So let me preface this by saying that my family is safe and healthy and intact.

But there’s something very big and very hard and very unique brewing that I can’t talk about (and maybe never can/will) that I could use the collective Internet’s thoughts and prayers and whatnot while I figure out how to handle.

Vague, I know. And I might not ever make another post about it after this until/unless I have to.

But!

He said that Leo’s doing great and that his para from last year has said she’s noticed a huge difference, which is why I loveee that they moved her up with the class.

Last year, he had a teacher, a para, a Special Ed teacher, speech, and OT.

This year, its teacher, para, one Special Ed teacher, a different Special Ed teacher, speech, OT, and gifted.

The Special Ed teacher thing was definitely caused by other kids’ IEPs because he actually has less services than he did last year, and then he got into the baby version of the gifted program at the end of last year (which is like an hour a week instead of a full day). It just feels a little nuts when the school is so small that there’s only 2 first grade classes.

Except it’s been a freaking pain.

#1: Monday, pest control. Arrival window is literally all day (8-5). Showed up at 4:30, which is technically fine, but they texted Josh and not me when I verified TWICE and we had to leave for an hour after because of the baby. So dinner and bedtime was a hot mess.

#2: Today, the power company. Arrival window 8-12. Just pulled in at ONE THIRTY. But after we do this, we get up to like $5k in completely free energy efficiency upgrades, based on whatever this assessment shows.

Y’all 😂😂

He kept saying it over and over and the hardest part was actually getting a recording, because he’d stop talking and start looking at himself when he saw my phone.

Like first of all dude, you know why 🤦🏼‍♀️

Second, why are you asking right now, the 90000th time you’ve seen me pee, in a public bathroom?

But there’s some suspicion that he struggles with closing his mouth all the way internally (which is why he’s in feeding therapy) because of excess cheek tissue, and I’m wondering if that could stop him from making the m sound correctly.

Last time my MIL was here, she built a bunch of furniture for us and set up the baby’s room. I was 37 weeks pregnant and it was the best thing she ever could’ve done.

I’m truly only sort of kidding 😩

A month before the baby’s birthday: have done nothing else 🙃