When self doubt is too loud - a thank you to Domâs
I was fixing up my hair a few weeks ago. We were getting ready to head out on a family outing. While I am far from perfect I was feeling calm about my outside appearance. Grabbing a strand of hair to curl I saw a glimmer of what I thought was a loose thread. At 33 it was my first grey.
I did what I assumed was the appropriate response given that I had just realized on top of all my other insecurities Iâm getting OLD! Full stop, disregard for near perfect makeup I broke down in ugly tears after ripping that grey little demon from my scalp.
@daddysparrow has been grey for years, itâs actually super hot. I think it makes him look distinguished and Hella sexy. I adore his salt and pepper look. I was able to compose myself, fix my face and get on with my day, listening to the demon whisper.
The whole situation has been playing in my head. The double standard of aging and negative body image between males and females. I know without a doubt @daddysparrow loves me; my curves, wrinkles, and imperfections. So why canât I? Why canât my submission to him be enough to to silence the self doubt. Why does my inability to silence the self doubting demon spiral into me feeling like a horrible submissive because I canât let his rule of no self hate empower me.
I can remember being very young and struggling with distorted self image. I can tell you I wish I was as âfatâ as I was back then when I thought I was fat. The reality is Daddies, Domâs and Masterâs you have the whole world against you.
Media, advertising and even those women who struggle to spread kindness; their voices have been in my(probably your submissive too) head for my entire life. Wrinkle cream, hair colour, diet plans, waist trainers, booty enhancing creams and letâs not forget that plastic surgeons make a fortune on feeding the self doubt monsters.
There are very few issues that women face in regards to our body image that doesnât have at least 30 commercial products that falsely claim to be able to fix our imperfections. While I know some men deal with these self doubting demons too and for that I am so sorry. I do feel thought that it is an issue that preys on women more.
Daddies, Domâs and Masterâs in the community I am so so sorry on behalf of myself and all the other submissives that struggle to hear your voices in the hurricanes of self doubt. We hear you, we love you, we want to obey, we want our brains to obey and you are a breath of fresh air in our lives.
When you look at us naked, bare faced, Â wrinkles, imperfections and grey hairs and tell us we are the most beautiful girls in the world; you empower us with strength. You stand with us against the demons of self doubt. When our self doubt demon becomes too scary, you let us use your love as our shields.
Daddies, Domâs and Masterâs we love you, we are so thankful for you! Without you we would drown in the negative words the outside world throws at us. I canât imagine the task you embark on taking on a submissive is easy. Thank you for choosing to be there always to build us up even though the world around us seems to be knocking us down.
Love you to the moon and back âĽď¸đž
Thought I would tag a few thank you to the Domâs and a reminder to the Subs to ignore their own self doubt demons
@daddysparrow @instructor144 @thefoxof86 @bigbadwolf-ish @dominantlife @amysubmits @wolfpack-princesskitty @lifeafterthetunnel @kuriouzme15 @submissive-seeking @subspace-blog @babygirl-1972 @bellandherbeast @kinkyprincessub @stark-1972