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Okay I just did a bunch of research trying to figure out what to do and now I'm even more scared. I actually might die

#cause if it IS that parasite I don't have a typical presentation of it so they likely will not give me the antibiotic #and so I'll have to just... wait it out which can be weeks or months long and relapse after #and I am not dehydrated but I am afraid of not being able to eat #and then... ok I admit I do get really bad anxiety over contaminated food (for this reason)#and just today I was getting terrified of eating anything #like all I could eat all day was two bread rolls and a half bowl of ice cream (which made me more sick)#I can't just... not eat for months. I'll die #and if I can't recover from the fear of it - like a couple years ago I ate basically nothing for a week #throwing up from *anxiety* because of the fear of eating mold #there was no mold. but it was SO bad #I'm sorry I keep posting these long things. I don't really have a lot of options #anyways I just want you all to know I love you all so; so much #I've been very lonely and isolated in my offline life for the past few years and a lot has gone wrong #but I do love this little space <3 I love coming on here and hearing from you #even if it's just scrolling through hearing about everyone's day. I had such a wonderful time here #and I want you all to know that. just in case anything happens #I want to all to remember how much you were loved

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Ok. I'll just skip another meal I guess

#I'm. ok I admit it I'm a LITTLE bit scared #like... I sort of assumed it'd go away quickly like 2-3 days but it's been 5 now with no signs of improvement #last time I had a bout of this it was gone in like 48 hours. just a weird hiccup #but if they say 6 weeks... I'm struggling to eat every day just cause of the nausea flare ups #SOMEtimes I can. other times (like now) it just isn't gonna happen #I haven't lost a lot of weight yet but I have lost some and like... I'm just worried I guess #my mom and sister gave me a diet I can eat but it's for vomiting #this is nausea/gagging I'm not really throwing up #so like ice cream (earlier) was a safe food since it was sweet and went down easy #but I couldn't get that down today #I don't KNOW what to do. if I go to urgent care I feel like they'll just tell me it's anxiety or something and send me home #and I don't even know if there's treatment for this since it's so rare in the US (until now)

Okay I NEED to stop flipping the fuck out. If anyone has advice on what to do I'll take it though

#like I feel like I'm about to puke but I don't know if it's cause of this or cause I'm having a panic attack now

But if it IS that and it IS gonna last that long then that sucks cause... well I guess I won't catastrophize. Just gotta take it a day at a time

I will say though that this is pissing me off cause I wasn't nauseous ALL day and then right after dinner + until now it's like. Surprise! Nausea!

#like I said it comes in weird waves and just shows up randomly so I can't gauge if it's getting better or just biding its time #I guess I can't say I've felt 100% better since Tuesday but I HAVE had moments of like #energy returning; appetite returning #I can suddenly DO stuff again. woo-hoo #and then! surprise! (for the record I think it's cyclosporiesis or whatever it's called)#(I truly DO NOT know what else the fuck it could be. and I had it last month but it might have gone dormant and flared back up)#(not your typical showing but everything I hear about it where it's like 'oh it's like mild stomach flu and it wrecks your shit'#'for anywhere between 2 days and six weeks' yeah tracks)#or I just got re-infected. I hope it's not 6 weeks cause this shit sucks and I WILL have it on my birthday #if it's that long

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just sending you a hug. we haven't followed each other for long so I hope this isn't weird, just want you to know someone hopes you're doing ok <3

Thank you <3 and it's not weird at all!

I truly AM fine and gonna be fine I just have a history of getting really bad anxiety over sicknesses, especially when they're long-lasting. Had COVID about two years ago and that was a whole event as well gsjgjhgkh

Catastrophizing

#it just sucks cause I don't really have the energy to DO much other than sit here and spiral over what if I never get better #no real reason to THINK that'll be the case but it keeps going away and coming back #it never like. leaves. it just gets a little better and then worse #but it's definitely *bad* in a way that it wasn't last week like this isn't normal for me #I KNOW objectively the thing to do it just let it pass but every time it comes back I break down crying #I get caught in grief spirals. I can't handle anything that I can't immediately fix #I get stuck in 'this is the way it is now and it's horrible'#and when I'm actually sick there's nothing I can do to distract myself #because it's ALWAYS THERE

ivy-michaels

We need to bring “read another book” type energy to like, fandom in general, and I’m not joking.

If you could go back 20 years an get people, at scale, to expand their taste in fiction beyond Harry Potter, we would not be here right now.

ivy-michaels

People focusing on the Harry Potter series on this post are missing the point.

The point isn't that Harry Potter itself is the problem, it's that a large fandom obsessed with one work, and only one work, to the exclusion of all other works, combined with a rapturous devotion to that specific creator, resulted in a socio-political landscape where one very popular author of children stories can single-handedly swing a society into a genocide.

ivy-michaels

Reblog this version

#broaden your horizons always cause you are Never immune to finding out that the creator of the thing you like #is now a serial abuser or funneling money into hate groups. can happen has happened

nemfrog

Sea dragon. A native of Australia. Marvels of the universe. October 31, 1911. Internet Archive

witchesversuspatriarchy

me whenever the stars are visible

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noxtheox

I looked up and saw a fat juvenile pelican with kind eyes looking down at me

#<3

I KNOW I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. I made a goal to find happiness wherever I can even in the most miserable of circumstances and if this is just a test then it's a test. I can't count on anything tangible to make me happy, I need to find that within myself and cling to it

Wonder if I'll ever be able to eat normally or comfortably again

#never take anything for granted. even the smallest thing #you could lose it any second and be left with nothing #today I got lucky enough to read out on the back porch and drink tea #last week I went shopping and actually felt good. like a real human being who could do things #and then it all immediately went to shit and put me back in my place. don't get used to anything

lilyflxwers

ok i absolutely need to know what accents u all have pls reblog and tell me or comment or whatever I must know

#kinda the generic New England one but it's not super strong #jumps out only on certain words

dni-archive

abysslll

itsladykit

Motion Picture Association of America.

waywardworldhopper

Entertainment Software Rating Board

#I'm sorry but 'you MUST be completely celibate to interact. allowed to crank it to gore though :thumbsup: ' is the funniest stance ever

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brynnamonroll

I'm so endeared by the French term for a stray cat being "chat errant." This implies the existence of a stray knight. Or that a chat errant is searching for noble purpose.

bloobluebloo

I like women in fiction the same way I like men in fiction: messy and strong and complicated. The problem is that as soon as women are given any complexity deeper than a puddle people throw a fit. Women have to either be entirely likeable or entirely despicable and if she's strong she's not like the other girls. Meanwhile you write a man with the same qualities and he's deep and morally complex. Eternal suffering truly 😔

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