//LOVEMAIL + positive vent (again)
oh my gooosh today i’ve finally decided to try and figure out what me and lapis’s anniversary is and it’s 6th april ehehhe <3 which means from the time of posting this we’ve been together for over 2 months!
it’s really crazy to think about how time has passed so fast and i’m surprised i’ve just been so dedicated to her for awhile now. it’s not a long time but it was still a shock to me. like oh wow it’s been so long since she’s my baby…waaaough! it just blows my mind how everyday before i go to bed and whenever i wake up she’s one of my first few thoughts, and how thinking of her genuinly helped me through so many rough moments and sleep quality.
she’s somewhere that i could escape to, a place of my peace, and a muse of my creatives. i do not see her a lot in my dreams but every moment we spend was precious to me, and i think, maybe in another lifetime we would be together in the same universe, where she’s mine and im hers, without the lack of a fictional barrier between us.
she makes me incredibly happy and im so thrilled to have known her in my heart, i love thinking about her, i love thinking about her every second that i could. i love carrying the love i have for her everywhere i go, everything i do. i do not need to mention her name but i see her through myself and my love for her shaped a huge part of my identity as a system host just simply trying to survive and find a sense of self. my love for her will always be a huge part of it and it’s something that i’ll never part with, even if i ever part with her.
in conclusion i love u so much lapis lazuli mwah mwah mwah mwah my babygirl also idc about cringeposting i adore posting about her i love using tumblr as my little public diary to write about how dedicated i am to her, and also thinking about us together
BYI: i’m a non-sharing yume/riako to lapis lazuli, queerplatonically btw. (and erm uh she’s veeeery special to me hehe!)