Plantanda Forever

08-13-2020

Random thoughts with little context:

With the exception of my stories, I haven't posted on my IG feed in almost 3 months. Most would tell you that's a social media no no. I would tell you, "fuck the rules".

This will be posted there eventually, but something told me to let Tumblr see it first.

I've been good an exercising "control" with my quarantine plant purchases these last few months. If anything, the majority of the plants bought were perennials for my outdoor garden. One of my last houseplant purchases was this cissus quadrangularis. I love it. So different. I luv da funky bois.

Another random quarantine purchase was this garden belt. I paid more than I ever thought I would spend on a garden belt, but it's so cute I couldn't say no.

There's no point to this post. Just slowly getting my social media mojo back... cuz lord... the last few months have been overwhelming and the internet has been doing A LOT.

Trying not to lose myself in the mix. Trying to stay true to myself in the mix. For me, that means not feeling obligated or compelled to do things simply because I feel I should. Trying to embrace my feelings and not ignore them. Trying to truly feel them. I've come to realize how important that is for me in being my authentic self. Feel those feels.

I've been in a much better headspace these last 2 weeks or so. The crazy part is the slight anxiousness I feel when things have been going good for a while. Like...okay, is it going to get bad again? Cuz I don't like dat.

Cheers to those navigating their way through a depressive state. You got this. I got this.