#zathena

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So your mom says you can't be reached, which sounds like bullshit to me, and you won't pick up, so I guess I'll just say it here. I don't even know if you'll listen to this or just delete it when you realize it's mine- wouldn't be the first time you do that. Sorry, that was a bit dark, wasn't it? I just, I don't know how to react to this. Half of me tells me it's your body and your choice and I had no business in it, but then the other half reminds me it was my child too, so maybe I did have a little to do with it. And you didn't even tell me after, you let me find out from people gossiping on the hallway as I walked by. Do you know why I turned around and asked them what they were saying? Because I overheard one of them saying I was worse than my dad, letting him go before he was even born. You're my best friend, A, the only person I could trust in this shitty town, and you didn't even let me be there for you while you went through it. Like the fucking martyr you can be sometimes, you just went and did it all on your own, and I can just hear what you're thinking, okay? I can hear you saying you did it for me, so I wouldn't get hurt, but that's bullshit, because you still should have told me. I would have understood. I wouldn't want to have a kid with a fuck up like me either, but- but you should have said something. Because I know I'm shit at so many things, but I would never be like my dad. Never. I would have loved our kid, if you'd given me the chance. And I would have been there for you if you really didn't want to have him. [pause] There's no point in this message, just- just ignore it, okay? It's done, and... I think we're done, too. Yeah. [call ends abruptly]

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