Holidays are over
January 3, 2017
I'm done with the count down because my kids broke my laptop and I haven't been able to blog. So Christmas eve was good except of course when we were done with all the houses. I feel I had to babysit my husband which just drives me crazy. Then New Years eve I worked (Thank god) because of course my husband drank. I found an almost empty bottle of Fireball whiskey under the sink when I was clean before the new years and then I found out he bought two small bottles of Honey whiskey and Jonny Walker blue for New Years PLUS Beer. I was really truly upset but he didn't drink all the liquor or the beer so I was impressed, but now that I think about it I'm sure there was plenty of booze at the party he went to. Then like a dumb ass I believe he’s controlling his booze and we went to wegmans and he bought a 6 pk and I bought one. Well tonight he drank way to much tho he swears he didn't and he swore he wasn't drunk tonight but I know he was. I'm so annoyed with everything and want this to be over. He’s a liar and a manipulator and an addict. We had to reschedule marriage counseling because I had to work but honestly I cant wait until marriage counseling on Monday because that's when I'm going to tell him I'm done.  I'm done with the lies and hurtful words and I'm tired of the way he treats my kids. Tonight he wouldn't let our five year old lay with him because I'm pissed at him. Well that's fucked up. The poor kids are going to be so fucked up. I want to start them on counseling because their father is a jerk. I'm tired of fighting in front of the kids and in general. I just am done, I wrote a whole list as to why I'm done with him and here it is::
1.Im not happy with him 2. I don't trust him 3. I'm scared of him and his temper. 4. I feel he will never love me 5. I feel we are more like roommates and better off as friends 6. I feel we will never see past the past 7. I feel we both want different things in life and we are in different stages of our lives. 8. I don't feel respected 9. I feel you only care about yourself 10. Fighting around the kids is ruining our children 11. He is afraid of you and She  feels neglected. 12. I feel I have fallin out of love. 13. I feel you will never try to make things better because your addiction and selfishness. 14. You have excuses for everything
this is such a long list and if this was someone else writing this I would tell them to leave this person. I need to follow my own advice. Â
