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So, I made the mistake of going to the Donald Trump rally here in Memphis. Just for the spectacle, because I guess it hadn't really dawned on me how unfunny this really has become. Walking up to the hangar where it was being held, still cracking jokes about it, it didn't hit me until we got up to where they were selling all of the merchandise. I still hadn't heard any of the stuff you hear about his supporters saying on tv yet, but you could feel it in the air. There was just something about it that made you feel uneasy. That is if you're not a Trump enthusiast. So we went to the bathrooms before heading in to hear him talk, and while waiting for my wife to get done I noticed some black lives matter activists and a group of people crowded around them hurling their insults and belittling them. And yet, it still didn't entirely register I guess. Until we were walking in and some douche yelled "You forgot a color!" to someone holding a sign that read Black and brown lives matter. And that was it. Couldn't take it anymore and yelled Shut the fuck at him. Don't think he heard me, but, whatever. And that is when I couldn't handle being there anymore. I was so angry, sad, depressed, just every emotion at once, that people could act this way. You see these things on tv, you know this exists and happens everywhere, but until you witness it happen right in front of you, it means nothing. And this is why "Make America Great Again" is a fucking lie. A joke. There is nothing great about dividing a nation like this. Creating a divide on hate, bigotry, xenophobia, is not what makes us great. It makes us weak. I don't know where else to go with this rant. I've just been super depressed ever since this disgusting display of hatred and misunderstanding and misinformation.

So, just strolling along throughout Tumblr land. And.... Men's Rights Activist Groups exist??? Dafuq? I can't figure out why? Can anyone else? Like seriously dudes, get your shit together. Man the fuck up and quit bitching. You look like some pansy ass bitches. Jussayin. Not once in my life have I felt "oppressed" by a woman. My wife makes more money than I do. Big fucking deal. And guys that feel the need to hit women to feel powerful, to exert their will on others... go fuck yourselves. We as a sex don't need you around. Go jump head first into traffic please. And then I hear things like "oh, it's how they were raised." Gtfo. I was raised in that shit and I have never raised my hand at my wife. Sometimes I might yell if I get a little worked up but that's still not right and I always feel like a huge douche afterwards. You choke that shit down and move on. Masculinity isn't the same as it used to be. Nothing my wife, or any other woman does makes me feel less like a man. Iono. That shit pisses me off. I guess I'm just old fashioned like that. Or I just grew up around women that refuse to take any shit. My grandmother did tell my grandfather that if he even raised his hand at her she would straight up leave his ass. I could totally go on for days ranting about this.

I was just talking on the phone with my wife, who is a second grade teacher by the way. And she was talking about this girl we know who lost a diamond in the ocean and these are the words that came out of her mouth. "What a dumb bitch! Who takes a diamond ring into the fucking ocean?" This is one of the big reasons I love her. Haha.

It's hard to explain to people why you're obsessed so much with certain books. For me it's the Game of Thrones series and I just finished Dance with Dragons and after Jon Snow died I just wanted to curl up in a ball and listen to sad music all day. I didn't even want to finish the book. And you just can't explain to people who aren't fans how you feel about a fictional character. I feel like I lost a friend. George R.R. Martin is a cruel man.

Today sucks and it just started. My fleet manager told me the load was due at 10am today and then calls me at 8:30 telling me I'm late and that it was due at 7 so now I have the pleasure of sitting at this truck stop in the middle if nowhere until 7 tomorrow morning. I just want to go home. All of this is so overwhelming and I don't feel like I'm cut out of for this.

I hate being away from home and the wife but it is cool being in a new city like Philadelphia. Hopefully next weekend I can get out of the motel and explore the city. Home is on the left, Philly on the right.

So, I will be married for a year in a week and I won't be home to celebrate. So sad. We have been together for almost 8 years and she is still the love of my life and I couldn't even imagine being with anyone else. She is also the most beautiful woman in the world and an awesome teacher at that. I'm so lucky to have her.

Holy hell I am completely obsessed with this series. Absolutely the best I've read since probably Harry Potter. Lol. Love it. George R. R. Martin is just amazing.

So I started trucking Tuesday and I must say it is one of the hardest things I've ever done. To say I miss the hell out of my wife doesn't even scratch the surface of how much I miss her. Just gotta keep on truckin.