i wished for you // choi jongho
a/n: meant to write a little something for Jongho's birthday and wouldn't you know it, I forgot every time I thought about it. I wrote this sappy shit while taking one of the longest baths of my life today so enjoy!
warnings: none really outside of the mention of alcohol/being drunk? a little lovesick bullshit here?? a little self-indulgent fluff there???
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It wasnât uncommon for you to return home from work to find a voicemail from Jongho waiting for you. In fact, the two of you had been engaged in a playful game of voicemail tag for the past week and a half, navigating the challenges of time differences and your hectic schedules. Yet, even though you would have preferred to hear his voice directly, there was something comforting about receiving those little snippets of himâlike a sweet surprise at the end of a long, dreary day.
Most of his voicemails were usually straightforwardâbrief updates about his day, questions about yours, the usual exchanges that kept you connected across the miles. But tonightâs voicemail was much different.
âOk, so I know we just got to the point of saying âI love youâ recently,â he began, a playful tone to his voice as though he was already aware of how this might sound. "So I hope this doesnât freak you out, but Iâm a weeeee bit drunk." You could picture him grinning sheepishly, the way he always did when he was nervous or about to say something he thought might make you laugh. He continued, âAnd when the guys had me blow out the candles on my cake tonight, I wished for you."
You paused when you heard those words. "I wished for you." It sounded so simple, but it carried a weight you werenât expecting. He already had youâwhat more could he wish for? The thought lingered for a moment before he quickly clarified, his tone a little softer now, a touch more serious.
"Not like... I didn't actually wish FOR you. I already have you, duh." You couldnât help but smile at that, imagining the playful roll of his eyes as he said it. "But I wished for you to always be with me, which is so stupid because I know you could never just drop everything and run around the world with me." His voice dipped slightly, as if he was wrestling with the reality of the situation, acknowledging how far-fetched his wish really was. And yet, there was something so genuine about the way he said it, something so heartfelt that it made your chest tighten.
He paused for a moment, as though he was trying to gather his thoughts or maybe second-guessing whether he should keep going, but then he pushed on. âBut still, I wished that by some miracle we could just be alone together for the rest of our lives.â
Thatâs when the weight of his words really sank in. He wasnât just talking about wanting you by his side during the fun, easy moments. He was talking about the kind of deep, unwavering connection where nothingâno job, no obligation, no distanceâcould ever come between you. It was the kind of wish you made when youâre so completely in love with someone that you canât imagine a life without them.
In his slightly tipsy, vulnerable state, he was letting you in on something raw and real: the dream of having you all to himself, of being able to live in a world where it was just the two of you, free from the chaos of everyday life. It was the kind of wish that, while impossible, was filled with so much love and longing that it made your heart ache a little. He knew it wasnât realisticâhe even said soâbut that didnât stop him from wishing for it anyway. There was something achingly romantic about that.
Then came the part that made you smile the most: âDid that make sense?â You could practically hear him blushing on the other end of the line, embarrassed by how open he had just been, how he had let his guard down completely. And before you could even process everything heâd said, he wrapped it up with a quick, âItâs ok, love you, goodnight,â like he needed to get the last few words out before his courage faded.
That voicemailâjust a simple, drunken messageâfelt like you were getting to peek through a window that lead straight to his heart. It wasnât just about the words âI love youâ that youâd both recently started saying; it was about the kind of love that made him wish, without hesitation, that you could always be together. His wish wasnât about material things or fleeting moments. It was about living a life where it was just the two of you, lost in your own little world.
Sure, he laughed it off a bit, tried to make it seem like it was no big deal, but you knew better. There was something so sincere, so deeply affectionate in his words that you couldnât help but feel your heart swell as you listened. It wasnât just the alcohol talkingâthis was him, unfiltered, admitting that he couldnât imagine his life without you in it, and wishing that somehow, youâd never have to be apart.
No matter what, you were determined to make his birthday wish a reality. After all, it was your wish too, and youâd tell him that as soon as his hangover subsided the next day.