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Cherishing the good moments everyone had, or given me.

Frustrated at how much neglect I gave myself, and my happiness.

And it’s been some time of trying to really find myself , my happiness and peace.

I feel like it’s one for the books. I think enough was said for closure. Enough was said to end an era.

If heaven had a phone line I’d probably call you everyday.

Five months til a year.

And a lifetime without you.

Babygirl I have dreams about you still being here.

I don’t know what’s going on with my reproductive system but I think I have to accept this may be it for me.

I just feel stuck. I have so much on my plate and things to take care of. I CANT DO IT ALL. Respectfully, to everyone who’s been blowin my phone up… now is not the time. My mental capacity feels maxed out.

Normal people my age. Go to work .

not me. 60% of the last three days I’ve been running around. not even for myself but helping people out and what trips me out the most… is all that I feel like … is used. I can’t depend on no one else to help me out.. I cant even ask anyone for help… y’all fake.