my manly diary

i am 19 years old, i use it/he pronouns, and i just started testosterone. i am on testogel, and i will be documenting my changes here.

i am on 40.5 mg as my dose (NOT PER PUMP. god i'm smart. i do 2 pumps), and i got my tgel through folx health

i'll be posting updates on my main of course lol, i just want an easier source of information for other people on testogel to have!

6 MONTHS ON TESTOSTERONE

heehee

this is the month in which i am noticing how hairy i actually am getting. like i notice more substantial hair growth than the last couple months. or maybe i'm finally just noticing it?

either way: more belly, arm, leg, thigh, and even armpit hair is growing more :3 (and of course. my feet hair LOL)

facial hair is still growing steady! eyebrows FOR SURE have gotten darker and thicker on the ends. some people have noticed my face shape getting more masculine? which i *kind of* see? it's subtle at least lol.

a week ago i measured my bottom growth, like with a shitty flimsy measurer so whatever. and i confirm that my dick size is 1 inches 💪🔥💯 (1.5 when hard btw)

and now my voice! yay! my voice feels more loud and less mumbly than it did pre testosterone. it also has more depth too :3

i don't give a fuck here's my foot

first of all: i noticed this pretty early on, but it just hit me again. i just feel so happy! like i just wanna smile all day. i also feel much more connected to my sad emotions too. which is #Awesome because i didn't want that initially. but whateverrrrrr i don't care too much anymore

no substantial changes in body hair. yesterday i noticed more stomach hair though, and the hair on my thighs is getting darker too now. so yes, my body hair is slowly yet steadily growing more :3

my facial hair, on the other hand, is more noticeable than my body hair to me with its growth! i still 💚 my neckbeard life + my peachfuzz above my lip is growing darker too

voice is getting a little deeper and i'm getting more voice cracks

AND.....NO MORE PERIODS 💪🔥💯

my arms are for sure getting hairy LOL. like my friend jonah pointed it out to me. other than that, my leg and thigh hair are thickening out more, i'm slowly growing more armpit, stomach, and chest hair. just more of the same, again. literally just checked and i'm starting to grow feet hair LMAO.

i haven't shaved my facial hair in a while. this is because i promised jonah that i would dress up with him for halloween and i don't wanna wear fake facial hair. and yay 💚 i love my neckbeard life 💚 like wow i sure do have hair on my neck and chin! it isn't *too* visible yet? but like if you're looking for it then you'll see it. and you can for sure feel it.

my voice has FINALLY started getting changes! my boyfriend and jonah have both noticed it getting deeper :3 and my adam's apple is now slightly visible! i took a video of it moving up and down to show my bf. yay!

i have a cold rn so i will do a voice update when my throat isn't killing me 👍

our period is just about gone. our last period was literally just light spotting. didn't even need a pad! it will probably be gone next month?

and the most important change:

i now know how to jerk off in a way that consistently feels good. yay!

it really is just more of the same, so this will be a small update

the main change i've been getting 3 months in is just all the hair LOL. just more arm hair, more leg hair, and more chest and stomach hair. i am starting to grow hair on my thighs though, so that's a new change?

my facial hair does grow back after being shaved, though it does take a couple weeks lol. i'm prolly gonna shave after my shower in a bit :3

no major changes in voice, but i can finally feel my adam's apple when i place my hand on my throat and hum! before i couldn't feel anything there at all, so even if the voice changes are slow, there are changes going on 👍

i think our bottom growth is just about done. just eyeballing it, it is half an inch when soft, and an inch when erect.

i am still learning how to like. jerk off with it though LOL. literally drugs are a godsend, i have little sensation from direct stimulation otherwise. #dysphoria

(as a quick note: if you're like me, and don't get much pleasure from jerking off your bottom growth directly: GET A PACKER. packers are the only consistent way for me to get off. i have a normal soft packer that i wear daily, and a hard packer: a realistic dildo with a suction on the end that i put on my dick. you don't have to be stuck masturbating with your current genital situation, you can literally have fun with it and experiment.)

only other real change was our period. we only really had 1.5 days of an actual period. the rest was just mild to very little spotting that i didn't even need a pad for lol. nothing other than spotting + our period length was affected. (we thought our period started early, but that was the light spotting. we had our actual period just around on time)

anyways that's it :3