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Deleted instagram. Withdrawals so bad I had to redownload tumblr

I do feel like I got the easy end of the ace spectrum, being hetero alloace. Day to day I forget I’m any different from regular people at all. But then I’m jarringly reminded what a huge ask it is of someone who wants to be in a relationship with me, asking them to never ever have sex. Likee. That’s kind of a huge thing. I feel so very guilty about it. I fear I’ll never get married like a want to because they would simply grow to resent me.

Asexuality is re-having the epiphany multiple times a year that people *actually* think about sex. *Unironically.* They actually want that stuff. Like badly! NOT AS A JOKE!!! Baffles my mind. The only time I think about sex is for funny jokes. I cannot even imagine what it’s like to desire that. And then I remember what a universal human experience it is to do so. And then I feel like such an alien. LOL

I love the sun. It confuses me a lot when people say they don’t just come alive in a whole new way when the sun is shining. It awakens my spirit. I think I was born with chloroplasts.

Saw enough tumblr screenshots on the internet that I decided I needed to take part in the chaos. I have silly thoughts that need spread