little duck

drop dead

i know that the bar closes at 11, but i hope you never finish that beer

you know all the words to "just like heaven", and I know why he wrote them now that you're standing right here.

one night I was bored in bed and stalked you on the internet.

i'm the most alive i've ever been, but kiss me and I might drop dead.

i feel like i might throw up.

you're so, so pretty boy, i'm paranoid i made you up.

i've been droppin' hints all night, that i'd love if you held my hand, goddamn.

let's go steady, let's go out.

stupid song

new york city's never looked so blue.

my friends are smoking blunts in the bathroom.

they say that honest love is a cage that makes you feel free.

all the girls at this party are so cool.

but i can't help but imagine what you say when you speak about me.

you're a spark in the dark, in my clothes, i caught aflame.

you should feel how i feel when somebody says your name.

i'm the car speeding down the boulevard without a brake, and i want you more than any stupid song could ever say.

i want you more than any stupid song could ever say.

my heart made of wax and i'm melting in the sun.

i'm the thread on your shirt and it's coming undone.

i feel right, i feel wrong, i feel totally insane.

honeybee

so i guess that it's true, time can heal even the worst of wounds.

the clichés i knew seem so commonplace when i saw you.

let's just walk in the dark, hop the fence in the park, baby boy, honeybee, god, i love the way you look at me.

and it's too hard to describe this in a way that feels honest, but even when i'm quiet, i love you, baby, i promise.

and i hope i never see what your face looks like going, a face i swear that i could spend my whole life knowing, here's to hoping.

pick me up, walk me home, man, it feels like god threw me a bone.

sticky sweet, tangerine, would you sit and keep me company?

in the dark, i'm not scared, i just reach and you're right there.

shooting stars, racing cars, everything i own just feels like ours.

maggots for brains

my day is so mundane, i don't think i left the house.

drank a pot of coffee, tried to write, nothing came out.

somehow, it's the weekend, i'm still bored out of my skull, and i went to the party but only on principle.

empty, who can leave?

i'm a zombie in my body, i'm a train off of the track.

i feel dirty, i feel rotten, and the colors are all flat.

i'm a sad shell of a woman, and i've got maggots for brains, but that's just a thing that happens in my brain, he goes away.

everything feels moldy like the fruit that's in my fridge.

everything that's funny, i wish i could tell to him.

sometimes, at a low point, i even wish for tragedy, 'cause i know he'd come over and take real good care of me.

what can i do but think of you?

u+me=<3

i think that you're killer with your floppy hair.

take me out to dinner, you know you can take me anywhere.

all of my girlfriends roll their eyes and tell me to take it slow this time.

i got a feeling, wounds are healing, talking on the phone.

i know everybody changes but i hope that we don't.

carve our names into the car seat leather, you plus me equals a heart forever.

i like your big sister, she has your same face.

i try to win her over with my cynical humor and yacht rock music taste

all my ex-boyfriends have heard these lines, but i like you better by a million times.

if you buy me silver jewelry and all my favorite cadbury and tell me it again 'bout how we met and that you thought of me.

sometimes i get overwhelmed and way too far, i hurt myself, i often get the feeling that i'll never want somebody else.

they say modern love's a cruel endeavor and to that i say, "fuck it, whatever".

my way

it's a little hard to to stomach all your amateur moves

you're loose with me, like obviously, but you lingering on the edge just like a bad perfume.

it's getting to me, embarrassingly.

here's the part where the girl gets pissed, and the girl is me, did you get that hint?

you're in my way now.

don't go where you don't belong.

think i can make out how hard you hang on.

kind of insane how you keep calling, but you never get the message.

it goes my way now.

man, i wonder what you think.

you're sending another poem and think that'll let me go.

maybe you're just tryna to get me riled up now, you're posting another pic, enclosing a note of his.

well, here's a map of the lines i drew, and some girl steps over and the girl is you.

so, where'd you get that confidence from?

last time that i checked, i won.

let me be direct, "just stop", you're being fucking weird.

maybe I'm a petty bitch, but you made me resort to this, that's it, i win.

purple

it's funny when your mom shows pictures of you in your school clothes, your buzzcut, and scrapes on your knees change, but those eyes, still no.

it's crazy how i used to visit your town like a touris now i got a local grocery store and a favorite florist.

you kiss my neck, may our paths intersect 'til the two lines formed a circle.

i melt with you, you're red and I'm blue, now i see the world in purple.

now a toothbrush, a coat, and pair of shoes all come in double.

we fight over who i'm hanging out with like a real couple.

it's a small world, on and on again, revolve around us two.

it's crazy, i had big dreams 'til i tied myself to you, now I'm all-consumed in.

melt with you 'til it all turns black. are we so in love? are we too attached?

melt with you 'til it all turns black, when you smooth it out, but it feels too flat.

melt with you 'til it all turns black. when you get so close and you can't go back.

melt with you 'til it all turns black, melt with you 'til it just feels sad.

the cure

all the pretty girls in the foreground of my mind.

i thought i'd done enough, but they keep moving the line.

i thought I found the antidote this time.

all the nights i spend fighting bad thoughts in my room, feeling so alone, might as well be on the moon.

my head is full of poison and my heart is full of doubt.

i got toxins in my bloodstream; you tried hard to suck them out.

it feels like medication and it's good for me, i'm sure, but it don't matter how your love feels anymore, it'll never be the cure.

it'll never be the cure.

used to play a game in my head when I'd date a guy, tally up the girls that he fucked till i start to cry.

why can't you come stitch me up?

why can't it ever be enough?

it's not enough.

begged

all that i want is to know undoubtedly that you just have eyes for me.

could you make it clear?

all that i want is to sit here silently and watch movies on tv.

what a shame, you're not here to witness my devotion, and my endless well of needs.

i'm an anchor in the ocean, you know i could never leave.

so, i'm patient, you're learning, pretend it's not hurting.

they say it's a virtue to not let good love slip away.

so, i'm cool and forgiving, i'll take what you're giving, but nothing's quite enough, when i know that to get it, i begged.

and i have this thought when i lay in bed at night that i feel trapped inside my life.

is that a normal thing to fight back the waves of a static lover's dread?

i'm overwhelmed, i'm underfed, and yet I still cling to hope like snow on mountains.

careless words melt it away.

i'm a penny in a fountain, just waiting on my luck to change.

what's wrong with me

i'm just staring at the ceiling, can't describe this feeling ii've got in my head.

i'm out of body in my bed and i'm just searching up my symptoms, desperate to fix 'em.

i'll do anything, 'cause lately i've been spiraling.

i'm not feeling like myself and nothing ever seems to help.

went to the doctor and she said i was fine, but every movie that i see makes me cry.

it's like somebody put a weight on my chest.

i should talk to a friend but i can't get out of bed.

my head is spinning and my stomach is sick, say i'm in love, so it's hard to admit.

i can't eat, i can't sleep, i think you're what's wrong with me.

i keep looking for distractions, hope the feeling passes.

i've got to say, it's getting harder every day.

i can't seem to get around it, head just keeps on pounding with the simple thought "what if this isn't what i want?".

i'm not feeling like myself, all amber lights and warning bells.

i'm not feeling like myself and i'm not hiding it well.

less

i feel it again, edge of the bed.

body and head protesting, my stomach's in knots.

i don't wanna talk, let's just go to bed or something.

maybe it'll fix itself tomorrow, but i've been saying that like every night.

you say you can't stand to watch me cry a minute more, so you do the noble thing and open up the door.

if loving me means letting go and wishing me the best then i guess i wish you loved me less.

i wish you loved me less.

we tried to recreate our favorite date, ut we didn't laugh much this time.

our trip to Big Sur only confirmed this isn't what it should feel like.

maybe i'm a stubborn overthinker but i've been thinking over this a lot.

i could try convincing you they're just intrusive thoughts, but you've seen me truly happy, so you know right now i'm not.

if loving me means crying on the curb at lax, well, then i guess i wish you loved me less.

if loving me means saying "babe, i think this is the end", i guess i wish you loved me less.

expectations

i met him at a party, i think he was on drugs.

he wasn't smart or funny, i convinced myself he was.

he had a great apartment, and a car his parents bought, i thought that he was perfect, and now his number's blocked.

took a couple months but now i am secure, i am so evolved, now i ask for more, and more, and more, and more, and more.

i won't settle for a guy with a fake job.

he seems so desperate for loving, but, baby, i'm not.

gave my heart with zero stipulations, now, i take careful consideration.

i'm not kissin' any boy that is passive.

your indecision is painfully unattractive.

past mistakes are just new information.

these days, i've got expectations.

so i hit the new year like a single girl at a vegas bar.

rocking my mini dress with a vodka cran and an open heart.

yeah, i've got hope, yeah, i've got drive, i will not lose my faith.

don't think my future husband is in this bar in Silver Lake

but in a couple months, a man will be the cure, he will be evolved, and i will be adored.

cigarette smoke

it's a cigarette smoke, it's a smell that i know, it clings to my clothes, seeps into my bones.

it's a real quiet house with the shower left on.

five beers in the fridge and the second car's gone.

i regret you, how long i stayed.

i resent you for not being brave.

tell me something honest so the memories turn dark.

you said that i made loving look easy 'til i made it hard.

give me back my time and i will give you back your heart.

i thought that we played the perfect couple 'til you didn't want the part.

some nights can be so fucking lonely, but it's better than begging for you to stand up for me, honeybee.

i regret you, what i let slide.

i resent you taking her side.

it's bone dry, bitter, and hollow, you'll be miles away tomorrow.

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"Don’t look back."

"I missed you."

"It’s too late."

"Please don’t go."

"You promised me."

"Who did this?"

"I forgive you."

"We were gods."

"Leave me alone."

"They found us."

"Trust me, please."

"I need help."

"Run. Don’t stop."

"It wasn’t me."

"I remember everything."

"Burn it all."

"Tell me why."

"You never called."

"It’s just rain."

"You owe me."

"She’s not breathing."

"Is that blood?"

"You were right."

"It ends now."

"We start over."

"Stay with me."

"Nothing feels real."

"I hate this."

"Do it now."

"They're watching us."

"Make it stop."

"It's not yours."

"I was waiting."

"He’s behind you."

"They’re all gone."

"Time is up."

"Bring them back."

"It’s our turn."

"This is wrong."

"Don’t let go."

"We are cursed."

"No one knows."

"You're not real."

"Don’t say it."

"I saw everything."

"Nothing ever changes."

"Call it off."

"What are you?"

"I found it."

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thank you for agreeing to help.

sorry, it’s just that i get very nervous when someone else is driving.

i sense tension.

there’s a reason i keep this door closed.

i can’t believe you would do this to me!

there’s nothing reassuring about what you just said.

i thought we’d be safe here.

thanks for looking out for me.

i’m right here.

thinking about it makes me sick.

i’m not asking.

c’mon, i’ll drive you home.

there’s something i’ve been meaning to tell you.

hey, you owe me this favour.

i want to be there when you get what’s coming to you.

you’re too good for this world.

i’ll be okay, i’m always okay.

sorry about last night.

do you remember we used to do that in school?

i need your help.

you have no idea how much this means to me.

how long have you been standing there?

we have to stop meeting like this.

there’s someone in the house!

you’re beautiful.

very few people understand me, but you do.

i’m sorry.

get out of my way.

i saw it as clearly as i see you standing there now.

if you leave now, you lose everything.

please stop talking.

i make my goddamn choices myself, based on what i know.

don’t upset your father, not now.

you’re gonna get us killed someday.

i don’t feel good.

do you ever think we should just stop doing this?

i think you should stay the night.

who’s side are you on?

believe it or not, i am grateful.

i’m not supposed to talk to strangers.

you have to leave right now, you aren’t safe here.

i don’t think this is a good idea.

you’re not dead yet.

i wish you told me sooner.

are you kidding me?

you must be mad, coming here like this.

i don’t know how i can repay you.

you embarrassed me this evening.

don’t act so surprised.

there’s something i need to get off my chest.

tell me what’s bothering you.

everything is always about you!

midnight, on the bridge. come alone.

you stand there and accuse me, but where were you at the time?

i knew you wouldn’t be able to see it through.

i need more time to think.

you need me.

i’ve forgotten what it’s like to feel young.

you’re okay, you’re okay.

i don’t remember my childhood.

if we both stick to the story, they can’t prove anything.

i’ve been checking you out.

you look tired.

this must be hard for you.

never underestimate me again.

you got a package for me?

i think you’re right.

my hands are clean in all of this.

we really need a better excuse to see each other.

i’m ready to try again.

where i go and what i do is none of your business!

i never thought i’d see you again.

hurry! they’re pulling up in the driveway!

my work is my life.

we never should’ve kissed—that was our first mistake.

i feel very alone.

you are loved, don’t ever forget that.

i’m not gonna make it.

i don’t think i could live alone again.

when i was younger, i saw something i shouldn’t have.

stay the night, you deserve the rest.

you look ridiculous in that thing.

quick, hide behind the sofa!

i haven’t had a good breakdown in months, perhaps i’m due.

you’re impossible to ignore.

if you get me his phone, i might reconsider.

i’m afraid you’d look at me differently, now that you know.

i can’t trust you anymore.

hope is a silent killer, one day you’ll find that out for yourself.

i miss moments like this more than anything.

you can’t keep treating me this way!

sorry, i haven’t checked my phone all day.

my head is killing me.

just do as i say, and no one gets hurt.

you woke me up.

i didn’t mean to make you upset.

i can’t believe you’re just gonna give up like that!

just breathe.

i’m in the mood for pizza, what do you think?

if this is going to work, you’re going to have to trust me.

i’m not a big fan of the dark.

i could kill you!

you should’ve listened to me.

there’s always going to be someone who wants to knock you down.

it’s not fair!

so you had a bad day, there’s always tomorrow.

be nice to me, it’s my birthday.

you didn’t have to walk me home.

i would appreciate it if we didn’t discuss personal matters right now.

there’s no need to be callous and cruel.

this is for your own good.

i could kiss you.

Do you just want to cultivate your angst?

What do you mean? You're the one who stopped.

Do I really want to expose the world to this?

We have to get out of this country.

Is that everything?

I bet It'll be nice to come home to your apartment.

Do you have any music we can play?

Did you get hold of any good drink, [name]?

I'm sorry, but right now you sound like [name].

Isn't it a little too cold for that?

I'm just trying to get to bed.

The only thing left, is everything.

Have you removed my things?

We talked about this. It's for your own good.

You should leave modesty at the door before entering here.

I heard one of them wrote this weird book.

Are you OK?

You have paint on your jacket. There's paint all over your back.

There was something… Fuck.

It's just… I… I…

It wasn't by chance. It was no coincidence that we met.

I let myself in. Where have you been?

I'm fine. Don't worry.

I have to break up with [name].

I can't waste any more time.

I can't stay with [him/her/them] just to be nice.

You want interesting people around you?

Has anyone ever introduced you to any new music or recommended a book you didn't already read in high school?

Guys in long-term relationships become so lame.

Bullshit. Feeling guilty is slave mentality.

Your father used "gay" as a term of abuse?

I don't know. It's kind of complicated.

I've considered studying [major] again.

I'm going to get a coffee. Do you want one?

How long has it been? I can't believe we're sitting here like this.

Remember when I tricked you into falling in love, in Paris?

I was already in love with you.

But we had a nice time, didn't we?

Were you in love with me then?

I wasn't sick already then.

I felt a lot worse afterwards. I didn't understand anything.

I wanted to call. But they told me that wasn't a good idea.

I wish we could just… Meet all over again.

I must admit. After reading this I thought: "He must be some eccentric, old-before-his-time type".

Your first book sets the tone for your entire authorship.

Maybe you're right.....

A word to the wise: Never listen to old farts like me.

The important things in life are expressed through music, not words.

I have something I need to do.

I'm afraid the debate has to end here.

That must be the house.

It works better if you remove the lens cap.

Listen, "Rain Man", have you been out of the apartment yet?

What is your master's thesis about?

Is that how you work now?

I have been a little tired lately.

I like the edge. It's quirky, it's weird. It works.

Look at [him/her/them], has no idea that they go by the name of [mean nickname].

What's [he/she/they] saying? I can't understand the dialect.

What's that tattoo? An ad?

I just don't understand your friends' humor.

You're just jealous.

I knew them before they were famous and they were jerks even then.

You do have a point. "Jerk" isn't precise enough to describe them.

I don't care, I've had it. I hate people like [him/her/them].

What you hate is war and Trump and the World Bank and such.

Who the hell do you think you are?

You are the most immature people I have ever met!

Spreading nasty rumours about each other… I feel sorry for you.

Why do you hang out with these people?

I've met guys like you before. I just have one thing to say: It can't be easy to have problems in this crowd.

You are incredibly banal!

Does anyone want a drink?

Are you sure that's a good idea?

What does your psychiatrist say?

Is it a problem that [name] is here?

I didn't mean it like that.

I'm pretty nervous about that.

Please don't come over, you superficial imbecile.

Long time no see. Good to have you back.

I… I don't think… I have to go.

I just don't feel well. I'm tired.

Do you want to go home?

I can't do this. Sorry.

This was a mistake. It just isn't like it used to be.

I know it's important to you, but I don't want to write anymore.

Well "fan" is a little teenage, but "admirer" is so formal.

You probably haven't read it.

Excuse me, I was on my way home.

I just don't feel… I couldn't sleep… and… I don't know.

You're taking your medication?

Don't baby-sit me! I need time to myself.

Why did you buy me a plane ticket?

Did you look at the date?

The exact same date as the last time we went.

You can't just assume that I can, or want to, go to [name].

But can you at least consider it?

You live with your mom, don't you?

I'll call you tomorrow. I love you.

I may have been a little nervous. How did I seem to you?

What did we do the next day?

We sat at a café and talked for ages.

What did we talk about?

What was I like? Was I happy?

I'm glad you came.

I decided I had to make you fall in love with me.

You were unsure of your feelings.

Anyway, it worked. It worked because I told you first.

Don't worry. You looked incredible.

What's the matter? What are you thinking about?

Why did you want us to come back here?

You don't love me anymore, is that it?

Do you have a personal connection to that?

A language which can grasp all the world's nuances.

A strong personal experience can become an intense story.

Bringing up all sorts of personal "tragedies", but that's not real "literature" is it?

Forget about that. Come on over.

So nothing's changed there?

I can't take it. It's too sad.

I was about to leave, but now things are picking up.

Are you alright?

I've had enough. Not just because we never see each other.

It's that you pretend to care, when you're so damn selfish.

You're such a damn cliché!

So you've seen it?

What? You've written something?

A lot of it is good, but we've always been honest with each other. This isn't your best work.

I'm glad you take it like that.

I mean, you haven't slept all night.

I'm not being nice. If you work on it this might be publishable.

That isn't important. I'm just writing for myself.

Why can you never say what you mean?

What the fuck are you doing?

You look much better now. How do you feel?

I found you. I managed to find you!

I love you. Everything is in synch now.

I can't take this anymore…

Hey… Come on. Get up.

You didn't give me a choice, running off like that.

I thought you knew.

Does anyone know why?