#yyeeeaaahhh

like yeah everything is such shit right now and my life totally sucks but i have people here that im connected to and i have contact with them and they'll help me forget and get past it and just like yeah yeah i feel shitty and a little sad but im feeling, you know? im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling im feeling something everything and like one day it'll be even better than i can imagine it right now and i have an idea of that future and next year ill be with you guys and i wont be here and tomorrow i get to see you again and it's christmas and it's new years and it's like half way i got so little time left being a depressed 17 year old who cuts herself to sleep so i might as well embrace it idk you know? im a minor and a virgin and there's so much ahead of me and every year i get a little more defined a little more the person i want to be and i have cool projects coming up and im gonna make a zine and i want to inspire people like they inspire me and im not perfect and ive made a shit ton of mistakes so far but im coming around and as long as the friends ive made let me dick around with them some more ill be fine. And im learning to move forward and im getting better at it, one day doesn't effect another- not to me. I'm an individual and i dont want to miss my youth when im old, if i get old, i want to look back at this bullshit and think damn did i grow.