life lately

sometimes i dont see the point of living anymore

im always tired

i want to slow down and rest

Been a while!

I'm currently at the end of my first year as a graduate student of Clinical Psychology. I'm taking up 3 subjects this term which, admittedly, was such an ill-advised choice I made. I overestimated my capabilities and now I feel like I'm drowning.

I still try my best to balance everything—my studies, work, time with family and making sure I keep my relationship happy. One can just imagine how exhausted I am right now. I feel like I'm being stretched in different directions and I no longer know how to keep up without one aspect falling apart.

And that's for rushing the journey and overestimating my ✨ time management skills ✨

It has probably been years since I last wrote. So many things have happened! I graduated from uni in 2019, worked for a brief period of time, studied and took the board exam for Psychometricians, and PASSED ✨Not long after, I got a job (my current job), the pandemic started, and I MOVED IN WITH THE LOML! It was everything I envisioned it to be. Making breakfast, cooking, working out together and lots of downtime with each other. Although we obviously get days where we get annoyed with each other, I'm so happy to be stuck with this weirdo. I really wouldn't have it any other way.

I also came out to my dad on Christmas last year, which was pretty chaotic for a while. Good thing we're past that! Fast forward to today, I'm nearing the end of my first term as a 1st-year graduate student ❤ and I'm stressed as ush. It's getting difficult to manage both work and school.

What gets me through is thinking that in a few months or 1 year from now, I'll be in a different place. The things I used to stress over were little things now that I think about it. So it's gonna be alright. I'm gonna be alright.