Midnight Rambles

The light in her eyes has gone. 

Once upon a time, she looked at me with light in her eyes and smiled. 

Now, the light in your eyes is gone. 

I would tell her of my life, and she would tell me stories of her children and laugh with me and then tell me she loves me. 

She’s like a mother to me. 

But now the light in her eyes has gone.

Her light has faded and all I can see is but a…

You already know who Arthur Fleck is

How we as a society created Joker

The other day I finally had the chance to sit down and watch the movie the joker. I’ve been waiting to be able to actually have the time to sit down and watch this movie. So I was really grateful to finally not be working, or something, and able to sit down and watch this movie, but I knew it was going to hit me in a very real way. And it definitely did. The…

What Mister Rogers taught me

Dear Mister Rogers: 

There are very few television shows that stick out in my mind from my childhood.Growing up with the type of parents that I had, and a Latino home, meant that I really wasn’t able to watch the type of television or the hours of television that other children were allowed to. So the few shows that I did watch, we’re very important to me. 

Often, I was competing with my…

We all have that mountain to climb. That sea we must cross, knowing that on the other side, there is something greater waiting for us. 

In the Bible, god helped Moses cross the Red Sea. Moses waved I’m his staff and the sea was parted in two, allowing his people to cross the sea without trouble. 

Sometimes, all we need is a bit of faith. Just…leap. 

This is what this painting is about.…

New Poem: On the Dark Side of the Moon

Watercolor on paper. Contact me to purchase.

On the Dark Side of The Moon

On the dark land of the moon 

Therein lies my spirit 

My essence is there 

Find me where the moon dwells 

Look for me 

Seek me 

Offer me words and pretty things

And as does the moon

I shall illuminate the darkness within you 

Do not leave me standing in the doorway 

I shall not wrap the…

I am that: I am.

I am. Watercolor on paper. Contact me to purchase. Must I? Watercolor on paper.

What I am now Is not what I was Who I am now Is not who I once was The Girl who hung her head in shame and Dared not tell others she Sees the dead and collects tarot cards and owl figurines The girl who dared not be herself The girl who tried to gain approval, No. I am not that girl who needs you to…

Sometimes our bad choices are based on impulse, based on a lack of sobriety, based on friendships we may have. It reminds me of an old TV show are used to watch it was a very sarcastic clown and at the end of each “lesson “he would say “what have you learned your children?“

The queen. Watercolor on paper. DM me to purchase.

I think sometimes we look for a lesson in the midst of the…

To be worried about rainbows

You have to kill who you were born to be to be who you want to be. 

But why is it that often, this is exactly what we do not do? All of my life I thought who I truly am. My entire life, I’ve fought simply to attempt to become that which pleased those around me. 

I think I just wanted to be accepted. I did not want to be what I already knew I was. 

There comes a time tho, that one must…

So today I thought I would show you some new watercolor paintings I’ve just finished. I’m unsure if I told you or not, but I have decided to work on a full set of tarot card paintings in watercolors.

This is mostly because I want to challenge myself and practice art a bit more. At any rate, here’s the paintings I’ve finished so far, in the series.

The Hermit

The hermit Represents the…

Simple Peace Sign Earrings Tutorial

I made a pair of earrings for myself and I thought I’d show them off to you, and provide a little video of how I made them.

They are smaller than what I normally wear or make, but sometimes you need a more simple pair of earrings.

Here’s the video:

On Adulthood, Addiction, and What a friend is.

Is happiness something to be achieved or is it something that we choose to have no matter what our circumstances? 

And if life is shitty, does it mean we’ve failed? 

A former friend wrote something as her status update on Facebook, that has left me in a bit of a quandary. She said that persons who are older than their 20s and 30s basically should not fail in life or deal with addiction, and…

On Responsibility, and a new video

There seems to be confusion as to what is my responsibility, and what it means to be a good friend. So let me spell it out for you:

My life, my children, my cat, and my partner- these are my responsibilities. But YOUR life, is not.

I try to help. I do. But sometimes I cannot, and it is not my job to rescue anyone. I can try to, but if I cannot, or I fail at it, be grateful I gave a shit…

Power, Emotions and Colorful Accessories

Why is it that the most powerful ones on the earth are always the ones that get overlooked? Why is it that the ones who are the strongest always suffer the most? Do universe or society likes to label certain types of people in certain types of ways. And often, the one that is labeled as weak, is the one most emotionally vulnerable. 

This person who is brave enough to show emotion, to show an…

On making needs known, and a new video

Sometimes you don’t have any more fight left in you. Sometimes you don’t have anymore left to try or to give. Sometimes you feel so wasted from trying I’m trying to change, from trying to be the right person and trying to do everything that is required of you and sometimes you just want to give up. Sometimes there’s just nothing left in you. Perhaps the right person would not require us to…

Unique Fiber art Earrings

These beautiful earrings are limited edition and each of them are one of kind.

  Handmade and absolutely stunning.

These are made with wire and fabric that is hand cut and layered over wire to create this unique look.

Upon purchase, please note which color you’d like.

On Doing Nothing, and a new video

Some days it is okay to not be productive. Some days you will hurt and it is okay to not be productive. It is okay that you hurt so badly that you just need to rest. That is okay, I promise you. 

I know things are challenging right now and life is anything but worthy of a smile, but maybe things will get better. 

Maybe, this too shall pass. Maybe. 

But right now, it is okay to be sad. It…

On Fuck Ups, self love and a new video

Every now and again you’ll turn on the radio and a song will come on that reminds you of someone you used to love. 

Every now and again this song plays on the radio, and even if you don’t have any more emotion, and even if you don’t feel anything anymore, this song will conjure memories of feelings you once had. Every once in a while. And every once in a while, you begin to wonder how you got…