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This is such a difficult question because they're both yearners in their own ways. You know that phenomenon of who fell first/who fell harder? I'm a staunch proponent of C fell first, H fell harder but like by 0.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001 degrees because they've both fallen sooooo fucking hard yall🥹🥹🥹

I'll say the the reason I'm giving H the edge here is because the way his whole body lights up and almost literally starts buzzing with excitement whenever he's around C in a way C is able to mask slightly better lol

And I just think energy-wise, C is able to fully unplug and exist in the now at all times which allows him to be present in a way H's always-running mind doesn't allow him to. I think although he's not anxious, his unmedicated ADHD leads him to get overwhelmed and which leads him to overworry at times about where C stands with him. This doesn't make much logical sense because C has been in love with him literally since the first moment their eyes met on that Zoom call and there's nothing in the world that would stop him from loving him with his entire being for the rest of eternity but H's isn't a logical preoccupation, it's more... not sure how to put this, hm. I think he's feeling so frustrated about the way things are rn to the point of worrying that C is upset with him instead of with The Situation. Which leads him to yearn harder for what they're not able to have right now. Does that make sense?