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They said no one deserve this, but why, why are people so apathetic towards one another?

GOOD NIGHT and.. welcome back to my diary!

I have so many questions inside my head that I couldn’t even answer them by myself. Been here since the first time and had no idea what to do next since I don’t even think to stop it. I can’t handle my mood swings sometimes, I can’t even think clearly sometimes, I just.. do anything that my brain told me to but I think I did something wrong this time, no? Yes I think I did and still.. I don’t know what to do now.. My childish side really destroys everything sometimes, that’s the side of me that I have to fix; think clearly first about what I will say to others before saying it. To be honest, I often regret what I said but I can’t change it anymore, I often did something that could embarrass me and regret it later. I have so many things in my head that I cannot control sometimes. Now that I feel like people moving far away from me, I regret everything. Like, am I doing something wrong? Is there something wrong with me? What did I just do? Then what now? I was too upset with myself in many ways yet I wish to know the reason soon but still, I can do nothing, it’s their choice and that’s okay.

Hi I’m coming again this time, I can’t sleep, still. I was lie back on my bed and literally did nothing now but then this thought bothered me, so deceived that I drifted and dissolved in my own emotions, I feel sad now. Nope, I’m not blaming nor pointing at anyone here, purely because I feel that as the night goes on, my brain wanders into things that I shouldn’t think about. What should I do? I can’t even sleep now.. am I jealous? envy? Yes, I admit I do. And I don’t like this unpleasant feeling ruining my mood especially to know that I can’t even voice it directly. Oh I worry any of my friends would read this but I’m okay! It’s just my midnight thoughts. It’ll automatically changed when the morning comes so there is nothing to be worried about ya.

Halo, sekarang masih sekitar jam 3 sore, iya aku tau, gak sore-sore banget, tapi gak siang juga. Biasanya aku nulis disini malam deh tapi gak tau kenapa pengen aja sekarang, hehehe, mau tulis salah satu hal yang bikin aku banyak senyum akhir-akhir ini.. sebenernya supaya nggak lupa aja sih. Oke, welcome december! Hal pertama yang bikin aku senyum terus akhir-akhir ini adalah karena dua hari yang lalu adalah ulang tahunku, ihiee, happy belated birthday to myself! Aku seneng banget, bisa rayain ulangtahun bareng orang-orang baik disekitarku, nothing’s too special actually, tapi mau cerita kalau tepat di hari ulang tahunku, aku nonton NCT Dream The Movie: In A Dream bareng temen-temenku, tapi di anter dan ditungguin ayah! makan bareng ayahku, dan dapet banyak banget birthday wishes dari temen-temen online. I was just too happy and i will remember this time forever! Talking about NCT Dream The Movie, aku enjoy dan happy banget selama nonton, nyanyi bareng, terharu bareng, ketawa bareng—basically seru-seruan bareng sama semua sijeuni di studio 3 waktu itu (semoga bisa ketemu Dreamies in person sooner) hu… pengen banget deh rasanya peluk Dreamies satu persatu terus bilang, thank you for working hard and being there to each others, guys. please, stay longer..

Another day, another thoughts. Here I am again, listening to my favorite music, I played it randomly, and I just.. this thought just popped up in my mind, right now. Well, you know. I’ve been putting my eyes onto someone romantically at the moment but the ‘moment’ seems like not right for me to have this feeling towards him, but I’ll keep it to myself anyway. Every time I see him wandering around, laughing, or just casually talking with his friends or stranger, I feel the happy.. I don’t know what’s this, but, all I want is just to see him happy because he deserves it! and I’ll never get tired to tell you guys how precious he is to me eventho we don’t talk that much these days.. well.. that’s alright.. as long as I can still see him around me.. that’s okayyyyyy!!!!! I’ve also experienced that before. ( iykyk )