@teddietedeezy

Because conversations became texting, arguments became phone calls, feelings became subliminal messages online, sex became easy, the word “love” gets used out of context, insecurities have become your way of thinking, getting jealous became a habit, trust has been lost, cheating became an accident, leaving became the only option & being hurt became natural.

we don’t get to choose who we fall for. They may mistreat us, ignore us or hurt us, but we stay with them. Why? It’s not because we’re stupid or we enjoy getting hurt, It’s because we can see the good in them, it’s because despite all the arguments, they are the ones who make us feel a certain way that no one else can & we value that feeling, & because our brains won’t allow them to leave our minds, & our hearts won’t allow them to leave our lives.

Have you ever wanted to text someone saying “I miss you”, then erased it & wrote “what’s up” instead? Or have you ever written a long paragraph in a text and you wrote down how you felt, & wanted to send it to someone special, but maybe you were afraid you weren’t gonna get a reply cause you made it awkward, so you just drafted it or erased the whole thing & didn’t bother texting them at all?

run back to those to hurt us, hold on to people we should let go of, argue over the stupidest things, be jealous of people who don’t even belong to us, give chances to people who don’t deserve it, trust the people who lie to us, pay attention to people who love to ignore us, push away the people who want to remain close with us, drift away from people who are attached to us, reject the people who admire us, choose to be with someone who have bad intentions with us.

I like you. And only you. No, I will not get bored of you. No, I will not lie to you. No, I will not lose feelings for you. No, I will not hurt you like someone from the past did. No, I won’t leave you for someone else. I understand these things happened before, but that doesn’t mean it’ll happen with me. If you spend most of our relationship being scared, it’ll end because you pushed me too far away. If things change, we’ll deal with it then, but until then, I’m all yours.

Let it be. If he really did care about you, he would have brushed the other girl off, he would have realized what he was doing was wrong, he would’ve told her to back off & go find someone else, but instead, he allowed her to take him away from you. & you don’t want a guy like that, cause that ain’t a man, that’s just another horny little boy. See, real men are loyal. And loyal men don’t get stolen.

You like someone, but you’re starting to get attached. & because you’re attached, you are being clingy. & because you are being clingy, you think you are being annoying cause you want to talk to them so much. & because you think you’re being annoying, you feel like you’re bothering them every time you talk to them. But really, you just enjoy talking to them. But you’re afraid they’re getting bored & sick of hearing from you.

The guys she doesn’t want, pay so much attention to her, they’re flirting with her, taking the time to talk to her, listen to her problems, be there for there when she’s feeling sad or upset, showing that they care. While the guy she does like, doesn’t pay attention to her, doesn’t hit her up first, doesn’t flirt or joke around with her, doesn’t really ask her what’s wrong and try to comfort her, always busy with other things, shows that he doesn’t really give a fuck.

It’s hard for me to trust someone after what I’ve been through. I’ve trusted people easily before, & what happened? I’ve been disappointed, lied to, cheated on, played like a fool. & I just can’t seem to get over what other people have done to me. & I know it isn’t fair for you cause you haven’t done anything to me, but I have to be careful, I have to expect the worst, I have to shut you out sometimes, as much as I don’t want to, for my own good.

chooses to stay with the guy who hurt her? Cause despite that, he knows how to make her happy. There may be cuter guys out there, but she doesn’t care about that cause to her, nobody can compare. He does more right things than wrong so she stays with him for all the right things he’s done and not leave him for that one mistake. And she knows no matter who she ends up with, they’re gonna fight regardless and she would rather deal with no one else, but him.

Where someone & I start talking and actually stay in contact. Where someone & I start hanging out and actually make time for each other. Where someone & I start getting to know each other and actually take the time to do it. Where someone & I start gaining feelings and actually make something out of it. Where someone & I would start fighting & actually work things out. Where I would meet someone and have them actually stay in my life. But, that seems impossible nowadays.

I hate my ex means I’d take them back.

Fuck it, I’m single. I need to be going out & enjoying myself, not mope around at home & stress over someone who isn’t stressing over me, I can’t be missing someone who isn’t missing me back, I can’t be staying home waiting for a text or call back when it ain’t even coming, I can’t be crying myself to sleep & wake up the next day still feeling like shit. I deserve better. Know your worth. Don’t ever let anybody make you feel like you’re not good enough.

Right now, you & someone aren’t on the best terms. You wish you guys can talk but it isn’t happening. So all you’re doing is visiting their social networks often to see if there’s anything new, you’re looking at old conversations from before, whenever you see that (1) in your inbox, you’re hoping it’s them but then you check it & it’s someone else & you’re disappointed. You wanna hit them up so bad, but you hold yourself back. So you wait..

You remember when you & someone first started talking? They’re always hitting you up with so much to say, they start the conversation, they help keep it going, you can tell they’re happy cause you guys are talking, when you say you gotta go they don’t want you to leave so you stay a little longer just for them? Then later on, the replies become dull, the replies come slower, sometimes there isn’t a reply at all. Happens with almost everyone it seems like.

are like; one guy, one girl. One person isn’t ready for a label, one person is willing to wait. One hoe is trying to steal the guy away, one player is trying to steal the girl away. One friend also has feelings for that one person, one friend doesn’t like that one person, one ex is trying to get back at that one person, one of them starts to get bored, one of them stops doing what they did to get them, one of them thinks it’s better off being just friends.

Somewhere in between our text messages, our phone calls, our jokes, our laughter, our talks, I fell for you. But I’m afraid somewhere in between us being together, the arguments will start, the crying will occur, the jealousy kicks in, the boredom strikes & we won’t be the way we are now. I like how we’re getting closer, but I’ve seen people get closer just to slowly separate later on. That’s what I’m afraid of cause it’s happened too many times.