#queenbrps

Send ☎ for an emotional voice mail,

So your mom says you can't be reached, which sounds like bullshit to me, and you won't pick up, so I guess I'll just say it here. I don't even know if you'll listen to this or just delete it when you realize it's mine- wouldn't be the first time you do that. Sorry, that was a bit dark, wasn't it? I just, I don't know how to react to this. Half of me tells me it's your body and your choice and I had no business in it, but then the other half reminds me it was my child too, so maybe I did have a little to do with it. And you didn't even tell me after, you let me find out from people gossiping on the hallway as I walked by. Do you know why I turned around and asked them what they were saying? Because I overheard one of them saying I was worse than my dad, letting him go before he was even born. You're my best friend, A, the only person I could trust in this shitty town, and you didn't even let me be there for you while you went through it. Like the fucking martyr you can be sometimes, you just went and did it all on your own, and I can just hear what you're thinking, okay? I can hear you saying you did it for me, so I wouldn't get hurt, but that's bullshit, because you still should have told me. I would have understood. I wouldn't want to have a kid with a fuck up like me either, but- but you should have said something. Because I know I'm shit at so many things, but I would never be like my dad. Never. I would have loved our kid, if you'd given me the chance. And I would have been there for you if you really didn't want to have him. [pause] There's no point in this message, just- just ignore it, okay? It's done, and... I think we're done, too. Yeah. [call ends abruptly]

Send ✘ for a text that should have been sent

URL: okay | good | great | amazing | flawless | SEX 

ICON: okay | good | great | amazing | flawless | SEX

THEME: okay | good | great | amazing | flawless | SEX

SIDEBAR: okay | good | great | amazing | flawless | SEX

POSTS: okay | good | great | amazing | flawless | SEX

OVERALL: okay | good | great | amazing | flawless | SEX

RATE: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | SEX

FOLLOWING: No | Yes | I Am Now | Forever | and ever

I’M CRYING OMFG? WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?

Kian’s response died in his throat.  He swallowed once.  Twice.  His mind had gone absolutely blank and it took several times opening and closing his mouth again to even piece together that Max would probably want a reply, at least of some sort.  He had slung all sorts of insults in the direction of the rich heir, accusations without merit and scrutiny of the other’s intentions even though he knew they were nothing but good.  He had thought that Maddox would take offense to being called a snob, to being compared to his other clients.  He would have thought that Maddox would have hated being called "just another client" but no, it was the self-deprecating statement leaving Kian's lips that had Maddox's rage halting to reveal something so raw and vulnerable that Kian was absolutely speechless.  All he had said was that he didn't deserve Maddox and he especially didn't deserve his love, that he never would.  It was the truth.  So why was the taller boy looking so defeated and pained?

"I don't deserve you, Maddox," Kian whispered, not about to lie to the young man he could feel himself falling for a little more every night.  He would never be worthy of the other's affection.  Not only did Maddox possess monetary wealth but he also had a wealth of character, something so morally good about him that, at times, Kian wondered why he'd even picked up the prostitute in the first place.  They wouldn't be in this situation if he hadn't had his heart broken and decided sex was the answer; he wouldn't be fighting off feelings for someone he'd never deserve if Maddox hadn't just resisted the temptation of a bit of sin to make up for feeling wronged.  "Max...," he tried to formulate his thoughts into words, to get the other to just believe him because god, was it true, but when he met Maddox's eyes again he found them looking cold, hollow, broken.  What Kian had said really had cut the other deeply and given how he felt in his heart, he couldn't just leave him looking like that.