Like, Yandoli doesn't really talk to her siblings anymore after joining up with Lordakai on the Bane. She writes them, almost every time she's at port, but almost never gets a response back.
The one time she did get a response it was when she threatened to drag Lordakai down there to make her siblings actually meet their father. They... were less than welcoming of the idea. Five years of knowing he has long grown cubs, and Lordakai's yet to meet three of them.
But after Eri is hatched and after a version of the story of how Lordakai and Toi'uhla met and fell for each other has soread, Lordakai's cubs and their mother finally agree to meet him. On the terms that he comes as Erifolda Lordakai, not Captain Lordakai, and that he bring Eri too.
He agrees and has his response posted before he's even thought to ask Toi'uhla if he can take their cub to a distant island to meet their siblings who have never shown interest in letting Lordakai be part of their family before they knew about Eri.
(Toi'uhla does end up agreeing on the one condition ze goes too. And that confused Lordakai for a minute bc he never stopped for a second to consider Toi'uhla might not be there. Ze's the love of his life and this is the first proper gathering of his whole family, no way would it have ever been complete without zer)
And they go, Lordakai, Toi'uhla, Eri, Yandoli, and Laz (who insists she's just tagging along to keep them out of trouble and not at all because she nearly cried when her best friend and captain invited her because her kinda sorta girlfriend was too nervous to do it herself) and like, it's awkward at first, the five of them sitting across from Yandoli's mother and siblings in the same house they grew up in.
But Lordakai's long since become a master at negotiating through bad air like this. He apologizes for being absent all these years, for not doing more for them once he knew they existed, for never even thinking to check back in on Cailoan after there one week together. He promises to do better, to do whatever he can to make them having to be burdened by his reputation worth it. and then he apologizes again for bring the mood down so low.
he's meeting his kids for the first time! this should be a celebration! and besides he's brought gifts. Mostly trinkets based on what Yandoli has told him about them, and which he notes that if they don't like their gift, he made certain they'd all sell well if they'd rather have the money.
And speaking of money, he hands Cailoan a necklace box with the most god awful, Gaudy and Expensive looking necklace she's every seen. He calls it a down payment on the back log of all the child support payments he Definitely owes her.
After that, the airs a lot looser, there's joking and laughter and Lordakai finds an easy place in the banter like he does everywhere he goes. but it just feels so right to see him there in the dimly lit room with one arm over his son's shoulder and the other holding a happily cooing and trilling Eri against his chest
Laz and Toi'uhla are trying to keep out of the way of things, but they both have the same feeling.
This could have been Lordakai's life. There's another lifetime where someone stopped him on the streets of Joi years and years ago to let him know he had cubs still young enough to not resent his past absence. Where he never became captain of the bane and retired from the life to find sounder work to support them. To be a better father for them.
And there's some selfish thing in both of them thats so glad this family is as broken as it is.
That perfect lifetime where Lordakai is an honorable man is the same lifetime where Toi'uhla marries for convenience and spends zer whole life bored and itching for a more ze doesn't know exists.
Laz would have probably found her way into the grave by now without a captain who could temper her aggression and without a partner who makes keeping herself in check worth it.
but Lordakai ropes them into the conversation, trying to get Them to tell the story of that one time Laz tried to kill and eat Toi'uhla.
Toi'uhla very indignantly points out that it was Definitely Not "One Time" that she did that and that soft discomfort passes like a breeze as that perfect lifetime is forgotten and they begin to properly enjoy this particular moment of this one.











