tw: death, gore, abuse, disassociation, emeto, blood, general thump.
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"What the fuck did you do?" The voice is quiet. Barely louder than a whisper. The room is dark, Al hadn't tried to turn on the lights, but the voice is familiar enough. And it's tone is just about what he's been waiting for, really. Only a matter of time before the one person who'd never hurt him would raise a hand. He doesn't reply. Not worth the breath.
"Al, what the fuck did you do?" The light flickers on. Leon. Eyes more threatening than the blood which drips from his jaw, than the pistol in his hand, than his still bloody knife trailing crimson across the floorboards. Eyes which tell him immediately family counts for nothing now.
"Loyalty." Al's tone is flat and hollow. "I showed loyalty."
If possible, this makes things worse.
He doesn't react as a rough hand grabs him by the collar, pulling him to his feet. Doesn't change expression as the blood smears against his throat, still warm from being separated from its body. His feet hit the ground in a slow heavy march as Leon pulls him along. Out of the shed, down the drive. There isn't a single syllable which leaves either of their lips and Al is shoved carelessly into the dusty back seat of Leon's car, and as the elder takes the driver's seat.
"Back."
And that's that. The not-quite brothers are returning to his place of torture, not an hour after leaving. Al knows he should feel something about it. Terror. Dread. Betrayal. Maybe he will. Maybe he will when he feels connected to the body in the backseat, breathing, bleeding, and bearing his name.
The engine rumbles.
"Get out."
Al complies. He opens the door with numb fingers. His ripped sneakers crunch the gravel.
"Follow."
He does. The only sounds are his own light controlled breathing and Leon's tongue clicking patiently against the roof of his mouth. They come to a stop before the main door.
"Why did you bring me back here?" Al hears his mouth producing the words, although he isn't entirely sure he decided to say them. Leon's face isn't necessarily unreadable, but he doesn't recognise the expression. Regret, maybe. Pity, even, if that wouldn't contradict the circumstance.
"Al.. I need you to understand what you did." He says quietly. "I need you to know what this cost us."
"I got him back, Lee." Al says vaguely, looking absently around. He notes the wall is a lighter shade than it was in his torture chamber, briefly considering mentioning the decor.
"You didn't." The reply is simple.
"What do you mean I didn't?" His brain moves slowly, ticking through a train of thought at the speed of treacle.
"I mean," Leon stops himself, taking a breath. "I mean that we're down two."
This one is enough to knock some feeling into him. His eyes focus, snapping back to his brother.
There's more of a pause than he would have liked.
"We don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know?" Â His voice is accusatory.
Leon takes a breath, letting his lungs fill with the emotion that's dangerously close to presenting itself. He exhales only the air.
"I mean, Al, that Silas is missing. He never came back."
"Oh."
Suddenly, the shade of concrete becomes far more interesting again.
"Is that it? Oh?" Leon's tongue clucks in exasperation.
"Did you find..?" His voice trails off flatly. They both know what he's asking.
"The body isn't his, no."
This makes Al pause. His first thought is relief that Silas is alive, but it's quickly overshadowed.
"The body?"
"You need to see what you've done, Al." Leon's eyes are full of regret. And, he was right before. Full of pity, too. It does nothing to lessen the pit of dread forming in Al's chest, consuming his heart, then his lungs, eating its way through his body, though. He knows it won't save him from what's going to happen.
If Al's chest is sinking, Leon's is on fire.
"In a moment, I'm going to open the door," he says softly. "And you're going to see him."
Al nods, swallowing down rising panic. He still feels as though he's floating. Not connected.
Bloody knuckles grip the busted handle on the door, and as it's pulled ajar, Al takes a tentative step forwards.
"I didn't want it to be like this," Leon reminds him, urging him in. "But you need to understand. Actions have consequences."
The smell hits him first. It doesn't exactly break him out of his half trance, but it's one of the first senses to properly register. Something metallic and raw lingers at the surface, not quite hidden by the overwhelming scent of bleach and disinfectant. It's actually the disinfectant that sets him off in the end, out of everything. His next breath comes through his mouth to block out the smell, and rattles with the ghost of a sob.
"Leon," he gasps, reeling in the dark. "Leon, I really want to get out of here."
"Not yet," comes a reply through gritted teeth. Breathing faster, Al attempts to get his bearings, head spinning from the god awful smell of disinfectant. He can see it now, sloshing over the concrete, carrying away blood and sick as the uncaring men stood by, deciding how next to hurt them. To kill-
No. Shaking his head viciously in his panicked haze, his foot hits something and he sprawls over the floor, landing half over it.
"L-Leon, I fell, please," he hates how small and weak he sounds, but he can barely control his own breathing, let alone stand up. Too terrified and overwhelmed to do anything else, he just lays as still as he can in the dark, unable to see anything but the arm he used to cushion the fall. There's movement somewhere behind him, and he almost cries in relief when the lights flicker on, emitting a low hum. He twists awkwardly, desperately trying to look for Leon, to beg him to get them out of here. Unfortunately, he sees someone else.
A soft exhalation followed by a few seconds of breathlessness. A series of harsh shallow gasps. Then, he's pulling his legs off of it, kneeling on all fours, retching. There's nothing left in him  to throw up, but it doesn't change anything. When he comes to a shaky stop, he can barely bring himself to look at it. The word body hadn't fully registered to him in his trance, but it's hitting him in full now. The thing he'd tripped on hadn't been furniture, it was a corpse, still clinging onto a little warmth it had when it was alive.
Throat contracting, he shakily moves towards it, not daring to try to recognise the face. But he does. The gold and grey jacket, the pasty skin, and the long navy hair tied in a hasty bun.
"Jason?" He hesitantly reaches out to touch his stone-cold cheek, hardly aware of what he's doing. The feeling of the cold oily skin, like nothing he's felt before, makes him sob, and his eyes glaze. Maybe in another narrative, this would be the time when Leon would see how badly his brother was hurting and snap out of his own misery to comfort him. Unfortunately, this isn't another narrative.
"He's dead," Leon says gruffly.
"Can't be," Al chokes, reaching to brush a strand of Jason's dark hair out of his eyes. Harshly, a hand grabs him by the collar of his shirt, yanking him away so roughly that the fabric tears a little. Stumbling, Al wipes the tears out of his eyes and turns to face Leon, who's seething. "He can't be dead Lee," he half states, half pleads in a small pained voice.
"Look at him," Leon's voice is dangerously quiet, emotion threatening to spill over.
"I don't want to."
"Look at him!" His voice raises to a snarl.
Al looks down at Jason's corpse, distressed and confused. "I, I am, why are you-"
"Look what you've done!" He finally breaks, tears spilling down his face. "You're so fucking useless Al! All you had to do was listen. That's all you had to do!"
"I-I'm sorry," he stutters, stepping back. Leon waits a few seconds before lunging forwards, fists curling in the neck of Al's shirt.
"I've done so much to keep you all safe, I had it all fine but you just couldn't listen, huh? You just couldn't."
"Leon, I'm sorry," Al's voice rises to a strained sob, hyperventilating as he looks between his brother's eyes and his hands.
"'Sorry' doesn't bring him back!" He half screams, dropping Al before punching him hard. His fist connects with his stomach and Al cries out in pain, stumbling with teary eyes. Leon is fully crying, no longer able to control himself, and he looks Al dead in the eyes before looking away and knocking him back again with another punch.
"Please-" he barely manages to choke, doubling over in pain.
"He's fucking gone," the anger is still outweighing the sorrow, and Leon's eyes are closed as he slams his fists into Al again and again, each hit weaker than the last, until he's just standing there beside his brother's hunched figure, trembling. Mouth twisting into a grimace, he slumps to his knees. "He's gone.." he repeats, without a trace of fury. Just… hollow. Hurt.
"I'm sorry," Al whispers. They're there in the dimly lit room for a while, breathing heavily, until Al slowly takes a steadying breath, against his better judgement kneeling in front of Leon and hugging him fiercely. "I'm so sorry."
Unable to speak, Leon tightly pulls Al towards him, hiding his face as he begins to cry in earnest. Tears track lines through the dried dirt, blood, and sweat coating his cheeks and wet the front of Al's singlet. Neither one of them moves for a long time.
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