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Ah, thanks!!

We see a huge amount MC's mortal-insecurity come out in book 2, so much that it influences the plot! Mc's self-comparison to Fae in general (and feeling like they are lacking) is a big emotional arc for them in the sequel.

But I feel like it starts here, with the whole comparison to Lustre. As terrible as Lustre is, I think it may have been impossible for MC not to hold themselves up to Lustre, KNOWING Kieran fell in love with that outward appearance. I mean, personally, I know I would have done the same, you know? We're only human.

I didn't *love* the way that MC was portrayed in this scene in the story...I mean I get it, to a point? The motivations for MC to run off were kind of murky. Somewhere between jealousy and insecurity, I guess. I personally don't like or get behind the jealousy aspect, because duh, obviously Kieran has ZERO feelings for Lustre other than hatred - she cursed him!! If anything, they're (im)mortal enemies now. It's obvious to us as the reader and should be obvious to MC that they aren't together.

But, sure, I can see how it would hurt to come upon a beautiful ex touching Kieran's cheek and taunting him (and you) with how much better she knows and understands him, when you did not realize they were once together and he fell so hard for her that she LITERALLY broke his heart.

So I thought I could slightly tweak the motivations here to make more sense and portray MC to be a bit less, eh..."hysterical woman stereotype", for lack of a better phrase.

So when we find out about Kieran's curse and how lustre was the cause of it, it made me question as to why exactly his heart shattered into pieces and he was left without any emotions except for anger and possibly resentment.

At one point in the book it was said that Kieran basically studied protection spells, enchantments and what not to protect himself against any other person who might try to harm him right? Obviously when he met Lustre he trusted her to an immeasurable amount, which resulted in him telling her everything. Disabling the enchantments and protection spells.

Now, what I think is that even when he had a lover and friends (regardless of whether they were fake) by his side I think why his heart chose shatter is because deep down he was always sort of 'numb'.

I mean the guy literally watched all his family members die in front of him except for Montgomery and Longclaw(even though i think she came a bit later)

Some people might say that the whole curse thing is to symbolise depression. Which yes it does i agree with that. But also I think it symbolises addiction.

Sometimes when people are so overcome with grief and depression they turn to substances that numb the pain that they feel. Him having that curse might signify that he needed something that would totally mask out the pain that he truly felt in his life. All the things that he had prior were not enough to fill the void that he had. And I hardly think when he got the curse he immediately went out to find his heart pieces. I think for a while he was sorta 'happy' that he wasn't able to feel anything. But at some point he might have realised that it wasn't healthy and that he needed to move on.

Yeah, I'm definitely going insane 🫩

sorry for how long this took to reply to!

I like your take! I can totally see it as a 'this is the last straw, the one person i trusted so much betrayed me to this extent, i've lost everything' especially after he basically chose Lustre over Oleander, and his heart literally shattered. I love the angle that he WANTED to not feel anything, like it was almost a relief, and i can so see that being possible.

THIS BITCH REALLY MADE PLANS TO MEET ONE LI AT THE BEACH THEN DITCHED THEM TO BE OFFICIAL W SOMEONE ELSE.

And she just destroyed these two like I feel for them so hard right now they did not deserve this

be my big spoon, potter 😌💤

also me: 🥰🥰🥰