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"Parker? idonnevenknoher2"

With every shake I feel more like a mistake; 

Contorted pain to match a broken brain.

With every night where I can't win the fight;

A shame and guilt, like a torch thrown on the life we built.

And when the pain is better left unspoken,

I'm still alive; can't keep my eyes open.

And when I try it feels like I'm choking;

Twisting inside, I hear my voice croaking.

So now the silence fills the space in between 

The Burden and her dumb fucking dream.

A hauntingly calm reminder;

You can only save yourself,

Your friends will never call. 

So when you climb up to your highest peak:

(Jump)

Embrace the mother-fucking fall.

I can't fucking believe this.

I thought I was only losing myself.

I thought they would always be here.

This is the rest of my life;

Stupid fucking stoic silence.

Fuck.

With every breath I feel more like a burden;

Chaotic amalgama of symptom progression.

And when I try and think that I can prevail 

I'm reminded my body's always destined to fail.

Some days things just won’t go smoothly. With Parkinson’s, one mistake will lead to another and another and……….You get the picture. Sunday was one of those days. I have been having a rough time since I broke my wrist last month. Everything seems to be getting harder. I feel wobbley when I go for a walk or try to exercise. As a result, I am not getting enough exercise and I feel it. Mentally and…