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I caused all of this, how could I let her go?! If I did, I would be the biggest jerk. I hurt two woman important to me. I had to clean up the mess I made. I told Renato that for the next few days they will be without me. I packed a few shirts in my backpack and hopped on the next plane. My heart was beating fast through the whole flight. What if she hates me now, she lost her job because of me. I felt so bad for what I did to Gwen but while sitting in the plane I realised I loved Y/n. There was no way I could ever let her go. Not now. Not when I have found incredible woman that wants me for who I am and not for who people know me to be.

In three super long hours I landed in Chicago. I have black spots of how did I found her house but in a few trips with the taxi I was at her front door. I had flowers in my hands and my heart on a silver platter for her. I knew I can’t give her more than distant relationship. I had to travel so much with the boys. I knew it would be hard but that wasn’t gonna stop me. I knocked on her door and waited for her to come.

“What the fuck are doing here?” she asked me when she opened the door.

“I wanted to talk to you.” I said.

“And you flew all the way to here just to talk to me? You didn’t have to do that. I have no intentions of talking to you. You lied to me. You didn’t even tell me you had a girlfriend. Then you said we will stop and we didn’t and then she came and everyone knew. I got fired and you left me be eaten by the social medias. How do you expect me now to talk to you? Go fuck yourself!” to be honest I expected this. She had all the rights to be that mad at me.

“Look, I know you are mad at me. You have all the rights to be. I messed up. It’s all my fault and I realize that and that I am an idiot. I have nothing else except me and all the disadvantages that come with me to offer. But I have fallen for you. I am in love with you. I don’t want to hide it anymore. I am here to try. I will not let you go just like that. I am not like others. I will not go away the first time you tell me to do it. Because I saw that you also have feelings for me. I don’t know what are they but you make me happy. I will give it all up for you, all the fame, all the attention, eve my music just to be with you. But if you tell me to go home now and leave you alone, I would respect that and I will step away.” I said in one breath. I saw her face changed. I hope my little speech would work in my part.

And obviously it did it’s magic because the next thing I knew she was kissing me with the same passion she kissed me the first time. The flowers fell off my hand as we went inside. Her face was wet from tears. My hands knew what to do on themselves. 

I picked her up and carried her to the couch. I sat down as she was on top of me. Her body was moving so slowly that it drove me nuts. Our clothes were only making it harder. So very soon they were on the floor of her living room. We had desire for each other. I was kissing her like there was no tomorrow. Her body was trembling at my touch. In one easy motion I was inside her, doing what she loved the most, pleasing her. I knew how much she liked kissing her neck, so I paid special attention to it. My hands were gently squeezing her ass. Her moans in my ear were the music I loved the most. My moans were muted into the kisses. She was so wet, I was so hard, we always know how that one ends. I didn’t realize how I got so close to coming. 

Her moans became uncontrolable, which meant she was almost there too. I felt her get tighter and tighter until she came on top of me whispering my name again and again. That part was always my favorite, to hear her mutter my name. I came hard inside her not even bothering to pull out.

“That was amazing baby. I want to call you baby from now on.” I said with a soft smile.