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MUSIC OF THE DAY FOR 5/22/26

I have no bad things to say about these albums. I love them both so much. I am a huge Arranged in April fan. There music speaks to me so deeply. After my break up, it was putting what I couldn’t say into words. “The Carelessness Of Love” “Drowned In Your Silence” “For You I’ll Pull The Trigger” and “Liliana”. That break up was hard honestly. It was my first relationship, I didn’t know what love was before it. We were together for a year and like 6 months (I don’t count those last 2 months because of how cruel he was to me) I feel bad talking about it, I’m just beating a dead horse. When I first listened to Arranged In April, it was before me and him had broken up but were going through a hard patch. Each song began to fit into my life as if it was a puzzle.

“Carelessness Of Love”, me and him used to be inseparable. I loved him SO much. We couldn’t be apart, I remember violently crying when I couldn’t see him even if it was just a week. We just wanted to be together. Then that summer, he got weird. He talked to me less, acted completely uninterested when I had something to say, and stopped making efforts to see me. I noticed, I thought he was just going through something. It came out of nowhere, he just stopped communicating. It hurt, this person I love and care so deeply about doesn’t give a fuck about what I have to say. I felt it coming, I tried everything to mend it. I gave him every opportunity. He didn’t take it. That shows how much he cares. I tried to act like I didn’t care, that it didn’t hurt, but at one point he was my whole world. It was like watching a car crash, I couldn’t stop it. Behind my Mr. Tuff guy act, I was much like this song. Not to him, but to the unsent letters I had written to him. “I could love you endlessly, I’ve already loved you through eternities.”

“Drowned in Your Silence” now this one took the cake for me. This song fit so perfectly it SCARED me. Me and him had this sunday school we had to go to (nothing academic), and we had to go on a retreat for that weekend. Me and him were broken up with for at least 2 months at this point. First day of the retreat was fine! I was with my friends and happy, sure it was awkward to see him but it’s not like I had to look at him. Second day, I’m talking to my friend just me and her, then THIS DUDE comes up and just jumps into OUR conversation trying to act like i’m not there. This made me sick. I dragged my friend with me to go to the bathroom. My ex, who knew my friends while me and him had been together, had known I’ve been friends with them since I was very young, decided to go and follow around and act like he was apart of my friends while group for the rest of the trip. It couldn’t eat, I couldn’t stand to be around him. I wanted to get away but I could pull those words out to tell him to fuck off. So I just let it happen, I acted like everything was normal. It was so hard, when I looked at him there were two parts of me fighting inside. Seeing the version of him that hurt me, or seeing that boy that I fell in-love with. I was scared to hurt him. I was placing his comfort above mines. I’ve learned to never do that again. He doesn’t deserve my pity. The reason he broke up with me was because of my mental health and that is was “overwhelming him” he said he felt required and claustrophobic to talk to me. Who says that? He said that if I were to take my own life, he is worried on how that would effect him emotionally. I explained myself, I explained why I was struggling (just as I had before) and why it wasn’t so simple to just recover. How recover has its ups and downs. I explained it as much as I could. He didn’t care, he continued to push me away, then he came back thinking he could act like everything was alright. What a bastard.

‘For You, I’ll Pull The Trigger’ another part of me desperately grasping onto something that is no longer there. That relationship that’s fallen apart. So many broken promises. “I’ll pull the trigger” meaning for me that I’ll take the blame for it all if it means we will still be together. I don’t like when people ask about my relationship status, since it’s a constant reminder that I am not yours anymore. I kept every promise laid. I thought it’d be forever. I was foolish, but we were young. Part of me will cling on, when I know I shouldn’t. Sometimes I still feel you are still my responsibility. Part of me will still yearn unfortunately. But I would never let myself go back, that just disrespecting myself.

‘Liliana’ tells how I gave you every part of myself. I allowed you to peel my layers back. Allowed you to view me at my most vulnerable. It was mutual. Our connect ran so deeply, makes me wonder how you could throw it all away.

ANYWAYS I enjoy their LP as well ‘It Always Starts Mid Winter’ I would write how I relate to some of those songs but I don’t feel like it. Plus I doubt anyone is reading these. My favorite song on that LP is definitely ‘Bare Bones’ I literally wrote about it for a school assignment. ILL EMERGE FROM THIS CAGE THAT YOU MADE TO TRAP ME!!

ANOTHER ALBUM I LOVE WITH MY FULL HEART AND SOUL IS ‘…And Grins With Sharpened Teeth’ by Carmen Sixteen. Dude I LOVEEEE this band. They are SOOOO good. I have nothing but good things to say about em. I really hope they put out more merch I didn’t get the chance to get any. I did get a cassette tho 🥹🙏 Anyways if you like emo violence give them a listen!

I cannot stop listening to this LOL it’s just too good

ALBUMS OF THE DAY:

I really do enjoy this short EP. I know this band gets a lot of hate but honestly I think it’s pure misogyny. Most people often complain about the lead vocalist h igh pitch screams, but that’s literally what makes the band unique. Being an alternative person hating on music because it’s “different” is so ICKY. Being alt is to stand out, and if you can’t help but judge and make fun of those who do; who are you to say anything? Really sad and embarrassing behavior, I’ve constantly seen come out of the scene. I’ve also seen a lot of this behavior being towards bands that have a female vocalist in general, such as Arranged In April. I’ve seen seen a band get picked apart as much as these two honestly. “Oh they are overrated”, “the lyrics aren’t even good”, and so much more. For both bands I’ve seen them be called “spiritually Israeli” and for what? There is literally no correlation, people are just talking to talk. Both bands are great, I enjoy both. I’m excited to see “Arranged In April”, I’ve been listening to them for a good while. I can also connect this to how Kurt Cobain was beginning to become disappointed with those who were going to Nirvanas shows once they started to get popular. Many men were constantly disrespecting women, homophobic, racist, and so much more. I feel like that audience is making a drastic comeback into the scene. There are so many “alternative” people that go against everything they should be standing for. This is just something I’ve observed. Have you guys noticed this as well? I kinda got off the topic of music, but I wanted to express this. Anyways in a shortened version Alternative has become the new mainstream.

blessyrsweetlittleheart!: https://flowersforpersephone.bandcamp.com/album/blessyrsweetlittleheart

a temporary stay: https://flowersforpersephone.bandcamp.com/album/a-temporary-stay

A new album for me today and this album was very interesting, but not in a bad way! I really enjoyed “Interference Fits” it feels peaceful like thinking back on the all the lovely memories from times before. It lifts my heart. It feels like memories passing by. My second favorite track would have to be “Advance Upon The Real” is a song that consumes the mind. It’s all you can focus on while you are taken back by it’s bizarre beauty. Definitely not an album I was expecting, but very good!

Say Yes To Love: https://prrfectpussy.bandcamp.com/album/say-yes-to-love

Haven’t listened to Gwen Stefani in a long while, but man it was like discovering gold again. It got me so hyped to do my work, then i felt bad since I was doing a history assignment where I was writing about sensitive topics. It felt wrong to be that up beat about such a sensitive topic 😓 Okay I’m done writing for today, I randomly just got a headache. Maybe that’s my karma

Luxurious: https://gwenstefani1.bandcamp.com/track/luxurious

The Sweet Escape: https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_mDyQGy3n6vC07nHvO785YsufX2fpSqQ3U&si=mFj-tznD7_pfUBSh

ALBUMS OF THE DAY:

Firstly, I decided to start my day off with some Minor Threat! You can never got wrong with. I feel all their music sparks something within me. I listened to both “Out of Step” and “First Two 7”s”. One song that really stick out to me from “First Two 7”s” is “It My Eyes”. I feel like I was able to consume this song fully. For some context here, I used to have a boyfriend who was a really big Minor Threat fan, straight edge and all. After we broke up I found that he has began to step on his own values for what I can guess is the validation of others. I don’t talk to him anymore, but after a while I connect the dots that he has always been a follower. It’s sad to see really, he would give up his own morals if that means he is accepted into a group. It’s all my speculation but to me it just made it seem like he doesn’t have any real friends, no one to accept him for how he is, and he rather throw away who is is than to be alone. Part of me feels bad but the other half knows I shouldn’t. From the second album, “Out of Step” had go be one of my favorite! I grew up in an environment around people who would drink and smoke a lot. I would see how they behaved and changed, it would have me wonder, “why would anyone willingly make myself stupider?”. The behavior irked, disgusted, and make me over all feel extremely uncomfortable. I never want to be the reason for another persons discomfort. That’s why I chose to be straight edge. Besides that, I’ve had my fair battle with addiction. Not it being substance or anything of the sort, but it helped me understand the effects of addition. It doesn’t just effect you, but everyone around you. It destroyed a lot of my relationships and trust with others! Some I’m still fighting to gain the trust back to this day. It would be extremely idiotic for me to even try substances / drinking knowing I am vulnerable to addiction. Besides it all I am overall not interested in that life style at all. anyways back to the song, I enjoy the quick and directness of it all. The guitars are amazing as well you can’t beat it! A simple reminder to never let others ideas sway you and to think for yourself!

Out of Step: https://minorthreat.bandcamp.com/album/out-of-step

First Two 7”s: https://minorthreat.bandcamp.com/album/first-two-7s

This album brought me back! For me, it’s one of those that you don’t listen to for a while, and when you finally do it still have the memories connected from the last time to listen to it. “Secret Society” such an emotional song I feel many can connect to their own personal experiences such as I have. Most of us have been there and it’s hard to talk about. I love when music can just speak for you and explain exactly how you are feeling without it having to come from you directly. I won’t get into the nitty gritty of my whole ordeal, but it does connect to my struggle with addiction and losing the trust of others. It sucks but I’ve learned to live with it, I’ve learned that I’ll only be viewed as a liar by them even if I was just trying to protect the one thing that made me feel okay from being taken away from me. Sometimes you don’t want the help that’s being stuffed down your throat, and that’s okay, but you can’t be upset when the consequences of your actions bite you back. Sometimes I just wish people viewed it from my eyes, maybe they’d be kinder.

Floral Green: https://titlefightmusic.bandcamp.com/album/floral-green

A new one! I have never listened to this one until today. I did enjoy it, man I love it when LPS start with some sort of dialogue. The instruments are sooo good the voice is so powerful as well. “Desert Of Judah” is one of my favorites for sure, the lyrics are great as well. I love the overall delivery of it all. I really wish I could sing that like. I’ll definitely be listening to this more in the future. If you haven’t given this band a listen I think you should!!

Demo: https://ragehc.bandcamp.com/album/demo-6

Now, I’m not one to listen to Folk/ Indie Folk, but my goodness. This album is a 10/10 for me, each song had me excited for the next. Everything about this album is beautiful. The guitar, the soft voice, the lyrics sang. Such a warm loving feeling that you can just feel that this artist puts into his music. I couldn’t pick a favorite! This albums just feels so passionate. I highly recommend it. I can see myself playing this on cold mornings getting ready for the day. This album feels like a treat! I cannot wait to listen to more of his stuff.

Rough Master: https://dougpaisley.bandcamp.com/album/rough-master

Another new album! WOW these guys are fun. One I would LOVE to see live one day. I love the main vocalists voice as well, it’s very strong. They would put on a great show I already know! There is a slight growl in the vocalist voice that is so lovely. Its simple but put together nicely nonetheless.

Live at BBC: https://gougeawayfl.bandcamp.com/album/live-at-bbc