now I’m afraid I broke my brain into parts to share

And none of them are any good to make up one

Should I have left you in space

For someone else’s womb

So I could undo this to you

I’ve watched every chest I love,

fall and rise peacefully

Mechanically

I only allow myself to breathe once you do

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If my breath stays shallow,

if my words stay in my throat,

I could save all of you from the cruel ness of

Tomorrow

The limits

I cannot reach

I will drown for you to breathe

I know there’s something waiting just around the corner for us,

I’ll pace the temporary home to find it.

There’s a piece of me

In everywhere I’ve laid my head

There are crumbs of me in corners

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I won all the riches, with no pockets to put it all in.

I stumbled upon gold when I went searching for desolation in mud.

I am always tugging at a rope at the bottom of the well

Please

Isn’t anybody looking for me at my worst?

I promise this time I won’t forget how fucking much I love the light

I’ll learn this time

What will it take? If not death

I still foster nostalgia selfishly

You were happy then

You were good then

You were lovely then

You were worth the

Exhale

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I think this is how people feel before they do something great