not sure if it’s my PMOS but I’ve been in up and down moods for a few weeks and began reminiscing. The one friend I had in 6th grade would proceed to have their 7th grade friends bring me to the bathroom to tell me she thought I was annoying or something and didn’t want to be friends anymore. She would then walk around with her new friend who would elbow me hard one time. So I kinda knew she didn’t like me. She would pretty much ignore me in any setting. I was very alone but I tried not to care. It was also around this time my mental illnesses would develop around Christmas time. Surprisingly, my home room teacher noticed this(who I thought was very strict) and told us to be together again. I’m pretty sure it was my neurodivergent traits that put her off looking back and what my mom seemed to suggest. So I promised to try to be less annoying cause I missed her. When I was 14 I bumped into her after a long time at the mall, we greeted each other and I gave her a hug. We said we would be in contact again but we never did. I wonder how they are now.
I’m not certain how I feel about this time in my life anymore, it’s been a long while since then and I grew to just let it go because she was a kid at the time, and she could be very different now. I still look back at this moment whenever I feel alone however.
