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the school trip you’ve been anticipating is finally here. ⟢ part 1

you can’t help but feel all giddy getting on the train, your smile proudly showing all thirty-two of your teeth. you don’t waste a second to get to the window seat.

it takes about 4 hours to get to the destination, so of course you brought your snacks, blanket, and ipad with you. you couldn’t care less for who you were gonna be seated with—this is a perfect opportunity for some alone time.

what you didn’t expect is that the itoshi rin would be the one sitting next to you. oh my gosh. okay. great… now how would you get some alone time without getting distracted by his presence?

suddenly you’re aware of whatever you’re doing—every little movement you make has you wondering, “what if he thinks i’m weird?”

but let’s be honest, he doesn’t care and probably won’t even look your way. somehow that’s even worse than him seeing the chinese guys dancing on your own for you page. (ifykyk)

embarrassment is just a concept anyway. and so what if the guy you’ve been admiring for years thinks you’re a bit strange?

it’s been 2 hours. you’ve eaten every single snack you packed while binge watching a 12-episode series. yes, you’ve also already taken a bunch of pictures of the beautiful sceneries by the window. how come you’ve already run out of activities to do?

although you do feel a bit tired, hence why sleeping sounds real nice right now. just the right temperature of coldness lures you into dozing off.

you let yourself drift away from any more thoughts that’ll consume your head, pulling your blanket up higher to your body for warmth, before finally shutting your eyes.

you wake up and open your eyes, slowly gaining consciousness of where your head is comfortably laying on. uh oh. you let your guard down for a few hours and something embarrassing already happens.

that doesn’t seem to be all. you feel something heavy weighing your head down from the side.

…seems like rin’s leaning on you, too.

raising your head slightly to look at him, you were taken aback by how he’s also sleeping—peacefully, even. damn. this is 100x better than what you had wished for to happen.

“mm..”

oops. the shift in your position must’ve woken him up a bit. still asleep though.

how did he even end up like this?

is he okay with this??? am i dreaming???

your heart is racing so fast you swear it’s jumping out of your body with every beat.

you stare for a little longer, admiring his features. noticing how close you two are, you take in the fact that you can feel each slow rise of his steady breathing, in and out. because really, when are you gonna have another chance like this again?

the rin you know usually has a scowl on his face, scrunched eyebrows paired with his sharp, piercing gaze, all the time.

but now, without those creases on his face? he looks even more mesmerizing, like he fell from heaven twice.

if only you could stay like this forever. however, all good things come to an end. you wouldn’t wanna be called a creep. if his fans saw this, you would have never seen the light of day ever again.

and so you finally retract your head from his shoulders, slowly, afraid that you’ll wake him up. you take one glance at him—good, he’s still deep asleep.

oh the price you would pay to wake up to this everyday…

you’ve got a little crush on itoshi rin.

to be honest, who doesn’t? almost all of the students adore him, even the most popular ones in your school, mostly because of his charming looks and breathtaking soccer skills.

you weren’t any special or different from your schoolmates. so you never really stood a chance with him… or so you thought?

after thinking for a while, no, you really did not stand a chance.

the first interaction you ever had with itoshi rin is when you were in the library. you were reaching for a book that was (un)fortunately on the highest shelf possible. who even approved of this?

looking around for any help, you spot rin on a table near you, with some of his friends. you remember that he’s incrediblyyy tall. great timing. now’s your chance, Y/N!

you suddenly straighten your posture. “rin, you’re tall, right?” he averts his gaze from his laptop to you. “could you help me get a book up there?” you point up there on the shelf.

he hums. you assume that’s a yes since he gets out of his seat and walks toward you. he’s so close that you could smell his perfume. though not too close, of course. he knows his boundaries.

right when he was about to reach for it—

some random boy does it for you instead. “here it is!”

oh wow, he looks like a creep… “oh…yeah…thanks…” you take it from his hands.

this isn’t even the right book???

“the names nendou by the way, here’s my number call me if you ever need help again!” he gives you a thumbs up and a crumpled up paper with bubblegum stuck to it before running away. umm, okay, it says:

“this was a dare given by one of my buddies! here is my number anyway: xxxx-xxxx-xxxx ;)”

you tried so hard to keep your composure. why right now out of all times?

you look over to rin, only to see that he’s back in his seat doing his work. with airpods in this time. that’s kinda offending, you think. he better be thankful he’s sooo hot and all.

what a missed opportunity. you can’t help but feel so embarrassed when you weren’t even the one who embarrassed yourself.

maybe next time you’ll get his attention…….. and not some rando………….