âȘ á” ˹á”á”á”ʞ đŠđ« . . . fog threading through conifer silhouettes ; the ache of unspoken things passed between glances ; old denim soaked through with rain ; wind through tall grass where secrets were buried ; ghosts you swore you outran returning with the moon ; silence that lingers just a little too long .
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whitmer is a social butterfly for pay, usually. but he thinks it's important to show his face at events like this. as if anyone would notice his absence. anyway, there's also the matter of free food, which is something he can't really say no to, not when the alternative is ramen or a bowl of cereal. he also doesn't have any excuse to visit the rez normally, and he likes it there, especially likes that it isn't forks. there's something very...serene in the air, maybe it's the water, maybe it's the tight-knit community, or maybe it's the fact that his finger has never itched to grab for his knife during his brief visits. whatever it is, he doesn't have time to put his finger on it before a familiar face interrupts his thoughts. "i am now," he says affably. whitmer grabs the marshmallows, opens the bag, and tilts it towards bodhi. "that's an exaggeration...right?"
it was a kind of cosmic misfortune, really, to wander into bodhiâs orbit. all fire, all fizz, all the time. he was a weather system in perpetual motion, and of course it would be someone wholly undeserving of such tempest whoâd drift too near. isnât that always the way? bodhiâs grin curves wider, as though heâd been waiting for this â this inevitability of soft-heartedness and generosity â when surely what he merited was someone to tell him to simmer down and quit filching mouthfuls from every dessert in sight. "love to hear that!" bodhi coaxes a âmallow from the bag with delicate, thieving fingertips, a small triumph he knows he couldnât have pulled off entirely on his own. "oh..." the syllable drapes from his lips, head tilting with a slow, almost mournful shake. "you got a big storm cominâ. because twelve is nothing to me. iâm actually shocked i went so low! letâs go sâmores for sâmores right now." no, bodhi⊠letâs not.
Marie did not recognize this intense man but she felt no threat by his discomfort. Hell, she probably was emitting the same vibes.
Marie nodded and picked up her red cup from the sand. She nodded it to him in a toast. "Nice to meet--er--see you, Callum." Fuck.
"First time at a bonfire, hmm? Well, I'm from here but I just got back, so if it hasn't changed too much. It will be lots of eating and story telling." She shrugged. "It's a fun time. Take a seat, the elders always do a great job. Shouldn't be long now."
She squinted at him, "Say, how long have you been in town?"
callum tipped his chin in a small, unspoken exchange â right back at ya â without having to loose the words into the air. "yeah, first time." first time at any sort of town gathering, truth be told; maybe it was the rarity of such an event that had him here, or maybe it was the quiet lure of knowing almost everyone would be in one place (more chances to see if anything was... off). "right. that doesn't sound too bad." he wasnât even sure he meant it, only that it was the sort of thing people said, a fragile bridge between silence and something like connection. he paused, hand drifting to scratch at his beard, a gesture to suggest the answer wasnât already etched in his mind â down to the exact day. when he finally spoke, it was with something deliberately plain. normal. "about three years." he didnât ask her what had brought her back, or what growing up here had been like. he simply let the words settle between them, an invisible weight in the air, wondering if sheâd notice the weight of the silence left there.
callum had only stepped forward long enough to notice the way she kept stepping back, a slow and quiet retreat. and though he was a strange sort â silent more often than not, a shadow lingering at the edge of things â pushy was the last thing he ever was. at least, not without cause. so he stopped, rooted where the air seemed to thin, and let the space stretch between them like a taut thread, the two of them still caught in the same pale orbit. "i'm trying to look, too." the words slipped from him without edge, without the sour taste of accusation. there was nothing in them but truth, even if he knew â deep down â that he was no help at all, just another pair of eyes in a forest that had already been scoured by dozens before him, when the search first began.
"most people are gone now. figured peace and quiet would make it easier to keep an eye out." his arms folded loosely over his chest, gaze flickering across the latticework of trees. "i'm sure you are." the agreement came easily, though his eyes lingered on her, cataloguing each faint shift in her stance. suspicion was his natural state â worn into him like an old habit â and most days it was nothing more than the rhythm of human caution. but this... this was something else. nerves stretched thin? the echo of the disappearance settling in her bones? he hoped that was all. "you know your way out of here? i'm afraid i got myself mixed up." a lie, smooth and unhurried, not a tremor in his tone nor a falter in the beat of his heart. just callum, lingering for no reason he could name, unwilling â perhaps unable â to step out of her presence just yet.
''three in- just be quiet, that's actually disgusting, how dare you?'' she pretended to be revolted by his hair care routine before letting out a laugh. she looked at him, her eyes sparkling as she lowered her phone.
âfrom the good of my heart? please,â she teased, waving her phone at him. âthis is skilled labor. iâm doing very important research here. - you think googling 'how to not set a marshmallow on fire' is easy?â
she tapped her chin, pretending to think it over with a serious face as soon as he mentioned the trade. âhmm, a stolen lemon bar⊠youâre offering me black market goods as payment? mischievousâ a huge grin spread across her face, her dimples going deep into her cheeks. âokay. i think this would make an acceptable form of payment.â
âpleasure doing business with you, please put it inside my jacket pocket or else, i'll burn your s'moresâ she demanded, finally starting to put a sâmore together for him. âso whatâs the deal with this lemon bar? did you have to fight someone for it or something?â
bodhi couldnât help the laugh that burst free â spilling out like sunlight through a crack in storm clouds. "how dare i? how dare you! you couldnât possibly think iâd use shit like that⊠honestly, you really believed me? it hurts more than you could ever know." the words rode the curl of a smirk as he shook his head in mock frustration. the performance softened, dissolving into raised brows. "oh⊠right, right. of course. how could i forget! fingers tapping on a screen is almost as much work as shoving a marshmallow on a sand-covered stick and stick it in a fire. which is super hard, too. really, this is incredible stuff." when she accepted the lemon bar, his face lit as though heâd just pulled the winning lotto number. "score! i knew this little fucker would help me." with casual efficiency, he tucked the beer bottle under his arm, freeing one hand to slip into his pocket.
the lemon square â wrapped in a napkin like an afterthought, now flattened and tragically unphotogenic â was raised in brief, triumphant display. "lemon bar incoming." he slipped it into the pocket of her jacket before reclaiming his drink. "little do you know, the key to a good marshmallow is burnt, just before it starts falling off the stick, so that wouldnât even bother me." he punctuated it with a shrug and an insincere, smug curl of the lips. the lemon barâs tale unraveled with a lazy flick of words. "eh, more or less. more like i kept sneaking behind people and taking shit off the tables so i wouldnât get yelled at for eating too much. less about actually fighting somebody for it. too much attention, you know? iâm a very chill guy, like to fly under the radar." not true. not even close.
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a sly nod unfurls between them, stitched with half-jokes and a lazy glint, as he hears her claim she doesnât lie. as if he doesnât feel that subtle, telltale shift beneath in his skin that would whisper otherwise. that was always the most humorous thing â humorous in the way vinegar is sharp on the tongue â about his gift. still, distraction comes easily to him; he can scent something else on the wind and let it carry him away. besides, clara was never the kind of person he kept on the watchlist of his mind â never the kind of person he thought he had to. just donât let anyone else hear that; shifters are supposed to despise those who drink from the living, even if theyâre only half leech. "i would put s'mores chef at the top of the list, honestly. but fine, fine! i take it back. a truther, not a liar." bodhiâs hands rise in exaggerated surrender for a heartbeat or two before falling again, his lips hooked in that stupid, effortless smile. his gaze is careful, following the delicate ritual of her assembling the confection in front of him.
his hand slips out to claim the chocolate-laden marvel, a quick nod of approval. "you know what? it'll do... i guess." the words drip with mock disdain â like he wouldnât eat something that had been dropped in the sand mere minutes before â and yet, half the thing vanishes into his mouth before sheâs even finished asking about a review. heâs only half listening, half living in the sugar haze, muttering something that barely resembles a question before lifting a single finger in front of him, cheeks full. he shoves the sweetness to one side of his mouth so he can speak, lips parting just enough. "okay, so even if it's bad, i have to tell you it's good? well... it's good, clara. i'm forever in your debt." the remnants slide down his throat, and the second half of the sâmore is caught between his teeth â not yet chewed â as he bends in an overly theatrical bow before her. "how can i ever repay you?"
he moved through the gathering with the single-minded air of someone on a sacred quest to secure as much food as possible â stored away, perhaps, for some imagined famine. as though bodhi would ever truly want for food! but if he kept his focus tethered to the fullness of plates, the hum of music, the crackle of fire, the endless hush-and-roar of waves against the shore â perhaps then he could set aside that aching knot in his chest, the tangled threads of everybodyâs emotions pressing in on him: the anxiousness, the fleeting contentment, the quiet strain, the old and festering hates. the familiar presence beside him smoothed the edges of his thoughts, though the first words he caught made his face crumple into mock astonishment. "you... you don't know how to make s'mores." he declared, as if the thought itself demanded a long, somber reflection. "i think this is one of the worst heartbreaks i've ever experienced." oh, bodhi was nothing if not theatrical. his head bowed in feigned mourning for a moment before he straightened again, bright-eyed. "eh, that's alright! wouldn't wanna enjoy these without a proper s'mores connoisseur. what's your go-to bonfire food then, huh? burn a hotdog over the open flame? chips and dip? which is probably super warm now, by the way. or some secret third option?"
more often than not, bodhi found himself circling the same quiet wonder, like a stone skipping over water: how did i get so lucky? how did i stumble, graceless and fumbling, into the orbit of winnie? the gentle, steadfast girl with a kindness that asked for nothing in return. she was stitched into the fabric of his life longer than almost anything else he could name. there had once been â back when they first shifted â a shadowed whisper in the back of his mind, that inevitable, gnawing fear: she might grow tired of him. back then, heâd been a wreck, all jagged edges and emotional white noise, the relentless flood of feeling and the sudden silences that followed. but she didnât leave. she showed up. and again. and again, and again, and again. even when he was sure he didnât deserve it. so heâd stopped worrying about her going. most days, when his mind was steady enough to hold a thought, he simply let himself feel the quiet gravity of her presence â his gratitude not loud, but bone-deep.
his gaze slid sideways toward her, a soft tsk breaking the moment. "yeah, i do. and i remember wanting to beat your ass for it." his head shook, almost absentminded. "yeah, well... trust is earned, win. and they havenât really earned anything from us. from me." the truth of it ran all the way into his marrow â he was built on the creed of: i trust you until you prove me wrong. and every soul standing across the unspoken battle lines of their bloodline was living proof of why. still, her next words drew a laugh from him, and he felt something small and tense unwind in his chest. "yeah, 'course i do! somebodyâs gotta do it. we canât always be sunshine and rainbows all the time, huh?" he nudged her shoulder with his own, a wordless gesture made warmer by the slight tilt of his head. "shakes on you, burgers on me. donât let me eat more than three... i think i kinda outdid myself on the desserts tonight. i might be... a little more energized than normal."
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there wasnât much he could do that others couldnât â he knew that in the quiet, unlit corners of himself â but still, that knowledge never stopped him from trying something. anything. to press his hands against the fraying edges of a situation and hope it might hold. though heâd always rather slip between shadows, unnoticed, there were rare, sharp moments when he abandoned the comfort of anonymity. a missing teenage girl in the woods of the town his father last pointed to â well, maybe that was one of those moments. he hadnât thought to bring a flashlight, hadnât reached for one even when they were offered. so callum was just wandering, really, threading his way between trees whose branches reached like skeletal hands, without any clear direction to follow. that was â until a thin beam of light ahead cut through the dark, catching his eye. it swung toward him, and instinctively, he squinted, gaze dropping to escape the glare. "sucks." he says, and for once, he means it. not a tossed-off line to plug the gaps in conversation, but something felt, something lodged in his chest. "sounds like sheâs not here." callum steps closer, the ground whispering underfoot, eyes sweeping the space between the trunks. "or, really, anywhere near here." thatâs helpful, thank you.
Declan had been circling the fire for most of the night, never lingering long enough in one place to be drawn into anything deeper than small talk. He liked it that wayâmoving through the warmth without letting it get under his skin. Still, the gravity of certain people was harder to sidestep, and Bodhi was one of them. He came up behind him just in time to see the precarious balance of graham crackers, chocolate, and marshmallow bag all threatening to collapse.
âYouâre a disaster waiting to happen,â Declan said, voice even, but with the faintest curve at the corner of his mouth. He plucked the marshmallows from Bodhiâs reach before they could tumble into the sand, holding the bag just out of his grasp for a beat longer than necessary.
âRelax. Iâm here for sâmores.â He dropped onto the log beside him, leaving a small, deliberate space between them. âBut twelve? You planning to run laps around the beach after, or just let the sugar turn you feral?â There was an ease in his tone, but not quite comfortâlike they were both playing their parts in a familiar script neither of them had agreed to write. Declan tore the marshmallow bag open and slid it across the gap between them, meeting Bodhiâs gaze with a look that was somewhere between a challenge and an unspoken truce.
âGo on then,â he said. âShow me how a professional does it.â
it wasnât declanâs fault â none of it was â but knowing that did little to ease the strange, bitter twist bodhi felt coil low in his gut whenever the man was near. there was nothing malicious in declanâs gaze, only a persistent curiosity, a quiet hunger to belong, to be part of something larger than himself â and, worse, he got that belonging without ever having to ask. bodhi knew the fault lived in himself, curled in the marrow of his bones like some old, familiar ache. he understood, in the abstract, why he couldnât just open the door and let declan in. maybe it was pride. maybe fear. maybe something meaner. because bodhi had been born into this â the rhythm of it all, the rituals, the unspoken rules that clung like fog. he had clawed his way into a name, brick by bloody brick, and still... still, it felt like too little.
especially when standing beside someone so new, so wide-eyed, so easily adored. declan had been folded into graypine like heâd always belonged. laughter had found him quickly. arms had opened. a space was made without question or cost. and bodhi, watching from a step removed, reminded himself â over and over â that this was who they were. this was the good in them. but they'd never had someone like declan before. not like this, not so soon. and it didnât matter that bodhi could feel the truth of declan â good, decent, earnest to a fault. the old instinct still flared when declan reached for the bag of marshmallows, the same one bodhi had asked someone to grab. a small, sharp thing twisted in him. unwelcome, but there. his laugh came too quick, too shaped to sound real. a poor performance.
"better not take all the good 'mellows." he said. it shouldâve been paired with a grin, crooked and easy. anyone else wouldâve gotten that smile. but for declan, it barely rose before falling flat. he had to get his shit together. "twelve is the sweet spot. literally. with twelve, i have just enough energy to do suicides across the beach for five minutes. tire myself out, be quiet. it's really for everybody's benefit." he plucked one marshmallow from the bag and took up the forgotten stick, spearing the pillowy white center like it owed him something. "hope you're okay with the smell of char." he added, voice dipping as he eased the marshmallow into the flame. "no better way to enjoy a dozen of these fuckers. gotta get 'em crispy."
attending  the  bonfire  is  a  rather  tried  and  true  lesson  in  loneliness  for  siobhan  ➻  the  familiar  sensation  of  entering  all  manner  of  situations  uninvited  ,     and  yet  with  her  head  still  held  unhindered  and  high.  for  even  with  the  open  invitation  extended  to  all  ,     it's  waddling  into  a  sea  of  unfamiliar  faces  and  rather  worryingly  delicious  scents  that  has  her  chasing  a  lifeline  ;     clinging  to  the  first  recognizable  face  she  sees.  accompanied  by  the  overwhelming  scent  of  sweetness  ,     this  time  of  a  more  human and chocolatey  kind  ,     and  the  hand  that  currently  holds  ,     the  distraction  comes  easy enough once she attempts to  pick  apart  the  sight  before  her  (  and  here  siobhan  thought  she  could  be  considered  greedy  for  overindulging  in  a  bite  of  flesh  or  two  ).  so  while  she  wasn't  certain  as  to  how  exactly  a  s'more  would  taste  ,     there  was  no  way  it  justified  the  eating  of  an  entire  dozen  of  the  overly sticky  treats.    â    this  must  be  the  type  of  greed  they  talked  about  in  the  bible  ,     your  poor  ,     poor dentist.    â     plucking  the  bag  of  marshmallows  from  him  ,     she  fished  out  a  handful  to  have  at  the  ready  once  he  got  to  the  actual  roasting  bit.    â     âŠÂ  don't  you  need  a  stick  ?  ➻  you're  not  planning  on  sticking  your  entire  hand  into  the  fire  ,     are  you  ?  i  was  informed  the  barbecue  already  happened  at  six.    â
there was always something a little off about him â not in the alarming way, but in the way that made you look twice and wonder how someone like that slipped through the usual filters of the world. he moved through people like water over stones, smoothing them, never snagging. even the sharp ones couldnât seem to cut him. never snapped, never seethed. no grudges kept in his pockets, not even when others pressed them into his hands like coins. he had the sort of autonomy that felt rare â met people where they were, not where he wanted them to be. so when siobhan, half-blooded and wholly unbothered, settled in beside him, he didnât so much as flinch. "hmph." the laugh came out, short nod following. "bold of you to assume i even go to the dentist." and there it was again â that thing he did. some in-between creature of his own making, part mischief, part recklessness.
an eyebrow arched in her direction, lips curling into the barest hint of amusement. "and what if i did? i'd heal quick, you know. you should see it some time. pretty cool stuff." his voice had dropped, hushed like a secret between breaths â not out of fear, but performance. humans within earshot, yes, but easily deceived. always easier to dismiss the strange when itâs wrapped in humor. bodhi, ever the peculiar, ever the charmer, had a marshmallow stick lying idle in the sand. he picked it up, fingers brushing against the scorched tip, casual and soft. "see? good as new." sand still clung in tiny constellations, but he paid them no mind. "'mallow me." he offered the stick, point-first, like a knight offering a sword â or perhaps just a boy offering trouble in the shape of sugar.
you hear it before itâs spoken aloud.  the scent of it hits first  â  bitter like pine sap scorched on sun-hot stone,  curling around your ribs with a sharpness you mistake for your own breath catching.  something wrong, something leaving.  not death,  not quite.  but the kind of silence that follows it.  you try to ignore it.  you always do.  the low thrum of other people's grief has made a home in you, endless and echoing,  and youâve learned to let it pass through like wind through old screens.  but this  â  this clings.  it sings.
you feel wren in it.  not the boy you used to chase barefoot through tidepools or the one who used to throw pebbles at your window at midnight,  laughing like the moon belonged to him.  no.  this wren smells like ash and fury.  like heâs burned every road behind him just to make sure no one follows.
elias orders you to let him go.
his voice is steady,  final.  an alphaâs command pressed between his teeth like iron.  "heâs made his choice."  as if that could be enough.  as if choosing to walk away from the pack,  from you,  from the only thing keeping his bones from turning to dust under the weight of his loss  â  as if that choice didnât matter more than anything.  you nod.  you try to obey.  but your hands wonât stop shaking.
and when the others are asleep,  when the trees are thick with the hush of waiting things,  you slip from the house like a secret,  half-asleep and aching.  you follow the trail he left like a dare.  every snapped branch,  every half-formed footprint in the loam sings wrenwrenwren in your ears.  heâs not running.  not yet.  but heâs not looking back, either.  you find him just past bellwood lookout,  where the mist clings low to the ground and the trees hang like judgment.
he turns before you speak,  like he expected this.  his eyes are colder than you remember.  not angry  â  not yet.  just resigned.  like the world has already ended and youâre the only one who didnât notice.  "donât."  he says.  and you donât know what hurts more  â  that he knew you would come,  or that heâs already decided youâre not enough to stop him.
the air between you is damp with something unsaid,  something unspeakable.  you want to grab him,  shake him,  hold him,  scream.  instead,  your voice splinters out of you like breaking bark:  "you donât have to do this."  and his laugh is a knife,  soft and cruel.  "you think this is a choice?"  you take a step forward.  he doesnât move.  another.  still,  nothing.  you whisper his name like an apology.  and he flinches like itâs a curse.  somewhere inside you,  the wolf stirs.  but you donât let it rise.  not yet.
his breath fogs in the cold between you.  the world holds still  â  like even the forest is waiting to see what youâll do.  "youâre not thinking straight."  you say,  and itâs almost gentle,  like you can still talk him down from the edge.  "youâre hurting,  i know,  but leaving like this  â "
"donât."  he snaps,  louder now.  "donât you dare talk to me like iâm some broken thing you have to fix."  you swallow.  youâve never been good at arguments.  you flinch at raised voices,  let people storm past rather than stand in their way.  but not this.  not him.  "wren.  justâŠÂ  listen to yourself.  you donât even know who did it.  youâre chasing shadows,  ghosts,  rumors  â "
"and youâre doing nothing."  heâs shaking now  â  not from cold,  but from the sheer force of what heâs holding in.  "theyâre dead,  bodhi.  my family.  ripped apart like they were nothing.  and you just want to sit around and wait for elias to tell us itâs safe to breathe again?"
"heâs trying to keep us alive."
"no. heâs trying to keep us silent."  the words hit harder than a punch.  you step back before you mean to.  he sees it  â  how your faith fractures behind your eyes  â  and it only makes him angrier.  "you think peace is gonna save us?  that if we just play nice and bare our throats long enough,  theyâll stop killing us?"  his voice breaks.  "youâre dreaming."
you clench your fists at your sides.  "i believe in what weâve built.  in what we stand for."
"then youâre a coward."  you flinch.  not because itâs true  â  but because itâs him saying it.  because this is the boy who once curled up beside you under the stars and told you heâd follow you anywhere.  because this is the boy who now looks at you like youâre just another thing he has to leave behind.  "you think this is what they wouldâve wanted?"  you whisper.  "your family?  for you to run off half-feral into the woods,  looking for something to kill?"
"i think theyâd want me to care that theyâre gone."  he spits,  and thatâs the part that hurts most of all.  as if your grief isnât real because it doesnât make you bleed.  youâre too quiet for a moment.  then, soft:  "youâre not the only one who lost them."  his mouth twists.  "but iâm the only one willing to do something about it."  and with that, he turns his back.
you donât mean to follow.  you tell yourself you wonât.  that this is where it ends  â  this aching standoff in the trees,  two boys on opposite sides of a heartbreak neither of you can name.  but your legs move anyway,  slow and quiet,  pine needles soft beneath your boots.  like maybe if you just stay close enough,  you can still catch the pieces of him before they fall too far apart.
"donât follow me."  he growls over his shoulder.  you ignore it.  the forest thins near the ridge,  air sharper now,  wind moving fast between the trees.  your pulse is too loud.  but his  â  his is everything.  burnt copper.  salt.  lightning-struck wood.  you can feel his emotions tangling in your throat before you get close enough to speak again.
grief, wild and bladed.  anger,  wrapped in the wet bark of exhaustion.  and beneath it  â  something like guilt.  like he knows.  "please."  you whisper.  "iâm not here to fight you."  he turns on you so fast the wind stutters.  "then leave."  his hand is already clenched into a fist.  yours isnât.  "you donât want this."  you say,  stepping closer.
he shoves you.  itâs not gentle.  not a warning.  he means it.  "you donât get to tell me what i want."  his voice cracks down the middle.  "you stayed. you watched them put the bodies in the ground and you still chose to believe in them."
"because i had to!"  the words tear out of you raw.  "because if i didnât,  iâd lose everything. and so will you."
"good."Â Â then he lunges.
your shoulder hits the dirt,  breath knocked from your lungs as his weight crashes over you.  fists now  â  clumsy,  human,  all sharp elbows and broken breathing.  you manage to shove him off,  roll to your feet,  hands up,  defensive.  you donât swing.  you wonât.
but he does.  again.  and again.  you dodge most of them.  one catches your cheek, another your ribs.  you taste blood. smell his.  and then heâs too angry for skin.  too grief-sick for words.  you smell the shift before it happens  â  muscle pulling,  bones reforming,  heat and fire and pain.  his scream breaks into a snarl halfway through.
the wolf that lands in front of you is nothing like the boy.  heâs taller,  leaner,  and brutal.  his eyes  â  still wrenâs  â  gleam with a hurt too deep for a human throat to carry.  he lunges.  you donât move fast enough.  his claws rip through your forearm,  white-hot and staggering.  the blood comes fast,  dripping to the leaves like melted rust.  your knees hit the ground.
and even now, even with the pain singing through every nerve, you hesitate.
but he doesnât.  he crouches again,  hackles raised,  ready to tear you open until thereâs nothing left of the boy who begged him to stay.  so you shift.  you donât hesitate now  â  thereâs no time.  the wolf is always there,  just beneath the surface, and you let it swallow you whole.
when your paws slam into the forest floor, the impact echoes up your spine.  your vision sharpens.  your heartbeat shatters into his.  and then  â  youâre inside the maelstrom.  his feelings hit you like a flood.
his motherâs voice.  his sistersâ laughter.  his blood screaming for justice.  the scent of their bodies,  long cold.  the silence of the house when he came back too late.  you stagger under it.  youâre hurting too much to see straight. you think,  voice-echo through the bond, thick and trembling.
his reply is all teeth:Â Â youâre still trying to save me like i didnât already burn.
then a lunge.  you leap back.  he slashes again  â  misses this time,  barely.  you circle each other through ferns and fog and pine-shadow,  breath ragged in tandem.
theyâre gone, bodhi. i have to do something.
youâll lose yourself too.  you plead,  pacing slow.  this isnât what they wouldâve wanted.
his snarl is pure heartbreak.  you donât get to talk about them.
he lunges again.  you catch his shoulder with your teeth  â  too hard,  not out of rage but hope,  some fractured instinct that maybe if you bite deep enough,  if you anchor him to the ache of this moment,  heâll remember.  not the pain,  but the belonging.  not the blood,  but the bond.
your jaws clench down like prayer,  like grief with fangs.  you donât mean to hurt him,  not really  â   but your teeth find bone,  and some desperate part of you begs:  feel this.  remember me.  come back.
he snarls,  lashes out,  but you open your mouth again and snap down on another part of him  â  his flank,  his ribs,  his past  â  anything.  anything to stop the unraveling.  to shake loose the ghost of the boy who used to laugh at your jokes and fall asleep on your shoulder and say: this pack is all weâve got, you know?
but he doesnât yield.  your teeth leave red in the fur.  your heart leaves more.  and still, it doesnât work.  his jaws clamp around your flank and you howl,  your leg crumpling beneath the pain.  blood in your mouth.  not his.  yours.
please stop.  please wren.  please  â  you can barely finish the thought before he tackles you again.  you hit the ground hard,  ribs cracking.  heâs over you,  fangs bared,  a deep growl building in his throat.  you could fight back.  you should.  but you feel it. all of it.  the rawness.  the unraveling.
youâre in too much pain to hear me.  you breathe the thought out soft and quiet as snowfall.
and then you stop fighting.  you lower your head.  you bare your throat.  the tension stills.  just for a breath.  just for a moment.
his claws still press to your side,  but he doesnât strike.  not yet.  you feel him hesitate  â  feel the shaking in his chest,  the tidal pull of grief giving way to something else.  something like sorrow.
why do you always let me hurt you?  he says,  barely more than a whisper in his head.
because i still believe youâll come back.
then  â  he lets you go.
you stay on the ground until he disappears into the trees,  the forest swallowing the sound of his retreat.  your blood soaks the moss.  your breath tastes like rust.
and still,  you do not call for help.  you only lie there,  and feel the shape of him fading through the bond like a song cut short.  like something you wonât stop waiting for.
you stumble back into graypine just before dawn.  the trees blur at the edges.  your wolf form unraveled halfway through the return,  body too broken to hold it,  and now youâre walking barefoot and shirtless,  blood-soaked and shaking,  carrying the forest in your bones.
you donât remember making it to the treeline.  only the way the moss stuck to your ribs.  only the way your name echoed once  â  twice  â  through the pack as they found you slumped at the edge of camp like a ghost come home.
hands grab you.  too many voices.  but none of them his.  you donât say his name.  not yet.  not until elias steps into the clearing,  face grim and unreadable.
"heâs not redmaw."  you choke out before anyone can ask.  "heâs  â  heâs grieving."  someoneâs pressing cloth to your arm.  it burns.  the slash is deep,  deeper than you realized.  too clean to be accidental.  too raw to forget.  you already know it wonât heal right.
"we have to go after him."  you breathe.  "to reach him."  eliasâs mouth is tight.  his silence says more than a hundred orders ever could.  "heâs not lost."  you say,  and your voice cracks like thin ice.  "not completely."
someone murmurs,  bodhi,  you need to lie down.   someone else says,  youâre bleeding through the bandage.   your head tips forward.  the world sways.
"please."  you whisper.  you donât remember if anyone answers.  the next few days pass in pieces.  pain comes and goes in waves.  they try not to let you see the way they look at you  â  like something fragile,  foolish,  already fading.
you stay in your room.  barely speak.  the armâs wrapped tight,  but it hurts to move,  hurts more to sleep.  you dream in teeth and forest-fire.  when you finally stand on your own again,  itâs raining.  you limp to the edge of camp, eyes scanning the treeline.  just in case.
but you already know what youâll find.  his scent is old.  cold.  washed away by time and weather and choice.  wren is gone.  and all you have left is the dull ache of your bones and the ragged scar winding up your forearm like a question that never gets answered.
still  â  you donât stop watching the trees.
he nods, slow and subtle, a quiet concession that brings him the faintest comfort â at least he wasnât the only one caught in that thought. but even shared understanding doesnât unmake the hollow bloom in his chest, the sour note clinging to the air, the way concern hangs like a fog around them, thick with unsaid things. he knows heâs letting it seep too deep, like he always does. knows thereâs nothing he can do, no lever to pull, no thread to unravel. and yet. still, it burrows. still, it stays. sometimes, he thinks itâd be easier to be like the others. something sturdy. useful. a blade the pack could wield instead of this⊠soft-wired creature, all open nerve and lingering ache. what is he supposed to do with all this feeling? sit with it? make peace? ridiculous. a work in progress, at best. his eyes remain fixed on the distance, but he can feel her gaze brushing against him like the tide. he pulls in a breath, full and slow. she hits him, and that gets him to look, to soften. the corner of his mouth lifts. "i'm fine." his voice is feather-light, but the sigh that follows tugs heavier. it says what he wonât: iâll be fine.
his jaw tightens when she speaks again. you can't figure out what happened to that girl. the words land heavy. he wants â desperately â for her to be wrong. wants it with the kind of yearning that coils tight in his gut. her hand finds his. he returns the pressure, a silent anchor, a wordless thanks. "i just hope she's okay. i hope that she really just got picked up or something. and maybe her phone died." his shoulders roll in a shrug, more defeat than indifference. a breath. "i guess we'll find out tomorrow." his brows draw inward, a flicker of thought passing like cloud over sun â he pictures how the redmaw might take this. not well. never well. "yeah, until they say fuck it and do something about it." he knows heâs spiraling, letting the worst-case tether him. he exhales, hard, and shakes the thought loose. "but you're right. we'll figure it out. they've done worse shit to us, i'm sure we'll make it out... alive." that last word drips with theatrical flair, a wry tilt of tone to pull the mood up by the collar. "what d'ya wanna do now? join the herd? get some food?" ever the hunger, bo. always.
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