H O P E

The worst part is knowing I can’t cry for the next 11 hours

I just want to be loved the way I love

My own parents don’t want me why would a random dude then

Can’t wait to get out of work, sit in my car and cry

In too deep to get out now

What if at the end of it all you say no while I am wired on yes already, how am I supposed to survive that?

Turns out my overthinking was justified

The hardest part of it is having to go to work everyday like everything’s alright

Kinda hurts that I’m trying to fit you into my schedule as much as possible to hear that you don’t try to do that at all. I would be happy seeing you for even 5 minutes if nothing else was possible but somehow I’m not that important to you.

Only good at multitasking cause it’s the only way to shut up my overthinking

I’m afraid no one’s ever gonna love me the way I can love someone

Why does it already feel like I lost you?

So empty and yet so full of hurt

I want to trust you with my heart but I’m also preparing for the heartbreak… please don’t break it

It’s okay to break my heart, but breaking my cat’s heart is where I draw the line.

Gosh this shit fucking hurts.