theBrainfilth

the biggest question on my mind,

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2017 was one of the most challenging years of my life, full of highs and lows.

I graduated from law school.

I spent all summer preparing for the bar exam which was one of the most grueling experiences imaginable. I spent almost 3 months waiting for bar results, and mentally preparing myself for failure, but thank God, I passed.

I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years because it just didn’t feel right and it hadn’t felt right in a long time. That abrupt loss of intimacy and companionship was one that I never prepared myself for. He loved me and I wish I had been in love with him, too. He was a great guy.

I finally came to the understanding that another man that I love and have loved for years will never be a reality and I closed that chapter, painfully. In an effort to vanquish him completely I’ve been trying to talk to other people but I know in my heart that I’m not ready to start again with anyone or anything. I feel an inexplicable loss for something I never had.

I’m searching for my first legal job and I’m balancing between wanting a great paying job and doing something I’m honestly interested in.

I have noticed how much my grandparents and parents have aged. It makes my heart cringe when I think that I might lose my grandparents. I feel pain that I’m not finding a job fast enough to alleviate some burdens off my parents.

I travelled to Paris and Marseille off-season because grown folk that are done with school can do that. I travelled to Las Vegas and Los Angeles for my cousin’s wedding.