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whenever I’m fresh on meds, I’m like wow but I feel fine, I must have made up being sick. and then when the meds start to wear off it’s like [SOUND OF PIANO BEING PUSHED THROUGH GARBAGE COMPACTOR]

My one boring tip to anyone in their 20s is to resist the temptation to rot in your room every time you get a free moment. Dismiss any neuroses you have about going outside and "being perceived". Be a dictator about it, plan your hangouts like they are binding commitments. No excuses! Go to the bar with your friends. Be kinda hungover at work. Socializing is like exercise; even if you don't feel like you want to, you should still do it because it's good for you.

no one is coming to save you its true its true someone might be coming to hang outttttttttt though. someday

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Speaking of medieval history, it's fun how the popular accounts are all "the peasantry disliked nobles, but typically loved the King and attributed any harmful decisions to bad advisors", and then the rare examples of surviving testimony from actual peasants are like "I hope the King literally explodes".

People assume, wrongly, that medieval peasants were uniquely stupid and subservient to the political order. This is not true. The truth is that chainmail armor is really hard to get through, and when the guy collecting you taxes is on a horse in full chain, weidling a sword that can kill you from roughly any position, it's hard to argue against unfair taxation models.

eurydice’s longing for a quiet life rips my heart out. all this girl wanted was a place to stay, a permanent home. a place she can come back to. she probably wanted a cozy, humble home, maybe a family with the boy she adores. she did not want to save the world, not like orpheus did (though she loves him for it), she just wanted to take a nap. life has casted her out, and all she wants is to be let back in.

i think this proshot also made me realize how similar hades and orpheus are. at the same time hades is telling persephone how much he's done for her (how much he hasn't listened to her and is just doing what he THINKS she'll like instead of paying attention to what she's saying and what she needs) at the exact same time orpheus is distracted by his song and not paying attention to what eurydice is saying and what she needs. what she's begging him for, what she's crying out to him for. he's so wrapped up in his own mission and his job that he forgot to listen out for the person he loves most. hades knew orpheus would turn around because that's exactly what hades himself would do

I will never ever ever get over audience members gasping when Orpheus turns around. the intrinsic human trait to know how a story ends, and still be shocked and heartbroken when it ends that way. and then we sing it again. goooooooood.

Everyone loves a cycle aware Orpheus but what about a cycle aware Eurydice? Eurydice who tries her hardest to resist the hunger and the cold. Tries to convince Orpheus to just LOOK UP time and time again to no avail. Eurydice who KNOWS and still fails. She knows he’s gonna turn around. She knows they’re not gonna make it out of hell together. But she hopes. Every time she hopes that he loves her a little bit less than the last time. Hopes he won’t look back. But of course, Orpheus is still Orpheus. And he loves her more than anything.