Jax
(spoilers for ep 9)
Pomni could not save him.
Maybe it looked as if she were about to save him just as she had before. She would have chosen to help Jax every time if she could. But it would be unfair to put such a heavy responsibility on herself. One way or another she was going to miss a chance to save him. Because in the end it was never Pomni that could save Jax. It needed to be himself.
Jax in the digital circus is the timeline that he did not reach out. He did have a part of him that yearned for connection with others but his fear of being vulnerable is why he pushed everyone away. It was only when it was too late did Jax realize that most of his problems could have been resolved. The last thing he says is "I don't want to go". It reminds me of when I heard about people who jumped off the golden gate bridge and survived say they realized on the way down that their problems could have been resolved. Most people do not survive that fall, probably having the same realization.
Jax in the real world, Leeroy, is the timeline that he does reach out. We see the photos of him with friends at a queer bar! Leeroy may not have the most thriving life compared to the others but that's not what is important right now because he is ALIVE!!! Alive is enough.
















