⤠ęąá´á´á´á´ĘĘ- âAnd I know what that loneliness feels like.â His voice was rough, raw. âBecause when I had nightmares of his lifeâŚÂ he dreamt of mine.â
A chill ran through you.
âHe dreamt of Linkon. Of Akso. Ofââ He swallowed hard, his grip on you unyielding. âYou.â
The word hung between you, heavy and fragile at the same time.
âNow, heâs clawing his way into my thoughts, trying to make sense of a life that isnât his to have.â Zayneâs hands curled into the fabric of your clothes, as if anchoring himself to something tangible. âAnd every time I look at youââ His voice cracked, his hands shaking as he clutched you. âHeâs reaching for you. And I donât know if itâs me who wants you or if itâs him bleeding through.â
(Or⌠after the events of Chansia City, Zayne had started to avoid you. More than a week later, in the dead of night, he's outside of your door, struggling with his sense of selfâblurring between two worlds.)
⤠á´á´ÉŞĘɪɴɢ- zayne x female reader
⤠ɢá´É´Ęá´- angst, smut, & fluff
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⤠ᴥá´Ęɴɪɴɢęą- nsfw, mdni, softdom!zayne, references to zayne's third anecdote (still in the dark), spoilers to zayne's main story branch (thorns under the moon) and four star memory (fragmented dreams), mentions of childhood trauma and violence, too much angst, oral sex (blowjob), dirty talk, penetration (p in v), clothed sex, riding, breast play, emotional sex, unprotected sex, and creampie.
⤠ɴá´á´á´- As a dedicated Zayne main, I've always had a soft spot for Dawnbreaker!Zayne, I just want to give him the biggest hug! While he never explicitly took control of main story Zayneâs body, their connection through dreams and nightmares allowed them to see into each otherâs lives. And so, I wanted to explore what it would be like if that connection blurred even further after the events of Chansia City, and how Zayne would react to it. I hope you enjoy reading!
The knock at your door was soft, barely audible over the hum of Linkon City outside. You might have missed it had you not been awake, staring at the ceiling, unable to shake the restlessness clawing at your chest. Something felt wrong.
Hesitating for a moment, you peeled the blankets away and stepped towards the door. When you opened it, Zayne stood there, still as a statue. The warm glow from your apartment barely touched him; he lingered in the shadows of the hallway, his expression unreadable, like he was caught between two worldsâone where he stood before you and another far beyond, too distant to reach.
âZayne?â Your voice was uncertain, your fingers tightening around the doorframe. He looked normalâhis crisp shirt unwrinkled, his coat still shielding him from the cold. But his posture was rigid, like he was torn between memories, caught between the man you knew and something far more elusive, far darker. His breath came slow, controlled, but his fingers twitched at his sides, as if holding onto something unseen, something slipping away from his grasp.
It had been more than a week since you last saw himâmore than a week since you clawed your way out of his dreamscape, fighting against the twisted phantoms of his nightmares and the suffocating pull of his uncontrollable evol. More than a week since he began avoiding you, and you couldnât understand why.
You had searched for himâat Akso Hospital.Â
You pushed open the door to Akso Hospital, the sterile scent of antiseptic filling your nose as you made your way down the familiar corridors. The sight of the bustling staff, the low murmur of nurses giving reportsâit should have been comforting. But it wasnât. Every step you took felt heavier, the weight of worry pressing down on your chest.
You were looking for Zayne. It had been a week since youâd seen him, and the silence between you was suffocating. You had tried calling, texting, but there was no sign of him.
You found Greyson near the nursesâ station, chatting with a few other doctors. He noticed you first, a flicker of surprise in his eyes before his usual, easy smile appeared.
âHey,â he greeted, his tone too casual. Too⌠practiced. âWhat brings you by?â
âI was hoping to see Dr. Zayne. Is he around?â You tried to keep your voice even, but the question felt like a weight in your chest.
Greyson shifted on his feet, glancing toward the hallway where Dr. Zayneâs office was. âOh, you know how it is,â he said with a shrug. âHeâs been buried in surgeries lately. Really busy.â
You frowned. âBusy? He hasnât been answering my calls. Iâve tried everything.â
At the sound of your words, Greysonâs gaze flickered uncomfortably, and before he could answer, Yvonne appeared beside him, her bright smile almost too wide.
âHey, I didnât expect to see you here today!â Yvonne chirped, her voice all sweetness, but there was a subtle edge to it. âGreysonâs right. Dr. Zayneâs probably just deep in work. You know how he gets, donât you?â
You nodded, but the unease in your chest grew. âBut⌠I havenât been able to reach him. And heâs been avoiding me. Iâm starting to get worried.â
There was a beat of silence before Yvonne glanced at Greyson, then back at you. She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, the motion almost too practiced. âOh, you know Dr. Zayne,â she said, her voice a little too smooth. âHeâs a bit of a workaholic. And, well, heâs been dealing with some⌠personal things lately. Iâm sure heâll be in touch when heâs ready.â
Greyson cleared his throat. âYeah, Iâm sure heâs just focused on⌠other things right now.â
You felt a knot form in your stomach. Something wasnât right. Both of them were too evasive, too careful with their words.
âSo heâs just been⌠avoiding me because heâs busy?â You asked, your voice thick with skepticism.
Yvonneâs smile didnât waver, but her eyes shifted just a little. âExactly! Heâll reach out when heâs ready. Donât worry.â
But you werenât convinced. You couldnât shake the feeling that there was something they werenât telling you. Before you could press further, Yvonneâs phone rang, and she quickly excused herself with a bright, almost rehearsed smile.
Greyson rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. âI wouldnât worry too much, Zayneâs just⌠well, Zayne. Heâll be back to his usual self soon enough.â
The words felt hollow, like a lie wrapped in a smile.
You turned to leave, the knot in your stomach tightening. Something wasnât right, and you were more determined than ever to find out what was going on.
You even went to his home not two days after. You had been patient, given him space, but the silence between you was gnawing at you, and you couldnât ignore it anymore.
You arrived at his place and paused outside the gate, your heart sinking. The house sat dark and still, as though no one had been home for hours. The front door was locked, the quiet expanse of the yard untouched. No sign of Zayneâs car in the driveway. No movement behind the windows.
Frowning, you reached for your phone, calling him once more. It rang, and rang⌠and rang. But there was no answer. No familiar voice on the other end. You tried again, and againâeach unanswered call tightening the knot of anxiety in your chest. It was unlike him. Even when he was busy at work, he always answered your calls. You thought things had changed between youâgone beyond just childhood friends, past the barriers you once had.
You hadnât been able to ignore the way things had shifted between the two of you, how youâd shared more, laughed more, and even kissedâmoments that felt like stepping into something real, something undeniable. And yet now, in the silence, you felt that connection fraying, slipping out of your grasp.
You reached for the gate, testing it, but it was locked tight. The metal was cold beneath your fingers, the weight of it pressing down on you in a way you couldnât quite shake. You knocked gently on the gate, your hand hesitant against the metal, but there was no answer. No sound from inside. No footsteps echoing in the distance. Just more silence.
You stood there for a moment, staring at the door, wondering if you were missing something, if you were just being paranoid. But there was no denying the gnawing sense that you were being shut out.
Yet now, here he stood, unannounced, uninvited. The sight of him should have brought relief, but something was off, like he was a mere shadow of the man you knew.
âYou shouldâve let me in sooner,â he murmured, a wry attempt at a smile barely forming before fading just as quickly. His voice was softer than usual, almost exhausted, like the fight had been taken out of him. You stepped aside instinctively, letting him in. He didnât move right away. Instead, his gaze lingered on youâas if memorizing every detail, confirming that you were real, that this wasnât just another one of his nightmares.
Then, finally, he stepped through. The door clicked shut behind him, sealing the two of you in the silence of your small apartment. He exhaled, but this time it was unsteadyâas if releasing a breath heâd been holding for far too long. His hands trembled, and he shoved them into his coat pockets, a feeble attempt to mask the unease rolling off him in waves.
âZayne, where have you been?â The question came out before you could stop it. His avoidance had gnawed at you, making every second of silence between you feel like it stretched on forever.
He hesitated, his gaze dropping to the floor for a brief moment, like he was trying to find the right words. Then, finally, his voice broke through, hoarse and fragile, as if heâd been swallowing down too many words for too long. âEvery time I close my eyes, I see a world where you donât exist.â
The confession hit like thunder in your chest. Your breath caught, eyes wide with confusion, but something else tooâfear, a strange sense of loss, creeping in. You stared at him, unable to comprehend, yet knowing there was so much more buried beneath the surface.
âItâs not just nightmares anymore,â he whispered, voice barely audible. His eyes flickered with something raw and unfamiliarâsomething you hadnât seen in him before. âItâs bleeding into the day. I canât⌠separate it. Separate me.â
You frowned, confusion tightening around your thoughts, heart pounding. âSeparate what? Zayne, what are you talking about?â
He stiffened, jaw tightening as if heâd realized heâd said too much. He shook his head, dismissing the words before they could fully escape. âIgnore what I said.â he muttered, but the tension in his voice betrayed him.
âZayneâŚâ You stepped closer, cautious but firm. âJust tell me whatâs wrong.â
A bitter chuckle escaped him, but there was no humor in it. His hand drifted to his temple, pressing hard as if trying to force something out of his mind. âI donât know how to explain it.â His voice wavered slightly, a rare crack in his composure. âI donât even know if itâs mine to explain.â
Your stomach twisted at his words. Zayne was rarely uncertain. But now, he looked lost, like he was trying to hold onto something slipping through his fingers. The man who had always been in control, who always had an answer, was unraveling in front of you.
âThen let me help,â you said softly, reaching for him.
He exhaled sharply, his hands clenching into fists before loosening just as quickly, as if even that took too much effort. âI donât think you can,â he muttered, barely above a whisper.
You reached out, your fingers brushing against his sleeve. He tensed, but didnât pull away. The warmth of his body under your touch should have felt familiar, comforting, but there was something cold in the air around him that you couldnât ignore.
âIâm here,â you reminded him gently, voice steady despite the knot in your stomach. âIâm not going anywhere.â
His shoulders sagged just slightly, his resolve faltering under the weight of something neither of you could name.Â
You guided Zayne to the couch with a soft insistence, his steps heavy, like each one was taking him further away from something he couldnât quite grasp. He didnât resist, but his hesitation was palpable. You noticed the subtle tremor in his shoulders as he sat down, his back stiff, as if the weight of the world was pressing down on him.
You sat next to him, your fingers brushing the fabric of his coat as you settled yourself. The space between you both felt charged, yet strained, like two magnets unwillingly attracted but refusing to align.
Your hand hovered near his arm, unsure, but you couldnât ignore the impulse to reach out. The last few daysâweeksâhad felt like a slow, suffocating crawl through a fog. Seeing him like this, so unguarded, was both a relief and a deepening worry.
âZayneâŚâ You started, your voice low, soft. You werenât sure how to approach him anymore. He had been pulling away, emotionally distant, and now, even his presence seemed fractured.
You reached out, your fingers brushing against his sleeve.
At the first touch, his body flinched. Not an outward movement, but a sharp intake of breath, like a quiet shudder that ran through him. His hazel-green eyes were blown wide, pupils dark and dilated, swallowing the soft color until only a thin ring of green remained. For a brief moment, he looked at youâthrough youâlike he was caught between two realities, struggling to tether himself to the one in front of him.
Then, just as quickly, his gaze flickered away, his throat working around a breath that sounded too controlled, too measured. As if he was holding something back. The air between you thickened, the weight of his restraint pressing into the space between your fingers. His jaw tensed, a sharp line of tension beneath his skin, and yetâhe didnât move away.
With a careful breath, you let your hand rest against his arm, your fingers curling gently around the fabric of his coat. You felt him tense beneath your touch, but it wasnât from discomfort. No, it was something else. Something deeper. His body shuddered again, more pronounced this time, and you could feel his muscles ripple under the strain of holding back.
âZayneâŚâ You said his name again, this time softer, as though you were speaking to someone who was slipping away. You moved a little closer, hoping that your proximity would ground him somehow, though you werenât entirely sure how.
His voice cracked when he spoke, low and hoarse, like a man speaking to a ghost. âEvery time you touch me⌠itâs like⌠I feel like Iâm being pulled in two directions.â
You blinked, your heart skipping a beat as you tried to make sense of his words. âWhat do you mean?â you asked, your hand still resting on his arm, waiting, watching him closely.
Zayne exhaled slowly, his fingers twitching at his sides as if struggling to find an anchor. âIâve always suffered from nightmares,â he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. âThe same ones Iâve always had since I was young. But after what happened at Chansia CityâŚâ His throat bobbed as he swallowed hard. âIt didnât stop when I woke up.â
Your heart clenched at his words. You knew Zayne had always been plagued by restless nights, but thisâthis was different. You thought back to that moment at Akso Hospital, when you had found him slumped over his desk.
His brow was creased with the weight of exhaustion. His breathing had been uneven, his hands gripping the fabric of his coat as if he were bracing himself against something unseen. You had hesitated before stepping closer, unsure if you should wake him. But the quiet distress on his face made the decision for you.
âZayneâŚâ you had whispered, placing a gentle hand on his shoulder.
The moment your fingers made contact, he jolted awake with a sharp breath, his eyes wild with something you couldnât name. For a split second, it was as if he didnât recognize you, as if he were somewhere else entirely.
But then, his gaze softened, reality bleeding back into him. His breathing was still heavy, his shoulders tense, but when you knelt beside him, concern written all over your face, he didnât pull away.
Without thinking, you had reached out again, brushing his hair back in a quiet attempt to soothe him. His body sagged under your touch, the tension in his shoulders melting just enough for him to lean forward. And before you could react, he rested his forehead against your chest, his breaths uneven as if the simple act of being close to you was the only thing keeping him grounded.
You had stilled at first, heat creeping up your neck, but you didnât push him away. Instead, you let him stay there, your fingers threading through his hair in slow, absentminded strokes. You werenât sure how long you stayed like that, the sound of his breathing evening out against you, his body losing some of its rigidness.
When he finally spoke, his voice was hoarse, barely audible. âJust⌠let me stay like this for a while.â
And you had. Because for the first time, you realized how deeply tired he was.At the time, you thought he was just tired physically, but now you realized he was tired in a way that ran so much deeper as you watched him sitting on your couch, that same exhaustion clung to him like a shadow, only now it was accompanied by something far worse. He wasnât just tired. He was unraveling.
âI thought I could ignore it,â he continued, pulling you back to the present. âI thought it would fade eventually. But itâs not stopping.â His fingers curled into the fabric of his coat as if trying to ground himself. âItâs getting worse.â
You swallowed hard. âThe nightmares?â
âTheyâre not just nightmares anymore.â He exhaled sharply, his hands clenching before loosening again. âTheyâre memories of a life that isnât mine.â His jaw tightened, his entire body tense with something unreadable. âAnd the worst part?â His eyes flickered to yours, dark and conflicted. âI feel like Iâm walking on air, seeing things that arenât there, feeling emotions that arenât mine.â
You frowned. âZayne, what are you talking about?â
His throat worked around a response, but for a moment, he said nothing, only looking at you with something close to desperation. He shook his head as if trying to shake off the words before they could leave his mouth.
âIt doesnât matter,â he muttered, but you werenât about to let it go.
âIt does matter,â you said firmly, stepping closer. âYouâve been avoiding me for more than a week. You look like youâre about to fall apart, and now youâre telling me âit doesnât matterâ? Whatâs happening to you?â
He let out a bitter chuckle, but there was no humor in it. âI donât even know if I can explain it. Itâs⌠thereâs another version of me. One I canât escape. And heââ Zayne cut himself off abruptly, dragging a hand over his face. âHeâs ruining everything.â
The conflict in his expression made your stomach twist. You had never seen him like thisâso lost, so tangled in something that seemed beyond even his understanding. And when you reached for him again, your fingers brushing past his sleeve against his skin, you saw the way he shuddered.
At first, you thought his reactions stemmed from discomfortâthat every shudder, every tensed muscle was his way of pulling away. But then you saw it. The way his breath hitched. The way his lashes fluttered shut for the briefest second, as if savoring the warmth of your touch. As if he had been starving for it.Â
It wasnât rejection. It was restraint.
Your heart pounded. âZayneâŚâ
His fingers twitched at his sides before he finally spoke, his voice raw. âEvery time you touch meâŚâ He exhaled sharply, as if the words themselves were dangerous. âItâs like my worldâs losing its sense of direction.â
His confession stole the air from your lungs.
âBut itâs not just me that wants this,â he continued, his voice barely above a whisper. âAnd thatâs what scares me.â
Your fingers curled slightly around his wrist, grounding both of you in the silence between words. Zayneâs breath was uneven, his body strung taut beneath your touch. You could see itâthe war waging within him, the push and pull of something he refused to name. His fingers curled at his sides, clenched so tightly that his knuckles turned white. He was holding himself back.
But from what? From who?
The question burned at the edges of your mind, but you didnât voice it. Instead, you did the only thing you could think of. You moved.
Slowly, you climbed onto the couch, onto him, your knees settling on either side of his thighs as you straddled his lap. His entire body went rigid beneath you, his breath stalling in his throat.
âYouââ His voice broke, a warning tangled in desperation. His hands shot up, as if to push you awayâbut the moment his palms met your waist, he froze.
A violent shudder ran through him, his grip faltering but never leaving you. He barely held together, his fingers twitched against your sides, his body caught in an unbearable tension.Â
âYou shouldnâtâŚâ he rasped, but even as he said it, his hands pulled.
Pulled you closer.
Pulled you flush against him, until there was no space left to retreat.
You gasped softly at the sudden contact, at the warmth of him, the way his body molded against yours like he had been starving for this. For you.
His head dipped forward, his forehead pressing against your shoulder as his breath came out in a harsh, unsteady exhale. His grip on your waist tightened, not enough to hurt, but enough to make you feel how badly he was struggling.
âZayneâŚâ You whispered his name, hands lifting to cradle his face, to guide him to look at you. He didnât resist, but the moment your fingers brushed against his jaw, his eyes fluttered shutâhis entire body reacting as if your touch was something he had been craving but forbidden from having.
âEvery time you touch meâŚâ He repeated, his voice was raw, nearly fractured. âI feel like Iâm slipping deeper.â
Your fingers trembled slightly against his skin. âSlipping into what?â
His jaw clenched. His hands trembled against your waist, caught between pulling you closer and pushing you away.
âHim.â
The word sent a chill down your spine.
Zayneâs eyes finally opened, and what you saw there made your breath hitch.
Something was breaking inside him.
Something was bleeding through.
Like the fragile moment before dawnâwhen night still clung to the sky, desperate to remain, yet the light pressed forward, inevitable. A battle between darkness and the coming sun, neither willing to yield.
You didnât know who he was, or why Zayne was fighting so hard to keep him at bay, but you could feel itâhow much hewas longing for you. How much Zayne himself was afraid of that longing.
Your hands slid from his face to his shoulders, steadying him, grounding him. âYouâre still you,â you murmured. âNo one else.â
His fingers flexed against your waist, his breath ragged. âThen why does it feel like every time you touch me⌠Iâm losing control of myself?â
He was slipping, unraveling, caught between two selvesâone who had you, and one who had only ever ached for you.
And for the first time, Zayne wasnât sure which one he wanted to be.
You sighed, your fingers curled against his shoulders, gripping him just a little tighter. His body was warm beneath your touch, but the tension in him never eased. If anything, it worsened.
âZayne,â you whispered, searching his face. âHelp me ease your mind, tell me everything. Tell me about him.â
His expression darkened instantly. His hands, still gripping your waist, stiffened before pushing you backâjust slightly, just enough to put distance between you.
âNo.â
The refusal was sharp, final.
But you didnât let go. âZayne, please.â
His jaw locked, his breath coming out in harsh exhales as he tried to rein himself in. But you had already seen itâthe flicker of something raw in his gaze, the weight pressing down on him like it was crushing him from the inside.
He turned his head away, his grip tightening before he forced himself to let go. âI donât want to tell you.â His voice was quieter now, but no less strained. âBecause if I doâŚâ His throat bobbed, his hands clenching into fists. âWhat if you look at me differently?â
Your chest ached. âZayneââ
âHeâs not me,â Zayne bit out, his voice lower now, edged with something close to rage. His fingers dug into the fabric of your clothes as if anchoring himself. âI donât care what I see, what I feelâhe is not me.â
You frowned, your heart pounding. âI didnât say he wasââ
âIt doesnât matter,â he snapped, his fingers digging into you much harder before he wrenched them away, as if touching you made it worse. âIt shouldnât matter. Because whatever he isâwhatever heâs doneâI am not him.â
His voice cracked at the end, his composure slipping, and it hurt more than anything. Not because of what he wasnât telling you, but because he was carrying it alone, letting it eat away at him like he deserved it.
Your fingers curled into the fabric of his shirt. âZayne, I donât care what you think this means. I donât care whatâs bleeding through or what memories arenât yours.â Your voice wavered, but you pushed through. âWhat hurts me isnât who you were or werenâtâitâs this.â You gestured between the two of you, the distance he was trying to wedge between you. âItâs you shutting me out, punishing yourself like you have to carry this alone.â
Zayne let out a sharp breath, his fingers curling into fists against the curve of your waist. His grip was tense, hesitantâlike he was still fighting himself.
You watched him carefully, the weight of his silence pressing against your chest. He had been resisting, keeping himself locked away behind walls you couldnât breach. But this time⌠this time, something shifted.
And then you realized it.
It wasnât your persistence that made him falter. It wasnât even the promise that you would accept him, no matter what. It was the fact that you told him it hurt you too. That his silence, his self-inflicted suffering, didnât just wound himâit wounded you.
Zayneâs throat bobbed, his gaze flickering, as if weighing the consequences of speaking the truth. His fingers flexed against you, his breath uneven.
Finally, he asked, âDo you know why I became a doctor?â
You hesitated. âBecause you wanted to save people.â
âPartly,â He let out a bitter laugh. âBut mostly because I spent my entire childhood dreaming of a man butchering them.â His hands raked through his hair, gripping at the strands.
âIt started when I was twelve.â His throat bobbed as he swallowed hard. âI didnât understand it then. I just knew that every night, I saw his hands, covered in blood. I heard the screams, felt the cold metal of a blade I never held.â His fingers flexed against your waist. âAnd every morning, I woke up terrified that Iâd become him.â
You sucked in a quiet breath.
âThatâs why I became a doctor,â Zayne muttered, his voice barely audible now. âTo erase him. To bury him. Every life I saved was another step away from him.â His gaze snapped back to you, and there was something close to desperation in it.
He paused, and his gaze softened just slightly as it met yours, though there was still that edge of desperation.
âAnd⌠I wanted to help you, too. Since the first time I saw you struggling with your heart⌠I couldnât stand the thought of losing you, not like that.â
Your heart pounded. âZayneâŚâ
âBut now?â His gaze locked onto yours, and you almost flinched at the intensity in his eyes. âNow itâs not just nightmares. After Chansia City⌠itâs like something cracked. Like I bled through him.â
You frowned. âWhat do you mean?â
His fingers flexed against your skin, then curled into a fist, as if the words physically hurt to say. âI used to only see flashes. His world, his sinsâthey were nothing more than fragments. But now? I see his everyday life.â His voice dropped lower, as if saying it out loud made it more real. âI see him waking up in an empty apartment, walking through streets that no longer have names. I see him looking for somethingâsomeoneâwho was never there.â
Your chest tightened. âZayneââ
âAnd I know what that loneliness feels like.â His voice was rough, raw. âBecause when I had nightmares of his lifeâŚÂ he dreamt of mine.â
A chill ran through you.
âHe dreamt of Linkon. Of Akso. Ofââ He swallowed hard, his grip on you unyielding. âYou.â
The word hung between you, heavy and fragile at the same time.
âNow, heâs clawing his way into my thoughts, trying to make sense of a life that isnât his to have.â Zayneâs hands curled into the fabric of your clothes, as if anchoring himself to something tangible. âAnd every time I look at youââ His voice cracked, his hands shaking as he clutched you. âHeâs reaching for you. And I donât know if itâs me who wants you or if itâs him bleeding through.â
Your heart pounded.
His pain was something you could see, something you could feel in the way he held you too tightly, in the way he refused to look away, as if afraid youâd vanish if he did.
âDoes it change anything?â you asked, voice barely above a whisper.
Zayneâs breath stilled.
âNo, it doesnât,â he admitted, his voice hoarse. âI want you. I do. Iâve never denied that.â His fingers curled against your skin, holding you closer. âBut this⌠itâs never felt like this before.â
His gaze darkened, his brows drawing together. âLike I canât go a second without feeling you, without needing you right here. And I donât know if itâs just meâif itâs always been meâor if itâs him. But it doesnât matter.â His voice dropped lower, rough with something unspoken. âBecause either way⌠I still want you.â
You reached up, cupping his cheek, forcing him to meet your gaze. âYouâre here, right now. Whatever he feels, whatever he wantsâthis moment belongs to you.â
His throat bobbed, the conflict in his gaze raw and unfiltered. His fingers twitched where they held you, as if he wanted to push you away and pull you closer all at once.
And thenâfinallyâhe whispered, âI donât know if I can separate us anymore.â
Zayneâs breath hitched, his hands still gripping your waist like a man on the verge of breaking. His body was rigid beneath yours, every muscle coiled tight with restraint. His stormy eyes flickered between your lips and your gaze, warring with something unseen.
You could feel itâthe way he was holding himself back, the way his fingers twitched against your skin like he was fighting the instinct to pull you in.
And then, just when you thought he might push you awayâhe moved.
His lips crashed against yours, the kiss rough, almost desperate. A sharp inhale left him as his fingers tightened at your sides, pressing you flush against him. It wasnât careful, wasnât measured like everything else about him. It was hurried, hungry, as if he had been drowning for far too long and you were the only thing keeping him afloat.
Yet even in his desperation, there was hesitationâa tremor in his touch, a battle within him. His grip faltered, his breathing unsteady, as if his own emotions were overwhelming him.
For a moment, he slowed, his lips ghosting over yours, softer nowâless frantic, more reverent. His fingers traced up your back, like he was memorizing every inch of you, terrified you might disappear.
But then when you surged forward to deepen the kiss, something in him snapped.
His restraint shattered as his hand cupped the back of your head, pulling you deeper into the kiss. His other hand dug into your waist, as if grounding himself in the feeling of you. He let out a quiet, shuddering breath against your lips, his body trembling beneath your touch.
It wasnât just desireâit was longing. A desperate, aching need that had been simmering beneath his skin for far too long.
And still, it wasnât enough.
He kissed you harder, as if trying to chase away the ghosts of a world where you didnât existâwhere he had spent endless nights reaching for something that was never there.
Zayneâs breathing was ragged as he suddenly tore himself away from you, his forehead pressing against yours, his grip on your waist still firm but trembling. His chest rose and fell in unsteady heaves, as if he had just surfaced from deep waters.
âI donât want to hurt you,â he rasped, his voice thick with something raw and desperate. His fingers flexed against your waist before slowly dragging up your sides, his touch both grounding and possessive. âBut I need to feelââ His words cut off, a quiet âfuckâ slipping from his lips as he clenched his jaw, forcing himself to stop.
You could see itâfeel it. The battle raging within him. The desperate need to claim this moment as his own, to separate himself, to make sure that thisâthis longing, this ache, this hungerâwas his, and not something bleeding over from the nightmares that haunted him.
His fingers ghosted over your arms before gripping your wrists, guiding them up to rest against his chest. You could feel the rapid beat of his heart beneath your palms, erratic and heavy, proof of his struggle. His eyes searched yours, dark with emotion, pleading for something he couldnât voice.
âI need to know itâs me,â he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. âNot him. Not the dreams. Just⌠me. But I donât trust myself enough not to hurt you.â
His fingers brushed your skin, hesitant, reverentâlike he was afraid of his own hands.
âBut I trust you.â
The words felt heavier than anything else he had said tonight, laced with the weight of every nightmare, every fear, every ghost of a life that wasnât his. He swallowed hard, his gaze flickering to your lips, then back to your eyes.
âI need you to take control,â he murmured, each syllable careful, deliberate. âI need to know this is realâthat youâre realâthat Iâm real.â His hands curled into fists before he forced them to relax against you. âBecause if I let go now⌠I donât know if Iâll be able to stop.â
There was no mistaking what he meant. No mistaking the conflict in his gazeâthe desperation tangled with restraint, the need warring with self-loathing.
Your hands slid up from his chest to cup his face, fingertips brushing against the sharp angles of his jaw.Â
âItâs you, Zayne,â you whispered, your voice steady, certain. âYou.â
You tilted his face up, brushing your lips against hisâa whisper of a touch, just enough to tether him to the present, to this moment with you. He shuddered beneath your touch, his hands tightening at your waist as if anchoring himself.
âIâm here,â you continued, pressing another soft kiss to the corner of his mouth, then another along the line of his jaw. âThis is real. Weâre real.â
A sharp exhale left him, his resolve breaking little by little as you pressed against him. His grip on your waist faltered, then returned, strongerâdesperate.
âLet me take care of you,â you murmured against his skin.
He shuddered at your words, his eyes fluttering closed for a moment as he wrestled with the warring emotions inside him. When they opened again, the desperation had intensified, the dark gray irises nearly swallowed by the black of his pupils.
âShow me,â he rasped, his voice low and rough with barely restrained desire. âMake me believe it.â
You took your time, trailing kisses along his chest, feeling the hard planes of muscle beneath his shirt as your lips travelled down. You wanted to savor this moment, to make sure he knew it was him, that this was real.
As you sank to your knees before him, you looked up at Zayne through your lashes. The raw vulnerability in his expression made your heart ache. You wanted to erase every nightmare, every fear, every shadow that haunted him.
âYouâre real,â you murmured, your breath ghosting over his cloth-covered arousal. âThis is real.â
With a steadying breath, you leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to the bulge straining against his zipper. You could feel the heat of him, the throbbing need, and it made your own body ache in response.
You worked slowly, unzipping him with deliberate care, letting your fingers brush against his arousal as you did. He was already hard, the thick length of him stretching the fabric of his boxers.Â
You havenât seen him naked before, and crossing this line made your thighs clench. Glancing up at him, you caught his gaze, holding it as you hooked your fingers in the waistband of his boxers and tugged them down. His cock sprang free, long and thick and perfect, the swollen head already glistening with need.
âBeautiful,â you whispered, wrapping your hand around the thick base of Zayneâs cock, giving him a firm squeeze as you gazed up at him with hooded eyes. âYouâre beautiful, Zayne.â
Slowly, teasingly, you started to stroke him, your soft palm gliding along his hard length. You could feel every throbbing vein and ridge, committing the shape of him to memory.
Leaning in, you breathed over his swollen cock head, then, with a deliberate slowness that was almost torturous, you dragged the flat of your tongue along the underside of his shaft, tracing the thick vein that ran from base to tip. You lingered at the sensitive spot just below the head, swirling your tongue around it before giving it a firm press.
Zayne shuddered and groaned, his fingers flexing in your hair as you dragged your tongue back down to the base, your hand following the same path. When you reached the bottom, you dipped your tongue into the neat little slit at the tip, tasting the first salty drops of his arousal.
Savoring his flavor, you wrapped your lips around the swollen head, your soft mouth stretching around his impressive girth. You suckled gently, your cheeks hollowing as you began to take him deeper, inch by hard inch.
âYour mouth⌠it feels so g-goodâŚâ he groaned.
The praise that escaped his lips made the flush on your face more evident. As your lips moved slowly down his shaft, encasing him in the slick heat of your mouth, your tongue undulated along the thick vein on the underside as you took him deeper, until the head of his cock bumped the back of your throat.
You held yourself there for a long moment, relishing the heavy, throbbing weight of him, the musky scent of his arousal flooding your senses. Then, with a slow, deliberate motion, you began to bob your head, taking him deeper into your throat with each downward motion.
Your hand worked in tandem with your mouth, stroking and squeezing as you sucked him. You could feel him growing harder, the thick length of him pulsing against your tongue as you pleasured him.
âFuck⌠just like thatâŚâ
You couldnât help but moan around his cock at his groans, your brain committing the sounds to memory. You doubled your efforts when you felt he was close, sucking harder, stroking faster, your tongue never still as it lapped and swirled and caressed every hard, throbbing inch of him.
His grip on your hair tightened, his hips starting to piston forward, fucking your mouth as you sucked him with wild abandon. You could feel his body tensing, his breath coming in harsh pants and groans.Â
âI canât⌠I canât hold back much longerâŚâ
And then, with a roar that was nearly feral in its intensity, he came. His cock jerked and throbbed as it erupted, shooting hot, thick ropes of cum down your eager throat.
You swallowed it all, working your throat to milk every last drop from his pulsing length. The taste of him was intense, the salty-sweet flavor of his essence exploding on your tongue.
As the waves of his release began to ebb, you slowly pulled back, letting his still hard cock slip from your lips with a lewd pop. You licked your lips, savoring the lingering taste of him as you gazed up at Zayne with a look of pure, sated desire.
âZayne,â you whispered, your voice hoarse. âItâs you. This is you. Youâre real.â
You placed a soft, lingering kiss on the tip of his cock before nuzzling your cheek against his thigh, looking up at him with a smile that was pure tenderness mixed with deep, abiding lust.
As the last tremors of his intense orgasm faded, Zayne reached down and gently but firmly pulled you up by your arms, urging you back into his lap. You went willingly, straddling his hips as you sat facing him.
His hands slid around to your back, one resting high on the curve of your shoulder blades, the other splayed across the small of your back, pulling you flush against his strong chest. You could feel the heat radiating off his skin, the steady thrum of his heartbeat beneath your palms.
Gazing into your eyes, Zayne leaned in, capturing your lips in a searing kiss that steals your breath. It was a kiss filled with gratitude, with hunger, with a desperate need to claim you, to make you his.
You kissed him back just as fiercely, your fingers tangling in his hair as you arched into him, pressing your soft curves against the hard planes of his body. His tongue delved into your mouth, stroking along yours, tasting himself on your lips and tongue.
As you both lost yourselves in the kiss, you could feel Zayneâs cock, still semi-erect and slick with your saliva, nudging against your core. The friction sent sparks of pleasure shooting through you, making you ache with a renewed desire.
Almost unconsciously, your hips began to move, grinding against his in a slow, sensual rhythm. You could feel the heat building between your thighs, the dampness of your arousal soaking through your panties.
Zayne groaned into your mouth, his grip on your waist tightening as he felt your hips rolling against his. His cock twitched and began to harden further, growing thicker and longer with each passing second.
Breaking the kiss, Zayne trailed his lips down the column of your throat, his teeth grazing your racing pulse. âRide me,â he growled against your skin, his voice low and rough with renewed desire. âI need to feel you, all of you, surrounding me, consuming me, making me forget everything but your name.â
You shuddered at his words, at the raw, primal need in his voice. Reaching down, you pushed your panties aside, baring your slick, needy sex to the cool air and his heated gaze. You could feel your own arousal dripping down your thighs, a testament to how much you wanted him, needed him.
With a roll of your hips, you positioned yourself over his hardening length, feeling the thick head nudging against your entrance, you slowly sank down. You were so wet, so ready for him, that he slid inside you with a single, smooth thrust.
You both groaned at the sensation, your inner walls fluttering and clenching around his thickness as he stretched and filled you completely. You could feel every ridge and vein of his cock as it brushed against your sensitive flesh, igniting nerve endings you didnât know you had.
Zayneâs hands gripped your hips, guiding your movements as you began to ride him. You started slowly, rising up until just the tip of his cock remained inside you, before sinking back down, taking him to the hilt.
âYou feel so good, love.â he murmured, his lips parted open.
With each downward motion, you could feel the pleasure building, the coil of tension in your core winding tighter and tighter.Â
You arched your back and Zayne leaned forward, freeing your breasts from the confines of your shirt as he lifted it by the hem. He captured one straining nipple in his mouth, suckling and nipping at the sensitive bud. His free hand slid from your hip to the juncture between your thighs, his fingers finding your clit and rubbing the swollen nub in tight, fast circles.
You cried out, your head falling back as the sensations overwhelmed you. Your hips moved faster, rising and falling in a frantic rhythm as you chased your pleasure. The wet, obscene sounds of your coupling filled the room, spurring you both on.
His other hand inch upward, holding your head firmly, his fingers tangling in your hair, Zayne tilted your chin up to gently force your gaze to meet his intense, hazel-eyed stare. He let out a strangled moan, âSay my name, love. Come onâŚâ
Zayneâs grip on your hips tightened, his fingertips digging into the soft flesh as he guided your increasingly desperate movements. His own hips surged up to meet yours, driving his thick length deeper, harder, faster into your clutching heat.
âZayne,â you breathed, âYouâre the only one I want, the only one I need.â
His breathing grew ragged, each exhale escaping through gritted teeth as he lost himself in the slick slide of your bodies joining again and again. The obscene sound of skin slapping against skin echoed through the room, mixing with the staccato cries spilling from your lips.
Zayneâs hand moved from your clit to your breast, squeezing the soft mound roughly as he pinched and rolled the stiff peak between his fingers. He leaned down, his hair falling forward as he dragged his tongue over your collarbone, tasting the salt of your skin.
âFuck, just like thatâŚâ he growled against your neck, his voice strained. âS-Say my name againâpleaseâŚâ
His words sent shivers down your spine, making your inner muscles clench around him. You could feel every ridge and vein of his cock as it stretched you, filled you, owned you.
âZ-ZayneâŚ!â you moaned.
Zayneâs thrusts became more erratic, more desperate at the cry from your lips. The hand on your hip slid around to the small of your back, pressing you flush against him as he pounded up into you. The couch creaking with each surge of his hips, the sound mingling with your cries and his grunts.
You could feel the tension building in your core, the pleasure coiling tighter and tighter as you climbed towards your peak. Your nails raked down Zayneâs nape as you held on for dear life.
With a harsh curse, Zayne slammed up into you one last time, burying himself to the hilt as his release overtook him. His cock jerked and pulsed inside you, painting your insides with his hot release.
The sensation of his release pushed you over the edge, your own climax crashing through you like a tidal wave. Your body convulsed, melting into him as your inner muscles clamped down around him while you came apart in his arms.
You collapsed against his chest, both of you gasping for air as the aftershocks of your release rippled through you. Zayneâs arms tightened around you, drawing you in close, his heartbeat steady beneath his damp shirt, grounding you in the moment.
In the quiet aftermath, as your breath began to steady, Zayne placed a gentle kiss against your temple, his lips lingering there as if memorizing the moment. âThank you,â he whispered, his voice raw and heavy with emotion. âFor this. For everything.â
You gently cupped his face, guiding him to look at you. âYou have me, Zayne,â you said softly, your words steady and sure. âNo matter who you are, no matter who you becomeâIâll never walk away.â
He paused as his fingers brushed gently across your damp cheek.
He spoke, his voice was soft, almost hesitant. âAll I know now is that⌠the only thing Iâm sure of,â he began, his forehead resting against yours once more, âis you.â He swallowed, his grip around you tightening as if trying to ground himself in the present.
You thought that would be the end of it, but he exhaled, a shudder racking through him.
âI never believed in fate,â he added, his voice low, but without any trace of bitternessâonly a quiet acceptance. âBut now, I do. Because no matter where I am, or who I amâŚÂ youâre the constant. The one thing thatâs always been real.â
He paused, his words heavy with an ache that tightened your chest. âAnd I think⌠I think Iâm meant to love you in every life, in every timeline. Iâm meant to be with you. And no matter how complicated it gets, no matter what happens, Iâll always end up finding you.â
His grip on you tightened further, pulling you closer, as if to make sure you were really there. âNow⌠I canât help but feel⌠bad for him.â
A heavy sigh escaped him, thick with weight and regret. âHe doesnât have you. He doesnât get to have thisâthis connection.â His voice wavered, raw with something unspoken. âAnd I think thatâs what hurts the most. No matter how much I try to separate myself from him, I canât shake the feeling that a version of me is still reaching for you. That somewhere⌠in every universe, in every life, even if you donât exist in itâit will always be you.â
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Why are people saying Zayne forced himself on us in the game? I can't pull for the myth so spoil it for me.
It hasn't even been a day and this is already an issue.
WARNING: SPOILERS FOR ZAYNE'S MYTH
If people don't know what scene this is referring to, please watch Zayne's PV trailer. Also, anon, if you're not pulling, I highly advise you to watch the myth on YouTube, there's a channel called Lavender who posts these videos, and form your own opinion as well.
ONTO THE MYTH AND 'THAT' SCENE...
The healing sex ritual. There's a lot of subtlety and subtext here that people should really try to infer before going on a rampage that Zayne did things against MC's will. To understand, we have to talk about other things in his myth so...
MC is a goddess of a civilization called Niava. At the beginning of the myth, she gets badly injured and is struggling to get back to her tower, and is desperate to find Zayne to heal her. Here we find out she and Zayne have known each other for centuries, but they're in a cold war kind of situation due to their own personal reasons. MC here is proud, arrogant, and haughty, and I LOVE that they made her like this.
MC is wary of Zayne, and Zayne avoids her. This is because Zayne has seen the future (or past?) and knows their interaction can only result in destruction. But MC, being a goddess in this realm, believes Zayne 'belongs' to her, like her devotees and all the physical materials of this world, simply because he chose to exist in it, even if he's not a regular visitor here. In other words, she believes he should cater to her needs first, despite him being a god with his own responsibilities.
We find out MC has relentlessly pursued Zayne for decades, telling him to 'be hers' and 'not to leave her'. She even insists on forging his name onto a divine tablet so that they're bound for all eternity, something that Zayne doesn't want, but she eventually wears him down, and he agrees. But Zayne continues to keep distance from her even though they were 'bound together'. This is my own interpretation, but it almost felt like they were married, for lack of a better explanation. MC is hurt and almost out of spite, decides to not talk to Zayne, and Zayne leaves her alone while he pursues his other duties, but this is more so to keep her safe than to piss her off.
When MC is injured in battle, she very begrudgingly looks for Zayne because he's the only one who can heal her. Zayne takes his time in appearing and asks her if she's sure she wants him to heal her, and MC launches herself at him, taking off his clothes and biting his lip, literally commanding him to heal her. It should be noted MC is in a lot of pain here because she has bloody wounds all over her body.
Zayne teases her request to heal her by saying she should supplicate him like anyone else does to a god, but she refuses, almost being a brat, like she's annoyed she has to ask him for help, and reminds him she's a goddess and he's in her realm.
Zayne begins the healing process, and MC mentions it hurts but I'm so sure it's because her wounds are healing, and that can't be comfortable. She struggles against him, but Zayne pins her down and reminds her what he's giving her: that is, he's telling her that she can hate him, but he will always heal her despite the circumstances. At least, that's how I saw it.
This proves too much for MC and she tries to get away from him, presumably before she's done healing. That's when Zayne uses his golden thread on her to keep her bound, and pins her under him, and he continues the ritual, reminding her that it 'won't stop just because she wants it to.' I interpreted this as she can fight him despite being injured, but he won't stop healing her just because she's throwing a tantrum and being a brat.
I would like to point out here that MC had given RELUCTANT consent, rather than no consent at all. And given their history, rough sex isn't really out of character for either of them. They're both stubborn and headstrong in this myth, and Zayne is fed up with her refusal to accept his help at this point.
Can this be interpreted as dark romance? Sure, but imo, this is a really pale version of it. The thing to remember here is that it's FANTASY. Obviously IRL, if someone says stop or is pushing someone away, you're supposed to stop, but there's a reason dubcon and CNC is popular in fantasy realms. In this case, we know Zayne wouldn't actually hurt MC, and it's clear that MC's struggle and pushing him away was because she's trying to prove she doesn't need him, but she hates it when he leaves her without explanation.
In conclusion, do I think Zayne did this without consent? No, I don't. I believe they've known each other for too long and he's seen this side of her enough number of times to know when she's being too prideful to ask for help. Also, despite the age rating, I firmly believe the game isn't for a younger crowd because it does discuss a lot of heavy and dark themes. All the men aren't pure green flags, but it's hard to explore these sides if people keep crying that the story isn't sweet and gentle. I can see how some people might look at this as black and white, but the game itself isn't written that way, it's all shades of gray.
Also, this isn't present day Zayne. This isn't our Linkon doctor who's quiet and tries to do his best. This is God Zayne, and in this myth timeline, he's not interested in being soft, he's being cold and calculated so that MC doesn't end up dead due to her own bad decisions.
If you don't like my take, this is my reminder to SCROLL ON BY. But if you have constructive advice, then feel free to sound off in the comments.
I absolutely adore the fact that we already got somewhat of a happy scenario for both Foreseer and Master of Fate in the current timeline. Getting one for GoA in the future would be pretty neat, I really hope we do get one! đĽ°
Seeing our babies happy even if it's in the cards is kinda good ig? (We don't talk about what happened in mainstory DAR for now đ They had no reason to stab us like that)
Also I found this cute f2u Zayne main divider by @/rinchansnow!! đ¤
Buckle up my jasmine flowers, because today's impromptu LaDS meta essay is about Zayne!
I've been going back through the Timelock Key event, transcribing the text for my lore project. This got me thinking about Tower of Secrets, Snow's Embrace, Death and Rebirth, and a random reddit post about how Zayne doesn't really have any memories to hide from MC (but ohhh boy he does!).
Zayne's story at first seems to lack an external force interfering with it. Xavier has the Backtrackers, Rafayel has the other Lemurians and the Sea God, Sylus has *gestures wildly at everything* and Caleb was also an Ever experiment and now he's controlled by the Fleet.
But Zayne's, like, mostly a normal guy, right? It seems that way. But I think this is just because the external forces in his story are subtler, and only now are things coming to a head. So let's dive in...
Zayne's predicament
Zayne is the Emissary to the divine, whether he knows it in a particular life or not. What this means has been pretty unclear so far, and Nero specifically notes in Death and Rebirth that if the gods aren't being active, an Emissary might have no idea what they are. (In that convo he and Tara might as well have been talking straight to the camera but I wasn't mad about it, lol.)
Forgive the goofy analogy, but Zayne's "destiny" is more or less to be a Jedi--foresake all attachments, serve the Greater Good (or, at least, divine will and the heavenly principles of fate), and exist as an emotionless being outside of time. Ofc what this is actually pointing at is more Buddhist and Taoist philosophy, from which the Jedi also borrowed.
But he has one crucial attachment that he won't let go of. MC. <3
Wtf is Astra?
Astra is the god that Zayne is the emissary for in Tower of Secrets. Astra exerts active influence in that myth, punishing and imprisoning Zayne for daring to glimpse at his own fate.
I see a lot of people eager for Astra to influence other LI's story branches, or the main story timeline, and imo that's not the right interpretation.
This really clicked for me now that the Cosmic Convergence chapter made it 100% clear that in the myths that mention Philos by name, we're seeing alternate versions of the same planet in parallel timelines--some longer, some shorter--each with their own corresponding Aether Core. (The core for Tower of Secrets is the Creatio Core.)
So, I think it's best to understand Astra as being part of this Philos's "what if". Zayne's storyline asks, "What if the gods were real and fate was a force with very specific rules" just like Sylus's story asks "what if dragons are real" and Xavier's asks "what if immortal humans could time travel" and so on.
Zayne's purpose and principles
Zayne's job is to be a guardian and to uphold his duty to the divine. MC is a threat to this job in every timeline they share together. She is always the inciting reason for him to abandon the very principles he holds most dear.
In Snow's Embrace, Zayne is a fate diety who violates the rules of each life's fated end in order to give MC a longer life.
In Tower of Secrets, Zayne is an emissary to Astra and the one thing he's not allowed to do is look at his own fate--but he does so for MC, again to save her life.
Now, this is where it gets interesting. In the main story timeline, Zayne is adamant in his principle that the XHeart tech is morally wrong, and resurrection is a violation of the natural order that will have dire consequences. However... he admits that if MC were to die, he would do everything in his power to bring her back, including using that forbidden tech. So again, he's in a position where he knows he'll violate his principles to save her, if it comes to that.
This is of course an identity crisis for him, and this is about how far I've gotten in my analysis so far. But then I was thinking about Astra...
What Astra does
In Tower of Secrets, Astra punishes Zayne by causing thorns to trap his body and ice crystals to pierce his chest. The intent is that this discipline will set Zayne back on his "correct" path, i.e. the one where he has no attachments and serves Astra faithfully.
Note this passage from the first page of Fates Entwined, which is referring to when he hurt MC:
The scene before him collapses into a vortex deep within his gaze as gods look down upon the mortal world.
Upon weaving the first connection with that youth⌠Icy thorns pierce his palm.
One way to look at this is another "punishment" from the gods. And why? Because Zayne is developing an attachment to MC! So Astra--and/or the other named or unnamed gods at play here--intervenes actively in Zayne's life, causing his Evol to harm MC even as icy thorns punish Zayne.
And yeah, it's pretty effective at driving a wedge between them and putting Zayne back on his "correct" path! From the second page:
Until he finds redemption, he shall willingly imprison himself within this pain.
Like a traveler with a lamp, he cannot let the faint light die out before he escapes the darkness.
"He shall willingly imprison himself within this pain" evokes his punishment in Tower of Secrets, where he peers at MC's fate, knowing the consequences for himself, in order to save her.
Zayne and withdrawal
Zayne withdraws (in heartbreaking ways) at the end of each of his myths, and at the end of Death and Rebirth. In some ways, this seems to speak to an avoidant element of his personality. (And that's certainly there.) However, thinking about the gods being active external forces in all of his lifetimes changed how I think about his.
While all the other LIs are fated to be with MC in some way or another, Zayne's "fate" is to not be with her. It's to leave the attachment behind.
Their love is star-crossed--forbidden by the gods. A divine emissary is not supposed to fall for a mortal. And yet, his love for MC remains an integral part of who he is, creating a tension that causes Zayne to defy his fate and even his own deeply held principles.
Zayne knows that there are violent consequences for doing this. This is another part of the "what if" of his myth lore--what if those gods can and will wreak punishment and destruction upon those who defy them?
It's interesting to think about it less as Zayne withdrawing due to his personality, and more as the gods actively intervening to force him and MC apart. And he knows this will happen, so he does as much for her as he can before their paths are forced to diverge.
Identity = purpose
Zayne's identity is his job. That's pretty clear in Snow's Embrace and Tower of Secrets, where he's literally a diety of sorts, but we see it in the main timeline too with how strongly he identifies with being a doctor, and the workaholic lengths he goes to. Until MC rejoins his life, literally every second of his day is dedicated to being a doctor.
This creates a compelling contrast to Dawnbreaker, who likewise fully identifies with is "job"/role: killing the abominations. Together, Zayne and Dawnbreaker comprise the life/death yin/yang duality.
There's a lot more to be said on that, but for now I want to focus on how Zayne's sense of identity interacts with fate...
Fate and identity in crisis
It's especially interesting to contrast Zayne's perspective on fate with that in Sylus and MC's story. Sylus and his MC see fate as something that can be conquered. They refuse to accept it, even if it kills them--and they succeed at subverting fate, at least in a sense.
Since I love that kind of story, tbh on the surface I felt like Zayne didn't fight hard enough to defy his fate in his myths, ultimately seeing abandoning MC as the better option because he didn't understand how much she needed/wanted him. And I think that's still a fair interpretation and element of tragedy to their story.
But a key difference between Sylus and Zayne is that Sylus never has to go against his own identity or principles. He has always done his own thing, he has always been seen as evil by others--so who cares if he pisses off the gods? (Or a few random ppl die along the way, etc)
But for Zayne, defying fate requires him to go against is identity, his duty, his principles, even his vows.
Zayne's inner conflict is made most clear by the main story timeline dilemma. He has access to a version of immortality that he knows is wrong, he knows is dangerous. He's able to leave behind the ability to resurrect the dead with no regrets--except the haunting knowledge that he would throw away those principles in a heartbeat if it was required to save MC.
I think it's fair to think of the versions of Zayne in Tower of Secrets and Snow's Embrace as also facing similar crises of identity when it comes to defying their duty to help MC. In-context, breaking those rules is as much a violation of the natural order as resurrecting the dead. There's an element of darkness, selfishness, shame, and failure to the lengths Zayne is willing to go to in order to save MC. He would even break his most sacred oaths, like the Hippocratic oath.
Zayne's themes are pointing in the direction of the question: How many people would you kill to save the one you love?
And more than that: How much of your own identity are you willing to shatter for the one you love?
And dude, that hits me right in the feels. Especially because we know Zayne counts every single life he's ever been unable to save, and each death hits him so hard.
Doing what needs to be done to protect MC ultimately ends up threatening to fracture his entire identity. And as the Emissary of the Divine, it's unclear how many other lives might be affected by his choices also. So, his choices are either to leave after she's safe (as he does in Snow's Embrace, Tower of Secrets, and tries to do in Death and Rebirth) or to rebuild his entire sense of self brick-by-brick--and that's assuming that the gods aren't waiting in the wings to kill/punish MC anyway should he deviate too far from his fated path.
The looming question
If you're a sucker for star-crossed lovers and noble sacrifice, you can happily stop there. But if, like me, you crave defying fate and killing gods, you're left with a central question for Zayne and MC:
How powerful are the gods, really? What are the actual consequences of them being together, as opposed to what Zayne thinks the consequences are? Do the gods over-represent their level of power to Zayne? To what extent is Zayne fighting against active divine agents vs. fighting against his own inner beliefs about those agents?
In conclusion
Really, this whole essay was inspired by the realization that the gods were directly intentional in causing Zayne's Evol to nearly kill MC as soon as they saw he was falling for her, in order to drive them apart. That is incredibly cruel and incredibly effective. And all his nightmares of Dawnbreaker and her dying over and over serve to reinforce the will of the gods: For Zayne to leave MC behind, forsake his attachments, and be a good little Emissary.
So, instead of the driving conflict being Zayne's tendency to abandon MC to ease his guilt, the driving conflict is actually Zayne struggling to not abandon MC, even as the literal gods try to torment and torture him to the point that he'll finally push her away.
Being close to him puts her at risk, not because of some false belief he has about himself (that could be addressed in, say, therapy) but because the gods are actively trying to kill her to get him back to doing the job they have for him.
Idk if it's just me, but it hits different. I'm big into subtext and metaphors so understanding whether a conflict is internal or external is key for me. And realizing this is an external conflict for Zayne, with a diety (or dieties) actively intervening, made so much click into place.
If you'll forgive me one last comparison to Sylus's story, I think in Sylus we see a character who knows that the only way to defy fate is with MC's help--so he actively recruits her to develop her strength. ("With you here, I only need one plan.")
In Zayne, we see a character who doesn't yet understand all that's possible when he and MC stand side-by-side to challenge the gods. So, I hope this is the development arc we get to see with him. đ
Or, perhaps Zayne knows something we don't, and the gods truly are too powerful to defy, and he's right about the best possible outcome. But I don't like that because it makes me cry. đ¤ So I will continue to believe there's another way until proven otherwise.
(So help me god, if Sylus and MC need to hop timelines to go all dragon rage and murder Astra to fix everything I WILL WRITE THAT FUCKING FIC)
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⤠ęąá´á´á´á´ĘĘ- âYou saw me?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper. âAt the cafĂŠ?â
His gaze darkened, the weight of yearsâof searching, of longingâsettling into his eyes like a storm barely held at bay. âJust for a moment,â he murmured. âA glimpse.â His thumb traced the curve of your cheek, his touch reverent, almost fragile, as if he feared you might vanish beneath his fingertips. âAnd that was all I needed.â His voice dipped lower, rough with something raw and unspoken.
âDo you understand now?â His forehead nearly touched yours, his breath warm against your skin. âWhy I canât let you go?â
(Or⌠in the haze of waking and dreaming, you meet a boyâDawnbreaker. Over the years, he lingers, growing with you, reaching for you, until the lines between reality and dreams blur beyond return. And when you finally meet Zayne, the man who bears his face but not his memories, you realize the truth: Dawnbreaker is no mere dream, and he is driven by something more than longingâby the fear of being replaced.)
⤠á´á´ÉŞĘɪɴɢ- dawnbreaker!zayne x female reader
⤠ɢá´É´Ęá´- angst & smut
⤠ᴥá´Ęá´ á´á´á´É´á´- 19.6k words
⤠ᴥá´ĘÉ´ÉŞÉ´É˘ęą (or tags)- nsfw, mdni, no use of y/n, dawnbreaker!zayne, dom!zayne, themes of childhood trauma and violence, angst, possessive behaviour, nipple play, marking (biting), finger sucking, body worship, clit play, oral sex (cunnilingus), fingering, squirting (hinted), overstimulation, multiple orgasms, pinning, grinding, thigh fucking, penetration (p in v), breast play, rough sex, unprotected sex, mentions of ownership, and creampie.
⤠ɴá´á´á´- Hello! This took wayyy longer than I originally said it would, and for that, Iâm really sorry. University got super busy, and honestly, this story took a lot more thinking and emotional energy than I expected. I had to take a break for a week, and of course, the moment I did, a ton of uni work piled up too. So yeah⌠it took me a while to finally get around to finishing this.
I really hope the plot translated the way I envisioned it! I wanted to explore the idea that it was MC who started dreaming about Dawnbreaker, not Zayne himself, and that they werenât childhood friends at all. This was the result of that concept, and I had a lot of fun writing it.
Hope you enjoy reading!!
The cafÊ smelled of roasted coffee beans and vanilla, the air thick with the hum of quiet conversations. You barely registered the low chatter, your focus settled on the glowing menu board as you waited in line, eyes tracing the list of drinks out of habit more than necessity. The morning rush had come and gone, leaving only a few lingering customers scattered by the windows, engrossed in their own worlds.
You placed your order, fingers drumming absently against the counter. Just as you stepped aside, the barista called out a nameâclear, unmistakable.
âOne caramel macchiato, a slice of tiramisu, and a box of assorted macarons for Zayneâto go!â
The tray was claimed before the name had a chance to linger. You turned instinctively, drawn by familiarity before your mind could fully catch up. And there he was.
The man who haunted your nights. The man you had spent years reaching for in dreams, only to wake to an empty room.
He stood just a few feet away, lifting the tray to inspect the order sticker, the faintest furrow between his brows. But something was off. His hair, as dark as you remembered, was slightly neat, framing his sharp features in a way that made him look softer, more at ease. A neatly pressed white button-up covered his frame, the sleeves fastened at his wristsâformal, composedâa white doctorâs coat slung over his arm. And the most jarring differenceâthin, rectangular glasses rested on the bridge of his nose.
Your gaze flickered downward instinctively, searching. His forearms, bared just enough where the cuff shifted, were smooth, unmarked. No scars. No evidence of the battles you had seen carved into flesh.Â
It was wrong. It was all wrong.
You waitedâwaited for something, for his gaze to lift, for his mouth to curve into something familiar, something that made sense of the years you had spent with him in the quiet corners of your mind. But when his eyesâhazel green, steady, unreadableâfinally met yours, there was no flicker of recognition. No shift in his expression. Nothing that acknowledged the weight pressing against your ribs, the sudden tightness in your chest.
He didnât know you.
A slow, dull throb settled behind your ribs.
You told yourself to speakâto say something, anythingâbut the words tangled, caught between disbelief and the raw edge of something else, something you couldnât yet name. And so you waited. If he knew you, he would say something first.
But he only lingered a second longer before giving you a polite, almost absent nod, as if you were just another stranger in his periphery. Then, with his order in hand, he turned toward the exit, leaving you standing there, heart pounding against the silence he left behind.
You followed him.
It wasnât a conscious decision, not reallyâmore like a pull, a habit carved from years of dreams where he always walked ahead, and you always reached for him. But now, the distance felt different. Wrong. His steps were measured, unhurried, completely unaware of you until the moment he turned around, and you instinctively moved to follow.
That was when he stopped.
Before you could react, he shifted, turning toward you with quiet precision, cutting off your path with nothing more than presence alone. Up close, he seemed even more unfamiliarâhazel-green eyes sharp behind his glasses, his stance polite but firm.
ââŚAre you following me?â
His voice was even, not accusatory, but laced with careful curiosity, as if piecing together a puzzle he hadnât expected to find. And for the first time, you hesitated.
This wasnât the Zayne you knew.
You had expected him to recognize you first. To say your name, to offer even the slightest flicker of familiarity. Instead, he was watching you with mild wariness, waiting for an answer you werenât sure how to give.
Your throat tightened. You shook your head, forcing a step back. âIâNo, Iâm sorry.â
Something in his gaze flickered. He didnât move, didnât press, only studied you with quiet scrutiny.
You exhaled, turning on your heel. âGoodbye.â
You walked away before he could respond.
And yet, as the door shut behind you, the world seemed to shiftâlike slipping into something just slightly misaligned.
The memory came back in fullânot in pieces or echoes, but whole and sharp, like stepping barefoot onto broken glass.
It had happened before.
A long time ago.
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It was 2034.Â
You were seven years old then, when the sky split open.
They called it the Chronoshift Catastrophe, but that wasnât what you remembered. The news reports spoke of rifts and anomalies, of the Deepspace Tunnel appearing above Linkon City like a jagged wound in the sky. They warned of Wanderersâtwisted figures that moved like shadows and tore through everything in their path. They reported the casualties, the hostilities.
But none of that stayed with you.
You remembered the sirens, the way they wailed endlessly, their shrill cries bleeding into your dreams. You remembered the distant glow of fire reflecting off the windows, the thunder of helicopters beating through the sky. And you remembered sitting alone on the floor of the orphanageâs common room, knees tucked to your chest as the caretakers whispered behind locked doors. They never told you much, only that Linkon City had fallen. That people had changed.
You were one of them.
The first dream came not long after.
You had been asleepâcurled beneath a too-thin blanket in your corner of the oprhanageâwhen the world shifted.
You woke up standing.
The floor beneath your feet was cold, uneven stone, slick with something dark that clung to your skin. The air was heavyâthick with the scent of rain-soaked earth and rust, sharp enough to sting your nose. You shivered, fingers curling tightly around the hem of your nightshirt.
Then you heard it.
A soundâsmall, stuttering breaths, like someone was trying to stay quiet.
You turned your head and saw him.
A boyâmaybe your age, maybe olderâhunched against the wall. His knees were drawn to his chest, his arms wrapped tightly around them like he was trying to hold himself together. His clothes hung off him in ragged strips, torn and smeared with grime. His handsâŚ
His hands were dark with something sticky and half-dried. Blood. He kept rubbing his palms against his knees in frantic, jerky motions, like he could scrub it off if he just tried hard enough. But it wouldnât go away.
He hadnât seen you yet. His head was bowed, his breath shaky and thin.
You took a step closer, and thatâs when he froze. His breath hitched, and slowlyâlike he wasnât sure he wanted toâhe lifted his head.
His eyes were darkâhazel greenâand there was something burning inside them, something that made your chest feel tight. Fear, grief⌠something more than that, something heavy and endless.
For a moment, he just stared at you, like he couldnât decide if you were real.
ââŚWho are you?â
His voice was hoarse, frayed at the edges. Like he had been crying too long and had forgotten how to stop.
The boy didnât move right away. His gaze stayed locked on you, wide and unblinking, like you might vanish if he looked away. His hands had stilled against his knees, fingers twitching faintly as though they couldnât forget the blood that clung to them.
âAre youâŚâ His voice wavered, cracking in the middle. âAre you one of them?â
âOne of who?â you asked softly.
His eyes narrowed. âThe monstersâŚâ
You shook your head, your voice barely above a whisper. âNo.â
He stared at you a moment longer, then exhaledâshort and sharp like he didnât believe you. His fingers curled into his sleeves, knuckles turning white.
âYouâre not supposed to be here,â he muttered. âYou shouldnât beââ
His breath hitched, and suddenly his shoulders were shaking again. He bit down hard on his lower lip, like that might keep the tears at bay, but his face was already crumpling. The weight of whatever he was holding back threatened to crush him right there.
âIâm sorry,â he choked out. âI didnât mean to⌠I didnât know theyâI didnât want toââ
You didnât understand what he meant, not yet, but the words came from somewhere raw and jagged, too tangled with guilt for someone so young.
âItâs okay,â you said quickly, stepping closer. âYou didnât do anything wrong.â
âIÂ did,â he shot back, voice rising. âIâI couldnât stop them. I tried toâI triedââ His hand shot up and pressed against his face, smearing dirt and blood across his cheek. âI couldnât save them.â
His voice broke at the end, and that was what did itâthe way his shoulders hunched in like he was trying to make himself small, the way his breath kept stuttering like it hurt just to keep going.
You moved before you could think better of it. Crossing the space between you, you knelt beside him, resting a hand against his arm. He flinchedâhis whole body jerking like he expected a blowâbut you didnât let go.
âIâm sorry,â you whispered. âIâm sorry youâre alone.â
He shook his head, fast and hard. âIâm not alone,â he insisted, voice thin and strained. âI still have toâI still have to fight. I canâtâI canât stop yet.â
âFight?â you asked, your hand tightening slightly.
He looked at you thenâreally looked at you. His eyes still held that feverish gleam, but there was something else there too. Something tired.
âThey keep coming,â he whispered. âThe monsters, no, Wanderers.â His voice faltered, turning quiet like he was afraid saying their name would call them closer. âThey used to be people. I knew some of them. But when they⌠changeâŚâ His gaze dropped to his hands, to the dried blood crusted beneath his nails.
âI couldnât save them,â he repeated. His voice shook again, breaking against the words. âI tried, butâŚâ
You swallowed hard, your fingers flexing against his arm. He was so cold beneath your touch, like the warmth had been drained out of him.
âYou shouldnât have to do that alone,â you said.
âI have to,â he muttered. His eyes flicked upward again, colder now. âThereâs no one else left.â
The weight of those words hit you hardâtoo big for a boy his age to carry. For a moment, you didnât know what to say.
But then you reached out, fingers brushing against his bloodied hand. His fingers twitched beneath yoursâinstinctively drawing backâbut you held steady.
âYouâre not alone right now,â you told him quietly. âNot while Iâm here.â
His breath hitched againânot like he was about to cry this time, but like he didnât know what to do with the way you were looking at him. Like he couldnât quite believe you meant it.
ââŚWhatâs your name?â he asked, his voice barely audible.
You told him.
He hesitated, then answered quietly, âIâm Zayne.â
For a while, you just knelt there, your hand still resting against his arm. The cold pricked at your skinâsharp, almost too sharpâand yet none of it seemed to matter. Not when his breathing kept hitching, not when his fingers kept twitching like they didnât know whether to fight or flee.
Was this real?
The thought curled through your mind, quiet and uncertain. It had to be a dreamâdidnât it? You remembered falling asleep. Remembered curling beneath your blanket, still small enough that your feet barely reached the end of your bed. Dreams were strange like thatâalways shifting, always showing you things that couldnât be real.
But the air smelled wrongâsharp and metallic. The chill biting at your skin hurt. And this boyâthis crying, trembling boy, he felt real. His breath was warm where it ghosted against your arm. His skinâcold and cracked beneath the streaks of blood, trembled faintly beneath your fingers.
Is he real?
You didnât know. But you couldnât just sit there and watch him fall apart.
âHow did everything start?â you asked softly.
Zayneâs fingers twitched again beneath yours, curling inwards like he was trying to keep something from slipping away. His shoulders shook, and when he finally spoke, his voice barely scraped above a whisper.
âI donâtâŚâ His words faltered. âI donât know how it started. I just remember⌠the skyâŚâ
And then he told you. About the sky splitting open like a wound above the city. About the faces he knewâfamiliar, warm facesâturning cold and empty, wandering the streets like ghosts in their own skin. About his fatherâs voice, promising everything would be fine. About his motherâs scream, cut short before he could reach her.
His fingers flexed againâthis time curling tighter, like he was holding something invisible in his hand. Frost bloomed beneath his palm, thin veins of ice creeping across the cold stone floor.
Heâs scared, you realized. Heâs still scared.
âYou were just a kid,â you said quickly. âYou are just a kid.â
âIt doesnât matter.â His gaze sharpened, colder nowâtoo fierce for someone so small. âI can still fight. I can still keep them away.â
His other hand lifted slightly, and a sharp gust of cold prickled against your skin. Tiny flecks of ice clung to his fingers, spreading like frostbite.
This has to be a dream. The thought pushed forward againâlouder this timeâbut you ignored it.
âZayneâŚâ you started carefully. His face was tight, his eyes locked on his hand like he couldnât control what was happening.
âIt wonât stop,â he muttered. âI canâtâI canât control it sometimes. When I get scared or angryâŚâ The ice spiked upward, jagged and wild. âI hurt people.â
âYou wonât hurt me,â you said, your voice steadier than you expected. âYouâre not going to hurt me.â
His gaze snapped to yours. For a moment, his eyes were wide with panicâlike he didnât believe you, like he was waiting for you to pull away.
But you didnât.
âIâm here,â you told him again, your hand pressing more firmly against his arm. âIâm not going anywhere.â
The ice began to shrink, slowly pulling back toward his fingertips. His breathing steadiedâstill shaky, but calmer now.
ââŚOkay,â he whispered. His fingers slackened in your hand. âOkay.â
And when his head dropped against your shoulder, the weight of him leaning into you like he didnât have the strength to keep himself upright, you wrapped your arms around him. He was cold, ice still clinging faintly to his sleeves but he was warm too. Warm enough that you let yourself believe, even just for a moment, that this was real.
You remembered waking up the next morning with the cold still clinging to your skinâfaint, like a whisper fading with the morning light. For a moment, you had lain there in your bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering if it had all been a dream.
But it hadnât felt like a dream. You still remembered the way his voice had trembled, the way his fingers had twitched like he was trying to hold something too sharp. You remembered the weight of himâcold but solidâwhen he finally let himself lean against you.
You remembered wantingâachingâfor nightfall to come.
That whole day, you had barely spoken. You went through the motionsâate when you were told, followed the orphanageâs routineâbut your mind kept straying. Each time the sky darkened, your pulse would quicken, hope unfurling in your chest like a bloom in spring.
But when you closed your eyes that night, there was only darkness.
And the night after that.
And the one after that.
Days stretched into weeks. Weeks bled into months. The memory of himâof Zayne, his bloodied hands, his quiet, fractured voiceâlingered at the edges of your mind like a shadow you couldnât chase away. You wondered if he was okay. If his ice had ever stopped growing wild and sharp. If he had somewhere warm to sleep. If he even knew that you had tried to find him again.
Time kept moving forward.
Somewhere in those months, a family cameâa pair of Hunters who had once fought during the Chronoshift Catastrophe. They werenât the sort of people you had expected. They werenât cold or distant like the stories had warnedâthey were warm. Solid. Their presence filled the empty spaces in your life so easily that you wondered how you had gone so long without them.
They taught you how to hold a blade properly, how to move quickly but quietly. They told you about the Wanderersâabout the people who had once been human, twisted and lost after the disaster. They never told you to become a Hunter like them, but you knew they would teach you if you asked.
And for a while, you stopped thinking about him.
You didnât mean to forget. You never wanted to. But Zayne became just another face in the corners of your memoryâone you couldnât quite hold on to no matter how hard you tried.
Then, almost a year later, on a night that seemed no different from any other, you found yourself in that cold, quiet place again.
The air smelled of frostâsharp and stinging, colder than any winter you had ever known. The wind howled through the ruins, biting at your skin, and when you exhaled, your breath curled into mist before vanishing into the dark.
You werenât sure how you knew, but the moment your bare feet touched the frozen ground, you understood.
You had been here before.
Not just hereâbut with him.
A sharp crack split through the air, and your gaze snapped toward the sound. At the center of the ruined space, jagged ice carved its way up from the broken concrete, glinting under the pale light. And standing before it, his arm still outstretched, was him.
Zayne.
He was taller than you rememberedâstill thin, still wary, but stronger now. His posture was different, steadier, and though his clothes were still worn, they fit him differently. Purposefully. He wasnât the trembling boy you had once held in your arms.
No, he was something else now. Something sharper.
The frost curling from his fingers glowed faintly, flickering like dying embers. He was training. You could see it in the rigid set of his shoulders, in the way his breath came slow and measured. The ice in front of him wasnât just happeningâhe was controlling it.
And for a moment, you hesitated.
Would he remember you?
Had he, too, waited for nightfall? Had he searched for you in the dark, only to be met with silence?
Or had he forgotten?
You didnât realize you had whispered his name until the sound of it carried into the stillness.
Zayneâs head snapped toward you. His whole body went rigid, and the ice in his palm flared wildly before fracturing with a sharp, splintering sound.
For a second, neither of you spoke.
Thenâhis expression twisted, confusion flickering through his dark eyes, wariness settling over his features like a veil.
He took a step closer, slow, measured, like he was approaching something that might shatter at the wrong move.
His gaze swept over you, taking in every detail.
And then, softly, warily, ââŚYouâre here.â
It wasnât relief.
It wasnât joy.
It was a realizationâone that made his fingers twitch at his sides, as if testing whether this was real.
But you could see the shift in his expression, the faint furrow of his brows, the careful calculation behind his eyes.
He knew.
Zayneâs gaze flickered, his breath unsteady. His fingers curled at his sides, the faintest trace of frost spreading across his knuckles before melting away. He studied you for a long moment, taking in every detailâlike he was trying to commit you to memory, afraid you might slip away if he blinked.
Then, finally, he exhaled.
âThe last timeâŚâ His voice was quiet, as if speaking too loudly might break the moment. âIt was a dream. I didnât realize it until I woke up.â
His eyes darkened, something unreadable shifting beneath the surface.
âI wasnât sure if Iâd ever see you again.â
You didnât think twice. The moment his voice waveredâthat quiet, uncertain note threading through his wordsâyou stepped forward and wrapped your arms around him.
He tensed at first, his whole body going rigid beneath your touch. The cold that clung to himâsharp and biting, like frost creeping across glassâmade you shiver, but you didnât let go.
âI was worried about you,â you said softly, your voice muffled against his shoulder. âI thought⌠I thought maybe you didnât make it.â
For a breathless second, he didnât move. Then, slowly, his arms liftedâhesitant at first, like he wasnât sure if he was allowed to hold on. But once his fingers found your back, his grip tightened. He clung to you like something fragileâsomething worn thin by too much grief, too many cold nights spent alone.
âI didnât know if you were real,â he whispered. His voice shook, the words barely holding together. âI kept thinking⌠maybe I imagined you.â
You shook your head against him. âIâm real.â
His arms tightened just a little more, like he was afraid to let go.
âYouâre warm,â he murmured, almost to himselfâas if that alone was proof enough.
You pulled back just enough to look at him, your arms still looped loosely around his waist. His face was still pale, his eyes still guarded, but you could see the way his shoulders werenât quite so stiff anymoreâlike some of that awful weight had finally let go.
Without thinking, you dug into your pocket and fished out a crinkled little pack of candiesâbrightly wrapped, half-squished from being forgotten in the pockets of your pajamas.
âI brought these,â you said, holding them out with a proud grin. âIâve been sleeping with candy in my pockets just in case I saw you again.â
His gaze flicked from your face to the candies, like he wasnât sure if you were serious.
âI thought⌠maybe if I had something when I fell asleep, I could bring it here too,â you explained. âI didnât know if itâd work, but⌠I guess it kinda did?â
Zayne blinked at the small pack in your hand. Then, to your surprise, the corner of his mouth twitchedânot quite a smile, but close enough that it made your chest feel warm.
âYouâre weird,â he mumbled. But his fingers reached outâhesitant at firstâand plucked the candies from your hand like they were something rare, something delicate. He turned the pack over, his thumb tracing the edge of the wrapper.
âYou donât have to give them all to me,â he added quietly. âYou can keep some.â
âI want you to have them,â you insisted. âYou look like you need them more.â
He stared at the candies for a moment longer before slipping them carefully into his pocketâlike they were something important. Something safe.
âThanks,â he said, so softly you barely heard it.
You leaned in a little, curious. âWhat happened after I last saw you?â
Zayne glanced down at the candy in his hands, fingers idly twisting the wrapper. He hesitated for a moment, like he wasnât sure how much to say, before letting out a quiet breath.
âSome people found me,â he admitted. âSurvivors. They took me in.â
âThatâs good, right?â You shifted closer without thinking, knees knocking against his. He didnât move awayâhe never did. Even when he wasnât holding onto you, he was always close, always making sure some part of him was touching you. His elbow rested lightly against yours now, grounding, like he was making sure you were real.
Zayne nodded, but his expression remained unreadable. âTheyâre training,â he continued. âAll of us are.â
You tilted your head. âTraining for what?â
âTo fight,â he said simply. âTo kill Wanderers.â
The words should have sounded harsh coming from an eight-year-old, but the way he said them was flat, like he had long accepted this as normal. It made something twist in your chest, a strange sort of ache you didnât quite understand yet.
For a mmoment, you didnât know what to say. So instead, you reached into your pocket again, pulled out another piece of candy, and pressed it into his palm.
Zayne blinked at it, then at you, before carefully peeling away the wrapper and popping it into his mouth.
The change was instant.
His hazel-green eyes, usually guarded and dark, brightened as the sweetness hit his tongue. His lips parted slightly, his brows lifting just a fractionâlike he had forgotten what something good could taste like.
You giggled. âItâs good, right?â
He nodded, chewing slowly, savoring it. His knee bumped against yours again, more deliberate this time. âReally good.â
The sight of him like thisâlighter, just for a momentâmade you feel warm all over.
âIâll bring more next time,â you promised.
Zayne stilled, looking at you carefully, as if testing whether you really meant it. Then, slowly, he swallowed and murmured, âOkay.â
Zayne sat quietly for a moment, rolling the candy wrapper between his fingers. Then he asked, âWhat about you?â
You blinked. âMe?â
âYeahâŚâ His voice dipped lower, almost hesitant. âWhat happened to you?â
You tucked your knees to your chest, leaning your chin against them. âI got adopted,â you said. âBy some Hunters. Theyâre really niceâtheyâre strong too! They said they fought during the Chronoshift, butâŚâ You paused, wrinkling your nose. âI guess things are better in my world. The cityâs still there, and the Wanderers arenât everywhere like⌠like in yours.â
Zayneâs gaze flickered down at his hands. His fingers twitched like they wanted to curl into fists again.
âBut theyâre still dangerous,â you added quickly. âI mean, the Wanderers. Theyâre still out there, hurting people sometimes.â You sat up straighter. âThatâs why I wanna train too! Like my parentsâI wanna be a Hunter when I grow up so I can help.â
Zayneâs head snapped up at that. âYou want to fight them?â
âWell⌠yeah.â You shrugged. âI know Iâm not strong yet, but Iâll get there. My parents say Iâm getting better with a blade, and I can run pretty fast! I justâŚâ Your fingers twisted into the hem of your sleeve. âI just donât want people to get hurt anymore.â
He was staring at youânot with his usual wary gaze, but with something softer. Something you couldnât quite name yet.
âYouâre lucky,â Zayne muttered, barely above a whisper. âThat your worldâs better.â
You reached out without thinking, your hand finding his. His fingers were colder than yoursâice creeping faintly along his knucklesâbut they didnât flinch away. Instead, his hand curled around yours, clinging tightly like he was afraid to let go.
âIâll train hard,â you promised. âSo that if you ever need help⌠I can be there.â
Zayne didnât answer right away. He just kept holding your hand, his knee still pressed against yours, his elbow brushing your arm. He stayed closeâlike he needed you to be near, needed something steady to hold onto.
ââŚOkay,â he said at last, voice barely louder than a breath. âOkay.â
You didnât know what you meant by itâhow could you? The two of you had only ever met in dreams, separated by two different worlds. But somehow, that didnât matter.
You just knew that you wanted to help himâwanted him to be okayâeven if you didnât quite understand how yet.
Over the years, the dreams came like clockworkâonce a year, always on the same day. Each time you drifted into sleep on that night, you found yourself thereâin that cold, quiet place where Zayne waited.
He was always there. And each year, things were differentâyet somehow the same.
When you were nine years old, the moment you opened your eyes, you jolted up, excitement buzzing in your chest.
It worked.
You were back.
Your head whipped around, scanning the dim surroundings, your breath fogging in the cold air. Thenâthere. A short distance away, standing with his arms crossed and a guarded expression, was Zayne. His hazel-green eyes flickered with something unreadable as he watched you.
The second you saw him, you took off.
You ran toward him, nearly tripping over yourself in your eagerness, and skidded to a stop just before colliding into him. Before he could react, you shoved a lollipop into his palm with a triumphant grin.
âI brought you more candy!â you announced proudly. âIt worked last time, so I kept doing it!â
Zayne stared at the lollipop, then at you, his expression caught somewhere between confusion and amusement. âYou really sleep with candy in your pockets, huh?â
You nodded, arms crossed. âYep! Every night! Just in case I see you again.â
There was a beat of silence where he just stared at you, and for a second, you wondered if you had said something weird.
Thenâslowlyâhis lips twitched, barely a ghost of a smile.
Without a word, he unwrapped the lollipop with careful fingers, almost reverent in the way he peeled away the wrapper like it was something rare. He popped the candy into his mouth and let out a quiet hum, as if savoring the taste.
âYouâre weird,â he murmured around the candy.
âYouâre mean,â you shot back, grinning.
But Zayne didnât refute it. He just stood there, sucking on the candy like it was the best thing heâd ever had, his shoulders slightly less tense than before.
You plopped down onto the cold ground, patting the space beside you. Zayne hesitated for a second before sitting, his knee bumping lightly against yours. He didnât move away.
âDid you miss me?â you asked suddenly, kicking your feet out.
Zayne blinked at you, sucking harder on the candy, and didnât answer immediately.
ââŚI wasnât sure if youâd come back,â he admitted after a moment, his voice quiet.
You huffed. âThatâs not a yes or no answer.â
He shot you a side glance, his lips twitching around the lollipopâs stick.
ââŚMaybe,â he muttered.
Your grin widened, but you didnât tease him.
Instead, you reached into your other pocket, your fingers closing around something small. âOh! Look at what I also brought this time!â
Zayne watched curiously as you pulled out a small flashlight, clicking it on with a dramatic flourish. The beam flickered to life, bright and steady.
âFreeze!â you declared, aiming the light at his chest. âYouâre under arrest for being a grump!â
Zayne squinted at the beam, blinking rapidly. For a second, he looked confusedâthen, to your surprise, he let out a small breath of laughter, shoving your arm away.
âThatâs stupid,â he said, but his gaze lingered on the light.
âWanna try?â you offered, holding it out.
He hesitated before taking it, fingers curling carefully around the handle. His thumb hovered over the switch for a moment before pressing down. The beam flickered back on, steady against the stone wall.
ââŚItâs been a while since Iâve seen one of these,â he murmured, quietly enough that you almost didnât catch it.
âYou donât have one?â
He shook his head. âDoesnât last long when youâre⌠outside a lot.â His voice trailed off, like he didnât want to finish the sentence.
You didnât press. Instead, you scooted closer, watching as Zayne wordlessly traced the beam along the wallâoutlining shapes, dragging the light across the floor like he was following an invisible path.
âYou can keep it,â you said when the batteries started to dim.
Zayneâs fingers tightened slightly around the flashlight. âWhy?â
âIn case you ever get scared.â
His lips parted like he was about to say something, but he just gave a quiet snort and tucked the flashlight into his pocket.
The dream started to blur at the edges, the cold air growing softer. Zayneâs knee bumped against yours, firmer than beforeâlike he was bracing himself.
âYou should come back sooner next time,â he muttered.
âI canât control it,â you reminded him. âIt just⌠happens.â
âI know.â He shifted, his shoulder knocking into yours. ââŚI just didnât know when Iâd see you again.â
He didnât say he missed you.
But you could hear it anyway.
The next time you found yourself in that cold, quiet place, you were used to it.
You woke up in the dream with a joltâblinking hard, adjusting to the dimnessâand immediately looked around for him.
Zayne was there, further away this time, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. His gaze flicked up at the sound of your footsteps, and for a split second, you caught the faintest trace of relief on his face.
âI knew youâd come back,â he saidâlike heâd been convincing himself of it for a while now.
âI brought you something!â you grinned, bouncing on your toes as you dug into your pockets. First came the candyâyour usual stash, neatly wrapped. He took it without a word, but his fingers lingered against yours for a moment longer than necessary.
âAndâŚâ You reached deeper, pulling out a bundle of soft fabric. âI got this for you, too!â
Zayneâs brow furrowed as you unraveled the black scarfâlong, thick, and softer than anything youâd ever owned yourself. âWhatâs this for?â
âFor you!â You stepped closer, looping it around his neck before he could protest. âItâs warm, right?â
âItâsâŚâ Zayne trailed off, reaching up to brush his fingers along the wool. His hand stilled halfway, curling slightly like he didnât want to let go. ââŚItâs nice,â he muttered.
âYou should wear it all the time,â you said proudly. âThat way you wonât get cold.â
Zayne snorted, but the sound was quieter than usualâsofter. âYou know this is just a dream, right?â
âYeah, but maybe youâll still feel warmer when you wake up,â you reasoned. âDream logic!â
He huffed a laugh under his breath, then stuffed a piece of candy in his mouth to hide his smile.
âOh!â You straightened suddenly. âI forgot to show you something cool!â
Zayneâs eyes narrowed with suspicion. ââŚWhat?â
âWatch this!â
You took a deep breath and held out your hand, fingers spread wide. At first, nothing happenedâjust air and silenceâbut then you felt it, that faint pull beneath your skin. Energy, quiet and familiar, thrummed to life at your fingertips. Tiny sparks flickered across your palmâfaint, pale blueâbefore fading just as quickly as they came.
âWhoa,â Zayne murmured. âHowâd you do that?â
âItâs my evol!â you said proudly. âMy parents say itâs called Resonance.â
âWhatâs that mean?â
âWellâŚâ You chewed your lip, thinking. âItâs like⌠I can match energy and make it stronger. Like if someone uses fire, I can make their fire burn hotter. Or if they use iceââ
âLike my evol?â
âExactly!â You beamed. âI havenât done that part yet, but Iâm learning!â
Zayne stared at your hand like he was still processing it. ââŚThatâs kinda cool,â he muttered, but his voice was quieterâthoughtful.
âYou have an evol too,â you reminded him. âYour ice is really strong!â
âYeah,â he said shortly, like that wasnât something to be proud of.
âWellâŚâ You nudged his arm with your elbow. âIf you ever need help controlling it, maybe I can help!â
Zayne didnât answer right away. His gaze flicked toward your hand againâthe faint traces of warmth still lingering on your fingertipsâbefore dropping to his lap.
âYou donât have to,â he muttered.
âI want to,â you said simply.
You didnât know what you meant by itânot really. After all, the two of you only ever met in dreams, and when you woke up, he would still be thereâwherever there wasâfighting his own battles.
But you meant it all the same.
The dreams went on, but when you were thirteen, that year, when the cold air of the dream settled around you, you didnât have time to look for him.
Because the moment you opened your eyes, you felt itâthe rush of footsteps, fast and urgent, and before you could turn, arms wrapped tightly around you.
âZayne?â you gasped, stumbling back a step.
His grip only tightened.
He wasnât just hugging youâhe was clinging to you, like you were the only solid thing in a world that was slipping through his fingers. His face pressed hard against your shoulder, his breath ragged and uneven. You could feel the way his fingers dug into your backâdesperate, like he was afraid youâd disappear if he let go.
âHeyâŚâ You shifted, trying to look at him, but he wouldnât let you move. His arms stayed locked around you, his body tense like a drawn wire.
âYouâre here,â he muttered under his breath. His voice sounded strangeâhoarse, brittle. âYouâre really here.â
âIâm here,â you promised, softening your voice. âIâm here.â
You stood there for a while, saying nothingâjust feeling the way his heartbeat thrummed against your chest, too fast and too hard. Eventually, his breathing slowed, and he leaned heavier into you, like his legs couldnât quite hold him up anymore.
âI brought candy,â you murmured after a while, your voice lightâa clumsy attempt to ease the weight in the air. âYouâll crush it if you keep squeezing me like this.â
He huffed something that was almost a laugh, but it faded too quickly. Slowlyâreluctantlyâhe loosened his grip enough for you to see him.
His face was paleâpaler than usualâand there was a shadow beneath his eyes, like he hadnât slept in days. His hazel-green gaze flickered down, avoiding yours, and thatâs when you noticed itâthe faint red stain on his sleeve.
âZayneâŚâ Your stomach tightened. âAre you hurt?â
He shook his head quickly. âItâs not mine.â
ââŚOh.â
For a moment, neither of you spoke. The silence stretched, too heavy to break easily.
âIââ His voice cracked, and he stopped. His fingers twitched at his sides, like he was reaching for you again but couldnât quite bring himself to.
So you reached first.
You grabbed his hand, lacing your fingers together. He froze for a second, then squeezed backâhard enough that it almost hurt.
âDo youâŚâ You swallowed. âDo you want to talk about it?â
He shook his head again. âNo.â
But he didnât let go. His fingers stayed locked with yours, holding on like you were the only thing keeping him from drowning.
You didnât push him. Instead, you dug into your pockets and fished out a handful of candyâmore than usual this time, a bright scatter of wrappers in reds and blues and yellows.
âHere.â You pressed some into his free hand. âI brought extras.â
For a moment, he didnât moveâjust stared down at the candy like he couldnât quite process it. Then, finally, his fingers closed around it.
âYouâre weird,â he muttered, voice rough, as always.
âYouâre mean,â you shot back, just like you always did.
But this time, when he smiledâfaint, tiredâit didnât quite reach his eyes.
You ended up sitting on the cold ground together, his knee pressed tight against yours, his fingers still tangled with your own. He kept fidgeting with the scarf youâd given him two years ago, winding it tighter around his neck like he was trying to block out the chill.
At one point, he unwrapped one of the candies, popping it into his mouth with little thought. But when the taste hit his tongue, you saw something flicker in his gazeâthat brief, flickering light you hadnât seen in a long time.
âItâs good,â he murmured, his voice softer now. âYou always pick the best ones.â
âYou always say that,â you teased.
âBecause itâs true,â he mumbled.
You felt his hand shift against yoursâhis fingers slipping from your gripâand you barely had time to miss the warmth before he moved again, wrapping his arm firmly around your waist instead. He leaned into you without hesitation, tucking his head against your shoulder like he belonged there.
âZayne?â you whispered, surprised by how tightly he held on.
âJust⌠stay,â he muttered. âPlease.â
So you stayed. You sat there in the cold, with his arm locked around you and his breath warm against your neck. His grip never loosenedâeven when his breathing evened out, even when his fingers twitched slightly against your side, like he was grounding himself with your presence.
And when you finally woke up at the timeâwarmth still lingering on your skinâyou found yourself wishing you couldâve stayed longer.
-
The evening air felt colder than usual when you got home, your thoughts tangled from the encounter at the cafĂŠ. Zayneâsfaceâno, his faceâkept surfacing in your mind, like an itch you couldnât scratch.
But it couldnât be him.
You kicked off your shoes, barely noticing the warmth of your apartment. The glow from your laptop screen flickered to life as you sat down, fingers tapping restlessly against the keyboard.
Dr. Zayne Li, Akso Hospital.
The search results filled the screen in an instant. Article after articleâcrisp headlines stamped with words like brilliant, prodigy, and renowned.
âAt Just 27, Dr. Zayne Li Has Achieved What Few Surgeons Could Dream Of.â
âThe Man Who Fixes Broken HeartsâAn Exclusive Interview with Dr. Zayne Li.â
Your chest tightened.
The photos didnât help. His face was the sameâsharp, symmetrical features framed by dark hair, those unmistakable hazel-green eyes that had always lingered somewhere between cool metal and sunlit glass. But there was something⌠off.
In the photos, Dr. Zayne looked composedâpoised, even. His hair was neatly styled, not tousled like the boy you remembered. His gaze, while intense, was distantâfocused in a way that felt clinical, like his thoughts were always a thousand steps ahead.
But what struck you most wasnât his faceâit was his hands.
In one photo, his fingers were curled lightly around a scalpelâprecise, sure, steady. The faint scars that littered his knuckles and forearms which you were used to seeing, were nowhere to be seen. His hands, that was roughened from cuts and bruises and too many rushed bandages, now looked immaculateâlike theyâd never known violence or blood that didnât belong in an operating room.
And his smileâŚ
You clicked on an interview clip. The camera panned to himâthat same face, now sharper with ageâanswering a question with quiet confidence. His lips curved into a smile, polite and practiced. It was a smile that didnât quite reach his eyes.
You remembered your Zayneâs smileâsmall and crooked, the kind that slipped out when you surprised him with candy or when your teasing pulled him out of his brooding silence. It was never perfect, but it was real.
This wasnât.
Your Zayne wore his emotions like a second skinâtense shoulders, restless fingers, eyes that always betrayed the storm beneath. The man on the screen was calm, too calmâlike heâd buried something deep inside and didnât dare let it surface.
This man didnât fidget with his scarf when he was nervous. He didnât hover just a little too close like your Zayne always did, like he needed to know you were still there.
And this manâs eyesâcold and clinicalâdidnât carry the weight of someone whoâd spent years fighting to stay human in a world that kept turning people into monsters.
You closed the laptop, pulse pounding in your ears.
It wasnât him.
It couldnât be.
Sleep refused to come, you tossed and turned beneath your blankets, twisting them around your legs like vines. Each time you closed your eyes, you thought of himâyour Zayneâthe one who always greeted you with that tight, breathless hug, like he was scared youâd vanish if he let go. The Zayne who clung to your sleeve when you sat beside him, his knee always bumping yours. The Zayne who smiled crookedly when you teased him, who sucked on candy like it was his last meal, who had grown quieter and sadder with every passing year.Â
You missed him.Â
The thought hit you with a sharp acheâworse than usual, more desperate. The man youâd seen today wasnât him. He couldnât be.
But what ifâŚÂ
What if something had happened? What if your Zayne had changedâhad to changeâto survive? What if heâd forgotten you, moved on without you?Â
You squeezed your eyes shut, willing yourself to dream. To wake up in that cold, quiet place where your Zayne was waitingâwhere you could press candy into his hand and feel his fingers curl tightly around yours.Â
But the dream wouldnât come.Â
It hadnât been a year yet.Â
By the time the first pale hints of morning crept through your window, your mind was already made up.Â
You didnât bother to eat. You barely remembered changing clothes before grabbing your keys and heading out. The city felt colder than usual, the early air biting at your skin, but you barely noticed. Each step felt restless, like your body was moving faster than your thoughts.Â
When you finally reached Akso Hospital, you lingered outside longer than you should have. The building stretched high above you, sleek and intimidating with its glass-paneled walls. People streamed in and out of the entranceânurses in scrubs, patients in wheelchairs, visitors clutching flowers or gift bags.Â
For a moment, you wondered if this was a mistake.Â
But then you remembered his faceâhis sharp gaze, his empty smileâand something inside you hardened.Â
You stepped through the automatic doors. The sterile scent of antiseptic filled your senses, sharp and clinical. The lobby bustled with quiet energyâfootsteps tapping against tiles, murmured conversations drifting through the air.Â
You approached the front desk, your fingers curling into your sleeves. âExcuse me,â you said softly. âIâm looking for Dr. Zayne.âÂ
The receptionist barely looked up from her screen. âDo you have an appointment?âÂ
âNo, butââ You hesitated. What were you even going to say? âI just⌠I need to see him.âÂ
âDr. Zayneâs schedule is extremely busy,â the woman said, her tone polite but firm. âIf youâd like to leave a messageââÂ
âI can wait.â The words left you before youâd even decided to say them.Â
The receptionistâs gaze flicked toward you, taking in your stubborn expression. With a sigh, she relented. âFine. But thereâs no guarantee heâll see you.âÂ
âIâll wait,â you repeated.Â
And you did. Hours passedâpatients came and went, doctors hurried past in white coats, their faces tired and focused. The clock on the wall seemed to drag on endlessly. You kept your eyes on the hallway, scanning every face that passed.Â
Then, finally you saw him.Â
Zayne.Â
His hair was neatly combed, his dark coat swept behind him as he walked with purposeful strides. His expression was calmâdistant, but his faceâŚÂ
God, it was still his face.Â
You shot to your feet before you could think better of it. âZayne!âÂ
He stopped mid-step, turning at the sound of his name. His gaze landed on youâand for a moment, just a moment, something flickered in his eyes.Â
But then it was gone.Â
âCan I help you?â he asked, his voice smooth but guarded.Â
You blinked, your heart sinking. There was no warmth in his voiceâno familiarity, no recognition.Â
âIâŚâ Your throat tightened. âI just⌠wanted to see you.âÂ
His expression didnât change. âIâm sorry,â he said, voice clipped. âIâm very busy.â He turned to leave.Â
âWait!â Desperation surged through you. âPlease, just⌠just one minute.âÂ
He paused, glancing back with a sighâand that flicker was there again, something almost hesitant.Â
âOne minute,â he said flatly. âThatâs all.âÂ
He motioned for you to follow and you did. heading towards the hospitalâs doors.
The air outside felt colder than before, the faint scent of trimmed grass and hospital disinfectant clinging to the breeze. The hospitalâs garden was quietâtucked away from the usual foot traffic, lined with benches and dull patches of wilted flowers.Â
Zayne stood a few feet away from you, his hands tucked into his coat pockets. His gaze lingered somewhere past your shoulder, as if he wasnât quite willing to meet your eyes.Â
âI remember you,â he said at last, his voice low. âFrom the cafĂŠÂ yesterday.âÂ
You stiffened, unsure how to respond. Somehow, knowing he remembered made your chest tighten in a way you couldnât explain.Â
âI wasnât following you,â you muttered, even though you knew how it must have looked. âI just⌠I thoughtâŚâÂ
âYou thought what?â His eyes finally flicked toward youâsharp and unreadable.Â
âI thought you were someone I knew,â you admitted.Â
Zayne gave a quiet, humorless laughâbarely more than a breath. âWell⌠sorry to disappoint you.âÂ
âYou didnât.â The words left you before you could stop them. âI mean⌠you look like him. But youâre not.âÂ
His expression didnât change, but there was something in the way his fingers curled deeper into his pocketsâsomething tense, like he was bracing himself.Â
âIâm guessing you realized that when you followed me here,â he said dryly.Â
âI didnâtââ You stopped yourself, sighing. âYeah⌠I guess I did.âÂ
Silence stretched between you, awkward and heavy. His gaze drifted again, distant like he was already thinking about walking away.Â
âI read about you,â you said quickly, hoping to keep him there just a little longer. âOnline. Youâre a cardiac surgeon, right?âÂ
His brow arched slightly. âI didnât realize you were so interested.âÂ
âI justâŚâ You struggled for words. âI didnât think youâd⌠I mean, he⌠I didnât think youâd be a doctor.âÂ
âThat makes two of us.â There was a flicker of something in his toneâbitterness, maybeâbut it faded as quickly as it appeared. âLook⌠if thatâs all, I should get back.âÂ
He turned, already halfway down the path when your voice stopped him.Â
âWait.âÂ
He paused, shoulders stiff. This time, when he looked back, his face was unreadableâguarded in a way that made your chest ache.Â
âDo youâŚâ You hesitated, feeling foolish even asking. âDo you ever have weird dreams?âÂ
He didnât answer right away. His gaze lingered on you, unreadable, like he was considering somethingâor maybe deciding what not to say. The silence stretched between you, thick with something unspoken.
But before he could respond, a voice cut through the moment.
âDr. Zayne.â
A nurse stood at the entrance of the garden, her expression expectant. âThey need you in prep. The surgeryâs in fifteen minutes.â
Zayne exhaled, rubbing the back of his neck before turning back to you. Whatever had been on the tip of his tongue was gone now, sealed behind a carefully neutral expression.
He reached into his coat pocket, pulled out a sleek black card, and held it out to you.
âMy contact information,â he said simply. âIn case you need anything.â
His fingers brushed yours briefly as you took it. And then, without another word, he turned and walked away, the nurse falling into step beside him, leaving you standing there alone with more questions than answers.
You stared at the card in your hand, the weight of it far heavier than it should have been. The name printed in crisp, professional letteringâDr. Zayne Liâfelt foreign, unfamiliar, even though you had known a boy with that name for most of your life. But that boy had never been this composed, this distant.Â
Your Zayne had sharp edges softened only by exhaustion, by the way he always reached for you first, as if grounding himself in your presence. This one? He held himself apart, his touch brief, his gaze careful. There was no desperation in the way he looked at you, no silent relief at your presence. And that, more than anything, told you what you already knew: this wasnât him.
-
The uncertainty of it all brought you back to when you were sixteenâwhen, for the first time, he was nowhere to be found, leaving you to wonder if he had ever been real at all.Â
The cold was the first thing you noticed. It always was. But this time, something was different.
Zayne wasnât here.
Your eyes swept over the dream-woven space, expecting, waiting to see him. He was always here first, always standing there with that quiet, unreadable expression, waiting for you like it was the most natural thing in the world.
But tonight, he wasnât.
Your fingers tightened around the candy in your pocket. Maybe⌠maybe he was just late?
You sat down, resting your chin on your knees, trying to ignore the uneasy weight in your chest. It wasnât like him to be late. He always came, even when he was tired, even when his hands shook from exhaustion, even when his eyes were heavy with something he never said out loud.
You waited.
Minutes stretched into something longer. You kept your ears open, straining for the familiar sound of his footsteps, for the quiet shift of fabric when he sat beside you. But the silence stayed.
You waited.
The cold bit deeper. Your arms wrapped around yourself, but it didnât help. The dream space felt bigger tonight, emptier.
You waited.
Your eyelids grew heavy. The edges of the dream blurred, flickering with something distantâsomething you knew all too well. The slow pull of waking.
Panic clawed at your chest. No, not yet. Not without seeing him.
You clenched your fists, nails pressing into your palms, trying to ground yourself. You had never dreamed alone before. You had never sat in this cold, quiet space without him beside you.
But tonight, you did.
And then, just like thatâ
The dream slipped away.
-
The year after, you had hopedâdesperatelyâthat this time would be different. That you would open your eyes to find him waiting, standing just a few steps away like he always had.
But two years in a row, you woke up in the dream and found nothing but silence, nothing but coldânothing but the aching absence of him.
It went on like that, for three more years, that you had started to believe you would never see him again. That after five years of empty dreams, of waiting in silence, of waking with the lingering ache of something missing, he was gone.
-
But then, when you were twenty, it was just another ordinary day. You hadnât expected anythingâyou hadnât even remembered what day it was. Sleep came easily, without anticipation, without longing.
And yet, when the dream took holdâhe was there.
The first thing you noticed was the blood.
It dripped from the edge of his blade, slow and deliberate, staining the ground beneath his feet. It clung to the fine black wool of his coat, splattered in uneven streaks, soaking into the lines of his hands as if trying to seep into his skin. The scent of it lingered, thick in the cold air, mixing with the sharp bite of ice.
His evol was on edge.
Frost curled from his breath, dissipating into the eerie stillness of the dream space. Ice stretched outward from where he stood, jagged formations creeping across the frozen ground, spreading in uneven cracks beneath him like something alive. It was as if the cold itself had settled into his very presence, weighing down the air around him, pressing against your skin.
He stood thereârigid, unmoving, his grip around the hilt of his blade unrelenting. The sharp lines of his face were harder, more angular, his expression carved from something distant and untouchable. He was wearing black from head to toeâa long, double-breasted coat with sharp lapels, the fabric heavy against his frame. Beneath it, a tailored vest and a dark button-up, the collar neatly pressed, the tie around his neck scattered with tiny, pale specks like distant stars. A silver pin gleamed against the dark fabric, unfamiliar yet intricate, catching the light with every slow rise and fall of his chest.
And he didnât see you.
His gaze was lowered, fixed on the blade in his hand, on the slow drip of blood pooling at his feet. His breath came steady, measured, but there was something unsteady in the way his fingers curled around the hiltâtight, white-knuckled, as if trying to ground himself. The ice beneath him cracked, settling under its own weight, but he didnât move. He just stood there, frozen in place, as if he hadnât yet come back from whatever had happened before you arrived.
You had wondered, countless times, what had happened to himâwhat had kept him away from the place where you had always met, where he had always been waiting. You had searched for answers in the silence, in the weight of empty dreams, in the absence of the one person who had been a constant since childhood.
But standing here now, hidden in the lingering shadows of the dreamscape, you werenât sure you wanted the answer anymore.
He was different. Not just older, not just taller. Something had been carved out of him in those lost years, something you werenât sure could ever return. The boy you once knew had always been serious, always carried a quiet weight in his gaze, but there had been warmthâsmall, fleeting moments of it, tucked into the way he listened to you, the way he reached for you, the way his presence had never felt cold despite his evol.
You reached forward, to call out to him, but as if on cue, the air shifted, rippling with something wrong, something other.
A crack of ice split through the silence, racing outward like veins of frost spreading over glass. The temperature plummeted, stealing the breath from your lungs, biting at your skin. A Wanderer shifted in the distanceâa thing of half-formed limbs, its face a smear of writhing distortion, a nightmare clawing at the edges of the dreamscape. It let out a guttural, warping sound, something between a snarl and a scream.
And Zayne moved.
Not with hesitation, not with fear. With precision.
His blade cut through the air in one fluid motion, faster than you could track, faster than you could even breathe. The ice surged in tandem with him, responding as if it were alive, as if it were nothing more than an extension of his will. Jagged spikes erupted from the ground, impaling the creature mid-step, pinning it like an insect on glass. The Wanderer shrieked, convulsing, its body thrashing against the ice, blackened veins pulsing beneath the skin that wasnât entirely its own.
Zayne didnât flinch.
More ice. A crushing weight of frost and jagged edges, a prison forged in an instant. The creature barely had time to resist before its body was swallowed whole, encased in a coffin of shimmering blue. The air itself cracked under the force of it, the frozen husk shifting, creaking, breaking.
Then, his blade came down.
Once.
Twice.
Again.
The sound was sickening. The ice shattered under the weight of his attack, along with whatever remained of the Wanderer inside. Limbs snapped and crumbled, frozen flesh breaking apart like brittle porcelain. He cut through it with the same detached precisionâefficient, methodical, merciless.
And yet, there was something worse than the violence itself.
It was his silence.
The boy who once looked at you with quiet understanding, who always held himself back from anything too sharp, too cruelâhe was gone. In his place was a man who didnât hesitate, who didnât waver, who didnât even look at what he had done. He simply turned, his breath curling in the freezing air, his blade still dripping red.
Despite it all, despite the ice, the blood, the emptiness in his eyesâyou still called for him. Your voice barely broke above a whisper, but in the unbearable silence of the dreamscape, it may as well have been a scream.
âZayne.â
He froze.
The breath hitched in his throat, sharp enough that you swore you heard it. Slowlyâso slowlyâit was agonizing, he turned. His face, carved from stone just moments ago, fractured at the sight of you. Shock bled into something raw, something desperate, his hazel green eyes widening as if you were a ghost, something fragile and unreal. The blade in his hand wavered, fingers tightening, looseningâlike he couldnât remember how to hold it anymore, like he couldnât remember how to breathe.
The ice around him cracked.
Not from his evol, not from anything external, but from the weight of it all. The blood on his hands, the years that had stretched between you like an abyss, the violence that had become second natureâonly now, with you standing there, did it seem to settle on him all at once. He looked at you as if the world had suddenly realigned, as if only now did he realize just how far he had fallen.
And still, he didnât move.
Rooted in place, trapped in the space between recognition and disbelief, he simply stared.
So you moved.
You didnât care that you were barefoot in the dream, that the ice cut into your skin, that the ground was still slick with blood. You didnât care how much darker he had become, how the Zayne before you was nothing like the boy you used to know. None of it mattered.
You ran to him, closing the distance, arms outstretched, and before he could even reactâbefore he could step back, before he could disappear like a ghost slipping through your fingersâyou crashed into him.
You held him.
The scent of blood clung to him, iron-thick and suffocating, but beneath it was something elseâsomething familiar. His body was rigid against yours, like heâd forgotten how to be touched, how to be held. You could feel the way his chest rose in a sharp inhale, could feel the way his muscles tensed beneath his coat.
For a moment, he didnât move.
For a moment, he wasnât Zayneâhe was something distant, something unreachable, something hollow.
And then, slowly, his arms came around you. He murmured your name, barely a breath, barely a sound. But it shattered something inside you.
His arms barely tightened around you before he pulled back, just enough to see your face. His hazel green eyes, blown wide, flickered with something unreadable, his voice quieter than you remembered, rough like he hadnât spoken in a long time.
âWhat are you doing here?â
Anger surged through you, raw and unfiltered. You clenched your fists and struck his chestânot hard enough to hurt, but enough to make him feel it.
âYou didnât show up for five years!â Your voice cracked, the weight of every missed dream, every unanswered call, crashing down on you all at once. âFive, Zayne! Do you even know how long that is? Do you know how much Iââ
His breath hitched, but before he could say anything, his gaze droppedâdown to your feet, bare and bleeding against the ice-streaked ground. His expression twisted, sharp and exasperated, and before you could step away, his arms tightened around you.
âYouâre hurt.â
You barely had time to process the words before he bent down, one arm slipping under your legs, the other steady against your back.
âZayneâ!â
He lifted you as if you weighed nothing, ignoring your protest. His grip was firm but careful, his warmth stark against the cold air, but his eyes were distant, unreadable.
âYou ran barefoot across the ice.â It wasnât a reprimand, just a quiet observation, but his jaw tightened as if the sight of your blood on the frozen ground unsettled him.
âOf course, I ran!â You huffed, your hands gripping his coat. âI saw you, and you think Iâd just stand there? What did you expect me to do, Zayne?â
He didnât answer. He didnât argue, didnât justify his absence. He just held you, his fingers flexing slightly as if grounding himself in the feeling of you in his arms.
âFive years, Zayne.â Your voice was quieter now, trembling. âFive years, and you justâjust left. You never even said why.â
His grip on you tightened. The blood on his hands, his clothes, his bladeâit was still there, stark against the dark fabric. But for the first time since you saw him, he wasnât looking at the aftermath of whatever battle he had fought.
He was looking at you.
Your fingers curled into his coat, gripping the bloodstained fabric like it could somehow ground you, keep you from unraveling. The words tumbled out, unfiltered, raw.
âEvery night.â Your voice shook, but you didnât stop. âI slept with candy in my pockets every night, just in case. I thought maybeâmaybe we got it wrong. Maybe it wasnât that day anymore. Maybe it could be any day.â Your breath hitched, frustration and heartbreak intertwining. âSo I kept waiting. And waiting. And waiting.â
Zayne didnât move, didnât interrupt. But his hold on you? It shiftedâhis fingers digging into your skin just enough that you felt the weight of it, the barely restrained desperation bleeding into his grip. He looked calm, composed even, but you knew better.
âYou werenât supposed to wait.â His voice was quiet, but there was something beneath it, something fractured. âYou shouldâveââ
âShouldâve what?â You snapped, tilting your head back to meet his gaze. His golden eyes burned, dark and unreadable, but his jaw clenched as if he were holding something back. âMoved on? Forgotten about you?â You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head. âLike hell I would.â
His fingers twitched against your back. His grip hadnât loosened since he picked you up, hadnât wavered for even a second, as if he was afraid that if he let go, youâd disappear.
âZayne.â Your voice softened, cracking under the weight of it all. âWhy?â
He exhaled sharply, his head lowering just slightly, his forehead nearly brushing against yours. âI didnât want you to see me like this.â
You stared, breath caught in your throat.
âLike what?â
He didnât answer right away. His hand curled tighter around you, his touch no longer just firmâit was desperate, as if holding you was the only thing keeping him from shattering.
âLike this.â His voice was hoarse, almost strained. âBlood on my hands. A blade in my grip. A monster, not a man.â
Your heart clenched.
âThatâs notââ
âIt is.â His forehead finally touched yours, the barest press of warmth against the cold. He inhaled, slow and deep, like he was memorizing your scent, the shape of you in his arms. âFor five years, I stayed awake on this day. Every single time.â
Your breath caught.
âYouââ
âI didnât sleep.â His grip tightened, his voice barely above a whisper now. âBecause if I did, youâd be here. Youâd see me. And I couldnât let that happen.â
Your chest ached, your fingers curling against his coat. âYou punished yourself.â
âI protected you.â
You shook your head. âYou isolated yourself.â
His eyes flickered, something unreadable flashing through them. And for the first time since you arrived in the dream, he wavered. Just for a second.
âI had to.â His voice was so quiet now, barely audible. âBecause if you saw me, I wouldnât have been able to let go.â
You didnât think.Â
Your fingers tightened against his jaw, tilting his face toward you, and before he could stop youâbefore he could pull away, before he could tell you that he wasnât the person you once knewâyou pressed your lips to his.
The taste of blood lingered between you, sharp and metallic, but you didnât care. You kissed him through it, through the cold seeping from his skin, through the way his whole body locked up as if he didnât know how to receive something so gentle, so undeserved.
Zayne made a quiet, almost broken sound, and thenâhis grip on you tightened, his hands pressing against your back, his breath hitching as he kissed you back. Desperation bled through the way he held you, as if trying to carve the feeling of you into his very bones, as if trying to chase away the years of loneliness in a single moment.
The dream wavered, edges blurring, but you held onto him until the very last secondâuntil everything faded into darkness, until all that remained was the lingering warmth of his lips against yours.
And then you woke up.
You hoped to see him the year after that, but no matter how much you willed itâsince then, you never dreamed of him again.Â
-
The streets were quiet as you walked home from Akso Hospital.
The late morning sun cast long, pale shadows across the pavement, the sky a cloudless stretch of blue. The scent of fresh rain still clung to the air from the early drizzle, mixing with the faint aroma of baked goods drifting from a nearby cafĂŠ. It was almost peacefulâalmost.
But your mind wasnât here.
Your fingers toyed with the sleek black card in your pocket, tracing the edges absently. Dr. Zayne Li. You had met him, spoken to him, and yet the tightness in your chest refused to fade. He was the same, but not. Not your Zayne. His voice was familiar, but it lacked the weight, the quiet exhaustionâthe desperation.
He didnât reach for you first.
You exhaled sharply, shaking your head. Thinking like that wouldnât change anything. This was reality. And your Zaynewas⌠gone.
The thought made something inside you twist.
The apartment building loomed ahead. You climbed the stairs with slow, steady steps, keys in hand. The hall smelled faintly of old wood and lemon cleaner, a familiar scent, a grounding one. As you reached your door, you exhaled, pressing your palm against the cool surface for just a moment before unlocking it.
The lock clicked. The door creaked open.
And thenâ
The world shuddered.
A deep, unnatural tremor rippled through the ground, so strong you had to grip the doorframe to keep from stumbling. The lights in the hallway flickered violently, buzzing like a swarm of angry insects.
Then came the sound.
A low, resonant wail.
It wasnât something heardâit was something felt, something that pressed against your bones, against your skull, something that made your breath catch in your throat. The kind of sound that meant the world was breaking.
Your heart slammed against your ribs.
You turnedâand saw the sky tear open.
Far beyond the skyline, past the rooftops and the quiet streets, reality itself was splitting apart.
A massive, jagged rupture carved through the sky, edges curling and fraying like torn fabric. The clouds around it distorted, warping into impossible shapes, bending under forces they were never meant to withstand. The air crackled with energy, tendrils of light and shadow pulsing at the edges of the wound.
Chronoshift.
Your fingers dug into the doorframe.
This wasnât supposed to happen again. The last one had nearly wiped out the cityâleft streets in ruins, turned people into monsters. You still remembered the screams, the blood, the way the world had trembled beneath your feet.
And now, it was happening again.
Thenâ
Your Hunter Watch buzzed violently.
The sound snapped you out of your trance. You fumbled with the device, pressing it to your ear as the line connected.
âTara?â you breathed, your own voice barely above a whisper.
âYou need to turn on the news. Now.â
Her voice was tight, urgentâscared.
Your stomach dropped.
You bolted inside, barely kicking the door shut behind you as you grabbed the remote. The holoscreen flickered to life, static buzzing before shifting to a live news broadcast.
The anchorâs voice was strained, struggling to maintain composure.
ââa Chronoshift event currently occurring over Linkon City. Authorities are urging civilians to stay indoors as numerous Wanderers have begun appearing throughout the city. Hunters have been dispatched, but the situation is escalating rapidly.â
The screen shifted, cutting to a video.
Your breath caught.
A shaky, grainy recordingâsomeoneâs phone camera, zoomed in toward the sky. The frame trembled, struggling to stay focused on the massive, gaping wound in reality above Linkon City. The rift pulsed, an ugly scar of writhing light and shadow, tendrils of fractured time curling at its jagged edges. The clouds warped unnaturally around it, twisting into unnatural spirals, stretching as if being pulled into the void.
Thenâ
Something fell.
Noâsomeone.
A dark figure plummeted from the rift, flung into freefall like a discarded fragment of the past. His coat billowed violently against the sheer velocity, fabric snapping in the wind. The camera wobbled as the bystander gasped, jerking the viewâbut not before you caught it. A glint of silver.
Your stomach lurched.
The figure twisted midair, arms slack, body limpâunconscious. The cityscape below rushed toward him, an unforgiving sea of asphalt and steel.
The air caught fire with panic.
People screamed.
Horns blared as drivers slammed their brakes, tires screeching against pavement. Some pedestrians fled blindly, while others stood frozen, their heads craned skyward, watching in helpless, breathless horror.
And thenâ
Ice.
It erupted outward in a violent cascade, a deafening crack splitting the air as jagged formations exploded from the ground. Frost raced across the pavement, crystalline veins tearing through asphalt and crawling up nearby streetlights. The very breath of the city seemed to freeze, snatched away in an instant as the temperature plummeted.
The moment his body struck the ice, the impact sent fractures spiderwebbing outward. Shards of frost scattered across the street, catching the weak morning sunlight like shattered glass, sharp and deadly. The unnatural chill bled into the air, seeping into the bones of every onlooker.
The camera shook violently as the person recording stumbled back. Their breathing was audible, harsh and ragged.
âOh my God,â someone offscreen whispered. âIs heâ?â
The image lurched, zooming in again.
For a long moment, the figure lay still, sprawled against the ice. The long, black coat draped over him like a shroud, his limbs slack, unmoving. Thenâa twitch. A slow, almost imperceptible stir of fingers against the frozen ground.
A harsh gasp came from behind the camera. The voices in the background grew more frantic, some people shouting for help, others urging someone to run.
Then the screen cut.
The holoscreen snapped back to the news anchor, her face pale, her voice thin.
âAuthorities have confirmed the man was recovered alive but unconscious. He is currently being transported to AksoHospital for emergency care.â
The remote nearly slipped from your grasp.
Akso.
Your knees almost gave out beneath you.
Taraâs voice crackled in your ear again, sharp with urgency.
âGet ready. Wanderers are swarming the city, and I donât think this is just a random event. Something came through that rift.â
Her words barely registered.
Because you already knew.
Your Zayne had clawed his way through the boundaries of time itself.
And nowâhe was here.
The holoscreen flickered off with a sharp click, but the image burned into your vision didnât fade. Your feet moved before reason could catch upâout the door, down the steps, and into the chaos of the city.
The streets were in disarray. People flooded the sidewalks, some running, others frozen in groups, their gazes still fixed toward the sky as if expecting another horror to fall through. Horns blared as drivers abandoned their cars in the middle of the road, their vehicles haphazardly blocking intersections. Sirens howled from every direction, their wailing cry blending into the frantic hum of emergency broadcasts spilling from shop windows and billboards.
You barely registered any of it.
You ran.
Not even trying to hail a cabâthere was no point. The streets were already jammed, choked with confusion, fear, and the distant echoes of gunfire as Hunters engaged the Wanderers that had slipped through the rift.
But none of that mattered.
Not now.
Your lungs burned as you pushed forward, weaving through the panicked crowds. The closer you got to the avenue, the sharper the chill in the air became, creeping through your skin like a phantom touch.
Thenâyou saw it.
The impact site.
Your steps faltered as you skidded onto the street, your breath hitching.
Ice.
Everywhere.
Massive, jagged formations had burst from the asphalt, their sharp, uneven edges jutting out like frozen ribs from a broken body. Frost had slithered across the pavement in fractal veins, swallowing entire street signs and lampposts in an unnatural white sheen. The air was still coldâunnaturally so. Even under the midmorning sun, the ice didnât melt. It clung to the city like a scar, a wound from something that shouldnât exist.
Emergency responders worked around the site, barricades hastily thrown up, but you could still see the cracks in the streetâthe crater where he had landed.
Your stomach twisted.
This was real.
He was really here.ďťżďťżYour pulse thundered in your ears, your breath ragged as you pushed yourself forward, toward AksoHospital. The city blurred past you, a cacophony of sirens, of frightened voices, of distant Hunter gunfire. But you only had one destination.Â
Akso Hospital loomed ahead, its sleek glass exterior reflecting the chaos outside. People were gathered by the entranceâreporters, onlookers, patients trying to get inside despite the heightened security.Â
You pushed forward, reaching the reception desk. A nurse barely glanced up before returning to her holopad, her fingers swiping through incoming emergency cases.
You opened your mouth, about to askâ
But before you could utter a word, a hand grabbed your wrist.
Firm. Desperate.ďťżďťżâI needââ You barely got the words out before a hand seized your wrist.
The grip was firmâurgent. Not forceful, but desperate.
You turnedâand your breath caught.
Dr. Zayne.
But this time, for the first time since you met himâhe didnât look composed.
His face, usually an unreadable mask of cool professionalism, was anything but. His dark eyes burned with something rawâfrustration, confusion⌠something dangerously close to fear.
âYou knew.â
His voice was low, strained.
You swallowed hard. âWhat?â
His grip on your wrist didnât tighten, but it didnât loosen either. He exhaled sharply, eyes searching yours, his control fraying at the edges.
âYou asked me if I had dreams,â he said, his voice barely above a whisper. âYou looked at me like you expected something. And now, today, this happens.â
Your heart pounded.
He knew.
Maybe he didnât have all the pieces yet, but he knew you werenât just another curious stranger. He knew you werenât just here by coincidence earlier, especially not when you had asked him about dreams nor when you had called out to him yesterday in the coffee shop.
His jaw tensed. Then, without another word, he turned sharply, pulling you along.
You didnât resist.
Through the corridors, past nurses and staff who barely gave you a second glance in the midst of the chaos. The hospital was buzzing with tension, the aftermath of the Chronoshift catastrophe spilling into every department.
But none of it mattered.
Because you already knew where he was taking you. Dr. Zayne stopped in front of a roomâa guarded one. Your stomach twisted. He turned the handle, pushing the door open. And thereâlying unconscious on the hospital bed, surrounded by the faintest traces of frost still clinging to his skinâwas him.
The air in the hospital room was unnaturally cold. Not just from the lingering frost clinging to him, but from the sheer weight of the moment. Your legs locked in place just past the doorway, your pulse roaring in your ears.Â
He was here.Â
Zayneâyour Zayneâwas sprawled on the hospital bed, his face pale against the stark white sheets. He was eerily still, but you could see the subtle rise and fall of his chest beneath the thin hospital gown. His lips were parted slightly, a faint trace of frost still melting along the curve of his jaw.
Your stomach twisted. He looked so much like Dr. Zayne.
But at the same time, he didnât.
Your Zayne was leaner, his body honed by survival rather than long hours in a surgical ward. His jawline was sharper, his skin just a little more worn, his hands rougher. He looked like he had lived through hell.
But most of allâhe looked real.
Not just a dream. Not just a fading memory.
Your knees nearly buckled, but before you could take a step closerâ
The door clicked shut behind you.
You turned sharply, realizing too late that Dr. Zayne had followed you inside.
He was standing just a few steps away, arms crossed, gaze locked onto your face with unsettling intensity. The warmth of his usual composure was gone.
âI need you to tell me whatâs going on.â His voice was calm, but the control in it was fragile, stretched thin over something deeperâsomething urgent.
âIââ Your breath caught, mind racing to process everything. âI donâtâI donât know.â
Dr. Zayne exhaled sharply through his nose. âDonât lie to me.â
His words werenât cruel, nor were they demanding. They werenât spoken as an accusation.
They were a plea.
You swallowed, shifting uneasily. âIâZayne, I swear, I donâtââ
âThatâs not my name,â he said quietly. âNot to you.â
You flinched.Â
He wasnât wrong. You had called him Zayne. Without hesitation. Without thought. But Dr. Zayne? Even now, standing in front of him, your tongue felt heavy, like the name didnât belong to him. Because it didnât.
Dr. Zayne studied you, his dark eyes sharp with restrained emotion. âWho is he?â
The words sent a shiver down your spine.
You glanced back at the bedâat the unconscious figure resting there, at the silver strands of his hair damp with sweat, at the faint scars hidden beneath the edge of his sleeve.
How could you explain?
How could you even begin to put it into words?
âI⌠I donât know what you want me to say.â Your voice wavered.
Dr. Zayne stepped closer, his presence steady, unwavering. âTell me the truth.â
You clenched your fists. âYou wouldnât believe me.â
âTry me.â
You swallowed hard, your heart hammering. âHeâsâŚâ Your voice trembled. âHeâs Zayne.â
The silence was deafening, Dr. Zayneâs expression didnât change, but something in his posture stiffened. Slowly, he turned his gaze back to the unconscious man in the bed. His brows furrowed, something unreadable flickering in his eyes.
He was a doctorâa scientist. He lived in a world of logic and reason. He knew this wasnât possible. And yetâthe proof was right in front of him.
He let out a slow, unsteady breath. âThisââ He hesitated. âThis doesnât make sense.â
âI know,â you whispered.
Another beat of silence.
Dr. Zayne rubbed a hand over his face, exhaling. âI donâtââ He cut himself off, swallowing his words. Then, softer, âYou knew, didnât you?â
Your breath hitched.
He met your gaze again, eyes dark, searching. Desperate.
âYou knew this was coming,â he murmured.
Before you could answer, a sharp breath cut through the air. The sound sent a shiver down your spine. You turned just in time to see the man in the hospital bed moveânot sluggishly, not groggily, but with the kind of immediate, instinctive awareness that sent your heart pounding. The IV stand rattled, the sheets barely shifted, and then he was already on his feet.
You barely had time to react before his hand caught your wrist. The heat of his palm burned against your skin despite the lingering cold still clinging to him. His grip was firm, possessive, as if anchoring himself to realityâand to you. His breath came uneven, his frame taut with restrained tension. And then, with barely any effort, he pulled you against him.
Your chest met his, the solid strength of his body grounding and overwhelming all at once. His arm came around your waist, securing you against him in a silent declaration. A tremor ran through his fingers where they held youânot from weakness, but from something deeper, something raw. Your heart thundered against your ribs, because this was him. Your Zayne. The one you had dreamed of, the one who had clawed his way through time itself.
But his entire body was rigid. His shoulders drawn tight, his breathing controlled but heavy. Slowly, his head turned, his gaze locking onto the only other person in the room.
Dr. Zayne.
His hold on you tightened.
Dr. Zayne met his stare, unreadable but assessing, a hint of something cautious in the way his hands remained by his sides. He took a step forward, his voice calm, steady. âYou shouldnât be standing. Your bodyââ
âStay away from her.â
The warning was quiet but sharp, a quiet snarl beneath the exhaustion. His grip on you flexed, his thumb brushing over your wrist in a silent claim. Dr. Zayne didnât move, but you saw his gaze flick to where your Zayne was holding you, taking in every detail.
âIâm not here to hurt her,â he said simply. There was no hesitation in his tone, only facts.
Your Zayne didnât relax. His jaw clenched, his muscles coiled like a wire pulled too tight. He took a slow breath, but there was no mistaking the way he pressed you just a little closer, the way his fingers curled in a silent refusal to let go. His presence wrapped around you like frost creeping across glassâcold, fierce, unyielding.
Dr. Zayne exhaled, his tone edged with something close to patience. âLookââ
âStop talking.â
The words were low, dangerous, the weight of them laced with unspoken meaning.
Dr. Zayneâs brow furrowed just slightly. His focus was clinical, analytical. You could see the way he was studying your Zayne, assessing his health, his stability, the impossible reality in front of him. But your Zayne saw something else entirely.
A stranger. A threat. An intruder.
Your fingers curled tighter into the thin fabric of his hospital gown. âZayne,â you murmured, trying to ground him, to ease the palpable tension in the air.
He dipped his head, just enough that his forehead brushed against yours, his breath warm and uneven against your skin. For a moment, the entire world outside of him ceased to exist. And then, quietly, with a finality that sent a shiver through youâ
âIâm not letting him take you away from me.â
Dr. Zayneâs gaze lingered on the way your Zayne held youâthe way his grip never loosened, the way his body remained positioned between you and the rest of the room, like he was preparing to shield you from something unseen. There was something unreadable in his expression, something sharp and contemplative, but his voice remained level when he spoke.
âI need to run tests,â he said, though it wasnât an argument. It was a fact, delivered with calm precision. âHis bodyââ
âLater,â you interrupted, your voice firm but not unkind.
Dr. Zayneâs brow furrowed slightly, as if weighing his next words.
You took a slow breath, steadying yourself. âIâll explain everything to you. Just⌠not right now.â
For the first time, hesitation flickered across his face. He wasnât an easy man to read, his emotions always carefully measured, controlledâbut you had spent enough time observing him to recognize the conflict in his silence.
âPlease,â you added, softer this time. âJust give me time.â
He exhaled, his jaw tightening slightly before he finally gave a slow nod. âAlright,â he said, stepping back. âBut Iâll be back soon.â
You nodded, though you barely heard him. Your focus was on the man holding youâthe one who, despite everything, still hadnât let go.
Dr. Zayne hesitated for a fraction of a second longer, his gaze flicking between the two of you. Then, without another word, he turned and exited the room, the door clicking shut behind him.
Silence settled in his absence, thick and heavy.
Your Zayne exhaled slowly, his breath ghosting against your temple, but he still didnât release you. His fingers pressed into the fabric of your clothes, as if reassuring himself that you were real, that this wasnât just another dream slipping through his grasp.
You shifted slightly in his arms, tilting your head to look up at him. âZayne⌠you can let go now.â
His gaze found yours, deep and unreadable. He didnât move.
âNo,â he murmured.Â
Your fingers curled slightly against the fabric of his coat, the material still laced with the remnants of cold. He hadnât let go. Not even for a second. His hand rested against the small of your back, firm and unyielding, while the other cradled the back of your head, fingers tangled in your hair as if anchoring himself to you. His breath was warm against your temple, yet his body trembled faintlyânot from exhaustion, but from restraint.
Swallowing, you forced yourself to speak. âWhyâŚâ Your voice faltered, unsteady beneath the weight of the moment. âWhy didnât I dream of you for years after the last time?â
His grip on you tightenedânot painfully, but enough to make your breath catch.
âI tried,â he murmured against your hair. âI spent years trying.â
A shiver crawled down your spine, though you werenât sure if it was from his closeness or his words.
He exhaled, his lips brushing lightly against the crown of your head before he spoke again. âAfter the last dream, after the kiss⌠I couldnât take it anymore.â His voice was raw, tinged with something deeperâsomething breaking apart at the seams. âThe next year, I shattered the dreamscape. I tore through it, trying to reach you.â His forehead pressed against yours now, the coolness of his skin a stark contrast to the feverish way he held you. âBut I broke it completely. Thatâs why you stopped seeing me.â
Your heart clenched painfully. You had thought heâd left. That maybe, in some cruel way, the dreams had simply ceased because whatever force had connected you two had finally severed. But no. He had been trying all along.
âAnd now?â you asked, voice barely a whisper.
His arms tightened around you, pulling you flush against him. âI found a way,â he murmured, his breath warm against your lips. âIt took me months, but I found a way to cross through different worlds and timelines. And after so many years, now Iâm here.â
Your chest ached with something unspeakable. How much had he suffered, clawing his way through time, through dimensions, just to stand before you?
But before you could ask him more, his fingers brushed against your jaw, tilting your chin up slightly, his gaze searching yours.
âAre you close with him?â His voice was quiet, but the words struck like a forceful wave. âThe other me.â
Your lips parted slightly in surprise. âDr. Zayne?â
His eyes darkened, his thumb tracing absently along the curve of your cheek. âDid you meet him and replace me?â The question wasnât accusatory, but there was something deeply vulnerable in the way he asked it, something fragile beneath the desperation.
Your breath caught.
His hands never stopped movingânever stopped touching. One of them slid down to rest against your waist, fingers flexing as if testing the reality of you, the other remained cupped at your cheek, his thumb brushing along your skin in slow, lingering strokes. He wasnât trying to hold you captiveâhe didnât need to. You werenât going anywhere.
You shook your head slightly, your hands lifting to press against his chest, feeling the rapid thrum of his heartbeat beneath your fingertips. âNo,â you murmured, your voice steady despite the emotion coiling in your throat. âI didnât replace you.â
Something in his expression wavered, like a fracture forming in ice. But he didnât speak. He only pressed closer, his fingers curling against you like a man clinging to the only thing keeping him tethered to the world.
His hold on you remained unrelenting, his fingers tracing patterns against your skin as if trying to memorize you all over again. He exhaled, slow and deliberate, his forehead pressing against yours as if grounding himself.
âAfter I broke the dreamscape,â he murmured, his voice carrying the weight of exhaustion and longing, âI stopped seeing you. But I started dreaming of something else.â His fingers trailed down the length of your spine, his other hand still cupping your cheek, thumb brushing the curve of your jaw. âI dreamt of him. Of his life.â
You stiffened slightly in his arms, the meaning of his words settling in.
He went on, his voice quiet but unshaken. âAt first, I thought it was another timelineâjust another possibility that had nothing to do with yours. Iâve searched so many, trying to find you.â His grip tightened. âBut yesterday⌠when I saw you, even if it was only a flicker, I knew. It was you.â
Your heart pounded in your chest.
âIâve spent years,â he whispered, âyears searching, looking into every possibility, trying to find you in places where you existed. But I never did. Until now.â
His breath was warm against your lips, his touch desperate, reverent. You could feel the restraint in him, the aching need to pull you even closer, to claim what had been taken from him for far too long.
Your fingers curled into the fabric of his coat, your mind spinning.
âYou saw me?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper. âAt the cafĂŠ?â
His gaze darkened, the weight of yearsâof searching, of longingâsettling into his eyes like a storm barely held at bay. âJust for a moment,â he murmured. âA glimpse.â His thumb traced the curve of your cheek, his touch reverent, almost fragile, as if he feared you might vanish beneath his fingertips. âAnd that was all I needed.â
His voice dipped lower, rough with something raw and unspoken. âDo you understand now?â His forehead nearly touched yours, his breath warm against your skin. âWhy I canât let you go?â
His fingers curled at the back of your neck, pulling you in before you could answer. The kiss crashed into youâpossessive, raw, like he was trying to drown in you, trying to carve this moment into reality with nothing but the press of his lips. He kissed you like a man who had spent years fighting against the impossible, clawing through time itself just for thisâjust for you.
A tremor ran through him, his other hand splayed against your back, locking you against him. He didnât stopâhe couldnât. Between each desperate kiss, words spilled from his lips, breathless, reverent. Soft, broken things that barely made sense, except they didâto him.
ââreal, youâre realââ A shuddering inhale, his lips ghosting along your jaw before finding your mouth again. âNot a dream, not slipping awayââ His fingers tightened against your skin, as if confirming you wouldnât disappear. âMine.â A whisper, hoarse with something closer to prayer than possession. âFinally, mine.â
Your breath barely had time to steady before he moved againâguiding, pressing, until the backs of your knees hit the edge of the hospital bed. His grip never wavered, his hands mapping over you like he was memorizing, grounding himself, as if at any moment, you might vanish into nothing.
Thenâhe pushed.
Your back hit the mattress, the sterile sheets cool against your skin, but all you could feel was him. He loomed over you, bracing his weight on one arm beside your head while the other dragged up your side, slow and deliberate, fingertips pressing into the fabric of your clothes as though he could imprint his touch into your very bones.
His gaze was dark, heavy-lidded with something unrestrainedâsomething raw. His lips parted, breaths shallow, his chest rising and falling too fast. Yet when his fingers traced along the side of your face, they were impossibly gentle, reverent, a worshiper before his altar.
âYou donât know,â he whispered, voice thick, shaking. He leaned in, his nose brushing against yours, his breath warm, tasting of desperation. âHow long Iâve waited. How long Iâve searched.â
Thenâhis lips were on yours again.
Not hesitant. Not careful. This was a claiming, an unrelenting need spilling into every movement, the press of his body against yours leaving no space, no air, nothing but him. His fingers tangled in your hair, tilting your head back to deepen the kiss, stealing your breath as though it was the only thing tethering him to this reality.
He wasnât going to stop.
He couldnât.
His hands found the hem of your shirt, fingers curling into the fabric, hesitating for only a momentâthen he tugged. The cool air kissed your skin as he pulled it over your head, discarding it somewhere forgotten. His breath hitched, his gaze dragging over you, dark and unreadable.
Thenâhe touched.
His hands skimmed over your bare shoulders, tracing the delicate line of your collarbone before trailing lower, palms mapping the shape of you like he was trying to memorize every inch. His fingertips traced reverent patterns against your skin, his movements slow, almost aching. He wasnât just touchingâhe was committing you to memory, branding you into his senses.
âYouâre real,â he murmured, his voice raw, as though saying it aloud made it more certain. He bent down, his lips pressing softly against the hollow of your throat, lingering there, breathing you in. Then, another kissâfeatherlight, just below your collarbone. And another. Each touch was deliberate, almost devotional, as if he was worshiping every part of you.
His calloused hands splayed over your ribs, thumbs stroking idly along the soft skin beneath your breasts. He exhaled shakily against you, his forehead pressing against your sternum for a moment before his lips found the soft swell of your breast, his touch growing bolder yet still aching with restraint.Â
You could feel the desperation radiating off him in waves as his palms mapped out the curve of your breasts, the weight of them filling his hands like a sacred offering. He squeezed gently, almost painfully, as if he couldnât bear the thought of ever letting you go. His thumbs circled your nipples, the rough pads teasing and tugging until they pebbled under his touch, aching for more.Â
Zayne leaned in close, latching his lips on one of your nipples, his mouth engulfing as much as your soft flesh as he could. He sucked hard, his tongue swirling and flicking over the sensitive peak, teasing it into a stiff, aching point. He groaned against your skin, the vibrations sending shock waves of pleasure coursing through you.
His other hand cupped your other breast roughly, kneading and squeezing, as if he couldnât get enough of the feel of your soft weight in his palm. His fingers dug into your skin, leaving imprint marks of his desperation. He tugged and plucked at your nipple, rolling it between his fingers, the dual sensations of his mouth and hand driving you wild with need.
Then, he pressed open-mouthed kisses against your sternum, latching on just as hungrily over your other breast, just as desperately. He sucked harder this time, his teeth grazing your nipple, his tongue laving over the angry bud. He was consuming you, devouring you, his hunger for your breasts insatiable. He acted like he was a man dying of thirst and your nipples were the only source of water left in the world.
You moaned softly as his mouth worked over your sensitive nipples, your breathy gasps and whimpers filling the air.Â
âOhâŚâ you panted, your fingers tangling in his hair, holding him against you.
As he sucked harder, your moans grew louder, more urgent. âFuckâ!â you cried out, arching your back, pushing your chest forward, offering yourself up to his hungry lips. The wet sounds of his suckling filled the room, punctuated by your wanton cries and the creaking of the hospital bed beneath you.
His hands reached up to hold your forearm, his his lips slowly trailing up the soft skin of your wrist, his mouth lingering at your pulse point. He could feel the frantic pounding of your heartbeat against his lips, the evidence of your arousal and desire. He licked over it once, twice, before pressing a open-mouthed kiss to the sensitive spot, his tongue flicking out to taste your skin.
He brought your hand up to his mouth, his fingers intertwining with yours, squeezing gently. He raised your hand to his lips, his eyes locked onto yours as he pressed a lingering kiss to your palm, his mouth hot and soft against your skin. His tongue snaked out, tracing the lines of your palm, the rough surface dragging over your sensitive flesh.
You protested, your eyes wide with anticipation and surprise, âZayne, what are youââ
He brought your fingers to his mouth, his lips wrapping around your index finger, sucking gently. He held your gaze as he slowly pulled your finger out of his mouth, his tongue swirling around the tip before releasing it with a wet pop. He moved onto your next finger, and the next, sucking each one slowly, deliberately, as if savoring the taste of your skin.
Your breath hitched and caught in your throat as you watched him, your chest rising and falling rapidly. Leaving a kiss on your palm, he proceeded and continued his journey downward, trailing hot, open-mouthed kisses along the soft skin of your stomach. His tongue licked stripes over your belly button, dipping teasingly into the hollow, before blazing a path lower still. He mapped every inch of your stomach with his mouth, his hands gripping your hips as he worked his way down.
He paused at your hips, nudging your thighs further apart with the hand resting on your hip, while the other gripping the waistband of your pants. He looked up at you from under his lashes, his green eyes dark and hungry, a wicked smirk playing on his lips.
âLift your hips,â he commanded, his voice low and rough with desire. âI need to taste all of you.â The words sent a shiver down your spine, anticipation coiling tightly in your belly.
You hurried to comply, raising your hips so he could tug your pants and panties down your legs. He helped you shimmy out of them, his hands skimming up your thighs, leaving goosebumps in their wake, before he tossed them carelessly to the floor.Â
He settled himself between your legs, the heat of his breath fanning over your most sensitive place. He looked up at you as he traced a finger teasingly along your slit, a low groan rumbling up from his chest as he found you wet and ready.
âYouâre soâŚâ he growled, a finger slipping inside your tight heat, stroking slowly, almost languidly. He curled it upwards, finding that sensitive spot deep inside that made your hips jerk forward, a choked moan falling from your lips.
âOh my-!â
He pressed a kiss against the skin of your inner thigh, his thumb circling your clit, teasing it, toying with it. He dipped his head lower, his lips brushing against your folds, his breath hot and heavy against your skin.
He licked a slow stripe up your slit, his tongue delving between your folds, tasting your arousal, your desire. He groaned against your skin, the vibrations sending shockwaves of pleasure ricocheting through you. Then, his lips found your clit, and he suckedâhard.
He took his time, savoring every fold and crease, every teasing taste of your essence. He licked at you like you were the most exquisite dessert, a rare delicacy he wanted to linger over, to prolong the pleasure as long as possible. His tongue explored your cunt with a thoroughness that was almost reverent, as if he were worshipping at the altar of your pleasure.
He started slow, his tongue tracing wide, lazy circles around your clit, the bud peeking out shyly to meet his mouth. He licked and lapped at you, his tongue a warm, wet brand against your sensitive flesh. He took his time, just as he used to with those lollipops you gave him before, his tongue swirling and curling around the hard candy, his cheeks hollowing as he sucked on them with single-minded focus.
But now, it was your essence he savored, your honeyed nectar dripping onto his tongue as he pleasured you. He chased every drop, his mouth hot and hungry against you, his hands gripping your thighs tightly as he buried his face between them.
He dipped his tongue inside your tight sheath, delving deep, his nose brushing against your clit as he plunged inside you again and again. He fucked you with his tongue, his muscles flexing and rippling as he thrust into your heat.
His fingers crept up to join his tongue, sliding into your dripping cunt, pumping slowly, matching the rhythm of his licks. He curled them upwards, stroking that secret spot inside you, the one that made your toes curl and your back arch, a sharp cry tearing from your throat.
âZayne-! T-There-â
You bit your lower lip, reaching up to cover your mouth with your palm, no matter desperate heâd been making you feel, you were still in the hospital, and as far as you can remember, there were guards stationed outside his room.Â
Zayne on the other hand, did not care at all.
He seemed to sense how close you were, how much you needed to come, how desperately you craved release. But still, he took his time, his pace never faltering. He sucked your clit into his mouth, his lips sealing tight around the tender bud as he flicked his tongue over it, again and again, the dual sensations pushing you closer to the edge.
His fingers picked up speed, plunging harder, deeper, as his tongue circled and flicked and lapped at your clit. He could feel your thighs starting to tremble, your hips rocking forward against his face, chasing your pleasure, your release. And still, he kept you teetering on the knifeâs edge, his touch a maddening tease, a delicious torment.
Until finally, with a few more hard sucks and a thrust of his fingers deep inside you, he sent you careening over the edge, your vision going white as ecstasy exploded through you. Your body convulsed, your cunt clenching tight around his fingers as your orgasm crashed over you in waves, your juices gushing out to coat his chin, his cheeks, dripping down onto the sheets beneath you.
You gasped, âOh-!âÂ
To hold your moan, you pressed your palm harder, muffling the sound of your voice. Zayne looked up, noticing your hand muffling your moans, his eyes flashing with a mix of frustration at the sigh, his brows furrowing. He didnât want you to hold back, didnât want to be denied the sound of his name falling from your lips, a desperate prayer and plea all in one. He wanted to hear you, to feel your cries of pleasure vibrating through your body, urging him on.
He surged forward and grabbed your wrist, yanking your hand away from your mouth. He pinned your arm above your head, his body covering yours, trapping you beneath him. His eyes flashed with something darker, more primal.
âDonât you dare muffle yourself,â he growled, his voice a low, dangerous rumble. âI want to hear every fucking sound, every moan, every scream. I want to hear what I do to you, what you feel because of me.â
âZayne, there are people outsideââ
âI donât care.â he murmured as he levered himself up, his knees pushing your thighs apart, making room for him.Â
He settled between your legs, the hard, thick line of his cock against his pants pressing against your thigh, hot and insistent. He rocked his hips forward, rubbing himself against you, the friction delicious and maddening all at once.
He dipped his head, his mouth finding your neck, biting down hard on the tender flesh. He sucked and licked, marking you, claiming you, as he rolled his hips in a steady rhythm. He was fucking your thigh, his desperate, aching cock seeking some kind of relief, some friction, no matter where he could find it.
One hand slid down your body, his fingers dipping between your bodies. He groaned as he found your cunt, slick and hot and ready, the proof of your desire and previous orgasm coating his fingers. He circled your clit, rubbing the sensitive nub in tight, rough circles, making your hips jerk and twitch beneath him.
âFuck, youâre so wet,â he panted against your neck, his fingers delving deeper, stroking along your slit, teasing your entrance.Â
With a low growl, he hastily shoved his pants down his hips. His cock sprang free, hard and thick and leaking, the swollen head an angry red, begging for attention. He kicked his pants away impatiently, leaving him bare and naked, just like you.
He settled back between your thighs, his hands gripping your ass, kneading the soft flesh. He pulled you closer, spreading your legs wider, until your slick, dripping cunt was bared completely to his hungry gaze. He licked his lips at the sight, his eyes dark and wild with lust.
âFuck, look at youâŚâ he rasped, his thumb delving between your folds, stroking along your slit teasingly.Â
He rubbed the thick head of his cock along your slit, coating himself in your arousal. He groaned at the feeling, his hips jerking forward, the tip catching on your entrance. Then he was pulling back, only to rock forward again, rubbing his length along your folds, teasing your clit, your entrance, every sensitive spot he could reach.
He set a steady rhythm, fucking your thigh with his hard, aching cock, the thick shaft sliding against your skin, leaving it slick and wet in his wake. His balls slapped against your ass with each rough thrust, heavy and full and eager for release.
One hand slid up your body, palming your breast roughly, squeezing and kneading, as the other dipped between your legs, two fingers plunging knuckle-deep into your cunt. He pumped them in and out, his thumb rubbing tight circles over your clit, matching the desperate pace of his hips.
Unable to take it anymore, his fingers tangled with yours once again, pinning your hands above your head as he loomed over you, his hips still rocking against your thigh, his cock hard and hot and leaking. He leaned down, his breath hot and heavy against your ear.
âTell me what you want,â he demanded, his voice rough and gravelly with desire. âPlease, tell me what you needâŚ. come on.â
He punctuated his words with a particularly rough grind of his hips, his cockhead catching on your entrance, teasing you with the promise of being filled, stretched, fucked. His fingers curled around your wrists, squeezing, his grip tight and unyielding.
His other hand slid possessively over your curves, mapping out the swell of your breasts, the dip of your waist, the flare of your hips. He gripped your hip, pulling you harder against him, the head of his cock nudging insistently at your dripping folds.
âI want to hear you say it,â he growled, his tongue flicking out to trace the shell of your ear.
He rolled his hips in a slow, deliberate circle, his cock sliding along your slit, catching on your clit, making your body jerk and spasm beneath him. He was teasing you, pushing you to the brink, wanting you desperate and aching and mad with the need to be fucked.
You gasped, your voice trembling, âPlease, I want you, just you. Just you, Zayne.â
Zayne nodded his head, his gaze piercing through you. âThatâs right, just me, not him, just me.â
He notched the swollen head of his cock at your entrance, the thick tip catching on your rim, before he thrust forward, burying himself to the hilt in one powerful, relentless stroke.
âFuck!â he moaned, his voice echoing off the walls, as your velvet walls clenched and fluttered around his invading length. He paused for just a moment, his hips flush against yours, his heavy balls pressed tight against your ass, before he started to move.
He pulled out slowly, until just the tip remained inside you, before slamming forward again, burying his cock deep. He set a brutal, punishing pace, the headboard slamming against the wall with each savage thrust. The obscene sound of skin slapping against skin filled the hospital room, mingling with his grunts and groans and your own wanton cries.
âTake it,â he snarled, his eyes wild and feral as he stared down at where your bodies were joined.
He angled his hips, changing the angle of his thrusts to hit that perfect spot inside you with each plunge. The head of his cock dragged against the deep spot inside of you that made your toes curl, sending sparks of electric pleasure shooting up your spine. Your cunt clenched down around him, the muscles fluttering and rippling along his length.
One hand released your wrists, sliding down your body to grasp your thigh. He hitched your leg up higher, opening you wider, letting him drive even deeper into your needy hole. His fingers dug into the soft flesh, no doubt leaving bruises in their wake, marks of his passion and desperation.
He leaned down, his teeth finding your nipple, biting down just shy of pain. He suckled greedily, his tongue swirling around the stiff peak, before moving to the other side, lavishing it with the same intense attention. All the while, he never stopped fucking into you, his hips slapping against yours, his heavy balls slamming into your ass, the obscene sound of skin on skin echoing through the room.
Suddenly, Zayne crashed his lips against yours in a bruising, desperate kiss, swallowing your moans and cries of pleasure. His tongue plunged into your mouth, tangling with yours, fucking your mouth in the same relentless rhythm as his cock fucked your cunt. He tasted of lust and desire, of pure, unadulterated need and longing, he fed it to you greedily, making you drunk on him.
âMmmmâŚâ he groaned against your lips, his hips never faltering, never slowing, driving into you with deep, powerful thrusts that rocked your entire body. âYou taste so good, sound so fucking sweetâŚâ
He pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes dark and wild, a sheen of sweat on his brow. He licked his lips, tasting your essence on them, before diving back in, kissing you with a hunger that stole your breath away. He kissed you like a starving man, like he was trying to taste your soul, to consume every part of you until there was nothing left.
Already sensitive from previously reaching your peak, your whole body shuddered, you gasped, âZayneâIâm close!â
With the telltale signs of your impending orgasm, he doubled his efforts, fucking into you harder, faster, the bed creaking ominously beneath you. He was chasing your pleasure, determined to make you come undone on his cock, to feel you explode around him.
âThatâs it, come for me,â he growled against your lips, his hips slamming forward one last time, burying himself to the hilt inside your spasming cunt. âCome for meâŚ.â
His words pushed you over the edge, and you came with a scream, you no longer cared about being caught, your body convulsing beneath his, your cunt clamping down around him like a vice. He followed seconds later, his cock pulsing and throbbing as he spilled himself deep inside you, painting your walls white with his seed.
He collapse on top of you, his hips still twitching with the aftershocks of his release, his cock softening inside your messy, well-fucked cunt. He panted harshly, his sweat-slicked skin pressed against yours, his heart racing in tandem with your own.
âFuck,â he breathed, pressing his forehead against yours, his eyes fluttering open to meet your gaze. âYouâre mine now.â He swallowed hard, his throat clicking, before leaning in to press a surprisingly gentle kiss to your lips, a soft contrast to the brutal love making moments before.
You nodded, too tired to think, you wrapped your arm around him and pulled him closer.
The room was warmâa contrast to the cold temperature when you had arrived earlierâthe air heavy with the remnants of what had just transpired. You lay tangled in the sheets, your body pressed against his, still catching your breath. Zayneâs arm was draped over your waist, his grip possessive even in the aftermath, fingers idly tracing patterns against your bare skin. His breathing was uneven, warm against your temple, but he didnât speakâjust held you, as if grounding himself in your presence.
And thenâthe sound of the door clicking open.
You barely had time to register it before you turned your head, and there, standing frozen in the doorway, was Dr. Zayne.
His cheeks were flushed, his posture stiffâhis gaze flickering from you to the man beside you, understanding dawning in an instant. His lips parted, but no words came out at first, as if he was forcing himself to process the reality of what he had just walked into.
Your Zayne, on the other hand, reacted immediately. His body tensed against yours, his arm tightening around you, and his gaze sharpened, ice-cold and unreadable as he locked eyes with his counterpart. The air in the room felt heavier, charged with something unspoken yet dangerous. The exhaustion from before was goneâhe was alert, his instincts flaring with possessiveness, as if he saw Dr. Zayne as nothing but an intrusion.
Neither of them spoke.
You swallowed, feeling the weight of their gazes, the tension in the air thick enough to cut through. Slowly, you exhaled, already dreading what came next.
Yep. You donât know how this will pan out.
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⤠ęąá´á´á´á´ĘĘ- You pursed your lip, âAre you⌠jealous?â
For a moment, he only stared at you, unreadable, like he was weighing whether or not to say what was truly on his mind. Then, after a long pause, he exhaled and looked awayânot in avoidance, but in thought. âAm I jealous?â he echoed, as if testing the words on his tongue. His lips twitched slightly, a breath of something close to a laugh, but it didnât quite reach his eyes. âNo.â
Zayne sighed, rubbing a slow hand down his face before finally meeting your gaze again. âIt would be unfair of me to be jealous of myself, wouldnât it?â His voice was quiet, edged with something you couldnât quite name. Not resentment, not bitternessâjust a deep, weary understanding.
His thumb brushed absentmindedly against your wrist, tracing slow, thoughtless circles. âIâve spent most of my life haunted by his memories, suffering through nightmares of a life I never lived. But thatâs not your burden to bear. It never should have been.â He inhaled sharply, his lips pressing into a thin line before he continued. âAnd the truth is⌠no matter how much I deny it, no matter how much I try to separate myself from himâheâs still me.â His grip tightened, firm but not desperate. âHeâs still Zayne.â
(Or⌠in the quiet hours of the night, you wake to a familiar touchâbut it isnât Zayne. Dawnbreaker lingers, desperate to hold onto a fleeting moment that was never meant for him. And when heâs gone, Zayne is left to face the echoes of what was shared, understanding yet unable to ignore the weight of it.)
⤠á´á´ÉŞĘɪɴɢ- zayne x female reader
⤠ɢá´É´Ęá´- angst, smut, & fluff
⤠ᴥá´Ęá´ á´á´á´É´á´- 10.5k
⤠ᴥá´Ęɴɪɴɢęą- nsfw, mdni, no use of y/n, dom!zayne, dawnbreaker!zayne, references to zayne's third anecdote (still in the dark), jealous!zayne, slight possessive behavior, bathroom sex, dirty talk, fingering, oral sex (cunnilingus), overstimulation, multiple orgasms, dry humping, penetration (p in v), breast play, light choking, rough sex, unprotected sex, mentions of ownership, and creampie.
⤠ɴá´á´á´- I said I wouldnât write a sequel, but the ideas wouldnât stop comingâso here we are. I know this isnât entirely Dawnbreaker-centric, but this is how I imagined MC (or any of us) would react in this situation, especially after witnessing just how much Zayne has endured in the previous fic. And sure, Dawnbreaker is technically still Zayne, but if you truly tried to accept him, in every sense, it would inevitably affect Zayneâno matter how you look at it. That being said, I am still going to write a fully Dawnbreaker-centric fic (probably after I finish writing for Rafayel), because he deserves it. But within what I've written for the Converging Threads AU, to focus solely on Dawnbreaker would inevitably lead to a scenario of Zayne getting hurtâand that just wouldnât fit the story I wanted to tell. Anyhoo, I hope you enjoy reading!
The first thing you noticed was warmthâsteady and unyielding against your skin. Your mind, still tangled in the haze of sleep, barely registered the faint pressure along your back, the sensation of fingers tracing slow, deliberate patterns over the curve of your spine. It was comforting, grounding, but there was something different about it, something that tugged at the edges of your awareness.
A breathâshaky, controlledâghosted against your temple, and you stirred, shifting ever so slightly. The arms around you tightened in response, fingers pressing more firmly, as if afraid you would slip away. The touch was familiar yet⌠not. It lacked Zayneâs usual restraint, the careful hesitation that always lingered in his gestures. This was something else entirelyâpossessive, reverent.
You hummed softly, caught between waking and dreaming, your body instinctively seeking the source of warmth. The fingers on your back stilled for a fraction of a second before resuming their slow, deliberate path. There was an ache in that touch, something unspoken threading through the silence, something that made your drowsy mind stir with a quiet sense of unease. You didnât want to wake just yetânot when everything felt so strangely safe, so painfully gentle. But then, in the dim glow of early morning, your heavy eyelids finally fluttered open.
And that was when you saw him. Zayneâno, not Zayneâwatching you in the quiet. His hazel eyes, usually guarded, were raw with something unreadable, something aching. His hand cradled your cheek, his thumb sweeping gently along the edge of your jaw, like he was memorizing youâlike he couldnât believe you were real.
You blinked slowly, still hovering between sleep and wakefulness, your mind sluggish to catch up with the details that felt off. The way his hold was firmer, the way his breaths came unsteadily, as if he were battling something unseen. You made a soft sound of confusion, burrowing instinctively closer, seeking the comfort of his warmth, and for a moment, you swore he trembled.
âFinallyâŚâ The word was barely above a whisper, but the weight in it made your drowsiness wane just a little more. His fingers continued their slow, reverent path along your spine, his palm pressing lightly over the curve of your hip as if grounding himself as much as you.
âZayneâŚ?â Your voice was thick with sleep, uncertain, and you felt the way he tensed at the name. His breath stilled for just a second before resuming, slower this time, measured. Then, his lips ghosted over your foreheadâso gentle, so fleeting, you might have imagined it.
âNot quite.â His voice was deeper, rougher, laced with something unreadable. His fingers curled slightly against your skin, as if anchoring himself to this moment.Â
Your sluggish mind struggled to piece together the disconnect between the warmth enveloping you and the unease creeping in at the edges. Something about the way he held youâlike he was afraid to let go, like he was holding onto something impossibleâmade your heart stutter. His fingers traced another slow path along your back, and the touch was familiar, yet utterly foreign in its intensity.
You swallowed, trying to push through the fog of sleep. âThen⌠who?â The question barely made it past your lips, drowsiness still weighing down your voice. But the moment the words left you, his grip tightened ever so slightlyânot enough to hurt, just enough for you to feel it, for you to know that your presence wasnât something he was willing to let slip through his fingers.
His forehead pressed lightly against yours, his breath mingling with your own. âYou already know.â There was no hesitation in his words, only quiet certainty. And it was in that moment, with the slow realization settling deep into your bones, that you understood. The warmth that surrounded you, the way his hands mapped the shape of you like he was committing you to memory, the way his voice carried something almost fragileâit was him. It was Dawnbreaker.
A shiver ran through youânot from the cold, but from the sheer weight of the moment. After what had transpired between you and Zayne on the couch, neither of you had bothered with clothes, simply finding solace in each otherâs warmth as you eventually made your way to bed. Now, beneath the sheets, your body pressed against his, you could feel every steady rise and fall of his chest, every shift of his fingers against your skin. And yet, it was not Zayne who held you now. It was the other him, the one who had only ever existed in glimpses, in the cracks between nightmares and dreams.
You tensed instinctively, the awareness of your vulnerability sinking in, but then his hand shifted, gliding along your back in a slow, careful stroke. There was no urgency, no demandâonly reverence, a touch that felt more like a prayer than a possession. As if he were afraid you would vanish if he let go.
âYouâre trembling,â he murmured, his voice softer now, a careful contrast to the roughness it usually held. His lips brushed against your temple, lingering for just a breath. âAre you afraid of me?â The question was quiet, but beneath it, there was something raw. You didnât miss the way his fingers twitched, the way his grip faltered for just a second, as if bracing himself for an answer he didnât want to hear.
You swallowed, the remnants of sleep finally slipping away as you forced yourself to meet his gaze. Those green eyes, so achingly familiar yet unmistakably different, searched yours with a quiet desperation. He looked like a man caught in a dream he knew would end far too soon.
âI donât know,â you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. It wasnât fear, not exactly. It was the uncertainty, the quiet ache of knowing this moment would not lastâthat he did not belong here. And yet, neither did he feel like a stranger. His warmth was the same, his touch was the same. The way he held you, as if you were something precious, something fragile, was the same.
His lips parted, but he didnât speak right away. Instead, his thumb traced the curve of your cheek, down to your lips, his touch unbearably light. âI wouldnât blame you if you were,â he murmured, more to himself than to you. âI donât belong here. And yetâŚâ His breath hitched, his forehead pressing against yours. âFor the first time, I donât want to wake up.â
His fingers trailed down your jaw, lingering as if trying to commit every detail to memory. âFor so long, I only saw glimpses,â he said, voice raw. âFaint images of a world that wasnât mineâof a life I never had. At first, I thought they were nothing more than hallucinations, a cruel trick of exhaustion.â He let out a shaky breath. âBut then I started seeing you.â
Your throat tightened. You could feel the tension in his frame, the way his body seemed caught between relief and anguish. âZayne⌠he had nightmares,â you murmured, realization dawning. âBut for you⌠they were dreams, werenât they?â
A quiet, bitter chuckle escaped him. âDreams,â he echoed. âI suppose thatâs what they were.â His fingers pressed lightly into your waist, as if reminding himself that this was real. âIn my world, all Iâve known is ruin. Loneliness. I convinced myself that was all there would ever be. But then, through him, I saw something different. You. A love that wasnât meant for me. A life I could never claim.â His voice dropped lower, almost pained. âAnd yet, I longed for it anyway.â
His hands moved with a quiet desperation now, mapping the curve of your waist, the dip of your spine, as if afraid youâd vanish the moment he let go. His touch wasnât hesitant like Zayneâs, nor was it hurriedâit was aching, filled with a hunger that had nothing to do with desire and everything to do with yearning. With grief. With something that had been denied for far too long.
âIâve spent years chasing ghosts,â he murmured, his lips brushing against your temple, down to your cheek. âHolding nothing but empty air, waking up to a world thatâs already lost.â His forehead pressed against yours, his breath shuddering against your skin. âBut now, youâre here. Youâre real. And for the first time⌠I can touch you.â
He exhaled sharply, his fingers tightening as he pulled you closer, pressing every inch of his body against yours. âEven if itâs just for a moment,â he whispered, voice raw with something fragile and breaking, âlet me have this.â
Your throat tightened as you searched his face, traced the way his expression wavered between longing and restraint. He looked like Zayne, held you like Zayneâbut he wasnât. And yet, you couldnât bring yourself to push him away. Not when you knew how much he had suffered. Not when you knew this wasnât his fault. It was the world that had been cruel to him, not the other way around.
Your hesitation didnât go unnoticed. His gaze flickered, something softer settling behind his eyes, and he exhaled quietly. âYou donât have to say it,â he murmured. âI know.â His fingers ghosted over your cheek, lingering for just a second longer before pulling back. âYou love him. And even if I have his face, his voice⌠Iâm not him.â He smiled, but it didnât reach his eyes. âI would never want you to regret this.â
His thumb traced over your lower lip, slow, memorizing. âI wonât take whatâs not mine,â he admitted, his voice quieter now. âEven if I want toâGod, I want toâI wonât. Because in the end, youâd feel guilty. And thatâs the last thing Iâd ever want.â His hand finally fell away, curling into a loose fist against the sheets.Â
Your heart ached as you watched him. The way he held himself back, the way he swallowed down every yearning touch as if he had no right to itâit wasnât fair. Not to him. Not to you. You knew now that Zayne suffer under the weight of the nightmares, that the exhaustion in his eyes each time werenât because of work, it was because he woke from dreams that werenât his own. But while Zayne had been tormented, Dawnbreaker had been given dreams of you. A life that could never be his.
Your breath trembled as you lifted a hand, resting it against his chest, feeling the sharp inhale he took at the contact. He was so warm, so steady, yet you could feel the way he trembled beneath your touch. You had never seen Zayne this undone beforeâthis starved, this desperateâlast night showed a fraction of it. And yet, even now, he held back. He was waiting. For permission. For a sign. For something that would allow him to pretend, just for a moment, that this wasnât borrowed time.
You swallowed hard, your breath unsteady as he leaned in, close enough that his warmth ghosted over your skin. His hands trembled where they cupped your face, his fingers light, almost reverentâlike he wasnât sure if he was allowed to hold you like this. Like he was afraid youâd pull away.
And maybe you should have.
Because despite everything, despite the way he shared the same face, the same voice, the same hands that had held you a thousand times beforeâthis wasnât Zayne. Not the one who stood by your side, not the one who had spent years loving you in quiet, restrained touches. This was him, but not him. A reflection, a shadow shaped by a world that had given him nothing.
Your chest tightened.
You shouldnât be doing this.
But then his grip faltered, his breath hitching like he was losing the strength to hold himself together. His forehead nearly touched yours, his lips partedâbut he didnât move. Didnât dare to close the distance himself. Instead, his voice came, raw, broken, barely more than a whisper.
âPlease.â
The single word made something inside you crack.
He wasnât asking. He was begging.
Your fingers twitched at your sides, torn between pushing him away and pulling him closer. He wasnât taking, wasnât demandingâjust waiting, just holding on by a thread, as if this moment was all he had left.
And maybe it was.
So despite the hesitation curling in your stomach, despite the war waging in your mind, you let out a slow breath and reached for him. Your hands found his jaw, tentative, fingers brushing over skin that was both familiar and unfamiliar all at once. His breath stuttered at the touch, his eyes dark with something unreadable. Still, he didnât move. Didnât push.
So you gave him what he needed.
âKiss me,â you whispered. âOnly for this moment.â
The moment the words left your lips, something inside him shattered. A sharp, quiet inhaleâlike he hadnât expected you to say it, like he had spent lifetimes convincing himself he would never be allowed this.
And then he moved.
His lips crashed against yours, none of the careful restraint Zayne always held, none of the measured control. Dawnbreaker kissed you like a man starving, like he had been dying of thirst and you were the first drop of water to touch his tongue. His hands framed your face with a desperation that made your chest ache, fingers trembling as they threaded into your hair, holding you as if you might disappear the moment he let go.
And despite everything, despite the voice in your head whispering that this wasnât your Zayne, you kissed him back. Because for now, just for now, you could give him this.
It was different. Zayne kissed you like you were something precious, something fragile to be cherished. But thisâthis was unrestrained, aching, hungry. Dawnbreaker wasnât asking for permission anymore. He was taking what little he was allowed, memorizing the shape of you, the taste of you, as if trying to brand you into his very soul.
The heat of him pressed against you, unshielded and raw, sent a jolt of awareness through your haze-addled mind. Skin against skinânothing between you, nothing stopping him if he wanted to take more.
The thought should have made you pull away. Should have snapped you back to reality, reminded you of all the reasons why this was wrong. But you didnât move. You couldnât.
Because despite everything, despite the hesitation curling in your chest, despite the way your heart still beat for your Zayneâthis was still him. A part of him, at least. A part that had suffered, a part that had bled, a part that had spent his life reaching for you only to come up empty-handed.
And he was still reaching.
So you let him have this.
You let him press closer, let him steal this fleeting moment, knowing it was all he would ever have. But when his hands ghosted lower, tracing the curve of your waist with aching reverence, you exhaled softly and covered them with your own. A silent barrier. A quiet plea. Not too far.
He stilled at once. Trembling. But he didnât push, didnât argue. Just bowed his head, breath ragged, before whispering, âJust a little longer.â
His voice was raw, almost pleading, and it struck something deep within you. He wasnât asking for moreâwasnât trying to take anything that wasnât his to have. He just wanted this, this fleeting connection, this moment where he wasnât alone. And despite the turmoil twisting inside you, despite the way your heart ached with the weight of it all, you couldnât deny him that.
So you let your fingers trail up, threading through his hair, holding him close as his lips pressed desperately to yours once more. When he pulled back not long after, his breathing uneven, his forehead still resting against yours, he swallowed hard. âI want to be selfish,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. âI want to take everything. Just this once.â His fingers traced the outline of your cheek, his touch unbearably soft. âBut I wonât. Because even if I had you, it wouldnât be mine. And I could never do that to you.â
Your chest ached at his words, at the quiet resignation in his voice. He was laying himself bare before you, wantingâcravingâwhat he knew he could never truly have. And yet, he was holding himself back. For you. For Zayne. For something he would never claim as his own.
Your fingers curled around his wrist, gently guiding his hand away from your face, but you didnât let go. Instead, you held him there between you, grounding him in a way you werenât sure heâd ever been grounded before. âYou were never given a choice,â you murmured, the weight of everything settling over you like a heavy fog. âThisâeverything was never fair to you.â
His breath hitched, his grip tightening around your hand. âNo,â he admitted, his voice barely more than a breath. âBut thisâŚÂ you⌠for the first time, something feels real.â His lips brushed against your temple, lingering for just a moment before he exhaled shakily.Â
His lips found yours againâurgent, desperate, but never forceful. It was different from Zayneâs kisses, lacking the restraint that always held him back. Dawnbreaker kissed you like a man on borrowed time, like he was memorizing the shape of your lips, the warmth of your mouth, the way you trembled beneath his touch.
You let him, your fingers threading through his hair, anchoring him to you as much as you were grounding yourself in him. His hands roamed, not in demand but in reverence, mapping the lines of your back, your waist, the curve of your hips as if engraving you into his very being. His touch was searing, and yet, there was an underlying hesitationâlike he was afraid to break the moment, afraid to push too far.
The early morning stretched on in whispered breaths, in stolen touches and lingering kisses that spoke of longing and sorrow all at once. Dawnbreaker never asked for more, never let his hands stray past the boundary you silently set, but the way he held youâpressed against him, his forehead resting against yours, his hands trembling at the small of your backâspoke volumes of just how much he needed this, how much he needed you.
When dawn came, he unraveled like the last whisper of a dreamâfading into the light, leaving nothing but warmth against your lips and the ghost of a touch that was never truly his to keep. And in his place, your Zayne returned, drawn back to you like the tide to the shore, unaware at first that he had ever been gone.
The shift was subtleâa slow inhale, a furrow of his brow as consciousness took hold. His arms were still around you, his body still pressed close, but the desperation was gone, replaced by something softer, something familiar. Then, his breathing hitched. His hands tensed against your back, realization dawning like a weight settling into his chest. âHe was here,â he murmured, his voice quiet, laced with something close to sorrow.
You reached for him, fingers trembling slightly as they brushed against his cheek, grounding him in the present. You hesitated, the words catching in your throat, heavy with the weight of what they meant. But you couldnât keep this from himânot after everything.
âI⌠I let him kiss me.â The confession came softly, uncertain, but honest. You searched his face, bracing for somethingâanger, hurtâbut what you found instead was a quiet kind of sadness, an understanding that made your chest ache. His expression faltered, just for a moment, but his arms never wavered. If anything, he pulled you closer, as if reassuring himself that you were still here, still his.
Zayne swallowed, his grip tightening ever so slightly, not out of anger or jealousy, but something quieterâsomething deeper. His voice was low, steady, but you could hear the hesitation beneath it. âTell me more. What happened..?â
You hesitated again, not because you wanted to hide anything, but because you werenât sure how to put it into words. How could you explain the weight of it all? The longing, the sorrow, the way Dawnbreaker held you as if you were the last good thing in his world?
âHe just⌠needed to be close,â you admitted, searching his gaze for any sign of pain. âHe didnât push for anything more. He said he wouldnât, because he knew Iâd regret it.â Your fingers curled against his chest, grounding yourself in his warmth.Â
But he was desperate. He kissed me like he was memorizing me. Like I was something heâd never have again. You didnât say the words out loud, but they echoed in your mind, lingering like an imprint on your skin, like the ghost of his touch.
Zayneâs gaze flickered downward, lingering on your lipsâstill kiss-bruised, still tinged with the remnants of someone elseâs desperation. His fingers twitched at his sides, but he didnât pull away. He only exhaled, slow and measured, though you could see the weight pressing against his ribs, the quiet war waging behind his eyes.
âI understand,â he murmured, and you believed him. But understanding didnât make it easier. It didnât erase the conflict tightening his jaw, the way his breath hitched ever so slightly, like he was swallowing something heavy.
Your chest ached. You reached for him instinctively, fingertips brushing over his knuckles, silently asking him to let you in. âZayneâŚâ you started, hesitant, searching for the words that would ease the tension between you. âIââ
Zayne let out a quiet breath before a small, knowing smile curved his lipsâgentle, without resentment, without hesitation. He lifted a hand, brushing his thumb lightly over your knuckles, grounding both of you in the steady rhythm of his touch.
âI know,â he said softly, his voice steady, unwavering. âI knew youâd be kind to him. That youâd be good to him.â His eyes met yours, holding you there, filled with something deep and endless. âBecause thatâs who you are. Youâre everything good in this world.â
The weight in your chest tightened, not with guilt, but with something far heavierâsomething aching. You swallowed, searching his face, expecting to see a flicker of sorrow, but there was none. Just quiet understanding, just Zayne, always carrying so much more than he ever let on.
You exhaled softly, your fingers curling around his as you searched his face, hesitant but firm. âZayne,â you murmured, watching the way his eyes flickered at the sound of his name. âTell me how you feel.â
His grip on you didnât falter, but something in his expression shifted, something quiet and unspoken. You held his gaze, refusing to let him brush it aside like he always did. You whispered, âAfter everything last night⌠I donât want you to hold back with me. Not ever.â
âWhat do you want to know?â
You pursed your lip, âAre you⌠jealous?â
For a moment, he only stared at you, unreadable, like he was weighing whether or not to say what was truly on his mind. Then, after a long pause, he exhaled and looked awayânot in avoidance, but in thought. âAm I jealous?â he echoed, as if testing the words on his tongue. His lips twitched slightly, a breath of something close to a laugh, but it didnât quite reach his eyes. âNo.â
Zayne sighed, rubbing a slow hand down his face before finally meeting your gaze again. âIt would be unfair of me to be jealous of myself, wouldnât it?â His voice was quiet, edged with something you couldnât quite name. Not resentment, not bitternessâjust a deep, weary understanding.
His thumb brushed absentmindedly against your wrist, tracing slow, thoughtless circles. âIâve spent most of my life haunted by his memories, suffering through nightmares of a life I never lived. But thatâs not your burden to bear. It never should have been.â He inhaled sharply, his lips pressing into a thin line before he continued. âAnd the truth is⌠no matter how much I deny it, no matter how much I try to separate myself from himâheâs still me.â His grip tightened, firm but not desperate. âHeâs still Zayne.â
You swallowed hard at the weight of his words, at the quiet acceptance laced within them. He wasnât angry, wasnât resentful, but there was something raw in the way he looked at you, as if searching for an answer even he didnât know how to put into words.
Zayne exhaled slowly, his fingers lacing with yours, grounding himself in the warmth of your touch. âIn some way, it comforts me,â he admitted, his voice softer now, more introspective. âThat no matter who I amâwho I becomeâyouâll still love me.â His eyes flickered with something unreadable before settling into quiet certainty. âJust like you said last night.â
His thumb grazed your knuckles, an absentminded gesture, but you felt the weight behind it. âMaybe thatâs why I canât be jealous,â he said, his voice even, measured. âBecause I know you. I knew youâd be kind to him. That you wouldnât push him away, even when you knew it wasnât me.â His lips curved slightlyâjust barelyâbut the smile didnât quite reach his eyes. âBecause thatâs who you are.â
There was no bitterness in his tone, and yet, something unspoken lingered between you, heavy in the way his fingers tightened around yours for just a second before loosening again. His gaze flickered downward, thoughtful, conflicted.
Zayne parted his lips as if to say something but hesitated. His thumb stilled against your skin, his grip lax, but you could feel the restraint in it, the careful control. Then, finally, he spoke.
âIn short, Iâm not jealous.â
Sure.
A small smile tugged at your lips, and you nudged him lightly. âYou know⌠you can just admit that you were jealous,â you teased, your voice softer now, laced with warmth. âIâd understand if you were.â
Zayne huffed out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. âI told you, it wouldnât be fair to be jealous of myself,â he murmured, though the slight tilt of his lips betrayed him.
You arched a brow, fingers still tracing soothing patterns along his skin. âMhm. Sounds like something a jealous man would say.â
Zayne exhaled, shaking his head with a quiet chuckle. âHypothetically, if I admitted I was jealous over a kiss⌠and the fact that he got to hold you like thisâŚâ His fingers skimmed along your arm, deliberate and slow. âHow would you make it up to me?â
Your breath hitched, heat creeping up your neck at the implication. âZayneââ
He hummed, the sound deep and thoughtful. âJust a question,â he said, though the glint in his eyes told you he was enjoying your flustered state far too much.
Zayneâs lips found the curve of your jaw, warm and unhurried, trailing lower until they ghosted over your neck. The kisses were slow, deliberate, as if he were mapping the contours of your skin with nothing but his mouth. He lingered at the hollow of your throat, pressing a kiss there before moving to your shoulder, then up againânever rushing, never straying too far. Each press of his lips felt like an anchor, pulling you back to the present, back to him.
Where Dawnbreakerâs kisses had been desperate, memorizing, Zayneâs were steady, grounding. He wasnât takingâhe was claiming, piece by piece, kiss by kiss. Yet as the moments stretched, a realization slowly dawned on you. He had kissed nearly every inch of your skinâyour jaw, your neck, your collarboneâeverywhere except your lips.
Your brows furrowed slightly, the thought surfacing only as he dipped his head again, brushing his lips over your pulse. He wasnât hesitating. He wasnât teasing. He was deliberately avoiding them.
You pulled back just enough to meet his gaze, amusement flickering in your eyes. âAre you avoiding my lips on purpose?â you asked, tilting your head slightly.
Zayne didnât answer right away. Instead, he smirked, pressing another slow kiss just beneath your ear, his breath warm against your skin. âMaybe,â he murmured, his voice rich with amusement.
You huffed a small laugh, but the way he lingered there, his breath warm against your skin, made your heart stutter. âWhat, are you trying to make a point?â you mused, your fingers slipping into his hair, nails grazing lightly against his scalp.
Zayne hummed, a sound that sent a shiver down your spine. âYou let him kiss you,â he murmured, his lips brushing just below your jaw again. âSo I figured Iâd claim my own space.â His arms tightened around you, as if solidifying the truth that you were hereâwith him.
You exhaled softly, not missing the weight behind his words. He understood, accepted, but stillâthere was something territorial in the way he touched you now. Not demanding, never forceful, just⌠certain. And maybe that certainty made your pulse quicken more than anything else.
You tilted your head, mischief flickering in your eyes as you leaned in, aiming for his lips. âWell, technically,â you murmured, brushing close enough that your breath mixed with his, âit was still your lips that kissed me earlier.â
Zayne tensed, his grip on you firm but not stopping you. His eyes flickered with something unreadableâsomething torn between amusement and exasperation. âThatâs not how it works,â he muttered, though his voice was lower now, rougher.
You smiled against the corner of his mouth, deliberately testing his patience. âNo?â You moved just enough for your lips to ghost over his, teasing, waiting. âFeels like it to me.â
Zayne let out a quiet sigh, his hands tightening on your waist as if debating whether to indulge you or scold you. Instead, he dipped his head, brushing his lips along your jawline once moreâdeliberate, slow, avoiding your lips entirely.
You huffed, feigning offense. âYouâre really not going to kiss me?â
His mouth curved slightly against your skin, his breath warm as he murmured, âYouâll just have to make it up to me properly.â He pressed a lingering kiss just beneath your ear.
You grinned, tilting your head just enough to nudge his lips closer to your own. âOh? And how exactly am I supposed to do that?â you mused, deliberately playful. âBecause like I said, those were still your lips earlierâso shouldnât that mean weâre already even?â
Before he could react, you leaned in, stealing a soft kiss from his lipsâbrief but teasing, just enough to test him. You felt the way he stilled, his grip tightening ever so slightly, his breath hitching against your skin.
Zayne exhaled sharply, eyes narrowing as he pulled back just enough to look at you properly. âYouâre really pushing your luck this morning.â But the way his fingers flexed against your hips betrayed him, his restraint beginning to fray.
Instead of indulging you further, he shifted away, slipping out of bed with effortless ease. The sudden loss of warmth made you shiver, and before you could even protest, he was already on his feet, stretching.
Your irritation flared instantly. âSeriously?â You propped yourself up on your elbows, glaring at him. âYouâre just going to walk away after that?â
Zayne only chuckled, running a hand through his tousled hair. âYouâre the one playing games,â he mused, completely unbothered. And to make matters worseâor better, depending on how you saw itâhe made no effort to cover himself, walking toward the bathroom without a shred of shame. You groaned, torn between frustration and the undeniable heat rising to your cheeks.
Despite your annoyance, you didnât hesitate to follow him. If he wasnât going to give you the satisfaction of a proper response, then you werenât about to let him off the hook so easily. Stepping out of bed, you walked toward the bathroom without a shred of hesitationâcompletely bare, just as he was.
When you entered, Zayne was leaning over the sink, splashing cold water onto his face. Droplets clung to his skin, trailing down his neck and over his collarbones, disappearing along the lines of his toned chest. He didnât react immediately to your presence, but you noticed the slight pause in his movementsâthe way his shoulders tensed just for a second before he continued as if unaffected.
âYou left me alone in bed,â you remarked, leaning against the doorway. Your voice was light, teasing, but there was an underlying challenge in your gaze as you watched him. âThatâs unfair, donât you think?â
Zayne turned to you, his green eyes sharp, unreadableâuntil the corner of his mouth lifted, just slightly. âWhatâs unfair,â he said, voice smooth yet pointed, âis you saying it was still my lips that kissed you⌠when I didnât feel a damn thing.â
You blinked, stunned for a moment. Then, against all logic, you felt a surge of amusement bubble up inside you. He was actually jealous. And after all that talk about understanding, too.
Crossing your arms, you tilted your head, torn between exasperation and pride. âWow,â you mused, barely holding back a grin. âSo you are jealous.â
Zayne didnât dignify your words with a response. Instead, he turned smoothly, stepping toward the shower without so much as a glance in your direction. The sound of the water turning on filled the space, steam beginning to curl into the air as he ran a hand through his hair.
You narrowed your eyes. Oh, he was teasing you. You were sure of it. Walking around completely naked, acting unbothered, and now stepping into the shower like you werenât standing there, equally bare, right in front of him.
âReally?â you huffed, shifting your weight to one foot. He still didnât look at you, didnât acknowledge you. Just casually stepped under the stream of water, his muscles flexing slightly as the heat met his skin. You pursed your lips. Oh, so thatâs how he wanted to play it?
With deliberate steps, you crossed the bathroom, your bare feet barely making a sound against the cool tiles. Zayne still didnât turn, the water cascading over his shoulders, running in rivulets down the curve of his spine. His lack of acknowledgment only fueled your resolve.
The glass panel of the shower had been left slightly ajar, steam spilling out into the bathroom. With a quiet motion, you reached for it, sliding it shut behind you. A faint click echoed in the air, barely audible over the steady rush of water.
Zayne stilled. It was subtleâthe slight shift of his shoulders, the way his hands, previously brushing back his wet hair, slowed before falling to his sides. He exhaled, low and measured, before finally speaking. ââŚYouâre persistent.â
You tilted your head, a smirk tugging at your lips despite the warmth creeping up your neck. âYou still owe me a kiss,â you murmured, stepping closer, the water hitting your skin in a soothing cascade.
Zayne let out a slow breath, tilting his head slightly as if considering your words. His back remained turned to you, but you could see the way his fingers twitched at his sides, the way his shoulders tensedâlike he was already preparing a response, already trying to counter whatever mischief you had planned.
âI donât recall making that kind of promise,â he said at last, voice calm, even. But you knew better. You knew the flicker of restraint when you saw it.
Zayne exhaled slowly, finally turning to face you, and the shift in the air was immediate. His gaze was steady, unreadable, but there was something beneath the surfaceâsomething simmering. âYouâre the one whoâs supposed to make up for something,â he murmured, voice smooth yet laced with quiet intent.
Before you could counter, he moved. A step forward, then another, until your back met the cool tile, the contrast against your heated skin sending a shiver through you. The water cascaded down his shoulders, droplets clinging to his skin, but all you could focus on was himâon the way he loomed over you, on the weight of his presence, undeniable and consuming.
His hands settled on either side of you, palms pressed against the wall, effectively caging you in. Yet, there was no urgency in his movements, no rush. Just quiet deliberation. Just him watching you, waiting.
Zayneâs gaze flickered down, taking you in, his lips curling into something almost amused, almost knowing. He exhaled through his nose, shaking his head slightly. âLetâs leave it at this,â he murmured, his voice lower now, edged with something unreadable.
His fingers brushed against your waist, barely there, but enough to make you aware of the warmth radiating from him. âYou should be resting after⌠last night,â he added, the corner of his mouth tilting ever so slightlyâas if he knew exactly what he was implying, and exactly how you would react to it.
The teasing lilt in his voice sent heat rushing to your cheeks. You opened your mouth to protest, but the way his fingers traced a slow, featherlight path along your arm silenced you. He wasnât wrong. You were still sore from last night, and he damn well knew it.
You tilted your chin up, refusing to back down despite the way your body betrayed you, warmth curling low in your stomach at his words. âAre you really that mad about what I said?â you teased, your fingers skimming lightly over his chest, feeling the way his muscles tensed beneath your touch. âIâll make it up to you.â
Zayne exhaled sharply, his jaw tightening, but his hands didnât move away. Instead, his thumb ghosted along your hip, a silent warning. âYouâre really persistent,â he muttered, but there was no real bite to itâjust that careful restraint he always carried, the one that frayed at the edges when it came to you.
You leaned in, just enough to feel the warmth of his breath against your lips, your voice softer now. âMaybe,â you admitted, eyes searching his. âBut you still havenât told me how I should make it up to you.â
You felt his hands grasp the hollow curve of your waist, his fingers digging into your soft skin.
âYou can make it up to me,â he paused, as his lips gently pressed against the side of your ear, âBy letting me have a taste.â
One hand slid up to your side, calloused fingers skimming over the curve of your breasts before he roughly palmed the mound, squeezing and kneading the supple flesh. His other hand trailed down, over the flare of your hip, the dip of your navel, before his fingers brushed against your already slick folds. Teasing.
You could feel your face flushing, how were you already so wet when he just started touching you?
Zayneâs touch sent shivers racing through your body, your nerves alight with anticipation and need. You gasped as his long, slender finger parted your lower lips, stroking through your dripping slit. He circled your sensitive clit with maddening slowness, applying just the right amount of pressure to make your hips buck and your head to fall back against the tile with a soft thud.
âZ-ZayneâŚ!âÂ
âFuck, youâre so wet already.â Zayne groaned, his voice strained. âI can feel how much you want me, even afterâŚâ he cut himself off, jaw clenched tight. Then suddenly, you felt a finger plunge inside your hot, tight channel without warning, pumping in and out at a relentless pace.
You cried out, fingers scrabbling for purchase against the slick surface of the wall as Zayne pumped his finger inside you with intensity. Your inner walls clenched and fluttered around his invading digit, drawing him deeper as he stroked along your inner front wall, finding that perfect spot that made stars explode behind your eyelids.
âYes, p-please!â you keened, shameless in your pleasure as Zayne worked you closer and closer to the edge. The obscene sound of your arousal filled the steamy shower, mingling with your pants and the pattering of the water against the tile.
He added a second finger, and a third, stretching you wider, filling you fuller as he fucked you hard and fast with his hand. His thumb rubbed tight circles around your clit, pushing you ruthlessly towards your peak. You could feel it building, the coil of tension in your stomach winding tighter and tighter until it finally snapped.
âZ-Zayne!!â you screamed, his name echoing off the tiled walls as your orgasm crashed over you like a tidal wave. Your sex clenched and spasmed around his fingers, gushing juices that he continued to pump into you, extending your pleasure.
Zayne groaned, his own hips rocking into yours as he felt your release, his rigid cock throbbing against the side of your hips. He didnât stop, fingers still pumping into your fluttering sex, drawing out every aftershock until you slumped bonelessly against the wall, trembling and gasping for air.
Finally, he withdrew his fingers, bringing them up to his mouth, his lips wrapping around his slick digits as he sucked your essence with a low moan. His green eyes never left yours as he savored your taste, a wicked gleam in their depths.
âSweet.â he purred, âBut Iâm far from satisfied. That was just the startâŚâ
He leaned in close, lips brushing against the shell of your ear as he whispered, âBelieve me, I plan to take my time.â
With that promise, you had thought heâd finally kiss you, but instead he leans down to kiss your cheek softly. You pouted, âStill not going to kiss me?â
Zayne whispered, âBe patient.â
Okay, fine. You bit your lower lip, a whine bubbling at the back of your throat at his remark. He was still trying to prove a point.
Not letting you think of a reply, Zayneâs hands gripped your thighs, lifting you effortlessly as if you weighed nothing at all. He carried you out of the steaming shower, your damp bodies leaving a trail of water droplets on the cool tile floor. With a few strides, he reached the sink counter and set you down on the edge. The smooth marble pressed against your heated skin, a stark contrast that sent a shiver through you, goosebumps rising in its wake.
He stepped back for a moment, taking in the sight of you sprawled out before him, chest heaving and cheeks flushed. His eyes roamed your naked form hungrily, lingering on the juncture of your thighs where you glistened with arousal. He licked his lips, a predatory gleam in his gaze.Â
Zayne rarely looked at anything like thatâand the last time you saw that gaze, it had been directed at a particularly decadent dessert he had never tasted before.
âFuck, look at you.â Zayne rasped.
He stepped between your splayed legs, hands gripping your inner thighs and pushing them further apart, opening you completely to him. Leaning down, he brushed his lips along the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, teeth grazing and nipping a path upwards until he reached the apex of your thighs.
Zayne inhaled deeply, eyes fluttering closed as he breathed in your heady scent. âYou smell so divine, my love.â he growled before he dove forward, burying his face between your legs.
You cried out, âW-Wait! Iâm still sensitiveâZayne!â
He ignored your protests, his mouth closed over your sex, tongue delving between your slick folds to lap at your juices. Your back arching off, he groaned against you, the vibrations making your hips jerk and your head fall back.Â
âOh-â
You could feel his tongue plunging deep to fuck your clutching channel before pulling back to swirl around your clit. He sucked the sensitive bundle of nerves into his mouth, flicking the tip of his tongue against it rapidly until your thighs were shaking and your breath coming in harsh grasps.
âZayne!â you moaned, one hand fisting his damp hair, holding him against you as he licked and sucked. Your other hand braced against the mirror behind you.
He growled, the sound rumbling through you as he doubled his efforts, fingers joining his tongue as he pumped into you. Your heels dug into his back, urging him closer, silently begging for more.
As if sensing your eagerness, Zayne suddenly pulled away, leaving your quivering body aching for more of his touch. You whined, âWhat is it now? Are you going to leave me like this?â
Zayne chuckled, amused, âI thought you wanted to make it up to me?â
You glared at him, more on due to desparation, âYouâre just punishing me.â
âShh, love. Be patient alright?â
Before you could muster a reply, his large hands gripped your hips, easily lifting and spinning you around. You found yourself facing away from him, your back pressed against his broad, damp chest. His arms wrapped around your waist, pulling your body flush against his, trapping you against the edge of the sink.
His lips brushed your shoulder as he leaned down, breath hot against your skin. âIf youâre patient, Iâll finally kiss you alright?â he murmured, voice a low, teasing rumble.
Fuck. Youâre in this position because he wouldnât kiss you. And now, itâs not just a kiss you needed.
You could only nod before you felt Zayneâs hands grip your hips, fingers digging into the soft flesh as he rocked against you, his cockhead catching on your entrance with each pass. He did it slowly, maddeningly, drawing out the anticipation until you were squirming against him, trying to angle your hips to take him inside.Â
Zayne chuckled, as if he could feel your bodyâs reaction to just this.Â
âZayne, pleaseâŚâ you whimpered, hips rocking involuntarily, trying to take him in, to end this torment. But he was relentless, his grip on your hips tightening as he held you still, preventing you from taking control.Â
âPlease what, love?â Zayne purred, lips trailing on your nape. âPlease what, hmm?â
He punctuated his words with his thick shaft sliding along your soaked folds, coating itself in your arousal. The head caught on your entrance with each pass, and you could feel your walls clenching around nothing.
âStop teasing,â you whimpered, voice trembling with need. âI want you inside me, now.â
Zayne chuckled darkly, the sound sending shivers racing down your spine. âPatience, my love,â he murmured, nipping at your shoulder before soothing the sting with his tongue. âI want to savor this, to make this moment last.â
Zayneâs hands slid around to your front, one cupping your breast, thumb and forefinger pinching and rolling your nipple. The other hand delved between your thighs, fingers stroking through your slick heat to circle your clit.
âFuck, youâre dripping,â Zayne groaned, watching your face intently in the mirror. âSo wet and ready for meâŚâ
You flushed under the scrutiny of his gaze and the words escaping his mouth. This was the first time youâve ever heard him talk this way, it was a whiplash but it made your body feel hotter than ever.
He suddenly notched himself at your entrance, the broad head of his shaft pushing against your opening as he rolled his hips, applying just enough pressure to make you squirm. Your heart raced, chest heaving with anticipation as you waited for him to fill you completely.
âBeg for it,â Zayne demanded, voice a low, sensual growl. âC-Come onâŚâ
His fingers pinched your clit hard, sending a jolt of pleasure straight to your core. Your hips jerked, trying to take him inside, but he held you firm, denying you the satisfaction.
âSay it,â Zayne insisted, eyes blazing with lust and dark promise. âTell me how badly you need me, love.â
You knew he wouldnât give in until you did, until you voiced your desperate need. So with a shaky breath, you met his gaze in the mirror, your reflection showing a woman consumed by lust and desire.Â
âPlease, Zayne,â you whimpered, voice breaking on a moan as he rolled his hips, pushing just a bit harder against your entrance. âI need you so badly. Just you. Only you.â
Zayneâs eyes darkened with lust at your pleading words, a soft grin spreading across his face. âThatâs my good girl,â he purred, voice dripping with approval and dark promise. âSo desperate for my cock, arenât you?â
Without warning, he surged forward, the thick head of his shaft pushing past your slick entrance to stretch you around his considerable girth. You gasped, back arching as you felt every rigid inch of him slowly sinking into your tight heat.
âYouâre so tight,â Zayne groaned, fingers digging into your hips hard enough to bruise as he took his time, making you feel every throbbing pulse and vein of his cock as he filled you.
Your walls stretched and fluttered around him, clenching down on the hard length splitting you open. It was almost too much, the delicious burn of the stretch, the way he made you feel every single inch of his thick, pulsing shaft.
Zayne paused, buried to the hilt inside you, letting you adjust to the size and heat of him. His pelvis pressed against yours, his heavy balls nestled against your clit. You could feel the weight and solidity of him.
âBreathe, love,â Zayne murmured, one hand sliding up your side to cup the underside of your breast, thumb and forefinger pinching and rolling your nipple. âTake a deep breath and feel every inch of me stretching youâŚ"
You did as he commanded, inhaling deeply and feeling the way your lungs expanded, the way your stomach pushed out slightly. At the same time, your inner walls clenched around him, rippling along his shaft and making him groan.
âFuck, just like that,â Zayne hissed, head falling forward as he savored the feel of your silky heat gripping him like a vice. âSqueeze my c-cock, Show me how much you love having me inside you.â
He rolled his hips lazily, grinding against you and stirring up your insides. Your arousal gushed around his shaft, easing the way as he began to move. Zayne started slow, pulling out until just the tip remained inside you, before surging back in with a powerful thrust. He set a steady rhythm, each thrust deliberate and measured, letting you feel the drag of his thick cock along your sensitive walls.
His hand slid from your breast to your throat, long fingers curling around your jaw to tilt your head back. He angled your chin up to look at him in the mirror as he fucked you, his eyes blazing into yours.
âThatâs it, love. Watch as I claim this sweet cunt, watch as I make it mine,â Zayne murmured, his voice a low, sensual growl. âI want you to see the way your face changes, the way your eyes glaze over with pleasure as I fill you again and again.â
You couldnât look away, captivated by the erotic sight of his reflection as he rolled his hips, driving his thick shaft in and out of your clutching heat. Your face was flushed, lips parted around soft moans and gasps, your eyes heavy-lidded and dark with lust.
Zayne tightened his grip on your throat, not enough to hurt, but enough to feel the pressure. His other hand gripped your hip hard enough to leave finger-shaped bruises as he increased his pace, his thrusts growing harder, deeper.
The obscene sound of flesh slapping against flesh filled the bathroom, mingling with your wanton cries and Zayneâs harsh pants. His hips began to piston faster, each thrust driving his thick cock deeper into your eager body.Â
âFuck, right there,â you gasped, eyes widening as your reflection showed a woman lost in ecstasy, mouth open in a silent scream of rapture. âDonât stop, please-!â
He leaned in close, lips brushing your ear. âStop? Oh no, love. Iâm just getting started with you.â
To emphasize his point, he punctuated his words with a sharp thrust, grinding his pelvis hard against yours. His hand on your throat slid down to wrap around the curve of your waist, pulling you tighter against him.
He changed his angle slightly which allowed him to fuck you harder, the wet slap of skin against skin echoing through the bathroom as he claimed you with ruthless intensity.
Zayneâs breath grew ragged against your neck, his chest heaving with exertion as he rutted into you. âOnly I can do this t-to you. Not anyone else. Not him.â
His words, rough and gravelly with lust, sent shivers racing down your spine. You could only whimper in response. Tears of pleasure stung your eyes as you stared at your reflection, seeing a woman lost in the throes of passion.
Zayneâs hand slid from your hips to your clit, long fingers finding the sensitive nub and rubbing hard circles around it. Sparks of raw ecstasy shot through you, your hips jerking and grinding back against his in desperate need.
âCome on, love,â Zayne purred darkly, his voice a sinful temptation in your ear. âCome on. Come with me.â
His words, combined with the relentless pounding of his shaft and the merciless stroking of your clit, pushed you closer and closer to the edge. Your heart raced, pounding wildly against your rib cage as you felt the coil inside you winding tighter and tighter.
âPlease,â you keened, no longer caring how desperate you sounded. âPlease, I needâŚI needâŚâ
You couldnât even finish the sentence, your brain short-circuiting as the pleasure crested and crashed over you like a tidal wave. Your sex clenched and spasmed around Zayneâs pistoning shaft, gripping him like a silken vice as you came undone.
âY-Yes!â Zayne roared, his own release slamming into him as your fluttering walls milked his cock. âYes, love. J-Just like that.â
His hips jack hammered into yours as he emptied himself inside you, his hot seed flooding your womb in long, thick spurts. You could feel the liquid heat of it painting your insides.
Zayneâs grip on your hips tightened reflexively as he came, he ground his pelvis against yours, stirring his release inside your spasming depths and drawing out your pleasure until you were a boneless, trembling mess.
Finally, with a shudder and a groan, he stilled, his softening cock still nestled deep inside you. He rested his forehead against your shoulder, his breath hot and ragged against your neck as he tried to regain his composure.
As the last tremors of pleasure faded, Zayne let out a shaky breath, his grip on you firm but reverent. Slowly, carefully, he shifted, guiding you with him until you were facing him. Before you could fully catch your breath, his hands cupped your face, fingers threading into your hair as he finallyâfinallyâcaptured your lips with his.
It wasnât rushed, wasnât punishing or teasing. It was deep, unhurried, filled with a tenderness that made your chest ache. He kissed you as if he were making up for every second he had denied you, as if he were branding you with the truth neither of you could denyâthis, here, was real.
When he pulled back, his forehead rested against yours, breath still uneven. His thumb brushed over your cheek, his hazel eyes softer now, no longer shadowed with restraint.
âAre you okay, love?â Zayne asked abruptly, concern etched into his features as he pulled back slightly to look at you. His gaze searched yours intently, checking for any sign of discomfort or pain, his touch never straying farâas if making sure you were still his to hold.
His hands gentled on your body, one cupping your cheek tenderly as he brushed sweat-dampened hair away from your face. The other hand slid from your hip to your waist.
Zayneâs expression softened with worry as he noticed the slight wince you couldnât quite hide, the subtle flinch at his touch. âIâm sorry, love. I got a little carried away there,â he murmured, thumb stroking your cheekbone. âDid I hurt you? I didnât mean to be so rough.â
He eased back further, carefully withdrawing his softening cock from your tender sex. A trickle of his release seeped out after him, and he grimaced, his jaw clenching, looking annoyed with himself for losing control.
âI should have been more careful,â Zayne muttered, helping you off the counter and pulling you into his arms, cradling you against his chest. âThe last thing I want is to hurt you. Iâm sorry.â
He pressed a soft kiss to your forehead, then another to your temple, his lips lingering there for a long moment. His hands slid down to the small of your back, holding you close as if he never wanted to let you go.
âIâm sorry, love,â Zayne repeated softly, nuzzling into your hair. âI got lost in my emotions. Please tell me youâre alright. If I hurt youâŚâ
He trailed off, his body tensing with tension and self-reproach.Â
You looked up at Zayne with a soft, tired smile, your eyes shining with warmth and affection. âIâm fine, really,â you murmured, your voice hoarse from your passionate cries. âYou didnât hurt me, not at all. It was intense, yes, but in the best possible way.â
To emphasize your point, you wrapped your arms around his neck, pressing your body flush against his. Despite the slight soreness between your thighs, you relished the feeling of his strong arms around you, holding you close and safe.
Zayneâs shoulders relaxed a fraction at your reassurance, but he still looked uncertain. âYouâre sure?â he asked, hazel eyes searching yours intently. âI know I was rough, and I donât want to ever take things too far and actually cause you pain.â
With that, he scooped you up into his arms, cradling you against his chest as he carried you out of the bathroom. You looped your arms around his neck, relaxing into his hold as he navigated the short distance to the bedroom.
Zayne gently laid you down on the plush mattress, the cool sheets a refreshing contrast to the heat of your skin. A few moments later, he went back to the bathroom and returned with a warm, damp washcloth, tenderly pressing the cloth to your sensitive folds, cleansing the evidence of your passionate lovemaking, taking his time as he cleaned you before he settled beside you.
You lay tangled together, Zayne resting his head against your chest, listening to the quiet, steady rhythm of your heartbeat. His arms remained wrapped around you, his fingers brushing absently against your skin, but he hadnât spoken in a while. You could feel the tension in himânot rigid, not overwhelming, but present, lingering beneath the silence.
Your fingers traced slow, absentminded patterns against his back, grounding yourself in the warmth of him, in the quiet intimacy of this moment. But even as the weight of the morning settled between you, you knew there was something on his mind.
âZayne,â you murmured, tilting your head slightly, urging him to continue. âJust say it.â
He let out a slow breath, his fingers finally shifting, brushing over your wrist before stilling again. âEven though I said I understood,â he admitted, voice quieter now, more uncertain. âWould it change anything if I told you⌠I donât want to share you?â
His words were soft but firm, and you felt the way his grip on you tightenedâjust slightly, not possessive, but honest. Vulnerable.
You hesitated, watching him carefully. âDo you meanâŚâ You swallowed. âAre you talking about him taking control again?â
His gaze flickered up, meeting yours before shifting lower, lingering on where your bodies remained close, skin against skin. âI meant⌠this,â he said, voice low. âWhat we shared.â
Realization settled deep in your chest. The kissâhe could accept that, though not without a simmering jealousy that had bled into every touch, every rough, desperate movement between you. He could understand why you had let Dawnbreakerhave that much, why you couldnât push him away. But anything moreâŚ
âI donât like the idea of sharing you like this,â Zayne murmured, his voice careful, almost reluctant. âEven if heâs me, even if I understand why you let him kiss youâŚâ His thumb traced slow, thoughtful circles against your back, grounding himself as much as you. âI trust you. But I need to say it.â
You exhaled softly, your fingers sliding up to his jaw, tilting his face just slightly so you could see him clearly. âYouâre allowed to want that, you know.â
He let out a quiet breath, shaking his head. âI didnât want to sound⌠possessive.â
A wry, almost self-deprecating smile ghosted over his lips before he added, âBut I let it show in other ways instead. I was too roughâIâm sorry.â
âYou werenât too rough, itâs okay.â A small smile tugged at your lips, something soft, something only meant for him. âAnd besides, youâre my⌠boyfriend now. Of course, youâre allowed to feel jealous.â
Even if it was with himself from an alternate universe.
His shoulders relaxed slightly, but the tension in his eyes remained, lingering just beneath the surface. Maybe it wouldnât fadeânot yet. Because no matter how much he tried to reason with himself, no matter how well he understood, one truth remained unchangedâZayne was yours, and you were his.
And DawnbreakerâŚ
Despite everything, despite the desperation in him, he had known. Even in the fleeting moment he had been given, he had stopped himself. He had known that if he took more, if he crossed that line, it would leave you guilty, and it would hurt Zayne. He had understoodâbecause no matter how different they were, they were still the same man.
You swallowed against the lump in your throat, your heart aching in a way you couldnât quite explain. It was ironic, wasnât it? That despite the lives that separated them, despite everything they had endured, they still understood each other in a way no one else could. And you, caught between them, understood too.
You reached for Zayneâs hand, threading your fingers through his, squeezing gently. âI wouldnât,â you told him, your voice steady. âI wouldnât let it go that far, Zayne.â
His gaze searched yours, looking for any trace of hesitation. But there was none. You meant it. Whatever had passed between you and Dawnbreaker had been fleeting, it was never meant to cross the line that would truly hurt him.
Still, guilt pressed at your chest, and your grip on his hand tightened. âIâm sorry,â you murmured, barely above a whisper. âFor kissing him.â
Zayne exhaled, his lips parting slightly before he shook his head. âItâs alright,â he said, voice steady but quiet. âI understand.â There was something almost wistful in the way he said it, as if he had already made peace with it long before this moment. But at the end of the day, no matter how much he accepted it, no matter how rational he tried to be, he was still overcome by his emotions. And you couldnât fault him for that.
You pressed your palm against his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your touch. âI love you,â you whispered, letting the words carry all the certainty you felt. âNo matter what.â
His breath hitched, but when he exhaled, it was softer, lighter. He leaned in, pressing his forehead against yours. âI love you,â he murmured.Â
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