king only

sometimes I think I look passable for ugly-normal, and sometimes I look at my arms and my face with fresh eyes and think, "oh, I don't even look like 'someone who was depressed as a teen, what a shame, happened to a lot of us', I look like a middle-aged lady who is actively hallucinating bugs."

anyway, I caught a cold or whatever from one of my twelve (12) family members I've been in close quarters with for the past two weeks. now I have to miss the Midsommer Qwok party for the black-crowned night heron ://///

lying on my hotel bed to drink a canned gin and tonic and eat candy, and no one can stop me. thinking about being closer to 40 than anything else. it’s nice. the weather here is tricking me into thinking that I want to go home and bake.