Fireflies

“when they told me that the only way to move on from you, was to begin loving someone completely new, i picked myself up from the pavement and kissed my fingers till they were blue. despite everything, i figured i could learn to love myself too. so once the storm cleared and the skies glistened a magnificent hue- all the love in my heart belonged to me and there was no more you.”

i. Belgian scientists discovered seven new earth-like planets and in a hundred years the first people might be living on Mars. ii. Did you know that I used to stargaze? But one look at you and I forgot the name of every constellation I’ve ever seen. Why would I stare at the night sky when I could be memorising your irises or studying each line on the palm of your hands? iii. I used to dream of flying away from here, of seeing this world and every other from a new perspective. But for the first time my dreams all involve my feet firmly on Earth and my hand firmly in yours. But if you wanted to, I’d go see the stars with you. I love you on this planet, I’d love you in our cottage on Mars, I’d love you on any planet we could think of. Any solar system, any galaxy any universe: I’ll follow you there and I’ll love you.

This love we have, grief in reverse, full rhyme, wrong place, wrong time,

Having a soft heart in a cruel world is courage, not weakness.

Because silence is a sweeter sound than a heart that doesn’t beat for you

My demons have your face now

There are 1,013,913 words in the English language but I could never string together any of them to describe how much I miss you.

I'm in love. I know I am, everyone falls in love right? And maybe love is taken in different measures for everyone. But I know I'm in love. I'm 15, and I know, oh god I know that everyone says I'm too young. But life fucked me up a long time ago and I just want happiness, he's my happiness. Maybe it'll fall apart but dear lord I love him and I will fight for him. I believe it'll last (maybe it's stupid but life is always full of maybes isn't it?) He's my happiness, is that really so crazy?

If you go through life waiting for the people who hurt you to get what they deserve, you will forget how to strive for your own happiness, you will forget to live.