don't like carby, refined foods the way I used to before. They just don't give me the same satiety, and the same satisfaction, as real foods do.

Fasted for 16 hrs instead of the intended 20 hrs

Ate:

1 bowl of overnight chia and oats in fullfat milk with half an apple, 1 plum, some walnuts, unsweetened cocoa powder and 4% fat cottage cheese

1 cup of coffee with some cream + some more walnuts, a snack in the form of a couple spoons cottage cheese with some milk and quarter of an apple

1 bowl of homemade chicken broth with chicken meet and cooked root veggies