TheCatUnderTheBed

Day 94 (of Quarantine)

Wow! Ninety-four days have already passed! Three months without work and without a stable income.

Spending days and days during this quarantine is like living in a void, my own unproductive piece of earth, my personalized limbo. Well, I don’t have the right to complain to much since there are people who are more devastated with the pandemic, and I think that I am privilege that I have a backup plan for my family’s financial needs. But, I can’t help my self from having anxiety and to be depressed with our situation. I can’t even believe that I am missing going to work. I guess I just took my job for granted. I missed the interactions, communications and of course the compensation. But, hey, I am also great full with the break from it. Before the lock-down, I am actually planning to resign from it. I already have my plan on when and how I would resign, what job should I look for, and, how much should I save for the transition period. I guess this plan should wait for at list a year or two or until this situation cleared out. It is not feasible to be jobless during this pandemic, but sometimes I can’t see the difference sine I can’t go to work and I am not being paid. The good thing, our company is capable enough to give us cash allowances for the first month and applied for government amelioration. I can’t express how great full I am for their help.

I am looking for some side hustles or on-line jobs to cope up with some bills since we will be starting to use my emergency fund really soon.

It is hard to be a young adult, especially when I’m just starting to focus on my future, then everything went sideways. No, not sideways, it’s like everything turned 180 degrees and then the universe told me that I can’t move forward. I really hate it when I’m trapped and loose control of my life. It’s like being robbed of my options to live my life. I don’t know how to deal with this situation. I don’t know when I can go back to work (FYI, I work in Real-estate, construction specifically). I don’t even know if there is a job to get back with, if this continue for more months.  Maybe I’m just paranoid but I also want to be realistic. But, the reality is, we need to keep safe from the virus.