The City Inside

I always hear the saying it's okay to not be okay and I've never thought much about it until recently where I'm starting to realize I am so far from okay and trying to figure out how to be okay with that or reach out in any way is getting increasingly hard. I am not going off the deep end or anything crazy but it's getting so hard to deal with loss, and being stuck in a routine and the fact that I have no one around to even explain that I'm not in a good mental place and that alone seems crazy.I don't know where to pin point what's went wrong over the years but lately I feel so out of place and overlooked by people that I just want to close myself off more. Things I once found love in make me mad. I need a break, I need anything to get me out of my own head and I'm trying so hard to not turn to my vices and be a better person. Today is just a hard day and I'm trying to figure out how to be okay with it.

Probably the last show my band will play. This song is called the believed motive.

This band is the shit

Klamath national forest gap fire 2016

People when everyone that ever claimed to stick around ended up leaving in some way or another

It makes me happy to see people still sharing some of the songs I've posted on here. With that being said I've been relentlessly writing in the mean time and have most of this album pieced together. I'm going to start posting updates on here as far as recording goes however some things will be put on hold because of career/seasonal work for the summer. On a more personal note I got a full time/seasonal firefighting job in Pollock pines, CA on a type 3 Wildland engine. That's going to keep me busy until this fall however it will allow me to set up the recording space and save the money to take the rest of the year off work to make this happen. I couldn't be happier for this chapter of life.

Listen/purchase: It's a long road back to where you started by TheMarchWithin

Life lesson for me; To learn to enjoy and just be...I have endured thousands of miles of traveling and relying on less than ideal people when in turn I should have put that energy 100 percent into me as an individual. Live, learn..and accept what has happened and we will continue to grow.

I am not sure what to do.