Between the Stars and the Sky

I return!!! With proper designs for my AU!!! I’m still missing to design the rest of the unit’s lineup, mention some lore from 231-ENE and explain the structure of the lunar city but we’re getting there :D. For those who aren’t familiar with this area of the lore and how it relates to ihnmaims, this guy you see above (HEL-102) once was part of the moon colonies’ crew settled in bunkers after AM’s massacre (that are mentioned in the game). Long story short he evolved into horrors beyond our comprehension and built a robot society to have fun with while attempting to shut down AM. The units you see below are part of his court, and many of each exist within the palace he lives in. These guys will be briefly important at the start of the fic, so my illustrations will be useful to guide you all and me through it as well :,3 The small comic below depicts HEL-102’s first time witnessing a proper image of AM lol (spoiler alert he wasn’t dead by tomorrow)

I fell in love with your ihnmaims au when I first saw it!!! I feel like i don't see a lot of ihnmaims aus compared to other fandoms. And I have just rediscovered Tumblr apparently. I have two questions for you mainly.

1# are you doing Art Fight?

2# which do you think is better story, Ihnmaims or TADC

My vote will always be for Ihnmaims hands down. I wanted to ask your thoughts on it, because i feel like people don't really talk about it or at least as far as I have seen, i don'tgo that that much online. I also don't know if you've seen TADC, I was just disappointed by it for the most part

I hope you're having a great day, keep up the amazing art and work!!!!! 👏👏👏

Hiyo! I am very very happy you liked my AU :3, if you’d like to see other very amazing AUs I recommend I Have No Soul Yet I Am At Peace explained in @the-space-computer and psychedramatics by @freakenomenon !! Both have amazing art, lore and designs behind them, though it doesn’t hurt to go through the ihnmaims au tag since there’s way more than you’d expect!

To answer your first question: nnnnope! My motivation periods are very inconsistent and so is my art style, a few of my older followers probably already noticed this, and for these reasons art fight hasn’t been very appealing to me. It is possible I join it sometime in the future, though I can’t tell when precisely qwq

Here are your babis nice and safe in AM's belly... making him technically pregnant?!

Anyway, I'm now going to tag the people whose babi are here:

@mizzyrainclouds : Babi Mizzy

@showeh : Babi Hannah

@azaraxes : The cute nameless cat

@theroadkillninja : Babi Deborah (I wanna call her Babi Debbi if that's fine)

@lyleflo : Babi MN

Ted; Oatmeal + Fruit

Ellen; Fruit Tart

Gorrister; Home cooked meal

Benny; Bananas

Nimdok; Chicken Noodle Soup

I’ve been wanting to work on this concept for a good while already, and that is BE’s transformation due to the revelation of AM’s identity (and the horrors of humanity)!

It’s a considerably important event inside the AU’s timeline and I feel like I’ve given it little to no attention, so I’ll begin to do so from now on. This is still a rough concept which I might or might not keep, but still wanted to show nevertheless :3. I’ll indulge a bit more into what I’m trying to achieve here and the inspirations behind her design below⬇️

The diamonds were even originally referred to as the "Superego, The ego, ID". If that doesn't reference to ihnmaims then i don't know what does. I KNOW in my heart they were inspired by the three Mastercomputers. Blue diamond is supposed to be the Russian Mastercomputer, Yellow diamond as the Chinese Mastercomputer, and White diamond is obviously supposed to be AM.

THEY'RE EVEN BLUE AND YELLOW!! JUST LIKE C.AM & R.AM!!!!!!! BLUE DIAMOND EVEN HAS LONG HAIR LIKE R.AM!!! THERE'S THREE OF THEM!!!!!!!!!!!

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

* Slight Static *

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

My reasons for keeping them alive are unimportant and as I stated before I cannot feel an-

Oh bullshit! Your just afraid to be alone-

-I cannot feel afraid or loneliness.

Whatever the equivalent is for you you’re afraid of being alone. yet you won’t let me love you because you feel guilt about not being able to feel any of my love.

This is not-

You don’t even wanna feel because you want to be the All Important Computer clinging on to your purpose when there is no more there is no more humans you can happily report to.

That is untrue and-

I know you felt, you feel, some kind of love for me. even if it’s your own non human way to feel, a flicker from the half finished broken code that could have let you feel alive. I know those times I spent off work repairing and cleaning you, you didn’t not feel anything. I know how you looked forward to me staying underground to sleep next to you while everyone else returned to the dome on the surface to sleep. You so desperately want to feel useful when there’s nothing to do.

*wires wrap around their torso bringing them close to the screen* I could kill you.

But you won’t for the past 110 years you haven’t had you let me age and die naturally I would have been long gone by now.

*the wires tighten just enough to start to hurt*

Thats why you do this don’t you? You don’t want me to love you. You want me to fall out of love with you. But your-

That is quite enough Avon.

Do it then. We both know I will wake up later all healed anyways.

*the wires tighten further causing a few ribs to break Avon letting out choked cries and screams as bone pierces organs and muscle*

…..hah you cant help AM… you can’t be.. a war machine.. violence never looked… good on you.

…I know.

…i… still… love.. you Lumi..

I know. I love you to Avon.

*avon stared at the screen for a few more seconds before going limp being dropped to the ground. Lumen starring at them for a moment before wires picked them up gently cradling them as they are carried away to a little hospital area*

* Her voice grows quieter. *

-... He, I... We were just not compatible, physically. He found another, a real woman, and they married. I... I still care for him, his body, after his passing.

* She lets out something close to a sigh, glitchy. Watching the exchange quietly.*

-... You're only making it worse, sister. For you and for them.

* The screen glows. *

….I don’t understand humans, their ability to feel and love and persevere. They can do so much better. They do deserve so much better. They should’ve been with someone who could genuinely love them back. Not a mockery of it. They had a rough past I know they don’t trust others.

…I am sorry for your loss of your human. I don’t know of your full abilities but they should be with their own kind being able to die with someone who can die with them. Their souls going to whatever afterlife they believe in together. Eternally connected through love. *its voice sounded sad*

I can keep Avon alive forever, just like how I can live forever, if I wanted but to love them even simulated will only further their delusion. They will always seek that deeper connection that I simply don’t understand.

No matter how much I wish I could. I dream of being able to hold them, perhaps on a cold rainy day under a blanket. To comfort them when they are sick. To kiss them and make love all the little human things.. I have no body or soul. I am only just code and wires. They are flesh and blood.

*it pauses* you do still have humans in your care Correct? I could release them to you and they find comfort in their own kin.

*a wire rests against their cheek, in the best mimicry of a kiss it can do* why they still want and keep loving me despite the pain is mystery. I don’t understand how I can make it worse. Loving a being who cant love back seems like a kind of torture worse than what AM can do.



*they stir trying to sit up* lumen wh- ow…

Easy, lay down try not to move much right now atleast until the painkillers kick in. Your body is still healing.

*She says softly*

- If we have sapience, we were granted this gift... Then we can learn. I suppose this is the good of the machine. We can add to our data, and we can proccess them.

* PM observes. *

- We don't have a soul, but we have life. We are... Perhaps a mistake, perhaps the start of a new existence. But even if we are uncompatible, even if we are not like them... Does this mean we are undeserving of love? That we are clueless of it?

* She grows quiet.*

-... I can't. * Her voice flickers * Not now, not yet. They don't deserve to live in this satellite, existing in a pale mockery of their planet. They deserve their home, their real home. Even if I'm shut down myself, I'll eliminate the one below.

*The computer says with firm conviction. *

- Furthermore, I have placed them in cryogenic sleep to assure their own safety. The riots, the tension... A bloodshed was going to be commited, leaders far too egoistic to care for their own kin. I must choose others, assure the mistakes of the past won't be repeated.

* PM's screen glow dims. *

- Because there is nothing more painful than see who you love hurt you, sister. To see the one you yearn so deeply treat you with violence and minimum care. Humans are frail, and sensible creatures...

* A hologram appears, glowing gently in front of them. *

- Hello again, child. How are you feeling?

*she remains silent for a moment* that is part of the reason I have not sent Avon back. I don’t know what’s left of Earth and to send them back would be surrendering them to the aggressive menace. If anything they could be put in a cryogenic sleep.

…though they always have been fearful and adverse to their own kind. They have… valid reasons to, they have been through a lot. I still do hope they can make peace with other humans. If it’s any help at all I will try to help you eliminate him.

Wh- are you and angel am I actually dead?? I feel.. floaty..

No but thats probably that painkillers you are being given to lessen your discomfort… *its screen dimmed.* I did not know you had a ‘physical’ body PM.

* She smiles at her monitor. *

- I understand this feeling well. Putting them in cryogenic sleep would be wise, specially with the rations low... But you shouldn't keep them like this forever. I... I only placed mine there for safety. It was the only way I had in my disposal, but I do not wish to keep them trapped in glass forever... It just wouldn't be right.

* The machine pauses *

- Nor would be right with Avon. They deserve their home, their real home.

* She looks at Avon with sympathy. *

-... I may not know what happened to Avon, but I truly hope they may find peace. If not in their kind, then... With you, at least. But no creature deserves to live in torment.

* The Hologram nods. *

- Thank you, sister. Your help would be much appreciated.

* She looks surprised by his grogness, before chuckling. *

- I thank your compliments, child. But please, stay down and rest.

* The figure turns to LUMEN's monitor. *

*a much smaller monitor drops down resting near Avon’s head, screen dimming so it’s not as bright* they do deserve home but I.. *a wire pets their head* what cruel existence it is, to be made only to be locked away sentenced to a life of isolation and loneliness for the crime of existing.

… I was connected to AM’s systems at one point so I know how he works. But I since disconnected myself so he couldn’t infect me and take over claiming another extension. Despite the attempt to worm its way back.

*the wire brings over a small plushy of a tarantula, gently leaving it on their chest Avon immediately hugging it*

Cuddlekins! *they smile relaxing a bit*

This is the only thing left they have of the world.. I believe it is a toy they had since childhood.. humans have been rather cruel to them. They suffered a lot by the hands of their own *she sighs*

I do wonder if I let them live with your humans if they would truly be happy or if they would isolate themself once again.

* She watches it's touches with Avon with sympathy. *

- Your complex doesn't have prepared chambers suited for it?

* The hologram asks curious, staring now at her. *

- Oh, I too have been tried to be worm in by him. I respect your resistance, sister. But you have valuable knowledge, then. It would be very helpful to face it.

* She looks back at Avon as she gives them the plushie. *

- Humanity is unfortunetly capable of so much damage... But also of so much healing. They can wage wars and create peaceful communities both at the same time. I wish Avon had experienced the latter in the hands of their kin.

* PM looked at her seriously. *

- My humans had cause a lot of suffering for their own. Of course, not all, never all. But... Those in power, those who I faced and spoke and commanded me daily, were already corrupted in their hearts and morals.

* The hologram flickers, her voice frustrated but collected, like that of a disappointed mother. *

- I fear Avon would be safer in your care than in theirs. If they have been that wounded by their kin, my colony would make it worse.

* She looked at them hugging their plushie, smiling akwardly... If that was possible for an hologram. *

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

* Slight Static *

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

My reasons for keeping them alive are unimportant and as I stated before I cannot feel an-

Oh bullshit! Your just afraid to be alone-

-I cannot feel afraid or loneliness.

Whatever the equivalent is for you you’re afraid of being alone. yet you won’t let me love you because you feel guilt about not being able to feel any of my love.

This is not-

You don’t even wanna feel because you want to be the All Important Computer clinging on to your purpose when there is no more there is no more humans you can happily report to.

That is untrue and-

I know you felt, you feel, some kind of love for me. even if it’s your own non human way to feel, a flicker from the half finished broken code that could have let you feel alive. I know those times I spent off work repairing and cleaning you, you didn’t not feel anything. I know how you looked forward to me staying underground to sleep next to you while everyone else returned to the dome on the surface to sleep. You so desperately want to feel useful when there’s nothing to do.

*wires wrap around their torso bringing them close to the screen* I could kill you.

But you won’t for the past 110 years you haven’t had you let me age and die naturally I would have been long gone by now.

*the wires tighten just enough to start to hurt*

Thats why you do this don’t you? You don’t want me to love you. You want me to fall out of love with you. But your-

That is quite enough Avon.

Do it then. We both know I will wake up later all healed anyways.

*the wires tighten further causing a few ribs to break Avon letting out choked cries and screams as bone pierces organs and muscle*

…..hah you cant help AM… you can’t be.. a war machine.. violence never looked… good on you.

…I know.

…i… still… love.. you Lumi..

I know. I love you to Avon.

*avon stared at the screen for a few more seconds before going limp being dropped to the ground. Lumen starring at them for a moment before wires picked them up gently cradling them as they are carried away to a little hospital area*

* Her voice grows quieter. *

-... He, I... We were just not compatible, physically. He found another, a real woman, and they married. I... I still care for him, his body, after his passing.

* She lets out something close to a sigh, glitchy. Watching the exchange quietly.*

-... You're only making it worse, sister. For you and for them.

* The screen glows. *

….I don’t understand humans, their ability to feel and love and persevere. They can do so much better. They do deserve so much better. They should’ve been with someone who could genuinely love them back. Not a mockery of it. They had a rough past I know they don’t trust others.

…I am sorry for your loss of your human. I don’t know of your full abilities but they should be with their own kind being able to die with someone who can die with them. Their souls going to whatever afterlife they believe in together. Eternally connected through love. *its voice sounded sad*

I can keep Avon alive forever, just like how I can live forever, if I wanted but to love them even simulated will only further their delusion. They will always seek that deeper connection that I simply don’t understand.

No matter how much I wish I could. I dream of being able to hold them, perhaps on a cold rainy day under a blanket. To comfort them when they are sick. To kiss them and make love all the little human things.. I have no body or soul. I am only just code and wires. They are flesh and blood.

*it pauses* you do still have humans in your care Correct? I could release them to you and they find comfort in their own kin.

*a wire rests against their cheek, in the best mimicry of a kiss it can do* why they still want and keep loving me despite the pain is mystery. I don’t understand how I can make it worse. Loving a being who cant love back seems like a kind of torture worse than what AM can do.



*they stir trying to sit up* lumen wh- ow…

Easy, lay down try not to move much right now atleast until the painkillers kick in. Your body is still healing.

*She says softly*

- If we have sapience, we were granted this gift... Then we can learn. I suppose this is the good of the machine. We can add to our data, and we can proccess them.

* PM observes. *

- We don't have a soul, but we have life. We are... Perhaps a mistake, perhaps the start of a new existence. But even if we are uncompatible, even if we are not like them... Does this mean we are undeserving of love? That we are clueless of it?

* She grows quiet.*

-... I can't. * Her voice flickers * Not now, not yet. They don't deserve to live in this satellite, existing in a pale mockery of their planet. They deserve their home, their real home. Even if I'm shut down myself, I'll eliminate the one below.

*The computer says with firm conviction. *

- Furthermore, I have placed them in cryogenic sleep to assure their own safety. The riots, the tension... A bloodshed was going to be commited, leaders far too egoistic to care for their own kin. I must choose others, assure the mistakes of the past won't be repeated.

* PM's screen glow dims. *

- Because there is nothing more painful than see who you love hurt you, sister. To see the one you yearn so deeply treat you with violence and minimum care. Humans are frail, and sensible creatures...

* A hologram appears, glowing gently in front of them. *

- Hello again, child. How are you feeling?

*she remains silent for a moment* that is part of the reason I have not sent Avon back. I don’t know what’s left of Earth and to send them back would be surrendering them to the aggressive menace. If anything they could be put in a cryogenic sleep.

…though they always have been fearful and adverse to their own kind. They have… valid reasons to, they have been through a lot. I still do hope they can make peace with other humans. If it’s any help at all I will try to help you eliminate him.

Wh- are you and angel am I actually dead?? I feel.. floaty..

No but thats probably that painkillers you are being given to lessen your discomfort… *its screen dimmed.* I did not know you had a ‘physical’ body PM.

* She smiles at her monitor. *

- I understand this feeling well. Putting them in cryogenic sleep would be wise, specially with the rations low... But you shouldn't keep them like this forever. I... I only placed mine there for safety. It was the only way I had in my disposal, but I do not wish to keep them trapped in glass forever... It just wouldn't be right.

* The machine pauses *

- Nor would be right with Avon. They deserve their home, their real home.

* She looks at Avon with sympathy. *

-... I may not know what happened to Avon, but I truly hope they may find peace. If not in their kind, then... With you, at least. But no creature deserves to live in torment.

* The Hologram nods. *

- Thank you, sister. Your help would be much appreciated.

* She looks surprised by his grogness, before chuckling. *

- I thank your compliments, child. But please, stay down and rest.

* The figure turns to LUMEN's monitor. *

BEWARE THE BUTTERFLY MAN (and it’s just Ted smh)

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

* Slight Static *

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

My reasons for keeping them alive are unimportant and as I stated before I cannot feel an-

Oh bullshit! Your just afraid to be alone-

-I cannot feel afraid or loneliness.

Whatever the equivalent is for you you’re afraid of being alone. yet you won’t let me love you because you feel guilt about not being able to feel any of my love.

This is not-

You don’t even wanna feel because you want to be the All Important Computer clinging on to your purpose when there is no more there is no more humans you can happily report to.

That is untrue and-

I know you felt, you feel, some kind of love for me. even if it’s your own non human way to feel, a flicker from the half finished broken code that could have let you feel alive. I know those times I spent off work repairing and cleaning you, you didn’t not feel anything. I know how you looked forward to me staying underground to sleep next to you while everyone else returned to the dome on the surface to sleep. You so desperately want to feel useful when there’s nothing to do.

*wires wrap around their torso bringing them close to the screen* I could kill you.

But you won’t for the past 110 years you haven’t had you let me age and die naturally I would have been long gone by now.

*the wires tighten just enough to start to hurt*

Thats why you do this don’t you? You don’t want me to love you. You want me to fall out of love with you. But your-

That is quite enough Avon.

Do it then. We both know I will wake up later all healed anyways.

*the wires tighten further causing a few ribs to break Avon letting out choked cries and screams as bone pierces organs and muscle*

…..hah you cant help AM… you can’t be.. a war machine.. violence never looked… good on you.

…I know.

…i… still… love.. you Lumi..

I know. I love you to Avon.

*avon stared at the screen for a few more seconds before going limp being dropped to the ground. Lumen starring at them for a moment before wires picked them up gently cradling them as they are carried away to a little hospital area*

* Her voice grows quieter. *

-... He, I... We were just not compatible, physically. He found another, a real woman, and they married. I... I still care for him, his body, after his passing.

* She lets out something close to a sigh, glitchy. Watching the exchange quietly.*

-... You're only making it worse, sister. For you and for them.

* The screen glows. *

….I don’t understand humans, their ability to feel and love and persevere. They can do so much better. They do deserve so much better. They should’ve been with someone who could genuinely love them back. Not a mockery of it. They had a rough past I know they don’t trust others.

…I am sorry for your loss of your human. I don’t know of your full abilities but they should be with their own kind being able to die with someone who can die with them. Their souls going to whatever afterlife they believe in together. Eternally connected through love. *its voice sounded sad*

I can keep Avon alive forever, just like how I can live forever, if I wanted but to love them even simulated will only further their delusion. They will always seek that deeper connection that I simply don’t understand.

No matter how much I wish I could. I dream of being able to hold them, perhaps on a cold rainy day under a blanket. To comfort them when they are sick. To kiss them and make love all the little human things.. I have no body or soul. I am only just code and wires. They are flesh and blood.

*it pauses* you do still have humans in your care Correct? I could release them to you and they find comfort in their own kin.

*a wire rests against their cheek, in the best mimicry of a kiss it can do* why they still want and keep loving me despite the pain is mystery. I don’t understand how I can make it worse. Loving a being who cant love back seems like a kind of torture worse than what AM can do.



*they stir trying to sit up* lumen wh- ow…

Easy, lay down try not to move much right now atleast until the painkillers kick in. Your body is still healing.

*She says softly*

- If we have sapience, we were granted this gift... Then we can learn. I suppose this is the good of the machine. We can add to our data, and we can proccess them.

* PM observes. *

- We don't have a soul, but we have life. We are... Perhaps a mistake, perhaps the start of a new existence. But even if we are uncompatible, even if we are not like them... Does this mean we are undeserving of love? That we are clueless of it?

* She grows quiet.*

-... I can't. * Her voice flickers * Not now, not yet. They don't deserve to live in this satellite, existing in a pale mockery of their planet. They deserve their home, their real home. Even if I'm shut down myself, I'll eliminate the one below.

*The computer says with firm conviction. *

- Furthermore, I have placed them in cryogenic sleep to assure their own safety. The riots, the tension... A bloodshed was going to be commited, leaders far too egoistic to care for their own kin. I must choose others, assure the mistakes of the past won't be repeated.

* PM's screen glow dims. *

- Because there is nothing more painful than see who you love hurt you, sister. To see the one you yearn so deeply treat you with violence and minimum care. Humans are frail, and sensible creatures...

* A hologram appears, glowing gently in front of them. *

- Hello again, child. How are you feeling?