This four leaf clover's all but useless now

Lately my eating disorder thoughts have been getting quite active again after I had managed to get them under control. I hadn’t binged and purged in a long time, but since arriving to Barcelona, many external factors have triggered it and my self image is just getting bad. Also thanks to the fact that winted made me gain like 4 extra kilos, so you do the math. The thing is that I’ve been dealing with plenty of anxiety and depressive issues that have lead me to binge and purge several times in the past months and I don’t know what to do. I’ve noticed that I do it mostly when I’m stuck home alone without much to do, I’m just left here with my thoughts and I end up floating over to the kitchen where I just end up eating whatever I have in my pantry or fridge and... well things happen. 

I know I need therapy, I’m well aware and I honestly I’m looking for a professional who can help me. The thing is that for me it’s expensive and I’m currently jobless. Sadly wanting to have a healthy mental state is quite expensive...