You don't have a drawer for your forks?

Let alone no drawer for your kitchen tools?

If a kitchen is wonky,

Have eaten only watermelon

Now that I'm done she wanna sit her stupid ass down somewhere

Ugh

I want my house

Over the course of a few weeks

But still

I'm too tired to make my own pasta sheets

I'ma have to drive back over to DeKalb for some sheets if i'ma make another one.

Do not play with me

Why am i like this?

I'm back to The Meal

Talking about me to someone else, she said,

"She's The TRUTH!"

And still stabbed me in the back for and with another jealous bitch.

Black woman friendship has been a minefield for me.

From content creators to real life friends,

With him in the background ranting like the abusive goddamn maniac he was.

She called me crying,

Saying she needed an apartment.

I couldn't help her, I'd already escaped,

And it wasn't my job to save her

Not when she stood idly by and let that man act an ass on me for years.

But i never threw that in her face.

When she came to visit my therapist with me,

I told her it's time to start making some better fucking decisions.

That if you start right now, and live as long as your mama lived,

You'd have 30 years of decisions you can be proud of, like,

Let's do some new shit, get it the fuck together, bitch.

This was 2004.

She was then the same age I am right now.

Of course she regressed,

Went back to her I'M The Mama YOU The Child bullshit because crank out babies for a dumb, abusive, broke nigga was all she'd ever done with her life,

All she had.

She used the most painful thing to happen in my adult life as gossip with her bestie and bestie's sister who i did not know,

Who i had never seen before and have never seen since the night of the Prince concert when they pulled that stunt on me

Musicology tour, Philips Arena, April 30, 2004.

That lady lives in Atlanta and I'd never seen her before, never seen her again,

But she tried to check me on my marriage and divorce because my mother told her my damn business like

I KNOW YOU NOT TALKING.

But she talked.

And tells my sister in 2025 that she has no idea why I don't like her.

How you live with two of your daughters and they each ask you to leave?

But abuse from Black men is why I don't make videos.

I don't have a support network

No more coffee dates

And leave as soon as he says something racially incorrect

Educating is not my job

Fight, flight, freeze,

I can't relate

I'VE HAD THREE SEPARATE FOUR YEAR PERIODS of CELIBACY