The Chaotic Ramblings Of A Small Bear

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💋💄To no one’s surprise, they are already ten times more mature then actual Crue 

💋💄Mainly because Mickelle is a mom of three already by the time she joins the band 

💋💄And Vienna has her own kids (twin girls) not long after the band started to kick off  

💋💄Therefore, Mickelle and Vienna are the mom friends 

💋💄Though Mickelle is the more MOM mom friend since she has more experience  

💋💄Also the two of them are a lot closer than their male counterparts because Mickelle helped Vieanna out a lot while she was pregnant 

💋💄Not that Nikita and Tammy didn’t, but they had NO IDEA what they were doing 

💋💄Mickelle provided comfort support while the terror twins provided party support  

💋💄Anyway, they are YOUR biggest supporters, to put it simply!  

💋💄It doesn’t matter if you are in the band or not, they will always be there for you to help you out, no matter how busy they are  

💋💄Romance, job opportunities, drama, you name it! They are in your corner! 

💋💄Hanging out with them gets you swearing like a sailor with how bad mouthed these girls are 

💋💄Tammy is pouty over the fact that she’s still the baby of the group because you are a few months older than her  

💋💄She’s always tryna act older than she actually is 

💋💄Nikita makes fun of her for it  

💋💄If you are someone who likes tattoos, Nikita and Tammy are definitely taking you out to get your first one if you don’t have one already 

💋💄And then they are taking you out to get matching ones with them! 

💋💄MULTIPLE times! 

💋💄Nikita’s given you drunk kissing lessons once 

💋💄If you are in the band as their rhyme guitarist, a lot of your time in the studio is spent practicing and testing out chords with Mickelle so you guys can get the tune you're going for 

💋💄But even if you aren’t in the band, with how close you guys are, you end up getting dragged to a LOT of parties! 

💋💄If there is a karaoke machine present, Vienna is taking it over 

💋💄And she is 100% drag you and the rest of the girls into a group song before the end of the night 

💋💄Mickelle isn’t as fussy with her looks as the other girls are, but she likes wearing black lipstick 

💋💄Particularly black lipstick! 

💋💄And though she’s not the most physically affectionate, she does give gentle forehead kisses when she’s with you or the girls alone to comfort you when you are upset 

💋💄This means sometimes you're walking around with a big ol’ black lipstick print on your forehead  

💋💄POSSIBLY other places if your relationship turned romantic relationship at some point/long term 

💋💄When the girls are doing Girls Girls Girls in ‘87, they are very insistent that YOU help them out  

💋💄They never told you that you were gonna be in the music video until you find yourself at a strip joint 

💋💄STRIPPER CRUE STRIPER CRUE STRIPER CRUE 

💋💄They are up on the pole in hot outfits and giving it their all 

💋💄They made the descion to dance alongside the dances to make sure the music video did not accidently give the wrong message  

💋💄They felt like them just performing and watching the strippers made it come off as if they were better than them and they did not want that with all the stigma in the scene about the industry already  

💋💄So you get to get your stripper on and have fun! 

💋💄The workers were really nice and taught you moves you could do 

💋💄Mickelle took the longest to convince because she was self-conscious with how her body looked  

💋💄But after some loving hyping up from you and the girls, she agreed 

💋💄The result is the iconic shot of her in pretty black lingre playing the legendary guitar solo 

💋💄If you have a bigger/round body type, they are always making sure you feel confident in yourself, but also that you feel safe 

💋💄They immediately pick up when you are uncomfortable and are getting you out of there so you can all go back to have one of your houses to have a girl's night there 

💋💄Tammy takes it upon herself to wear clothing she knows you feel more comfortable in when you guys go out partying so you don’t feel self-conscious about sticking out  

💋💄If you are masc/male presenting and love going around in makeup, they are ALWAYS hyping you up  

💋💄They know people are already giving you shit for it and want you to know that they are on your side 100% 

💋💄Honestly, they’d think that you are more creative with how you do makeup and frequently ask if you can do theirs! 

💋💄That’s about the only time Mickelle can be convinced to wear makeup that isn’t strictly black  

💋💄Terror Twins are ready to throw down and make men regret their existence the minute you get called a homophobic slur  

💋💄Speaking of homo, the girls were NEVER secretive of the fact that they are lady lovers 

💋💄They thought it was absolutely hilarious that people were getting pissed over the fact that Girls Girls Girls is a gay song  

💋💄“Yeah, no shit, dick” 

💋💄Nikita’s making a comment of “actually listen to our lyrics, pussy” 

💋💄You take it upon yourself to get her a swear jar when she gets pregnant with Gunner  

💋💄All for you are absolute SUCKERS for pregnant Nikita 

💋💄She’s just so whiny and pouty and round, how could you not be? 

💋💄Nikita is getting her ice cream at 3AM or else she will make everyone’s day HELL the next morning 

💋💄Her karma is dealing with all of your clingyness 

💋💄You especially, because you are just so proud of her and want her to be happy 

💋💄Mainly because you were present at the party the night she had her overdoes in ‘87 

💋💄You had to be one of the people to attempt CPR on her before the paramedics got there 

💋💄Nikita had woken up to you curled up in the hospital bed beside her asleep with your cheeks stained with tears when she regained consciousness  

💋💄She was honestly very touched and emotional about it because she knows how much hate hospitals  

💋💄Cause unfortunately, this was not your first redo at all 

💋💄When Razzle died in ‘84, you had never viewed hospitals in the same light again 

💋💄Everyone was struggling to process and deal with what had happened, and you took it upon yourself to be Vienna’s rock through it all 

💋💄For almost a year, you stayed over at her house, sleeping in bed with her and comforting her when she woke up from nightmares 

💋💄Vienna was CONSUMED by guilt 

💋💄Because of her kids, she’d never gotten behind the wheel to go to the liquor store 

💋💄Her and Razzle had walked, but the accident would have still happened because of a fan that offered to drive them the rest of the way back  

💋💄Vienna had been iffy on it, but relented when Razzle said it would be fine 

💋💄Neither of them had realized that the driver was drunk until it was too late 

💋💄Vienna had been trying to get the driver to pull over and let them out when the crash happened 

💋💄She blames herself because she feels that if she hadn’t agreed to get into the car and had just insisted on walking the rest of the way like planned, Razzle would still be alive  

💋💄She was a mess for a long while, and didn’t start properly healing until a worried you ended calling Michael to talk to her  

💋💄The only good side of the whole situation was that Motley Crue and Hanoi Rocks managed to keep a good relationship 

💋💄You are pretty sure that Nikita and Andy had SOMETHING going on, but both deny it and even if they did, it obviously didn’t last long because of how they both are  

💋💄During that period, you did a lot to help Vienna take care of her daughters, who were barely a year old when the incident happened  

💋💄You fed them, bathed them, played with them, everything of the like 

💋💄Because of that, the twins jokingly call you “Mama” when they are older 

💋💄You adore it  

💋💄You yourself (along with the other girls) will call Mickelle “Mom” from time to time, so you don’t mind it at all 

💋💄The girls are very protective over their fans, especially the younger girl ones 

💋💄There are several incidences where Nikita has jumped into the audience mid-performance to deck a creep that got too handsy 

💋💄As much as Tammy loves titties, she is always making speeches about “if someone asks to see your tits, kick them in the dick!” 

💋💄Or a personal favorite... 

“FUCK NO, SHOW ME YOUR TITTIES!” 

💋💄On the topic of titties, there was one time where you were all drunk and ended up spraying whip cream on your breasts 

💋💄It was a new kind you never tried before and Vienna said you all should taste test to see if it was any good 

💋💄Let’s just say that Nikita gave a 10/10 review because of the “extra flavor” 

💝Nina is fifteen, not eleven 

💝Claudia and her friends are two years older than her

💝She had some previous run-ins with them before, but it escalated when she entered tenth grade

💝She’s always had a fascination with death, as her father was a mortician

💝He used to let her come to work with him before the divorce happened, and he vanished from their lives 

💝Nina was very young when this happened and has a hard time remembering her father’s face 

💝She’s half Latino (fathers side), half European (mothers side), and speaks fluently in Spanish and French 

💝She is NOT in love with Jeff, just admires and is obsessed with him

💝Think of it more like she wants to be like him / BE him 

💝Nina views him more as a mentor/older brother figure

💝She is a Scorpio, she was born on October 31st 

💝Nina developed psychosis around the time she turned fifteen, which would later develop into schizophrenia 

💝To this day, she’s unsure if Jeff was there to help her burn herself or if he was just another one of her hallucinations 

💝She instantly developed a hatred/rivalry with Jane during her first encounter with her when she was seventeen 

💝They’ve hated each other ever since 

💝Nina also has a rivalry with Clockwork, but they act more as frenemies than anything else 

💝She tired to sew her eyelids open, it didn’t work

💝She now has small x like scars at the ends of them, and they can be very sensitive 

💝She has multiple back up ribbons 

🥀Oh, this two DEFINITLY did not get off on the right foot

🥀In fact, I think it would be safe to say that these two DESPISED each other when they first met

🥀The two of them left their first interaction with the thought "this fucking bitch"

🥀They both believed that the other was too cocky for their own good

🥀Kate was pissed off by the fact that Katie viewed Slender as their savior instead of a captor

🥀Katie in turn saw Kate's silence/lack of words as disrespectful and egotistical

🥀But I think her anger also stemmed from the fact that Kate intimated her, and that frustrated her to no end

🥀It was a large source of shame during those times, and it lead to almost every interaction between the two ending in a brawl that the other pastas/proxies had to step in and break up

🥀However, things finally take a turn when even SLENDER gets fed up with their rivalry and forces the two of them to go on a mission together

🥀Things of course don't go as planned because these two can't stop and communicate, and the end result is Katie being stuck in the woods with a injured kate (who has a bullet lodged in her shoulder) hiding from the cops

🥀The two of them are forced to actually TALK while Katie does her best to play nurse for the time being, and as things like this go, the vulnerable stuff eventually comes out

🥀Katie confesses to Kate about her past, explaining why she'd chose the life she has now over the one she did before any day

🥀She also essentially tells her she'd take a eldritch fuck in the trees that actually treats her like she's somebody rather than her piece of shit sperm donor who beat his kids for existing any day

🥀 Kate in turn opens up about her own past, telling Katie exactly why she could never see Slender as her savior like she did

🥀 She HAD a life she liked even if it was hard sometimes, had people she loved

🥀 And it was all ripped away from her because was curious and tried to help, now being forced to work for the monster that had killed her friends

🥀 Things between them are not immediately fixed, but they come out of it with a better understanding of each other and are able to successfully complete the mission 🥀 I'm telling you now, this is the most SLOWEST FURSTRATING SLOW BURN EVER

🥀 Neither of them want to admit that they like each other, but everyone else can see it as clear as day and it's annoying as shit

🥀 Kate is the one that finally cracks and confesses after EJ slaps (more like gives firm yet gentle advice but he DID playfully smack the back of her head) some sense into her

🥀 You would think that they would be the 'only affectionate in private couple' with how they were before with each other but NOPE

🥀 They have to be somehow touching each other at all times when they are near one another

🥀 Kate is one of the only people Katie has allowed to see the scar on her neck, and she loves it when Kate will gently press kisses against it when they wake up in the mornings 🥀 Katie in turn loves to press kisses against Kate's burn scars when she actually takes her hoodie off, as well as gently circle the beauty mark Kate has on her cheek when she's laying her head in her lap

🥀 Kate in turn loves resting her head in Katie's lap because she loves the feeling of her brushing her fingers through her hair

🥀 Kate doesn't usually pick flowers, but she's started doing it ever since she started dating Katie and likes to give ones that reminder her of her/ones she think's she'll like back as gifts for her 🥀 Katie in turn has grown more of an appreciation for nature and quiet because of her more introverted preferring these spaces for their dates

🥀 But Kate will allow Katie to take her to the bar or some kind of party for a date a few times, and she's come out of that with the realization that she REALLY likes rum 🥀 It's hard to believe, but dating Kate has made Katie learn SOME patience and calmed her down a bit... not by a lot by still a little

🥀 Katie's nickname for Kate is Sugar, and Kate is always flustered by it

🥀 She claims it is because Kate looks like a sugar glider (someone see the vision please)

🥀 I like to think the third image in the header is an actual cute photo of the Kate's that Nina managed to take the morning after a particularly wild night

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NO ROMANCE! ONLY PLATONIC PAIRINGS

I will not be writing romantic x readers, as I’m uncomfortable with that. I am more willing and happy to write platonic x readers, cause being friends with your favourite rockstars and hanging out with them honestly sounds cooler to me lol

NO SHIPS BETWEEN BAND MEMBERS

I don’t have anything against the people who do write it, but again, not personally comfortable writing that myself

ALL X READERS WILL BE GN UNLESS SPECIFICALLY REQUESTED OTHERWISE

This goes for all of the fandoms I write for, but I felt that it should be said again here

REQUESTS ARE LIMITED

What I mean by this is that, while requests are welcome, this is a fandom I will most likely be doing my own thing for. Please feel free to send ideas you think are cute though!

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🩸Jeffrey was born on March 9th, 1992

He’s two years younger than his older brother David 

🩸His father, Joseph Keaton, was military/worked as an investigator

🩸His mother, Diana Keaton, was mainly a stay-at-home mom during his childhood

🩸He got his looks from his mother, while he got his personality from his father 

🩸They struggled a bit, but they were mainly happy until around the time after his younger sister Jane was born

🩸His father just changed, becoming angry and verbally abusive, which quickly became physical 

🩸His mother tried to protect them as best as she could, but she couldn’t always be there

🩸Diana loved her kids, but her unhealthy coping mechanisms to deal with her husband's abuse led her to be neglectful

🩸This mainly left David, being the oldest, to raise Jeff and Jane, becoming a parentified child at a young age

🩸Jeff loved and looked up to his big brother a lot, so when David started giving his… morbid outlook on life, he listened

🩸He adored Jane, finding it adorable how clingy she was with him, and protected her at all costs 

🩸When she had killed their first family pet, he took the blame for it

🩸Jeff and David did everything in their power to protect Jane from their father, but she still unfortunately gained scars

🩸Which made their hatred for him boil until it all erupted one day 

🩸To protect David, who’d been beaten badly, Jeff violently stabbed his father to death, supposedly ending their nightmare

🩸He and David hide the body under the house, to which it wasn’t found until after they moved 

🩸Diana finally snapped out of her stupor  and pulled herself together to raise her kids

🩸Things should have been getting better… but they didn’t

🩸Jeff developed psychosis when he was fifteen, which would later develop into Schizophrenia

🩸It went, unfortunately, unnoticed for a long time because Diana was working so many jobs to try and keep a roof over their heads

🩸Jeff always had to deal with bullies because of being the “weird kid,” but it got ten times worse when he entered high school

🩸He was constantly harassed and beaten up by the school's troublemaker, Chris Mex

🩸It got so bad, it got to the point where the voices he'd be hearing told him to harm himself, even seeing hallucinations of himself doing so

🩸Part of him began WANTING to do it, but he always managed to stop himself 

🩸Things just kept boiling and boiling and boiling until he had finally snapped and brought a knife to school

🩸When Chris came to start his daily taunts, Jeff stabbed him in the arm three times before he was pulled off him 

🩸And the sick thrill was back… the one he felt when he killed his dad, saw people die in movies, dead animals… he loved it

🩸Chris didn’t bother him for two weeks and he thought that was the end of it, but unfortunately, it wasn’t

🩸During a neighborhood party, Chris and his goons would attack the Keaton siblings, resulting in Jeff getting burned and mutilated 

🤍🖤These two were SO enemies to lovers, sorry not sorry

🤍🖤Based off what I have read and what I have seen on Zero's character, she comes off as a bullying victim who becomes the bully so she's not put through that again

🤍🖤So she and Liu get off to a PRETTY rough start, not helped by the fact she stumbled upon one of his killings

🤍🖤Liu immediately disliked her at first because she reminds him of Randy

🤍🖤Zero immediately distrusted/didn't like Liu because of her bad relationship with men

🤍🖤Because of the abuse she suffered at the hands of her neighbor and bullies at school, she's lost faith and trust in men

🤍🖤She'd hate Liu for his softness... but I think that's also what ends up drawing her in towards him

🤍🖤Sure, Liu could be pretty violent, but he still allowed himself to be soft and caring, especially towards the people he loves

🤍🖤It is something that frustrates Zero and makes her want to understand him more at the same time

🤍🖤As for Liu, I think what makes him end up softening up to Zero are the pieces of Alice that are left

🤍🖤Yes, Zero may be violent and loud, but there are rare cases were she's soft one people, especially people who remind her of Alice, or maybe even Ann, Alice's former best friend

🤍🖤I think another thing that gets them to bond is art

🤍🖤Liu was always a artsy kid, and so had Alice, so it was a hobby that Zero picked up on

🤍🖤Somedays, they'd just draw together for hours, not saying anything, sometimes even passing paper between each other so they could add things to each other's drawings

🤍🖤I think a good balance would start, with Liu softening Zero up, and Zero toughing Liu up! 🤍🖤Not violently, really, but teach him to be more assertive and stand up for himself

🤍🖤When celebrating Liu's birthday together for the first time as friends, Zero would gift Liu and knife, and show off that she got a similar one for herself

🤍🖤It's something that will connect them always

🤍🖤Zero actually did tease Liu about "getting her knife before he got her heart" 🤍🖤But then he eventually DOES get her heart (aka makes her fall in love with him) and he teases her about that constantly

H E A D C A N O N S Nina The Killer Headcanons My headcanons for my interpretation of Nina! Rouge The Prowler Headcanons My headcanons for my interpretation of Heather/Rouge! SmilingHearts Headcanons Hobo Heart x Nina The Killer/SmilingHearts headcanons for @/anonymous-spooks!

Habit x Suicide Sadie x B.E.N Headcanons My headcanons for a relationship between Habit (everymanhybrid), Suicide Sadie, and B.E.N! CandyFools Headcanons My headcanons for Candypop x April Fools/CandyFools!

NinaDrown Headcanons Nina The Killer x Ben Drowned/NinaDrown headcanons! KageZero Headcanons Kagekao x Zero/KageZero headcanons! BloodyClaws Headcanons Rouge x Eyeless Jack/BloodyClaws headcanons for @/anonymous-spooks! KageDoll Headcanons Kagekao x Dollmaker/KageDoll headcanons for @/narabea06! SmilingEntity Headcanons My headcanons for SmilingEnitiy! (B.E.N x Dr. Smiley)

Kate The Chaser Headcanons My headcanons for my interpretation of Kate! JeffWork Headcanons Jeff The Killer x Clockwork/JeffWork/BloodTime headcanons! Killing Kate Headcanons My headcanons for my interpretation of Killing Kate!

Laughing Jill Headcanons My headcanons for my interpretation of Laughing Jill! O N E S H O T S

Flesh. Warm, soft. Grabbing. Suffocating. It was like a burn against her own. Hot and painful, yet goosebumps spiraled up her arm as if the skin was cold, cracking ice. The ringing in her ears deafened with a blaring POP as her eyes snapped out open. Ruby orbs were panicked and unseeing as her body lurched upward, a hiss tearing from her throat. The sound was sharp and loud, taking herself off guard and making her flinch. However, that wasn’t the sound that made her stiffen.    No, it was the high-pitched scream.    The movement that came from the lower right side of her still unfocused vision.     The thud of something hitting the floor. The tiny “Oof!”    Lazari’s head snapped to the side.     She was immediately met a mass of auburn sprawled all over the floor. Small hands stuck up over the top as red eyes like her own stared up at her, wide and surprised.     Lazari’s breath hitched.    “Shoot, Zaria--” her hands came down quick, but gentle. Hunching over slightly to reach her sister, carefully grabbing her by the waist and hoisting her onto the couch. Zaria immediately settled in her lap, completely forgetting about the earlier interaction.   “Lazzy! Mr. Slendyman said you were sleeping because you were REALLY tired! I was scared you wouldn’t wake up!” Zaria would exclaim, her hands reaching forward to bunch into the fabric of the greenish blue shirt she’d been changed into while she was unconscious. Lazari hid a wince as her sister shifted her weight forward in her lap. Looking over her with a serious expression, as if she was her own personal doctor. Seeing the expression on her face allowed Lazari to release a huffy breath of amusement, carefully trying to find her words.    “Well, uh... I just—things kind of got—” Zaria already had one of her sleeves tugged up before she could properly think up a child-friendly explanation. Eyes go wide as they land on the dark colored blotches that covered her forearm. The eight-year-old made a loud, overdramatic gasp.     “LAZZY! Your arm! It's all purple! What happened? Do I need to kiss it better? I can kiss it better!” Her little hands took one of her sister’s bigger ones, pulling it up toward her face like it would give her a better look. Lazari scrambled internally.    “No! No, Zari...” The words came out quick at first, then she forced her tone to gentle, to slow down. Her lips tugged up warily as she attempted to look reassuring. “It’s fine. It just hurts a little bit.”    Zaria didn’t look very convinced. Her tiny brows furrowed, her bottom lip puffing out slightly.     “Do I need to go Mr. Slendy? I can go get him!” Zaria chirped, starting to get up. And panic ignited in Lazari’s chest as if a match had set her heart a flame.    “NO!”     The shout tore from her throat. Loud, fierce. More of a demand than a plea. The sound startled Zaria, the little girl flinching. Her shoulders hunched, curling inwards on herself, her small hands still holding hers. Lazari inwardly recoiled at the sight of it. She hated the fear she saw in Zaria’s eyes for a fraction of a moment. Hated how innocent and naive she looked. But they had both been naive, hadn’t they? Blindly so.    She could still hear Slender’s voice, hear how cold and certain it was as he talked to Masky.     “Then we enact Proxy Law twelve... and we kill her.” 

That should have been it. It could have been the worst part. Should have. But then Masky had to continue. Lazari could still hear the hesitance in his voice. The way his next question was almost whispered, like he had already known that he was not going to like the answer.    “And the younger one, sir? What if... what do we do if she starts having the same problem?”    Slender had stayed silent for a long, tense moment. And then he sighed. A sound that had sent a chill down her spine, even now when she remembered the sound of it.     “Her hunger has not been activated yet. So, there is a chance that we can quell it. But if not... then she must suffer the same fate.”    A lump formed in her throat as she recalled the words. Her fingers twitched before she quickly balled both hands into fists, gripping onto the blanket, attempting to use it as some sort of leverage to compose herself.     “N-No... no. He’s busy right now. I don’t want to bother him.” There was a slight quiver in her voice as she carefully said the words.     Zaria stared up at her. Lazari could see the confusion, the worry swirling in her eyes, and it only made her feel worse. She flinched slightly when she felt her sister’s small hands tighten around her own.     “Lazzy... why are you shaking?”    Lazari swallowed hard. Doing her best to keep her voice steady this time.     “I’m just cold, that’s all.”     Zaria seemed to instantly perk up at that.    “Here! I’ll help you be warmer!”    She dove under the blanket like a fish plopping back into a pound, squirming and nearly kicking Lazari in the face with one of her feet. The movement actually made Lazari laugh, finding herself being able to relax just a little    “Thank you.”    “Lazzy... you’ll never leave, right? Not like Mama did... you’ll stay with me forever, right?” 

Lazari’s breath hitched, the feeling of that bright red, innocent orbs watching her making her feel as though she’d been tied down. Because then and there, she realized something. 

Something that she should have realized a long time ago. 

Something that made her feel as though she'd been punched in the chest. 

Zaria had always looked to her. 

Not their mother. Never their mother. Now that she really thought about it, she could not remember a single moment where Loretta Swann was ever a source of comfort for her younger sister. She recalls fuzzy memories of a baby Zaria wailing loudly. How their mother’s brows furrowed, how her lip trembled as every rock, every song, every attempt she made failed. How her face went expressionless when Zaria would reach for her when she saw her. How her crying quieted as soon as she was in her arms, her little body stopping it’s squirming.     How her mother’s stare made her stomach feel as if it had dropped to the floor, even then. A cold look of resentment. Of hatred. As if she was somehow doing this on purpose. As if she was purposefully turning Zaria against her. That’s what she’d say when they were in the basement. When Lazari was ‘having her soul cleansed.’ Glass jabbing into her back, her mother’s shouting drowning out her cries.     She’d thankfully never touched Zaria with her rituals. She wouldn’t get the chance to.     Zaria hadn’t even cried when their mother had died. Not as her body swung from the tree. She’d just looked up at her, at Lazari, with big glossy eyes and asked her if this meant they didn’t have to go back home. 

🍭 It is believed that Jill had been created during the Autumn 🍭 She was created to be a partner and companion for Laughing Jack, her male counterpart

🍭 It was love at first sight! Jack was so sweet, and Jill thought his smile was adorable

🍭 Before she lost her colors, Jill's hair was purple and her eyes were green, and she had a frilly dress of rainbow! 🍭 Everything was great until Jack was sent off to be a Christmas present for Isaac Grossman, and then she never saw him again

🍭 To raise her spirits, Jill was made to make her official debut during the 1920s 🍭 Jill did her best to be the greatest best friend a child could ever have, and it seemed to be working, but then things just seemed to keep going wrong

🍭 Whether they have to move, they are scared of her, or something happens to them, Jill just felt like she was cursed

🍭 Little did she know at the time that this would be because of the corruption of Laughing Jack, the clown-turning serial killer after being influenced by Issac’s changed personality 🍭 Jill eventually was given another companion to try and raise her spirits, Jaziel Cat

🍭 She truly did treasure her new friend, he just couldn’t take away the pain she felt

🍭 Gradually, she noticed her colors fading. 🍭 She begged and pleaded for it to be fixed, but every attempt seemed to failed.

🍭 Instead of giving Jill the proper help needed, her creators would keep sending her out to be the friend of the children, believing that one day something would lift her spirits and she just “get over it"

🍭 This would eventually lead to Jill killing her final child in the early 2000s-- bratty, snobby, spoiled child who forced her to do bad things

🍭Horrified by what she’s done, she gives up, finally allowing her color to drain

🍭Cast out from what she had once called home because of what she had done, Jill’s resentment for everyone festered into a loathing for children.

🍭 She changes up her wardrobe with the times to try and forget her past

🍭 Eventually, when she meets Jack again... she's terrified 🍭 What the hell had happened to the sweet clown she had found herself falling in love with oh so quickly?

🍭 She resents him for “doing this to her” once she realizes that his change caused some of her problems

🍭 Therefore, she constantly feels like she has to prove that she’s better than him, not wanting to admit that he hurt her or that she still has feelings for him

🍭 This eventually leads to her realizing she doesn’t take any pleasure in killing children and instead focuses her murder abusive parents; the true problem 

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