the bleak

can my day go fine without gettin interrupted by my negative thoughts?

I wanna drink Bleach

Seeing IShowSpeed playing The Walking Dead, makes me want to replay the game.

Why am I feeling like that? What the fuck is wrong with me? I don’t know.

YIPPEE! I THREW UP AGAIN AFTER A FEW WEEKS!

why seasonal depression is trying to fuck me up really bad?

I feel like I bark at my life more than trying to do something with it.

Surprisingly now I cannot find a rope, that I’ve tried to hang myself with back in October 2023. Now I wonder where my sister put it in. I believe she threw it away. And then I realized I missed my own chance to die.

What is going on with my life?

I don’t know why, but for some reason my gender is just a fucked up weird mess. Usually I feel like a girl, but then at one point I can still feel like a male, or I could even feel like a non-binary person, OR EVEN BOTH MALE AND FEMALE! I know that I’m already identifying myself as genderfluid and it perfectly fits me, but I feel like I’m still getting throttled by gender dysphoria.