man! I feel like an extraterrestial sometimes!

Gonna retouch my roots this weekend. Its getting ridiculous. I look like Im cosplaying being a cool girl instead of actually rebelling against social norms for proper high school girls. I wish I could make it into a girls night with snacks drinks and a kitschy movie but my mom would not have that. She despises everything about my hair already.

There is such emptiness in my mind. I love being surrounded by people. Talking makes my brains stop. Literaly. But afterwards I often get embarrased by the thing I said and the things I didnt.

If I had a nickel for every time my favorite guy in an anime is killed by having a hole punched through their stomach, I'd have two nickles. Which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice.

A sparrow flew into our english class today. He was so cute a chunky and sad looking. Iam gratefull that he woke me up and disruted the boring speach about some dystopic shit I already knew but he just looked so sad. I dunno. Everybody cheered for it but when he flew out again I just wished he would wait so I could give him seed and a word of encourigement. He is prpbably dead by now, or will be soon.

Fuckin hate exams. I always get caught up in that brain fog and never get to study as I would like.

Im heading to the old silo with Merci today and we are so gonna get cursed.