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I am inspired by myself, but not the self i am at this very moment, but rather the idea of who I, myself can and will become in the future. I wish to do so many things in my life that you see successful people doing, that you think, "if I only could do those things". I am aware that there's a process that has to take place in order for me to be able to get where I want to be, a hero's journey if you must.

But do not chuck up my dreams and aspirations as only material, dear reader. No. My dreams go beyond the material. Although, yes a nice place to live in a large city would be ideal for the kind of work and services I wish to provide in the future is the ideal, it is not an absolute necessity for me to achieve my dreams.

I dream of freedom, of understanding; I, dear reader, dream of knowing. Knowing what lies beyond what we understand today as mere humans. I dream of bringing knowledge to all who seek it. Of educating the masses so that they are not taken advantage of as our ancestors where. Knowledge, dear reader, is power and I don't want to add onto the history if holding that much power above people's heads.

I am inspired by what hasn't happened yet, but am certain it will happen one way or another.

I am also inspired by the promise of competition. A good adrenaline rush every now and then is healthy for a racing mind. I love to compete, it doesn't mean I always win, it doesn't even mean there's anything to win most of the times, but the satisfaction of feeling like you won something.

I like to compete against my classmates and friends on grades, we all know they don't determine anything other than on a scale of 1 to 100 how well did you understand, retained and rephrased the content you were taught. I like to fight them on a battle of knowledge that is on the grand scheme of things, as small and insignificant as a playground taunt.

I almost never win, I am aware of the fact that the people I compete against are more disciplined than me, smarter than me, better than me in more ways than one even. That doesn't mean I don't love each time the results are out. The adrenaline and anxiety I feel whenever I am waiting for my name to be called out and then a number. If fuels me to work harder and be better each time I have to prepare for an examination.

This inspiration brought by competition isn't limited to classroom games, it extends into public and even historic figures, almost like how many artists wish to be as good as their predecessors and the masters of their craft. I want to be better, I want to bring upon a revolution into a field of medicine that is going through one at this very moment. Technology advances so rapidly we cannot keep up with it. I wish to perfect it.

In a more frivolous side of my inspirations, I have to admit that aesthetics and the wish for recognition do inspire me to work better. As in, I will re do my notes and my desk and pretty much anything you see both on this blog and on my Instagram page, in order to make it more aesthetically pleasing and enjoyable and even relatable to the experience of other college students for their recognition. I know that this mindset might even become dangerous if left unchecked, and I am also aware that social media is fake in more than one way and I, by partaking in this behavior, am helping this notion be all the more real.

But seeing how much passion people put into their on platforms fills me with joy and even a little bit of envy; as I wish I could make my notes as pretty as them, or as organized or as abundant. I love to see people find their niche in the studyblr / studygram community and fully embrace it and it inspires me to try to be more like them and find what works for me. For now what seems to be working is text posts and other forms of written media.

I wanted to be as thorough as i could this time, since this is a very personal question, but I also love to spice it up a bit and throw in a bit of flamboyant wording and purple prose if possible.