i just want my mental illness to go away- to disappear. Like none of it ever happened or will ever happen again. I want to stop feeling insecure and hating myself for not being thin enough. I want to feel happy and excited about relationships instead of a constant fear of being abandoned. I want to stop reading into every single thing life throws my way n think the worst of it. Every detail makes me feel crazy. I feel crazy all the time. I want to feel less sad- why am I so sad. I’m just so sad. I dont know what to do. I just want to write stories and feel happy, to feel loved by my boyfriend and excited by what life has in store for me. I’m so sad and so afraid all the time.

plz dont ever leave me

i come 2 tumblr see 21 notifs- get excited, just to find out its bobby doing his weekly spam

not a single thought is lust

tell me when its over dont make me ask come a lil closer n break me like glass

make it stop

why plz tell me why why why why does this feel this way am i crazy why

like genuinely wtf bro wtf

idk why im crying abt this i shouldnt b i feel dumb asf

kill me quick kill me fast

plz dont make me go back to tx

im gonna stay celibate 4 as long as possible so that wen i do eventually meet my soulmate it feels sooooo gooooddddd